wildfire in the heart

Shu Ci called me and asked me to go to her fashion design studio after get off work. In the afternoon, I didn't feel like working, so I told Lou Qin that I left the company early and went to find Shu Ci.

Shu Ci said there was nothing urgent, and it would be fine if we met at night, but I wanted to chat with her.

She is my tree hole now, I have to talk to her about my thoughts, I don't care if she tells Sa Xiangwan, because I can talk to You Yu about everything.Now that the relationship between the two of them is getting stronger and stronger, it is understandable that couples will talk about me as an outsider.

When I went, there was a client in Shu Ci's office, so I consciously sat outside and waited. I noticed that her client looked familiar, but I couldn't tell who it was.

Seeing Shu Ci's client get up, I stood up and got ready to go in, so I met the client head-on.

This woman is about my age. She has exquisite makeup and is not ordinary beautiful. I seem to remember seeing her on TV before.

The lady gave me a slight nod and a smile, and walked away quickly.

"Who? It looks so familiar." I walked in and asked while sitting on the sofa next to Shu Ci's desk.

"She, Chao Yushu, was very popular before, don't you remember? She was so popular when we were in college." Shu Ci got up and came to me, "She retired and married into a wealthy family. Make an evening dress."

"Oh." I replied, I didn't think about it anymore, I don't care about celebrities, I asked Shu Ci, "What do you want me for?"

Shu Ci sorted out the documents on the coffee table, walked aside, and handed me a can of zero-sugar drink, which is my favorite white peach flavor: "It's nothing, but Sa Xiangwan asked me to ask you, you and Tibetan How is Xiaoyi?"

Ever since Shu Ci told me that Zang Xiaoyi was Sa Xiangwan's cousin, I knew what Sa Xiangwan's intentions were, and I was even more unwilling to talk to that Zang Xiaoyi.

It's not because Zang Xiaoyi is ugly, she is actually quite good looking, she belongs to the kind of girl who looks pure at first glance, but flirtatious at second glance.For some reason, the scheming hidden between her eyebrows and eyes made me involuntarily want to stay away from her.

"Don't mention that Zang Xiaoyi to me in the future, I'll bother her." I decided to focus on the point and not let them have any expectations, "Also, tell Sa Xiangwan that I can't finish talking to Youyu, let Don't mess with her if she's fine."

"Okay, okay, I know." As the messenger, Shu Ci didn't want to get too involved, she asked me, "What happened between you and You Yu?"

She asked me this a few times before, and I avoided it, but today I decided to try to say it, and I feel uncomfortable if I hold it in for too long.

But I didn't dare to say the most important things, I only said some less exaggerated things.

I thought she would stand by my side after listening to it, but after listening to it, she said to me directly: "Zhizhi, you are too much. How can you treat others like this! She has a good temper, and you can't be too serious." Follow your own temper. Thank you for saying it, I'm ashamed for you."

I only said one small thing at the beginning. I intended to tell Shu Ci how much I cared about You Yu and how much I couldn’t do without her, but it changed in Shu Ci’s ears. She thought I was possessive. Desire is too much.

I used to go to my parents' place every weekend to have a meal, and then every weekend I took Youyu to have a meal together.

In the past, my mother asked my aunt to cook my favorite dishes, and then my mother cooked Youyu's favorite dishes by herself.

That weekend, my mother saw Youyu and I went to see her, and she was so happy that her face turned into flowers. My mother took us to the supermarket to buy vegetables, and said that she would make a big meal for Youyu.

After entering the supermarket, You Yu chatted with my mother very seriously. Whatever my mother said, You Yu gently echoed and added some new ideas, which made my mother nod repeatedly.

My mother is a very talkative person, talking non-stop along the way, there is a lot of boasting there, I am not interested in many things my mother said, and I want to go crazy about many opinions, but Youyu has always been very humble in front of my mother .

You Yu has a principle, that is, elders must be respected. I can't do this. I can say whatever I want to my mother. She has long been used to my personality.

You Yu and my mother walked side by side, chatting very deeply, I was left out by them, and followed them depressedly.

Maybe You Yu found out that I was missing, so she reached out to look for me, she thought I was right behind her, when she reached out to hold me, I swiped her hand open.

You Yu was stunned at the time, she turned around and looked at me in confusion.

