i still love you so much

Harvey was feeling a little depressed today, which is the most impossible thing in the world. I leaned over and asked, "What's the matter with you?" answer me.

"One of my girlfriends is getting married." I was speechless, this super big stallion.

"That must be a special one."

Harvey raised his eyebrows, "I'm just a little emotional about the proposition of love. Salinger once wrote, 'Some people think love is sex, it's marriage, it's a six o'clock kiss in the morning, it's a bunch of children, maybe it's true , Miss Lester. But you know what I think? I think love is about touching and then holding back.'”

I couldn't grasp his point, so I rolled my eyes, "So? What TV series do you think you're filming? If you really couldn't bear it, you'd have snatched it back, so why pretend to be deep."

Harvey pretended to be discovered by you, "Actually, it's just my little assistant who caused me trouble again. Now that we've come to this point, LEE, what type do you like?"

I smiled, "Nothing special."

"Comeon" Harvey couldn't see how gossipy his own expression was, "I've been so frank with you."

That's also called confession?I'm ashamed of him even by the standards of a lawyer.

I pretended to be thinking, fell silent for a moment, and smiled wryly, "I only hope that the person I love, all his emotions are for me, and I can't see other people in my eyes."

Harvey immediately apologized, "Sorry, I didn't mean to offend."

I turned my face and couldn't help laughing three times. Harvey realized that he had been fooled, and he knew from his expression that he must have remembered my hatred in his heart again.

I went back to my office and started working. When I was sorting out the files, I came across the little easter egg that the assistant lady put on my desk. It turned out that Easter was coming. I suddenly realized that I had been back in the United States for more than a year.

Before that, it was White Valentine’s Day, which has gradually become popular among young people in recent years. The young people in the law firm all have excess hormones and the air is restless. Arrived a few chocolates, but far less than Harvey and the little assistant duo, the big stallion took the little stallion to swagger from February to March under the hateful eyes of the men in the law firm, which deeply worried me The law firm may have its first internal criminal case.

March 3, which the young people in the law firm were looking forward to, finally came. The two of them didn't return a piece of chocolate, which broke the glass hearts of many girls (and maybe teenagers). My assistant was uncharacteristically happy, and I I asked curiously, but in her answer, I can understand each word, but I can't understand the meaning of them together.The original words are as follows: "Oh, alive, alive, this kind of scum is scum, but it feels so good that only the other party is different! I couldn't hold on to the fact that the official didn't give out sugar, oh, alive~~~" Then it changed back in a second Workplace OL, "Mr. LEE, this is your itinerary for this afternoon. I have already confirmed the time with the other company, and the driver will wait for you downstairs on time." I could only silently nod my head to show that I understood, and then sighed in my heart that women are such a mystery creature.

Busy until late at night, I finish the takeaway in the office, and I rarely have the mood to walk back to the apartment.

The streets are full of traffic, couples come and go in pairs, occasionally you can see a few couples of the same sex, shopping malls take advantage of the opportunity to promote, and noisy love songs are everywhere.In the hustle and bustle, a homeless man on the street hugged his guitar and sang "while my guitar gently weeps" (when my guitar gently weeps) which was incompatible with the happy atmosphere. He played the creator George's own version, "I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping I see love sleeping in your eyes While my guitar gently weeps and my guitar is weeping softly..." I pulled out a banknote and put it in his hat, the white back of the photo paper in the outer layer of the wallet was dazzling, and I tightened my shirt Jacket, I finally admit that I made a wrong decision, this is not the day when lovelorn people can come out and walk around.

I quickened my pace back to the apartment, stood on the steps in front of the door looking for the keys, and suddenly caught sight of a beautiful cardboard box that looked like a gift box out of the corner of my eye. I was about to check it out, but I was hugged into a familiar embrace.

"Mo Yan, I found you..."

His voice was a little hoarse, and he could feel the stubble when he brushed my side face. I warned with all my heart, "Let me go, Ke Luo." Ke Luo didn't move at all, still hugging me tightly, even It's getting tighter.I was afraid that I would waver. Once a person starts to age, it becomes easier and easier to compromise. I started to struggle hard, but it was completely useless, and I couldn't break free.

Since force is useless, I simply gave up. Anyway, he can't do anything to me, and communicated with words instead, "Ke Luo, what do you want? I said I don't want to see you again."

Ke Luo smiled strangely, "Mo Yan, you are duplicity again, do you really miss me? Mo Yan is so heartless, he will leave as soon as he says, and he doesn't miss me at all. I want to come to you every day, but I can't, Uncle Lu Said to give you some time, now nine months have passed, have you thought about it? Do you really want me? I love you, Mo Yan, how can you not want me? You won’t want me right wrong?"

I don't want to talk to him about this, "Ke Luo, let go, or I'll call security."

Ke Luo ignored my request, "Mo Yan, you haven't answered my question yet."

I also laughed, "Ke Luo, don't think it's any good for you to pretend to be crazy. I'm not Shu Nian. Forget about this kind of trick. As I said, don't waste your time."

Ke Luo's breathing became tense, and finally he was no longer in that weird state. Hearing the choking in his throat made me feel sad, but I couldn't do anything, and I couldn't do anything.

"As expected of Mo Yan, there is no way to pretend to be pitiful. It turns out that Mo Yan is so cruel."

Ke Luo forcefully hugged me and sat down, "Mo Yan, Mo Yan, don't move, just listen to me."

"Oh, I don't even know where to start. I apologize that you don't want to hear it anymore, so let's start from the beginning. Mo Yan, the first time I met Shu Nian was at a celebrity reception. I am not a child born out of wedlock, mother. I committed suicide shortly after giving birth. I grew up in an orphanage. After I was admitted to the Ke family, everyone regarded me as a bastard who robbed property. Naturally, I didn’t know any etiquette, and no one taught me. Take me as a joke. Shu Nian was the first person to talk to me properly, not to mention, he was also from an orphanage. At that time, I only felt very kind, but I realized later that I fell in love with him at that time. It was him Let me realize that it turns out that what I like is a man."

