16 years

Liu Ruosong hesitated to speak, but Fu Yan seemed to be vaguely aware of his unfinished intentions, and sighed softly on the other side of the phone.

"Wakamatsu."

Fu Yan didn't know what to say, no matter what in the past, as long as he asked, Liu Ruosong would always answer.But now that Liu Ruosong refused to take the initiative to open his heart to him, Fu Yan didn't know what to do, so he could only helplessly call his name.

He didn't know why, it was only a few hours apart, but there seemed to be a gap between him and Liu Ruosong for no reason.

Liu Ruosong was on the other side, as if he didn't even dare to look back at him.

"If, if something happens..." Fu Yan begged, "You have to tell me."

Liu Ruosong lowered his head and covered his eyes with his hands.

He didn't know what to say, the more gentle Fu Yan was, the sadder he felt.

At this moment, it is difficult for Liu Ruosong to really see his heart clearly, he doesn't even know what he is suffering, his emotion and reason seem to be divided into two people, one of them is feeling guilty about "doing something wrong", while The other was just the opposite.

Maybe I know what I'm suffering, Liu Ruosong quickly shattered his fantasy——I just don't want to admit it.

He knew exactly what path he was going to take.

In a sense, he might become no different from Shao Xuefan.

"Will you love me forever?" Liu Ruosong said, "What if I become a bad person."

Fu Yan on the other side of the phone was silent for two seconds. Instead of expressing his loyalty immediately like all the young people in the world who are addicted to love, he pursed his lips and asked, "How bad is it?"

"Maybe it's bad, selfish, conspiracy, murder and arson?" Liu Ruosong smiled, and he deliberately handled the tone lightly, trying to make this topic sound like a joke: "Maybe like Like a conspirator, or like a politician ... I don't know."

However, Fu Yan didn't think it was a joke.

He thought about it for a while, then asked, "Why?"

Liu Ruosong was stunned.

Fu Yan's rhetorical question was not within his presupposition - he thought that with Fu Yan's wooden temper, he would habitually say something about the righteousness of the family and the country, a few words of persuasion, or a few words of comfort .

But Liu Ruosong didn't expect that he didn't preach, and he didn't stop, the first sentence was to ask the reason.

"...What why?" Liu Ruosong said.

"Why did it become like this?" Fu Yan leaned on the shelf of the hardware store, and changed the slightly hot mobile phone into another hand: "People's behavior is regular, even if it's 'bad', you will not do it for no reason. There's always a reason for going bad..."

"I know you, I know you, I have built a family with you for so many years, and I know what kind of person you are. If one day your temperament really changes, there must be a reasonable reason." Fu Yan paused and said : "In that case, I can understand you."

Liu Ruosong took a deep breath.

He was in a mess in his heart, business affairs and selfishness were a messy mess, filling his entire chest to the brim.

Before he opened his mouth, Liu Ruosong didn't know what result he wanted - he questioned Fu Yan like this, essentially because his conscience was still alive.After all, he is not like Shao Xuefan, who really has the heart to use people as knives.It's one thing to make a decision, it's another to be unhappy.

So if Fu Yan denied it formally, he would be sad; but if Fu Yan coaxed him blindly, he would not be so happy.

But Fu Yan gave him a new answer, which seemed to be the third choice between A and B, and seemed to be Fu Yan's usual answer.

Liu Ruosong couldn't tell what mood he was in, he just felt his chest swell, making him uncomfortable from choking.

He knew that this topic should be over, but he was too disturbed, so he wanted to break it apart and listen to a practical and accurate sentence.

"What if... what if I did something seriously wrong." Liu Ruosong said.

"If something didn't happen, I don't agree with it; if something has happened, it depends on the circumstances to decide how to make up for it." Fu Yan said patiently: "But it's still the same sentence, stand on my position Look at you, no matter what happens, I can understand."

Leaning his back against the board wall, Liu Ruosong slid down slowly, squatted on the ground, and covered his eyes.

"...You're showing favoritism." Liu Ruosong said in a muffled voice.

"Perhaps." Fu Yan said in a low voice, "I am also a human being, and as a human being, I am not exempt."

The train entered a section of mountain tunnel, the call signal was affected, and Fu Yan's voice sizzled and became a little blurred.

"For me, even if you really did something criminal, I will always find a reason for you in my heart. I will think whether I don't care enough about you, or what you have experienced that I don't know Things...Even if there is nothing, I will wonder if you have any difficulties and have to do this-you are the one I love, and I should just want to make excuses for you. "

"Objectively, we are all responsible for what we do."

"But emotionally, my instinct and subconscious don't allow me to accept that you are that kind of person, so I can't and will never be disappointed in you."

Liu Ruosong let out a mouthful of turbid air tremblingly, and there was a trace of wetness in his palm.

Before waking up this time, he had glimpsed in a treacherous illusion—in that deep blue cloud, he and Fu Yan were obviously falling, but they were getting farther and farther away. Seeing each other clearly, the faster the other party disappears.

