wildfire in the heart

During the Christmas holidays, I found various reasons to occupy the tour for three to four hours a day, and she really regarded me as her job and was always professional.

I found that I benefited a lot during the few days with her, and a lot of things she told me were very helpful for the cooperation between me and my business partners.

I knew that Youyu's vacation could be postponed until after the New Year, and I wanted to stay until the New Year, but my subordinates and my parents kept calling me to urge me, and I had to board the plane on the 28th.

I didn't let You Yu send me off, I was afraid that I would not be able to bear it.

I didn't tell You Yu that I was going back to China the next day, and I didn't send her a message to say goodbye until I got on the plane.

She replied quickly: "Take care and see you next time."

Seeing her message, I started thinking about her like crazy, I wanted to run off the plane to find her, and never leave again.

My heart started racing, but my legs didn't move because I knew I couldn't be unreasonable.

After I went back, I went to the company first, held a meeting, explained the work that needed to be explained, and signed the signature. I also specially asked Lou Qin to contact You Yu, and asked You Yu to report the working hours. In order to settle her salary at the end of the month.

"Mr. An, do I need to check with you about working hours?" Lou Qin kept writing on her notepad.

"No, she said how much is how much, no need to verify." I said decisively.

"Understood, Mr. An." Lou Qin is very neat and listens to me, so I am willing to work with her.

After dealing with the company's affairs, I didn't rush to my parents' house, but went straight back to my apartment.I want to adjust it first, and then contact You Yu.

After washing up and changing into home clothes, I nestled comfortably on the sofa and started sending messages to You Yu: "You Yu, I arrived safely. My subordinate Lou Qin will contact you in the next two days, please count the working hours Tell her and give her one of your bank accounts on the way."

I intentionally talked about business matters as soon as I came up to let her know that I didn't come to harass her.

You Yu replied to me: "Okay, thank you Miss An, I understand." It was still so decent, there was no extra words.

After reading her message, I felt a strange feeling in my heart.Although we can still communicate on social software, I feel that her existence has suddenly become very ethereal and distant. It turns out that physical distance can really shorten people's psychological distance.

Obviously she was still standing beside me yesterday, answering all my questions with such a kind and gentle smile, but today, she seems to have become a polite subordinate.

"You're welcome!" I turned back, and I wanted to say something more, but found that none of what I wanted to say was out of bounds.

I don't have the courage to say it anymore, I'm afraid that if I say it, she will push me further away, or she will simply ignore me next time.This thought made me worry a lot.

At this moment, I realized that I didn't know You Yu at all. Although we had been together for several days and talked a lot, I didn't know what she liked and what she didn't like.

I don't know why she will be upset, I just know that she is deliberately gentle, neither weak nor aggressive, I can't find a loophole in her emotions, I don't even know that she treats me this way What do people think.

She didn't reply to my message again, and I stared blankly at the phone for a full 5 minutes, as if seeing the kite in my hand broke.

I put down my mobile phone and fell on the pillow of the sofa. At this moment, I feel weak all over, and I just want to lie down and let go.

Ding dong, a message came in on my phone, I picked it up like an electric shock, and quickly glanced at the screen, it was You Yu.

I sat up and clicked on the message, which said: "Sorry, the neighbor came to me to ask something, and I didn't have time to reply you. Miss An, I want to ask, I can ask your subordinates for some of your company's products Any relevant information? Last time you mentioned that you need to do some business translation."

I breathed a sigh of relief and hurriedly replied: "Yes, thank you for your hard work."

"It's not hard, I should." Then You Yu replied, "Miss An must be very tired after a long journey. I won't bother you anymore. You should rest early."

Her words were so polite, it was obvious that she told me not to talk any more.Even if I wasn't sleepy, I couldn't say anything else, so I had to reply: "Okay, let's get back in touch."

"Okay, Miss An, please contact me again, good night."

She obviously knows what time it is in China. In fact, this is not surprising. Her family is in China, so she must have set a domestic time on her mobile phone.Or I have a bold guess that she values ​​the relationship with me, so she specially set a domestic time for me.

This thought cheered me up a little, but then I felt that I might be being self-indulgent.