"On my birthday, I confessed to Shu Nian, but he rejected me. Then... I fucked him."

"I was really an asshole at the time. In fact, Shu Nian's life was very difficult at that time. Because of me, Xie Yan beat him up several times. But the worse he was, the more I wanted to take care of him, and the more clingy I was He, the worse Xie Yan treats him. Shu Nian is very kind to me. He said that he gave me all his feelings except love. I used to resent him at that time. The better he treated me, the more I let go. I couldn't do it, but he refused to accept me. I realized later that it was Shu Nian who had been accommodating me. He had suffered a lot from the Ke family and Xie Yan for me. If it wasn't for me, there might be a relationship between him and Xie Yan. There will be fewer twists and turns. I can't repay my guilt, I can't repay the harm I did to him, because Xie Yan is enough for him, and I can give him everything I have, but he doesn't want anything."

"I spent three years in guilt and unrequited love. Until I met you... You know everything after that."

He took a deep breath and continued, "Actually, I know you like me, you lost your composure too obviously, I am very happy that you like me, but I still liked Shu Nian at that time, or I thought I liked Shu Nian, So I watched you lose your composure and watched you get hurt, but I didn't say anything. I was afraid of hurting your self-esteem, and I was afraid that you would be angry with me. I couldn't help provoking you, but I couldn't respond to you. Later you found out I don’t know what to do after I found out about Shu Nian, kidnapped Shu Nian, and quietly donated bone marrow to him. You are having a hard time, and I am also having a hard time. Probably when you left City S, I realized that I too I like you, but I can't tell when it started. I'm panic, you start to appear in my heart more than Shu Nian, but I'm used to liking Shu Nian, I never thought of accepting it Someone else."

"But I'm jealous of Lin Jing being close to you, and I'm jealous of Lu Yu and Shao Yan. I can't help having sex with you after drinking, but I'm disgusted by you. You messed up my head. But I still didn't say anything , This is the thing I regret the most in my life. You don’t chase after me anymore, you don’t want my concern anymore, you don’t even mind Shao Yan seducing me, I thought at that time that you really fell in love with him, I have no chance."

"Later, something happened to you. You don't know how scared I am. You didn't let Shu Nian tell me the news. I didn't know until I saw the news rebroadcast. I rushed to S City, but you deliberately hid. If it wasn't just a coincidence Met, did you not let me see you? I thought you really didn’t like me anymore, I beat Shao Yan for you, we kissed, and then you wanted to shave your face. Only then did I understand that you still Love me, but you love so painfully that you even want to change your proudest face, I think you probably hate me too. Besides, you plan to match me and Shu Nian afterwards, I secretly told you Feelings, if you can't guess, I won't say it at that time, because you seem to be hurt all over, I don't know how to love you, my only experience is a big failure, I'm afraid to hurt you again Hurt, I don't think I'm capable enough to love you."

"We are together, and your unusually shy behavior is the best compliment to me."

"Then, you were injured again, and I made a mistake again. I know that you were waiting for my explanation that day in the ward, but I never dared to say it. I wished to be happy that you and Shu Nian got along harmoniously, thinking that you I would want to know the news about Shu Nian first, but I should understand that no matter how much you care about Shu Nian, that will not be the first sentence you want to hear from me. I failed to make you feel at ease. I took Countless regrets returned to T City, but Lin Jing pointed at me and asked me to break up with you. I didn't bother arguing with him at the time. I thought I could make you feel at ease with actions, but I didn't even do it well. After hearing Lin Jing After what I said, I called you to question you. But I ignored why I would choose to blame you when my lover and friends who are close to relatives may have misunderstood. Because, I don’t want you to be with me because of me. Your only relative has a suspicion, I don't want you to misunderstand him, but forget how much I hurt your heart by the unintentional distrust I showed in my words, since that day, you have never shown anything in front of me Dissatisfied and sad. I hate myself for not realizing that I don't deserve to be called your lover."

"Actually, you are used to living by yourself, just like you like Chinese food but don't take the initiative to eat it, it's not me, you wouldn't choose to live so close to Shu Nian. You don't put forward your opinions any more, just follow my arrangement , when I thought everything was going well, the real communication between us became less and less, or we had no real communication from the beginning to the end. At first, you used a romantic mask to deal with my innocence, and later, You use obedience to accommodate me to pretend to be a house-like love.

"I can't help but repent, I didn't love you with my heart."

"That assistant, his background and personality reminded me of Shu Nian. Both Shu Nian and I had a rough start in life, so I wanted to help him, but it was definitely not that I had any intentions for him. The confession later , I did not realize that he had feelings of admiration for me because I was busy, his confession reminded me of me back then, so I didn't refuse hard but declined."

"But I figured it out, you're not angry with these things. From the moment I let Shu Nian influence my decision, you actually sentenced me to death in your heart. Coupled with the previous accumulation, you are finally tired to the point of dying." give up."

"It's ridiculous. I thought I could keep you, and that our relationship had always been smooth."

"Mo Yan, I hate my former self because he made me lose you."

"I don't expect you to forgive me now, Mo Yan, I just ask you to give me another chance. I know you are tired of waiting for me countless times. This time, if I chase you, it doesn't matter how long you want , I still have most of my life to pay you, I will love you well and not make you sad."

"Mo Yan, I love you."

"I swear to the stars and the earth, you are my only love in this life, Ke Luo."

The author has something to say: I cried for three hours in this chapter of labor code!Who said I don't love official assignments!

☆. Summoned Beast: Lin Jing