Yu Liangmu

That night, after You Liangmu left with his luggage, the apartment changed hands completely.

No, in fact, You Liangmu is not the owner of this family, although he once thought so, that he and Tang Yunqian lived here together, so this is their home, but Tang Yunqian never seemed to admit this.

Tang Yunqian sat in the living room without speaking for two hours, and he didn't respond to Gu Zhihan's words, falling into an unprecedented state.

The back view of You Liangmu when he left repeatedly appeared in his mind, the door that was closed silently, his heart seemed to be pierced by some sharp thing, and some kind of regret and guilt was a little bit in his body Zoom in a little.

Is this really what you want?

——He asked himself this way, but he didn't even know his heart.

Tang Yunqian took out the wine and drank it. When he saw the bottle of wine opened by You Liangmu in his hand, he remembered that You Liangmu had drunkenly held the bottle and asked him about Gu Zhihan. He pointed to the photo frame and asked him if he liked Gu Zhihan. It's been a long time.

He suddenly felt that he couldn't drink it, so he put the bottle back in the wine cabinet and replaced it with another bottle.

He wanted to convince himself that he had done nothing wrong, and wanted to tell himself that this choice was right, and that was the only solution he wanted in his heart.However, when he inadvertently tilted his head and looked at Gu Zhihan who was touching his shoulder...

He found that he was not very happy either.

So, how to be satisfied?

On the night after You Liangmu left, Gu Zhihan said he wanted to live in this house, and he aimed at the former residence of Tang Yungan and You Liangmu, just like a snake that wanted to invade other people's lairs.

And he also knew that Tang Yunqian would not reject him, because it had been like this since he was a child, otherwise, Tang Yunqian would not have driven that extra man away for him.

Tang Yunqian looked at Gu Zhihan smiling at him, but couldn't laugh along with him. Obviously, when he laughed at You Liangmu before, he would open up his heart and smile along with his thoughts.

He began to feel regret-like emotions uncontrollably.

He clearly knew that he should share the bed with Gu Zhihan, but when Gu Zhihan was lying next to him, he didn't touch him. He inexplicably thought of the word "same bed with different dreams", and also inexplicably thought of how You Liangmu was sleeping. pose.

The faint scent lingering on the tip of his nose was not familiar to him. It should have been the faint scent of the man he was used to. It would always make him feel at ease and comfortable after countless tired nights at work, and then he would fall asleep peacefully.

It seems a bit cold tonight. Where will that man live? For the sake of dignity, he rejected all his placement and compensation. Can he really find a home by relying on his frail self?What should I do if I meet a bad guy?What do you do when you are sad alone?Being a stray dog?

Tang Yunqian thought a lot, but nothing about Gu Zhihan.

Gu Zhihan took the initiative to straddle him, leaned over and kissed his face, panting while undressing, rubbed his neck eagerly, and called his name intimately.

Tang Yunqian didn't feel anything at all, what he heard seemed to be that person's voice instead, "Brother Gan", "Brother Gan", when he came back to his senses, he had already pushed Gu Zhihan away.

Gu Zhihan looked at this man who had always said that he loved him in surprise, and his eyes were suddenly moist with light, as if he had been humiliated. Apart from being unbelievable, he also felt unwilling and incomprehensible.

"why?"

"Feel sorry."

Tang Yunqian sat up and covered the forehead where the nerves were throbbing.

In fact, he himself did not understand, why did such a thing happen?Maybe there is no reason, it's just that I reacted like that at the moment, without thinking.

Gu Zhihan sat by the bed for a while, and suddenly came over again, determined to make a second attempt.

Tang Yunqian still evaded the lips that came close on his own initiative. At this moment, he was not yearning, nor did he have any joy of dreams coming true. He just refused subconsciously, and another person appeared repeatedly in his heart.

"Zhihan, I'm sorry."

Gu Zhihan saw the flash of repulsion on Tang Yunqian's face in astonishment, and Tang Yunqian himself might not have noticed this tiny ray of emotion.

"Tang Yunqian, how could you..."

"Sorry," seemed to be the only words left in his mouth.

The man still maintained his gentlemanly demeanor, he picked up the clothes on the ground and put them on Gu Zhihan, and then took him to another room, telling him to rest as soon as possible and not stay up late.

Gu Zhihan refused to sleep, grabbed him, hugged him and said, "Do you not like me anymore?"

Tang Yunqian was silent.

Gu Zhihan is a smart person, he seemed to have the answer, and asked again through gritted teeth: "Are you in love with him?"

Tang Yunqian was taken aback suddenly, as if this question suddenly shattered something.

He was speechless, looking at the man in front of him who wanted to keep him.

He used to think that You Liangmu looks like Gu Zhihan, but now he thinks that Gu Zhihan looks like You Liangmu, there seems to be no difference between the two, but in fact...

The difference is so big that Tang Yunqian realized in an instant that his heart seemed to have changed a long time ago.

"Go to sleep," he finally pushed Gu Zhihan's hand away.

After that, it didn't take much time for Tang Yunqian to make another decision. This time, there was no need for the previous conflicts and entanglements. He completely proposed to Gu Zhihan to separate with a much more determined attitude than when he separated from You Liangmu. .

It has nothing to do with initiative, it's just what drives him to do it, that's all.

The days returned to the state of two years ago again, Tang Yunqian was alone again, coming and going around him, and he was still the only one left in a trance.

