16 years

Fu Yan obviously didn't expect Liu Ruosong to bring this topic back so bluntly. He was not used to getting along with Liu Ruosong in a new state, so he was a little dazed for a while.

After Liu Ruosong finished speaking, he felt a little bit regretful, he knew that he shouldn't take his anger out on Fu Yan - let alone Fu Yan who didn't know anything in this period of time.

But he couldn't completely control his emotions and reactions. Those uncontrollable resentments took root and sprouted, and they had grown to the point where he was terrified.

If in front of him was Fu Yan who had experienced three lifetimes with him, Liu Ruosong might be more at ease, but in this vacuum period, it was difficult for him to face the ignorant opponent with a normal heart.

Liu Ruosong always felt that Fu Yan was still there, but he was completely different.

He was ashamed of his changes, but he couldn't help but want to show everything to Fu Yan, trying to prove something like masochistic.

Liu Ruosong himself was at a loss as to what to prove.

His heart was covered with a thick layer of glass by emotions, which made him want to escape everything he could.

Liu Ruosong knew intellectually that this was wrong, and wanted to make up for it by saying something, but emotionally, he seemed to have stumbled, and his mind went blank.

Fu Yan didn't know why Liu Ruosong suddenly spoke like he had taken gunpowder, but he was used to looking for problems on himself. After thinking about it, he felt that he might be asking too straightforwardly.

"Understood." Fu Yan sighed: "It's a pity."

"What?" Liu Ruosong asked suspiciously.

"When you restart, it will be too late." Fu Yan said, "Unfortunately, it would have been better if it had been earlier."

Liu Ruosong was stunned for a moment, wondering whether he had guessed right or was just looking for reasons for himself.

Fu Yan didn't think too much about it, he thought about it, and then asked: "Then when will Shaoqiu go to the Northwest?"

"...About a month at the latest." Liu Ruosong said.

Fu Yan nodded, and really didn't ask any more questions. It seemed that he had written down the matter and was going to find a good reason to tell Zhao Jincheng.

He consciously finished asking, so he wanted to drag Liu Ruosong back to the campfire, but before he could turn around, Liu Ruosong stopped him.

"...How do you know I'm too late." Liu Ruosong said with difficulty, "Can't I just avenge myself?"

Fu Yan stopped and turned to look at him.

"Are you?" he asked.

Liu Ruosong lacked a sense of security, but he hadn't framed himself to test out the other party's hobbies, so he shook his head.

"That's it." Fu Yan breathed a sigh of relief visibly, and said, "Then it's nothing."

Liu Ruosong stared at him blankly. From Fu Yan's reaction, it could be seen that he was not completely suspicious. He really thought about this possibility in his heart, but he didn't say it.

"But--"

"Ruosong." Fu Yan finally frowned, looked at him worriedly and seriously, and asked earnestly, "Is there a crisis of trust between us?"

Liu Ruosong was shocked by this rhetorical question, he subconsciously wanted to refute, but he couldn't speak.

He faltered for a while, then talked about him from left to right: "But Shao Qiu is your comrade-in-arms."

Fu Yan walked towards him, he pinched Liu Ruosong's arm, leaned his back against a tree, then lowered his head, and pressed his forehead against Liu Ruosong's, and asked in a low voice, "What did I do to make you Don't you believe me?"

There was no way for Liu Ruosong to retreat, feeling an inescapable sense of embarrassment, he shrank his neck and shook his head silently.

"I said earlier that I will find a reason for you." Fu Yan said, "Even if you tell me that you did it on purpose, I won't criticize you—but I will lead the team to rescue Shao Qiu, and if I can find it, I will find it." , find it if you can’t find it.”

Liu Ruosong was just presupposing before, but it was discovered by Fu Yan that Fu Yan was indeed as he said, subconsciously leaning towards him.

He even made the worst preparations to make up for it, and was ready to bear his mistake as a family member.

"Sometimes I don't know what's wrong with you." Fu Yan's voice sounded confused and tired: "You seem to be afraid of something, but I can't do anything about it."

Liu Ruosong felt sad again. Fu Yan seemed to have this kind of super power, either like a charging station, helping him "charge for 5 minutes and talk for [-] hours", or just like now, just a few words can poke into his heart.

"I don't know." Liu Ruosong whispered, "I seem to be afraid of many things... I want to do a lot, but I think you will be unhappy."

Fu Yan was silent for a while, then gently touched his face.

"You don't need to consider whether I'm happy or not when you do things." Fu Yan said.

I'm too slow, Fu Yan thought.

Liu Ruosong has always been gentle and soft, he is mature, steady, considerate, willing to accommodate and considerate, never really made him feel bad.

But it is impossible for a person to have no temper. All the thoughtfulness he has enjoyed is the result of Liu Ruosong's love for him.

For a moment, a sudden impulsive thought came to Fu Yan's heart.

"Forget it." Fu Yan said, "Let's leave here."

Liu Ruosong raised his head suddenly, his eyes were startled and suspicious, as if he didn't expect such words to come out of Fu Yan's mouth.

