After dressing like a fool, I'll be fine with the villain

Perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, the word "kindness" should be insulated from Gu Guannan. This word can be used to describe anyone, but it certainly does not include Gu Guannan.But Shen Zhibei felt that there was no one more suitable for this term than him.

He imagined himself as Gu Guannan more than once, to experience everything he had experienced.I also thought that if it was me, I might be able to use a more appropriate method than Gu Guannan to solve all this, at least while completing revenge, my reputation would not become so disgraceful as it is today.

But he didn't realize until today that he overestimated himself and completely misunderstood Gu Guannan.He thought that if he was the one who had really experienced all this, he would never be as calm as Gu Guannan.He may have been crazy long ago, he will be more vengeful than him, and will take revenge on them at all costs, even if the price is to destroy himself.

Probably because even Gu Guannan himself never thought that the word "kindness" could be associated with himself. When Shen Zhibei told him seriously that he was actually kind, his expression froze obviously, and he didn't know why. Because Shen Zhibei's words are still because of his action of hugging himself.

He closed his eyes, refusing to show his true emotions, stretched out his hand and slowly pushed Shen Zhibei away.

Shen Zhibei let go of his hand, and stood still in front of him again.His mood has recovered a bit, and he deliberately avoided those painful past events, pretending to be relaxed and asking him: "Are you tired?"

Gu Guannan nodded, his exhaustion could not be concealed.

"I'm going to fill up the water, take a bath and have a good sleep." Shen Zhibei said with a smile, "If you don't go to work tomorrow, you can sleep late."

An hour and a half later, Shen Zhibei came out of Gu Guannan's bedroom.It was already midnight at this time, the servants in the villa had all rested, and the whole house was silent.

Shen Zhibei left Gu Guannan's bedroom and did not return to his own room. He first sat on the sofa in the living room for a while, then got up and went to the backyard.

The wind was a little strong tonight, and the flowers in the yard were blown so that the branches trembled and the petals fell down.The two hammocks in the middle of the yard also swayed from side to side in low frequency with the night wind.

Shen Zhibei didn't go over, and sat down at a small round table at the foot of the wall, opposite the round table was a hammock.He was sitting on a white wicker chair, with his right hand lightly resting on the table, his fingertips stroking the glass tabletop, and his eyes slowly scanning the entire backyard.

Although Gu Guannan looked a little boring, and he was not the kind of person who seemed to enjoy life, this villa was full of life, especially the flowers in the yard, which bloomed continuously all year round.It is said that Gu Guannan's mother planted them all while she was alive.

Shen Zhibei once heard from an old servant who had worked in the villa for most of her life that Mrs. Gu is a person who understands life and enjoys it very much. She especially loves flowers. kind of flowers.These flowers were planted one by one by her, and she has taken care of them carefully since she was a small flower seedling. She has to look at them three or four times a day, and calls these flowers her own children.

At that time, Gu Guannan was only four or five years old, and he was very dissatisfied with his mother's behavior of caring more about Hua than himself.Don't look at Gu Guannan's unsmiling and scary seriousness now, but he also had a period of a brat, and his brat performance was to be jealous of a bunch of flowers.The mother praised the flower for its beauty, so he stretched out his sinful little hand to pick it off, then threw it on the ground and stomped on it, and finally lived up to expectations, and was caught and spanked by the angry mother.After his little butt was swollen several times, Gu Guannan finally learned how to be good, and he didn't dare to pick flowers anymore, but he still followed his mother like a tail, and when he saw which flower was praised by his mother, he pouted his mouth in displeasure. Convinced, as soon as his mother left, he stood in front of the flower and venomously sent three words - so ugly!

When Shen Zhibei heard this story for the first time, he couldn't hold back and laughed out loud while holding his stomach.If he hadn't heard it with his own ears, he wouldn't have believed that such a serious and calm Gu Guannan still had such a lovely side.

The old servant couldn't suppress the smile at the corner of his mouth when he talked about this past event. He sighed deeply after being ridiculous enough, and then told him that when his wife was alive, Gu Guannan thought about how to destroy that garden every day. , but after his wife left, he did not allow anyone to get close to the flowers that his wife had planted by herself.Since then, he never said that he would destroy the garden, and he even learned how to grow flowers. Every day, no matter how busy he was, he would come over regularly to take a look at them, or water them, or just do nothing. , just watch quietly for a while.

Shen Zhibei sat in the yard, the tip of his nose was the fragrance of flowers brought by the breeze.A picture suddenly appeared in his mind: four or five-year-old Gu Guannan was standing in front of a blooming rose, with a pair of short hands on his waist, his brows were frowned, and the rose looked at him. Drum, yelled childishly at the rose, "It's so ugly!" After the roar, he ran away on short legs, leaving only a delicate flower messy in the wind.