I instinctively wanted to say good night, but considering the time difference, it should still be daytime on her side. I searched for emojis on my phone, and finally sent a smiley face as a reply.

Before going to bed, I read the chat records between me and her several times, and then fell asleep with my mobile phone in my arms.

I fell asleep, still smiling.It's such a wonderful feeling to have someone living in my heart. I can open my heart at any time to see her, and close my eyes to think about her.I thought about her so much that the nerves in my brain started to solidify some of my vain expectations, helping me weave a beautiful dream.

Those are good memories from five years ago. Even today, I still remember the sweet dream I had that night, and the dreamy dream belongs to me.

But now everything is different, I lost Youyu, I don't even know where she lives now, and she won't tell me.

I dare not harass her too much for fear that she will dislike me.

I searched for traces of her as I did at the beginning, and searched for traces of her on the Internet.

But there was nothing, all her social accounts were either cleared, or she blocked me, the only thing I could do was look at her wechat avatar, and edit the messages I didn't dare to send.

After suffering like this for a while, God finally took pity on me and created a chance for me.

I received a member magazine she subscribed to in the mailbox of You Yu and me. The magazine is only delivered once a year, and it is her favorite to read.Every year when the magazine arrives, she will put the magazine on the coffee table in the living room and look through it every now and then, so I know she will definitely want this magazine.

I found this legitimate reason, so I quickly took a photo and sent it to her, and then sent a message: "You Yu, your membership magazine is here."

There has been no reply for a long time, I guess Youyu is thinking about what to do.

After more than an hour, I finally got a message from her: "I will come to pick it up. Also, I have a folder, plastic, with a few leaves on the cover. I haven't been able to find it. Help me find it. .”

I took the opportunity to say: "You can find the magazine yourself when you come back to pick up the magazine." I really wanted to see her again.

We made an appointment at 02:30 on a Sunday afternoon.You Yu arrived as scheduled, she was always punctual.

She had the door key, which I don't think she threw away, but instead of opening the door with the key, she rang the bell.

I was startled by the doorbell, and I was in a daze because of the anxiety I was expecting.

When I heard the doorbell, I yelled, "Come on."

I ran over, opened the door, and saw You Yu standing at the door with lowered eyelids, not looking at me.

Seeing her, my mind was overwhelmed with joy, and I pulled her in.Seeing that I closed the door, she shook off my arm, without saying a word, and went into the living room to find her magazines.

I put the magazine on the coffee table, and she saw it at a glance.

After putting the magazine in her bag, she started looking for her folder, which might have been mixed with my files, so she didn't pay attention at first.

I took the initiative to say: "You can look for it in my files." I opened the cabinet where my files were kept and asked her to look for it.

She lowered her head, as if she wanted to say thank you, but she didn't say anything. She began to rummage carefully. I knew she was afraid of messing up my things.

An impulse stirred me, I hugged her from behind, she froze suddenly, I lowered my head and leaned into her ear and said: "Honey, give me one more chance, let's start over."

After hearing what I said, she broke away from me with all her strength and said, "No."

Embarrassed and sad, I stood there dumbly, with my hands down, not knowing what to do.

You Yu finally found her folder.Think about it carefully, why her folder is in my data, it must be caused by my love to take things indiscriminately, this is another shortcoming that I need to correct.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong." I murmured, this apology is not for the folder, but for everything, it is my confession from the bottom of my heart.

You Yu didn't say anything, she took her things and walked towards the door.

I know that Youyu's heart has turned into a block of ice, and there is no sign of melting at all. No matter how hard I hold it and breathe, it's useless. Maybe she doesn't like me anymore.

I admit that I have too many shortcomings, and I have disappointed her countless times. I have promised her many things, but basically they are all greatly discounted.

In the end, I also made a big mistake, which directly made her completely sober.

I spent years and years wantonly her tenderness and attachment to me.It was me who made her exhausted, made her resolutely cut off her love and lived a life without me regardless of so many years of emotional sacrifice.

I saw her open the door and go out. I stretched out my hand, but I didn't dare to touch her again. She closed the door and left without looking back.Looking at the closed door in front of me, my tears burst out.