"Whose hand are you holding?" I said a little angrily.

"What's the matter with you, Zhizhi?" You Yu looked bewildered.

My mother saw it the moment I opened You Yu's hand. At that time, You Yu listened too carefully to my mother's speech and didn't pay attention to what happened.

My mother hurriedly explained to You Yu: "Just now you took someone else as Zhizhi, and you almost took that person's hand."

You Yu immediately couldn't laugh or cry, and said sorry to me, saying that she really didn't pay attention, but I was still very angry, with an unforgiving look, I thought that if she really held someone else's hand, I would Must be pissed off.

Youyu quickly took my hand and comforted me: "Zhizhi, don't be angry." Seeing that I didn't respond, she hugged my arm with both hands, put her face on my arm, and stayed with me like this in the supermarket Wander aimlessly.

She comforted me for a full quarter of an hour, and I muttered for a long time before I slowly calmed down. Seeing that I was puffing up my cheeks like a puffer fish, my mother went to the side for a stroll.

At that time, I felt that Youyu was my private property. I didn't notice that Youyu had been taking care of everyone's emotions. I took it all for granted.

After returning home, my mother found an opportunity and whispered to me: "Zhizhi, can you restrain yourself in public and be gentle with You Yu, okay?"

Where is my mother meddling again, why am I not gentle anymore, we should be happy about the matter between You Yu and me, so I immediately said: "Can you control it?"

My mother didn't bother to talk about me anymore, anyway, I didn't listen to what she said.

"My mother is very bad. No matter how much I tease her, she doesn't have a long memory. After a while, she can't help but make random comments and teach me, and then she will be teased again by me." I hate He resentfully spoke to Shu Ci who sat beside me and listened carefully to my speech.

Seeing me chattering for a long time, Shu Ci finally stopped, and she had a chance to speak: "You Yu is right, don't keep talking to your mother like that. However, such a thing will not make her feel bad about it. You are desperate."

Shu Ci is right, You Yu will not be angry with me for such a small matter, but I have done some big things.

In the second year of falling in love with You Yu, I had a fierce dispute with her, and that quarrel almost sent You Yu away.

Youyu and I are going to take a trip to Mount Tai. She made a strategy very seriously and made a PPT with pictures and texts. I am very satisfied. With her preparation, I think this journey will be very smooth and enjoyable. .

Neither of us have ever been to Mount Tai. We were going to take the high-speed rail. Youyu had already booked the tickets in advance. I didn’t worry about it at all. I just moved my mouth and said, "Okay, yes, no problem. It’s great!"

You Yu sorted out a suitcase for clothes, and two backpacks for carrying important items, each of us carried one backpack.

On the day of departure, You Yu and I were very excited, because we had been working hard for a while, and we had been looking forward to relaxing.

Thinking of spending a wonderful night with Youyu on the top of Mount Tai, I can't wait.

We came to the waiting hall of the high-speed rail station, found an empty seat, sat down and waited.

"You Yu." A surprised voice came from far and near, the owner of that voice was running, and when I had time to see the person in front of me clearly, that person had already hugged You Yu tightly into his arms.

I stood by the side dumbstruck, I saw You Yu also hugged her, I couldn't judge the relationship between the two, but suddenly a burst of jealousy arose in my heart, how could You Yu be so close to others in front of me?And the clothes they wear are not thick.

In Country L, You Yu and I have hugged many people, but not in China, I can't accept that.

After they let go, my face was as black as the bottom of a pot.

You Yu introduced me: "This is my high school classmate, named Li Shu."

When I heard that it was her high school classmate, my whole body's nerves rang the alarm bell. The name sounded a little familiar. She should be the guy who warmed You Yu's bed in winter.

The other party stretched out her hand to me enthusiastically. I took a look at her hand and then at her smile. Her teeth were really like braided shells.That's her!I reached out my hand bitterly, held it vigorously, and secretly exerted force, a look of pain appeared on her face.

After I let go of Li Shu's hand, she resisted the urge to rub it with the other hand. She is obviously much more mature and stable than me.

"Where are you going?" You Yu asked Li Shu.

"Going to Shenzhen, how about you?" Li Shu didn't seem to think much about my relationship with Youyu, maybe she thought we were just colleagues and we were going on a business trip together.