Shen Zhibei couldn't help laughing when he thought about it.But in the next moment, Xiao Douding's image disappeared, and what came to mind was a fifteen or sixteen-year-old boy, a young version of Gu Guannan, with an indifferent expression and no trace of anger.He stared numbly at his legs, while two teenagers of similar age were slowly slicing open his legs with the tip of a knife, and blood flowed all over the bed sheet under him, but Gu Guannan didn't respond.

It was as if a boulder had been pressed down on his heart, which was so blocked that he could hardly breathe.Shen Zhibei stood up in a huff, and paced restlessly in the yard.

A muffled thunder suddenly exploded overhead.Shen Zhibei paused, looked up at the dark night sky.

The wind was stronger than before, messing Shen Zhibei's hair, followed by lightning and thunder, and it seemed that it would rain cats and dogs in the next second.

Shen Zhibei subconsciously looked at the small garden that was blown to this side by the strong wind, feeling a little anxious.It seems that the rain will not be too small, and these delicate flowers do not know whether they can withstand the devastation of the storm.

He was thinking about how to protect this piece of flowers, when the sound of rolling wheels sounded behind him, and Gu Guannan's voice sounded in the next second.

"what are you doing here?"

Shen Zhibei turned around, and saw Gu Guannan appearing in the courtyard in his pajamas, he was a little surprised and asked, "Aren't you asleep?"

"It's probably going to rain, so come out and have a look." Gu Guannan pushed the wheelchair into the yard, saw that Shen Zhibei was still wearing the gown for the banquet, he couldn't help frowning, and asked, "Are you still asleep?"

"I can't sleep." There was a path paved with cobblestones in the yard, and it was difficult for Gu Guannan to push himself. Shen Zhibei walked over and pushed him to the table, looked at the dark night sky and said, "It's going to rain."

"Ah."

Shen Zhibei sat down opposite him and asked him, "Are you worried about flowers?"

Gu Guannan didn't answer, but slowly turned his gaze.

While speaking, the rain had already fallen, and it was caught off guard, and it crackled on the parasol above his head.In less than half a minute, the rain that was just a few ticks formed a dense rain curtain and splashed everywhere.

The flowers at the foot of the wall finally withstood the strong wind, but finally drooped their petals in the downpour.

Shen Zhibei stood up, a little anxious: "Do you want to find something to cover?"

Gu Guannan turned the wheelchair suddenly, and said calmly, "Go in."

Shen Zhibei was stunned, and asked him, "Aren't you worried about these flowers?"

Gu Guannan's voice was calm: "It's not that fragile." After speaking, he pushed the wheelchair into the rain.

Shen Zhibei hurriedly followed, with his left hand resting on top of his head to protect him from the rain, and he pushed him into the house at a faster speed with his feet.

Fortunately, the distance was only a few steps, and the two of them were only hit by raindrops a few times, and they were not too wet.However, Shen Zhibei couldn't take care of himself in order to keep out the rain, his face was wet by the rain, and his bangs drooped in front of his forehead after getting wet, looking a bit embarrassed.

Gu Guannan moved his fingertips slightly, and his tone was a little unnatural: "Wipe it."

Shen Zhibei searched around on the first floor but couldn't find a clean towel that could wipe the water, so he brushed his bangs casually, wiped off the water droplets on it, and said indifferently: "Fortunately, it's not soaked, I'll wipe it when I go back to the room." Okay. You didn't eat at night, are you hungry? Shall I make you some supper?"

Usually at this time, Gu Guannan would eat something if he didn't sleep, Shen Zhibei was used to it after all, and he didn't think it was troublesome, so he planned to make some supper for him, and then went back to the house after he finished eating.

However, Gu Guannan didn't have much appetite today, so he rejected his proposal, and was about to go back to the house with his wheelchair.

Shen Zhibei asked again for confirmation: "Are you really not going to eat?"

Gu Guannan stopped, frowned and glanced at him, his tone sank, and ordered: "Come here."

Shen Zhibei was a little puzzled, but still followed.Then he was brought into the bedroom by Gu Guannan.

Shen Zhibei knew something in his mind, Gu Guannan's going to bed was not easy, he probably needed his help.But just as he was about to walk to the bed, Gu Guannan went into the bathroom, and came out with a towel after a while.He threw the dry towel to Shen Zhibei, and ordered: "Wipe."

Shen Zhibei snorted, wiped his face and hair with a towel.After wiping his hair half dry, he stopped, put the towel back in the bathroom, and brushed his hair that had been completely messed up in front of the mirror.

