i still love you so much

When I entered Costco, my eyes were dazzled by the dazzling array of brands. Then I realized that I didn’t know anything about children’s products. Fortunately, Victor was very cute, and I was handsome enough. With the help of enthusiastic housewives, the shopping was completed fairly quickly.

Carrying a few shopping bags in one hand and holding his son in the other, I feel like I am already a winner in life.Victor was sensible and didn’t want me to hug him. He was not tall enough to get in and out of the car, so he obediently opened his arms and asked me to help. I felt distressed and liked him at the same time. I fastened his seat belt and kissed him on the cheek. The little guy was at a loss for what to do shyly, it seemed that he was not used to close contact, and my heart tugged again.

As soon as the key was inserted into the lock, the door opened, "Welcome home", Ke Luo smiled and took the bag in my hand.

I froze for a moment, and so did Victor.

I can't help but think back to our couple life for more than half a year. Ke Luo likes to create this kind of warm family life atmosphere. Good morning kisses and greetings when we get home from work. People have a simple breakfast, and countless if they revived in my heart, they were snuffed out one by one by myself.

Victor was stunned for a while and then happily replied "thank you uncle". I seemed to be stunned for a while, and when I came back to my senses, I found that Ke Luo had completely disregarded himself as an outsider, and was diligently shuttling between the kitchen and bathroom, sorting out the things he bought. He can even skillfully use the washing machine to wash Vicklow’s new clothes. It seems that while we were shopping, he not only packed his own things, but also completely figured out the layout of the apartment.

I picked up the remaining bag of goods, and after tidying up, I led Victor around the apartment, and then sat on the sofa to rest, cultivating the father-son relationship.

After packing up, Ke Luo sat next to Victor, with a natural look of "I'm part of it", and chatted with Victor about some light-hearted children's topics. Victor knew that the reason for Ke Luo's injury was to Protecting us, being very close to Ke Luo, responding to Ke Luo's words seriously, and caring about my opinion, from time to time, he would unconsciously look at me for advice or affirmation with his eyes, and soon turned into three people Talking and laughing happily, I never thought that this kind of atmosphere would appear in my apartment, it should be exclusive to Xie Yanshunian's warm and small family.

After I noticed this, I felt uncomfortable, so I went to the bathroom with an excuse. There was an extra set of Ke Luo’s toiletries on the shelf of the sink. To the opposite corner, and mine and Victor's are next to each other, and I feel childish when I'm done.

This day was too long for Victor. I carefully took a bath for Victor according to the precautions I searched on the Internet, changed him into new clothes that were washed and dried, were fragrant and soft, and stumbled to the fairy tales of the Grimm. I read a bedtime story, but before I read the ending, Victor had already fallen asleep holding my hand.I pulled the quilt and looked at him for a long time. After Victor fell asleep and let go of my hand, I got up and faced Ke Luo who had been watching at the door.

I closed the door and didn't speak to Ke Luo for a while. This was the first time in three years that we were under the same roof.

"Mo Yan, you will be a good father."

"...Let me borrow your good words."

Another moment of silence.

"Mo Yan, my hand, taking a shower, uh, it's inconvenient—"

I don't want to be in this scene at all. I don't want to see that handsome and sunny boy cautiously in front of me for fear of touching a minefield. He should always be the crush I want but is not qualified for. He is superior and treats me badly. Fake rhetoric, gentle and polite but alienated.Don't always make me look forward to it, thinking that he is already fascinated by me.

"Mo Yan?"

I came to my senses.

Following Ke Luo into the bathroom, Ke Luo had already prepared everything, put a pool of water in the bathtub, and put towels and the like aside.I tried it, and the water was already a little cold. I drained most of it and added hot water. When I turned around, Ke Luo had already taken off his clothes, with a bath towel around his waist loosely, and it was inconvenient to use force with one hand. His body was stained with water. A thin layer of sweat, no matter the lines or textures are still so beautiful.

I wrapped the wound layer by layer with plastic wrap, and then put on a waterproof bag. I thought it was almost done. After thinking about it, I wrapped it with medical tape a few more times.

Let Ke Luo sit on a chair, put his injured hand on the sink, wash his hair first, and dry him.Next, it was the back. I secretly took a breath, covered his back with a towel, and scrubbed it gently.Ke Luo was probably a little nervous, his back was tense, and I was actually not calm, but I always wanted to look calm, like him, I relaxed a little, took a breath, and quickly finished washing him, After helping him into the bathtub, I said, "The rest, you can do it yourself." I felt relieved, put the towel on his shoulders, and was about to leave.