"Let's go to Mount Tai to play." You Yu looked back at me with a smile, and when she found that I was upset, she turned around and squeezed my hand. I was stiff all over and didn't give her any response.

Li Shu took out his mobile phone and said, "Youyu, let me add your contact information."

"Okay." You Yu hurriedly took out the phone, and they added WeChat.

"I have to check the ticket, keep in touch." Li Shu dragged her luggage and was about to leave.

"Okay, keep in touch." You Yu said.

Li Shu obviously wanted to hug You Yu again, but seeing my frightening eyes, she quickly dismissed her thoughts.

She waved at You Yu and me and walked towards the ticket gate. After passing the ticket gate, she turned around and waved at You Yu again.

My mentality completely collapsed. With a dark face, I blurted out the words in my heart: "Do you really want to be so affectionate in front of me?"

After You Yu heard my words, his complexion also changed, and my chest was a mess: "Is she the one you've been thinking about all this time?"

"I'm not obsessed with it." You Yu tried to explain.

"I think you just can't forget!" I knew that there was nothing between them, but I still couldn't control my mouth.

You Yu didn't say anything, just dragged the suitcase and went out.

"Hey, where are you going?" I asked after chasing.

"Go home, I won't go to Mount Tai." She said without turning her head, and I became even more angry.

A good vacation ruined like this.

I hurriedly called her frantically, but she didn't answer, so I had to hail a taxi and drive home.

When I got home, Youyu's suitcase was in the living room, and the door of the master bedroom was closed. I went up and pushed it, but it couldn't be opened.

The train station is not far from home, and there is still time to rush there, if it is not possible to change the ticket.

"You Yu, open the door." I knocked hard on the door.

You Yu said angrily, "I won't go."

"No, I have to go, the train is about to leave." In a panic, I began to twist the door vigorously. I didn't know whether my strength was too strong or the quality of the door was not good. With a click, the door lock broke, and I rushed in.

You Yu was taken aback by me, I threw myself on the bed, hugged You Yu who was lying on his side and said, "You Yu, I'm sorry, let's go back to the train station now."

Seeing that I broke the door, You Yu was so angry that she almost vomited blood. She spat out two words between her teeth: "No."

I finally resigned to my fate, and now the top priority is no longer to catch the train, but to appease Youyu.

Under my constant harassment, You Yu couldn't take it anymore, she got up and refunded the high-speed rail ticket, let me go out for a while, said she wanted to be quiet, and then lay on her side and ignored me.

I turned her over, she was not as strong as I was, and couldn't hold me back, so she had to turn around, but closed her eyes tightly.

"Ah, my heart hurts." I started to hold my chest.

You Yu still closed her eyes and did not speak, but I knew she was struggling inside.

"My heart really hurts." Seeing her open her eyes, I quickly frowned, acting very realistically.

Seeing that her whole body was a little stiff, she seemed to be ready to react, my performance immediately escalated, and I fell to the floor with a thump, Youyu couldn't lie down now, she quickly got up, squatted beside me, wanting to see How about me, I bounced on the floor and lay there motionless, sending the "I'm up" message.

I didn't open my eyes, but I'm sure You Yu has been scared silly.

"Zhizhi, don't die." You Yu cried, and she shook me gently, "What should I do? I killed your mother's daughter."

Her voice sounded desperate and terrified. I didn't expect You Yu to be so easy to deceive. I told her before that I sometimes feel stuffy in my heart. She probably really thought I had a heart attack, but I didn't.

I couldn't bear it anymore, I moved a bit, then opened my eyes, and smiled at her.

You Yu swears instantly: "Bastard, get out!"

I had no choice but to get up and mellowly went to another room, I pricked up my ears to listen to the movement over there, You Yu probably recovered.

I didn't die, and she didn't have to be so sad. The next thing I heard You Yu got up and started to repair the door lock.

I knew the lock was doomed because I had completely unscrewed the catch on the door frame.

However, the door lock is broken, so You Yu can no longer prevent me from entering that room, I thought proudly.

I saw that it would take an hour or two for Youyu to calm down, so I stretched out my head and said "I'm going out" to her.