When he came out of the bathroom, he found that Gu Guannan had no intention of going to sleep. Instead, he went to the window and was leaning against the window sill, listening to the sound of the rain quietly.His demeanor is very calm, but it seems that he is buried with a heavy heart, making it impossible to understand the true thoughts in his heart.

Shen Zhibei subconsciously walked over with light steps, sat down on the chair facing him, and supported the table with his right hand.Gu Guannan quietly looked at the dark rainy night outside the window with his face sideways, and he just looked at him quietly.Until Gu Guannan felt his gaze retracted and asked him: "What are you looking at?"

Shen Zhibei smiled slightly, shook his head and said, "I didn't see anything."

Gu Guannan didn't ask further: "It's late, go to bed."

Shen Zhibei didn't move, tapped his fingers on the table and asked him, "Are you sleepy?"

Gu Guannan didn't understand why, but he still shook his head.

Shen Zhibei laughed and said, "I'm not sleepy either, why don't we talk, the atmosphere is just right." He pointed out the window while talking.

Gu Guannan was silent for a moment before speaking: "What are you talking about?"

Shen Zhibei put his hands on the table, leaned slightly, and asked curiously: "What did you look like when you were young? Do you have any photos?"

Gu Guannan frowned: "Why are you asking this?"

"Curiosity." Shen Zhibei's mind was full of interesting pictures of the chubby Gu Guannan Xiaodouding and Yiduo being jealous, and the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't control his curiosity, "Do you have any photos? Can you show me? "

As expected, Gu Guannan ruthlessly refused: "No!"

"Why? Could it be that you were ugly when you were a child?" Shen Zhibei provoked him deliberately, "Isn't there such a law that the more beautiful you are when you are young, the more disabled you will be when you grow up. Which one do you belong to?"

Gu Guannan chuckled, and asked him, "Then which one do you belong to?"

"Me," Shen Zhibei raised his head, and said without humility at all, "Of course it's because I've grown up since I was a child."

Gu Guannan was also immodest: "What a coincidence, I am the same."

Shen Zhibei deliberately pretended not to believe it, and said suspiciously: "Seeing is believing, how can I believe you are telling the truth without photos."

Gu Guannan questioned him with the same words: "You are not the same, how can I believe that you are telling the truth without photos."

"Who has nothing to do with their childhood photos. Why don't we do this," Shen Zhibei began to draw big cakes, "Show me yours first today, and I'll show you mine next time, how about it?"

Gu Guannan asked: "Why should I trust you?"

Shen Zhibei also asked back: "Why don't you believe me? Could it be that I am such a contradictory person in your heart?"

"..." After a long time, Gu Guannan said helplessly, "Isn't there one by the bedside?"

Shen Zhibei was dissatisfied: "When I was younger. You should have a growth record book, the kind that takes pictures at every stage."

Gu Guannan sighed deeply, and the sigh was full of helplessness.He finally gave in and told him, "It's in the second drawer of the wardrobe."

Shen Zhibei was overjoyed, and ran to the closet impatiently, complaining as he ran: "It's so deep, could it be that there are some explosive photos?"

There was another sigh.

Shen Zhibei quickly found two thick photo albums according to the instructions of Guannan.Both albums were labeled, one reading "Nan Nan 0-6 years old" and the other "Nan Nan 7-13 years old".The words on the label are neat and elegant, obviously made by a woman.

Shen Zhibei's smile faded when he saw those two lines.

He suddenly felt a little regretful, and he didn't know if taking out these two photo albums would arouse Gu Guannan's sadness.

When he was hesitating, Gu Guannan came in to look for him because he hadn't come out for a long time, and asked, "Didn't you find it?"

"I found it." Shen Zhibei's voice softened a bit, he turned around holding the two photo albums, and tentatively waved them in front of his eyes, "Is it these two?"

Gu Guannan glanced lightly, his expression unchanged, and nodded.

Seeing this, Shen Zhibei was finally relieved, went out with the photo album in his arms, and was going to find a good place to sit down and enjoy it carefully.

He sat back by the window again, put two photo albums on the table, and was going to read them with Gu Guannan, so he specially dragged the chair to his side.

It's just that Gu Guannan didn't appreciate it at all, and turned his head to look out the window.

Shen Zhibei turned to the first page.The first photo is of a newborn milk doll, very small, the eyes have not been opened, just a slit, but it is not as ugly as ordinary newborns.Gu Guannan didn't lie about this point, he was really easy to see when he was young.