So Liu Ruosong was very afraid that he and Fu Yan would "fall" into different situations, and would go in two directions from then on.

But now, a picture appeared in his mind for no reason—it seemed that a very thin thread extended from the shadow in the deep sea, going up against the bubbles of the cloud and mist, wrapping around his waist.

At this moment, he finally used that line to return to the same plane as Fu Yan, going in the same direction.

The high-speed rail passed through the mountain tunnel at high speed, and the scene outside suddenly became brighter. The call signal recovered well, and Fu Yan's breathing was close to his ears.

"Brother." Liu Ruosong said, "I love you."

"I love you too." Fu Yan said quickly.

"Okay, I just said it casually." Liu Ruosong finally smiled sincerely, rubbed the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and muttered in a low voice: "I've decided to go plant tomatoes with you after I retire. , will not play off."

Fu Yan: "..."

Cherry tomato?Colonel Fu thought suspiciously: When did it happen?

He searched his mind for a long time, and made sure that he didn't find the relevant future plans of Little Tomato. Just as he was about to ask, he heard a low-battery notification sound from his phone.

Fu Yan: "..."

The situation was difficult, and Colonel Fu had to temporarily swallow these useless questions, and put this topic directly into the to-do list in life.

"I'm fine." Liu Ruosong said, "I just miss you, but for the time being, it's still within the tolerance range, and I can overcome the difficulties."

Across the phone, Fu Yan could imagine Liu Ruosong's expression - when he was really relaxed, his tone would have a gentle ending, and when talking to him, no matter what the content was, there was always a hint of joy and joking, gentle and Lively, it sounds very comfortable.

He was probably smiling, the corners of his eyes were curved, and the corners of his lips were slightly pursed in order not to make the smile too obvious.

Maybe he was still looking at the ground, rubbing the small piece of floor in front of him with his toes once in a while.

"Okay." Fu Yanka said at the end of the second prompt, "Got it."

The long call was finally hung up, and the screen of the phone was covered with a thin layer of water stains, and it was hard to tell if it was sweat or something else.

Seeing that he hung up the phone, the people in the front car didn't dare to peek anymore, for fear of being caught by him and embarrassing each other, they quickly looked away and sat down on their seats.

Liu Ruosong wiped the water mist on the screen with his palm, but didn't go out immediately.

He thought about it, turned on the screen, and called up a short report from the memo that hadn't been sent yet.

He originally wanted to report the young man's situation, use internal means to bring him into the base, and then keep the blood samples, just like what he and Fang Sining did during the first restart, use the B-92 and the young man as a springboard to determine his status.

But just now, he suddenly changed his mind.

He remembered a sentence Fu Yan once said to him.

Strictly speaking, it was already a matter of his previous life - at that time, he was not used to the constant nightmares, and one day he woke up in the middle of the night, wanting to see Fu Yan like crazy.

He wanted to do it all over again, but he didn't want to, and because he was sleepy, he fell into a state of bewilderment.

That day happened to be the day when Fu Yan died for the first time. In the dark night, facing the time on the fluorescent alarm clock, Liu Ruosong couldn't tell whether the restart was real or a dream.

He doubted himself, even to the point of doubting the truth. In the middle of the night, he made a big fuss and wanted to see Fu Yan.

It was not visiting time at that time, and Fu Yan had just been injected with the new virus for a few days, and the whole person was in a painful recovery period. Shao Xuefan refused to let Liu Ruosong meet him, but he was so tortured that he had no choice but to allow them to communicate. a phone call.

In the quiet of the night, Fu Yan's voice came from the internal phone, with an indisputable firmness in his weakness.

"Wakasong, I know it's hard." Fu Yan said, "It's cruel to be sober, but don't get lost."

Liu Ruosong pursed his lips, and changed the "unknown source of infection" in the report to "rabies virus".

In the period when grass and trees are all soldiers, a difference of one word may bring a completely different degree of attention.Liu Ruosong lowered the young man's treatment level from "inspection" to "observation" in his mind, and then sent the revised report to Zhao Jincheng.

Forget it, Liu Ruosong thought, if it's not the worst, then don't take out the cards so easily.

And Joe Eden's matter can't be pre-empted now, but at least he can find the silver fish first-if there are enough blocking agents, maybe Irene can only use a petri dish.

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In fact, in Chapter 1 of this restart, the dream Xiao Liuer had was a reflection of his complete personal consciousness. There are quite a lot of information in 2333, including metaphors, reflections and self-analysis. For example, the painting "Night Watch" was originally painted During the day, but because of the light and shadow, it will always be mistaken for night 23333, including the dialogue in the classroom content, which is actually a confrontation of Xiao Liuer's self-consciousness.If you look at it from this angle, the stages of that chapter are very obvious~【And Brother Fu is such a good man, I can’t help but want to sigh (bushi) after writing this chapter】