Ke Luo pulled me back, "Mo Yan."

I was caught off guard and pulled down to sit on the edge of the bathtub.

As soon as I lowered my head, I met Ke Luo's eyes. I have always liked his eyes, they are very good-looking, and the eyes are a plus point, they are clear and direct to people's hearts.I deeply remember the first time I looked at him, under the mottled and unknown light of the bar, his eyes looked so clean, looking at you with a little childishness, as if you were his whole world, amazing flattered.

Now, his beautiful eyes were red and tired.

"...Uncle LEE..." Ke Luo's voice was a little choked up.

It's funny, I'm a man who is nearly half a century old, but I just say "Uncle LEE". All kinds of memories from the past come back one after another. I think that when he called me Uncle Lee for the first time, I returned to China in embarrassment and joined Lufeng. No one would have guessed When we met again, except for being a little annoyed, he did enough of the politeness and alienation of the juniors, hinting that I should not cross the line. Only then did I know that what I thought was love at first sight and quick lovelorn, to the other party, was just a one-night stand that needed to be covered up.

I won't be stuck in the past, stop looking at him, "let go of me."

Ke Luo changed his injured right hand to stop me, I couldn't move anymore, Ke Luo pulled my shoulder and stared into my eyes, "Uncle Lee, let's go home, shall we?"

"Go home? This is my home."

Ke Luo became excited, "No, no, our home is in S City, next door to Xie Yan's house, the house we set up together, there are magazines you like to read on the sofa, you always like to lean on your pillow and read magazines, by the way When I get home, we'll go to Xie Yan's house for dinner, if you don't like it, we can move out and go to the neighborhood or city you like!"

The more Ke Luo spoke, the more excited he became. Finally, I couldn't bear to be dragged into the water by him and hit his leg. Ke Luo didn't feel any pain, so he wrapped his arms around me and forced me to look at him, "If you want to stay In the United States, then I will move here, yes, I did not do well enough, and even made a mistake from the beginning! It is my fault! But Mo Yan, how can you be so cruel, you don’t even give me a chance to correct !"

Tears fell from his beautiful eyes, "Lin Jing can come to see you and live in your house. I can only watch you from a distance, but I can't be discovered by you. Lin Jing said that you don't even go to bars and nightclubs, and you don't If you have a boyfriend again, why don't you want to see me again!" I felt that those tears were like a strong corrosive solution, dripping on the skin, it actually felt very painful.

"Even if I'm the sugar that fell to the ground, I'll wash it. If it doesn't work, I'll cut off the outer layer, crush it, melt it into syrup, and then make it into sugar. Do you want it?"

Ke Luo stared at me stubbornly, "Mo Yan, can you have it?"

My eyes are also a little blurry.

It's not that I'm not moved, no, I'm very moved.

But I am not reconciled, I have escaped for so long, do I have to jump back into the pit again?I have loved him for so long, and I have been injured many times, why should this little bastard cry and I will surrender!

I tried my best to mock, "You couldn't even let me keep the photos you took secretly, but now you are generous and want to give me your whole body?"

"That's because you approached the little boy in the finance department in front of me. I'm not happy, and I'm sitting opposite you. Why do you need a photo?"

It never occurred to me that the reason was, "You don't have to make up something like that to trick me."

"I never lie, Mo Yan, you know that."

I know, he's such a nice guy, I've always known that.

I left the United States because I was angry at first, but later, I really wanted to let go.

So I don't want to know these things, just like I hypnotized myself to forget all the words that Keluo confessed that night.

In this way, I can convince myself that if he doesn't love me, I can live in the United States with peace of mind and live alone without any extravagant hopes or bothering him.He will meet better people, everything will go smoothly, and he will grow old. After a long time, he will forget my name, forget that there is an awkward old man who makes a lot of fools in pursuit of him, and forget that short cohabitation life.

I never knew that I was such a generous Holy Mother, and I'm not Shu Nian, no, even Shu Nian would not give Xie Yan up.

But three years later, this boy, with tears in his eyes and almost begging, said he wanted me to go home with him.

The author has something to say: I am ashamed to stop updating for so long

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