He smiled and flipped back, and the next few photos were from his infancy, and they grew fairer and fairer as time went by, with round eyes, the longer they were, the better.Shen Zhibei wanted to praise Gu Guannan a few words, but when he turned his face, he found that the other party didn't look at him at all, but looked out the window with his chin on his hands.

Shen Zhibei poked at him: "Why don't you look at it, look how cute you were when you were young, so interesting."

Gu Guannan didn't take it seriously, his face was indifferent.He didn't feel the fun of looking at his childhood photos with others, but the embarrassment comparable to public execution was quite obvious.

No matter how Shen Zhibei persuaded Gu Guannan, he just refused to take a look.Seeing that he would rather die than surrender, Shen Zhibei stopped persuading him and enjoyed the fun alone.

I heard that Gu Guannan's mother is a talented woman who studied painting since she was a child, and her oil paintings in her teens have already been auctioned for seven figures.In addition, the photography technology is also extremely professional.And this kind of professionalism is fully reflected in these two albums.

No matter what form is used to create, works full of love are the most touching.Every time Shen Zhibei looks at a photo, he can deeply and clearly feel a mother's tender and deep love for her son.

At that time, Gu Guannan was still very young, so naturally he didn't have the consciousness of looking at the camera, so the photos were basically snapshots, some were cute, and some were funny.Shen Zhibei couldn't help covering his mouth and chuckling when he saw something interesting at first, but the more he looked behind him, the more silent he became.

As the photos went up and down, Gu Guannan in the photos gradually changed from a chubby little bean to a sunny and handsome boy.Especially the second album.When recording the second photo album, Gu Guannan had already gone to school. The first photo was probably taken on his first day in primary school. Gu Guannan in school uniform was standing with his parents at the gate of a private school.The young boy in the photo has begun to look handsome, wearing a suit-style school uniform like a real little prince, with a pair of small hands holding his parents tightly, his smile is bright and bright like the warm sunshine, his clear eyes are like the purest gems in the world, The brilliance has not been covered by the haze.

Shen Zhibei was stunned for a moment when he saw Gu Zhixing in the photo.Gu Zhixing in the photo is still very young, in his early thirties, vaguely similar to the current Gu Guannan.

Shen Zhibei looked at the man in the photo, and the old and decrepit face he saw in the nursing home that day slowly emerged in his mind, and he couldn't see the slightest similarity.

At that time, they were like a happy family of three. Their mother was gentle and beautiful, their father was tall and handsome, and their children were cute and cute.But as long as Shen Zhibei thinks of his half-brother who is only one year younger than Gu Guannan, he can't feel a little bit of happiness. He just feels that Gu Zhixing's smile is so hypocritical that it makes him sick, so he closes the album .

Gu Guannan turned around and asked, "Don't you want to watch?"

Shen Zhibei shook his head, his expression was not very good: "I won't watch it."

Gu Guannan found out that something was wrong with him, took out the photo album that was under his palm, flipped through it casually, and soon he found the photo, his expression was also stunned, and he turned his head to look at him silently.

Shen Zhibei simply said: "Why do you still keep his photo?"

Gu Guannan didn't have any obvious emotions, and explained lightly: "It's been too long, I even forgot that there is still this photo."

Shen Zhibei then suggested: "Then should we lay him off? Putting it here is really embarrassing."

Gu Guannan said indifferently: "Whatever, I won't watch it anyway."

"But I want to see it." Shen Zhibei has always been very strong in execution, he brought the scissors just after he finished speaking, took out the photo, and began to carefully cut along the outline of Gu Zhixing.

Gu Guannan didn't stop him either, but he was a little concerned about what he said just now, and asked him: "If you are so persistent in cutting him off, is it possible that you still have to look back on it from time to time?"

"That's right." Shen Zhibei focused on two things. Although he was talking to Gu Guannan, his hand holding the scissors was still steady. "I plan to take it out for review every once in a while. Do you want to watch it together?"

"Boring." Gu Guannan commented on two words, and reminded him, "This is my photo."

"You don't read it," Shen Zhibei said righteously, "Instead of putting it here to collect dust, you might as well give it to me, and I will let it play the role of a photo album. How about you give me another one?"

"what to give?"

"Photos." Shen Zhibei touched two thick books of photos, and said with a smile, "There are at least [-] photos here, so you should be willing to give me one, right?"

Gu Guannan didn't agree but didn't refuse, so he asked him, "Why do you want my photo?"

Shen Zhibei finally cut Gu Zhixing, crumpled it into a ball and threw it into the trash can, then flipped back to find if there were any other photos with Gu Zhixing, and answered Gu Guannan's question: "Favorite! I I found that you were much cuter when you were a child than you are now."