Many places have been vacated at home, and a lot of men's time has been vacated. Life seems to have changed, but it seems to have remained the same.

For capitalists who value reality more, there is no material loss, and life can go on as usual, but the warmth and softness in the heart that has been used to for a long time, as well as the comfortable company, all suddenly disappeared.

Tang Yunqian considers himself a proper person and is used to controlling everything smoothly. In the following days, he still controls the rhythm of work and life very well and steadily.

Only occasionally, when a person is at home alone, there will be a little melancholy in my heart.

Until this little bit of sadness accumulated more and more, piled up into a tower like sand, and increased every day, every moment when Tang Yunqian went home and turned on the light, the moment he realized that the person had gone...all in increase.

What went wrong?

Tang Yunqian had always trusted his own mind, but now he couldn't give an accurate answer that would allow him to stop this situation. Instead, his useless heart was tossing him.

What about sanity?

Where is sanity?

People are not easy to believe in evil.

Tang Yunqian tried to prove that he could continue to live a normal life. He maintained everything so hard that he could not overturn, make no mistakes, and keep everything in order.

But life was against him, making him miss that gentle man at night, thinking about it over and over without sleeping, occupying his dreams to think about it, until later, he even started thinking about it during the day.

That man is obviously very ordinary, even to the point of being inconspicuous, but he can still make him, who has seen countless beautiful people, never forget him. Tang Yunqian feels that he is really...

unusual.

One day, Assistant Feng mentioned something to him as if he had no intention of chatting, "Mr. Tang, the guys in the planning department ordered takeaway today. I went to get a document, and I happened to see Mr. You."

The pen in Tang Yunqian's hand tilted abruptly, scratching the fragile paper.

After about two months, Assistant Feng chatted with his boss again "inadvertently", "I was driving by a friend's neighborhood yesterday, and I happened to see Mr. You. During the recent heavy rain, the takeaway guy A lot, haha."

"Yeah." After a long while, Tang Yunqian said again in a low voice, "I told him not to ride an electric bike in the rain, but he didn't listen. I was angry with him about this before, and he obviously agreed to me... ..."

Assistant Feng saw it and sighed silently.I don't know whether I feel sorry for his boss, or feel worthless for Mr. You who has been gone for a long time.

Looking at the pouring rain and thick dark clouds outside the window, Tang Yunqian said to himself, "If I fall again...it's really worrying."

Time passed so numbly, day after day, until half a month later, Tang Yunqian took the initiative to chat with Feng Gang for a few words.

"Feng Zhu, have you recently..." The man asked with a stick in his throat, "Did you meet that person by chance?"

Assistant Feng: "?"

After reacting for a few seconds, the bright-eyed Assistant Feng immediately understood what his boss meant, and quickly added, "Uh, maybe, maybe I will meet again by chance in two days, I will try my best. If I do meet , I will tell Mr. Tang about his recent situation."

Soon, Feng Gang reported to Tang Yunqian the recent situation of You Liangmu he had investigated, including how You Liangmu was living in poverty, he was embarrassed by customers when delivering food, and his uncle went to the fruit stand to cause trouble...

That man's life was really a mess.

"He's having...a bad time."

Mr. Tang gave these five-word conclusions.

I suffered from insomnia for a long time that night. I turned on the humidifier I bought for You Liangmu in the room, turned on the light, and saw the "Camel Xiangzi" on the bedside. Pull back and forth.

It's worrying, but also worrying.

It's been almost a year, and I'm really abnormal.

A man like Tang Yunqian who is decisive in both thinking and action rarely makes himself regret, because in his concept, he never admits that any decision he made was a failure, which is equivalent to a self-slap in the face shame.

Except, separate from You Liangmu.

Tang Yunqian gradually began to admit during the long mental entanglement that he did make a mistake, no, it was a mistake, a huge mistake.

He mistakenly thought that his feelings for You Liangmu were just an illusion, a copy of the original feelings, and that his giving to You Liangmu was just a kind of charity, but a love for Gu Zhihan. A kind of transfer that cannot be done later.

He thought that the person he liked at first came back, and the person who replaced him should go away.

He thought such logic was normal.

But the facts have proved that no matter how smart and rational people are, there will be times when they are stupid. Even a big man who can do everything well, his life has long been unbalanced because of this change.

But at this time, Assistant Feng told him again that You Liangmu's life was getting worse. His grandmother was hospitalized because of a serious illness, which made You Liangmu's already difficult financial situation even worse.

At the moment when Tang Yunqian heard about it, a thought similar to that of Shuguang sinfully sprouted——

You Liangmu needs money, and he needs You Liangmu.like before.

Then how do we go back to the past?Take what you need again?Tang Yunqian thought, this should be a good thing for You Liangmu and him, and it should be a matter of mutual benefit and win-win.

Although, when he thought that You Liangmu would return to him only for money, he felt very lost and disappointed.

The man began to sink his heart and think about what to do?Do you want to lower your posture to apologize and redeem?Admit your mistakes in front of that humble man?Put down your dignity to ask for forgiveness from the other party?

But the arrogance in Tang Yungan's bones didn't allow him to do this. Regret in his heart was tantamount to admitting failure, and begging for forgiveness was tantamount to abandoning his self-esteem.

The proud big man refuses to let go of his posture.

Especially for such a small person.

In such entanglement day after day, Tang Yunqian lived more and more like an ascetic walking alone in the thorn forest, and his life was seriously unbalanced.

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