In fact, Fu Yan didn't think about it that much, he just suddenly felt that if Liu Ruosong came back from countless restarts, then he must have put in enough effort during the time when they failed.

He must have tried as hard as he could, but it didn't work.

Once, twice... maybe more times, he should be enough to be worthy of responsibility.

I can't be too selfish, Fu Yan thought, I can try and make mistakes again and again, but Liu Ruosong has no reason to suffer this torture together.

He has changed from an amorous photographer who would be happy to see flowers and grass into a spiritually sensitive person who is like a warlord, Fu Yan feels very distressed.

Liu Ruosong was shocked by him, who knew that Fu Yan was right, he was silent for a while, and actually looked around, as if he wanted to elope with Liu Ruosong on the spot.

Liu Ruosong finally realized something, and pressed his chest: "No, no!"

Fu Yan looked at him.

"Can't...can't go." Liu Ruosong gritted his teeth and said.

The sunk cost is already too high, he and Fu Yan have come to this point, no one can turn back.Liu Ruosong clearly knew that if it was in his previous life, there might still be a possibility of running away, but it would be too late in this life—if this matter is not resolved, he will live in persecution paranoia for the rest of his life, and one day he will drive himself out of his mind question.

What's more, he still has to wait for that "comrade in arms" Fu Yan.

"Then trust me again." Fu Yan said.

As he spoke, he tore off the epaulettes on his coat, and stuffed the hard piece that symbolized his identity into Liu Ruosong's hand, then wrapped Liu Ruosong's fingers, guiding him to hold the small thing tightly.

The hard edges and corners pinched Liu Ruosong's palm, bringing a little pain that couldn't be ignored.

"Trust me again." Fu Yan said seriously: "I swear in the name of the military uniform, no matter what you do, I will understand you, accompany you, and be with you."

Fu Yan paused, as if afraid that this oath would not be convincing, and added: "If you go to prison in the future, I will apply to be transferred to be a prison guard."

Liu Ruosong: "..."

His heart was originally shrouded in a gray mist, and he hadn't had time to be moved, but Fu Yan was so angry that he wanted to laugh again, and the dark clouds dispersed for a long time.

Liu Ruosong wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, clutching his forehead to compete with himself, while Fu Yan stood beside him helplessly, not knowing what to say.

"Forget it." After a while, Liu Ruosong smiled self-deprecatingly, and said, "Why do I think so much..."

"If you have wine today, let's get drunk today." Liu Ruosong said, "As long as you live well, the world will be peaceful."

Liu Ruosong gritted his teeth, and held the small epaulette in his hand, as if holding Fu Yan's hot heart.

Don't think about it anymore, Liu Ruosong gritted his teeth and thought, if he has the time to recruit Fu Yan to coax him every day, it would be more realistic to do something serious.

Either die in the torrent of the apocalypse, or grit your teeth and rush out... As for how many injuries you have suffered, let's talk about saving your life.

After Liu Ruosong made up his mind, he didn't think about it any more. He still accepted Fu Yan's epaulets and put them in his inner pocket on his chest.

They were only more than 100 kilometers away from their destination. Liu Ruosong had something on his mind, so he woke up early the next morning, almost as soon as it was dawn, and started on his way.

The closer to the cultivation base, the fewer people and vehicles on the road, and the road will be unimpeded.

After noon, Liu Ruosong and his team arrived at Shao Xuefan's moss cultivation base.Far away, He Tang saw the gate outside the base was open, and there were more than a dozen zombies wandering in the courtyard.

"What's going on?" He Tang muttered, "Someone got tricked in such a remote place?"

Liu Ruosong's eyesight was not as good as He Tang's, squinting his eyes and leaning on the back of the car, he looked carefully for a while, but he could only see a few black spots, so he couldn't help pushing He Tang, and asked what was going on.

"It doesn't seem to be a researcher." He Tang said: "...but I'm not sure, they are all dressed in tatters, and they are too far away to see clearly."

"But the security is too bad." He Tang said: "The gate is rotten like this."

The speaker didn't care about the listener, Liu Ruosong's expression changed, and he had a bad premonition.

Fu Yan glanced at his face, because there were other people in the car, so he sent a message to ask him: "Is it the same as last time?"

Liu Ruosong shook his head very lightly, and quickly replied to him: "No, there was nothing wrong with the base last time, it was Fang Sining who opened the door."

While talking, He Feng's car was already approaching, let alone He Tang and the others this time, even Liu Ruosong could clearly see the dilapidated gate.

The door was broken in the middle and separated to the two sides. It didn't look like it was knocked open by the brutal external force of the zombies, it seemed to be folded like this.

Fu Yan narrowed his eyes and glanced at the gate, then suddenly pressed He Feng's shoulder and said, "Stop."

He Feng stepped on the brake, and Fu Yanshun shoved the gun into Liu Ruosong's hand.

"There are traces of ammunition on the door." Fu Yan said, "Someone came before us."