Gu Guannan looked disgusted, obviously very dissatisfied with this adjective.

Shen Zhibei flipped through it quickly, but he didn't find Gu Zhixing again. He nodded in satisfaction, and then got back to the topic: "How about it, I'll keep a photo of you, is that okay?"

Gu Guannan resigned himself to his fate, he held his forehead and said helplessly, "Whatever you want."

Shen Zhibei smiled, and when Gu Guannan nodded, he turned to a certain page, pointed to a single photo and asked, "Then I want this one, can I?"

Gu Guannan looked in the direction of his finger, with a puzzled look on his face, and asked him, "Why do you want this one?"

"No reason, I just think it's a good shot, quite artistic." Shen Zhibei said while carefully taking down the photo, putting it in his hand to appreciate it carefully.

It was a sneak photo. According to the time when the photo was taken, it should have been taken when Gu Guannan was 15 years old, that is, not long before the car accident.The environment in the photo should be his room. Behind him is a row of bookcases against the wall, which are filled with all kinds of books, including textbooks, extracurricular books, a complete set of comics, and many foreign original novels.

Gu Guannan was sitting on the white carpet in front of the bookcase, with various parts scattered in front of him, and he was assembling a model airplane.The assembly work probably encountered a bottleneck, and he frowned deeply, looking very troubled.The handsome cheeks still have some unfaded baby fat, the cheeks are bulging, and the sulking look is indescribably cute.

Shen Zhibei found that the airplane model being assembled in this photo was the same as the one he was holding in his arms in the photo next to the bed, and guessed it should be the same plane.As for the two photos, one records the assembly process, and the other records the assembly results.There was also a photo of Gu Guannan and his mother in the result photo, so he couldn't win the love of others, so he chose the second best.

When Gu Guannan saw that he had chosen this photo, he didn't say anything, but when he saw this photo, he probably thought of the past, and his expression became a little gloomy.

Shen Zhibei carefully put away the photo, raised his head to look at Gu Guannan, just in time to see the moment when his mood changed, and his mood sank accordingly.

Looking at Gu Guannan, who was completely different from the high-spirited young man back then, Shen Zhibei felt panicked in his heart, and his eyes fell on those two quiet legs unconsciously.

After a long silence, he finally made up his mind, put his right hand lightly on the back of Gu Guannan's hand, and called him softly: "Gu Guannan."

Gu Guannan's eyes first fell on the hand covering the back of his hand, and then he raised his head to look at Shen Zhibei.

Shen Zhibei tightened his hand and held it lightly: "Let's accept rehabilitation."

As soon as he finished speaking, Gu Guannan's expression, which was originally calm, suddenly changed.

The palm under the palm struggled, feeling Gu Guannan's retreat and understanding of North Africa, but he did not let go, but clenched even tighter, and his tone couldn't help but become a little more eager: "Let's accept rehabilitation. I heard from my uncle, you In fact, my legs have recovered a long time ago, and the delay in standing up is just a psychological reason, as long as we accept rehabilitation, we still have a great chance to stand up again."

Gu Guannan's emotions became more and more agitated with his words, and finally he shook it hard and broke free from his hand.

Shen Zhibei faintly felt that Gu Guannan's long-silent violent emotions were recovering little by little, but he didn't understand why he became so excited when he just let him undergo rehabilitation.

"Gu Guannan." Shen Zhibei wanted to comfort him, but Gu Guannan pushed him away.

"Even you have started to dislike me, haven't you?" Gu Guannan's voice was low and hoarse, suppressing strong anger, he stared at Shen Zhibei, his eyes were dim, "After seeing my healthy appearance, I can't accept the current situation. Is it?"

"No! I never thought about it that way!" Shen Zhibei regretted a little, he shouldn't have been in such a hurry, at least he shouldn't have said such things to him after seeing the photos, with Gu Guannan's sensitive temperament, I don't blame him for being so think.

"Sorry, I was really impulsive, but I really didn't mean to dislike you." Shen Zhibei tried to keep his tone as calm as possible, and patiently comforted him, "I just think that since we have the chance to stand up, why should we stand up?" Give up? Don't you want to stand up?"

This sentence angered Gu Guannan for some reason, and he suddenly roared excitedly: "I don't want to! I don't want to at all! Don't try to impose your intentions on me! If you can't accept it, get out!"

The author has something to say:

It's all different, but it's just a couple who are arguing about each other, how can they share? [Light a cigarette]

Tomorrow at [-] o'clock I will have pigeons again, Riwan is too hurt, I want to raise QAQ, let's see it at [-] o'clock in the evening