I went to the supermarket in the shopping mall to buy a bouquet of perfume lilies, went to the deli to buy a box of her favorite braised beef, and stopped by a nearby convenience store to buy the latest fashion magazine this month. When I got home , You Yu really didn't have any anger on her face, she was tidying up the counter in the kitchen.

I quietly entered the kitchen, hugged her from behind, put my face on her shoulder and said, "You Yu, I bought you flowers, magazines and braised beef."

Youyu turned around and faced me, I was too close to her, she had to lean back on the kitchen counter, she looked at me seriously and said: "Zhizhi, your temper is getting more and more out of control gone."

When she said that, I thought about it carefully, and it seemed to be true.

I don't know when it started, but I started to feel a little manic. Maybe I was too eager to keep what belonged to me, so I would overreact to any external threats.

I was not like this before. I thought I was a very casual person before, and I didn't care so much about gains and losses.

Now I seem to be a lot more demanding, maybe because Youyu makes me too comfortable and comfortable, so I have a strong sense of rejection for people and things that make me uncomfortable, and I am willing to stay in the fabric that Youyu wove for me. Gentle country.

Not only that, but I have lost the desire to explore many things in the outside world, and I don’t have much motivation to make new friends. I think it’s enough to have a tour.

For a long time, I thought that the world has nothing to do with me, only Youyu has something to do with me.

So if Youyu gives me a little sense of insecurity, I will have a huge reaction. This is indeed a problem that I have never been aware of.

I said sincerely, "I was wrong, honey."

"Zhizhi, don't scare me like this in the future." You Yu's voice was choked with sobs, "At that moment, I really thought you were dead, I was completely hopeless, my whole body was empty, I was really going to be scared to death by you gone."

I chuckled, put my arms around her and said, "I know."

In fact, under normal circumstances, if we quarrel, we can manage it for half a year. After half a year or so, I will be more obedient and not be a big monster, but after half a year, I will be able to piss You Yu off again, just like this day.

Half a year is also the deadline for You Yu to endure me. I know that she will not get angry easily, so I usually only make small troubles to anger her, and occasionally challenge her endurance limit. Most of the time, I just let it go.

"You Yu, I don't want you to get too close to that Li Shu." At night, I hugged You Yu from behind and acted like a baby against her ear.

"Okay, I get it." Maybe she knew that I cared about her and made the fuss, so she didn't blame me in particular after she calmed down. Instead, she blamed herself, "I will keep a distance from her in the future. But you You really don’t need to think too much, she has a girlfriend and is planning to go overseas to register for marriage.”

"How do you know?" I asked.

"When I added her on WeChat, I took a look at her circle of friends." You Yu said.

Knowing that Li Shu would not fight You Yu with me, I felt more at ease at that time, and the turmoil between me and You Yu passed away.

"Speaking of getting married, I actually thought about it too, but I didn't dare to mention it, because Youyu didn't seem to have that intention at the time. I originally wanted to wait for the right time and hit it off." I didn't look at Shu Ci's face , lowered his head and said to himself, his voice full of regret.

After Shu Ci heard about my incident, her tone was a bit unfriendly: "You know, I didn't mean you, but you still want to propose to someone just like you? How could you be so messy? Your temper is much more stubborn than before, and your heart is too big." It has become narrow, no wonder You Yu can't stand you."

It's an awful thing to say, but I can't refute it.

I don't know how I changed from a person who can still think about others to a person who can't tolerate the slightest bit of sand in his eyes.

"You know, you have always been aggressive, do you know?" Shu Ci continued to criticize me. In my life, Shu Ci is probably the only one who can talk to me so bluntly. I listen to what she says Well, I don't deny that I'm a bit of an aggressive person.

Youyu is the exact opposite of me in this regard. She is a defensive personality. She never takes the initiative to attack others. When others attack her, she usually endures it, and then learns the lesson, grows up by herself or stays away from that person.

But she treats me differently, I am her lover, and my love for her is greater than my shortcomings, so she always tolerates me, even if sometimes my inadvertent aggressiveness will accidentally hurt her.

Her tolerance made me gradually become a little unscrupulous, because I know that even if I lose everything, I will not lose Youyu. With her, I am not afraid of losing the whole world.

You Yu is my greatest capital, and her tolerance is my greatest confidence, so I decided to refute Shu Ci: "I think that although I have an aggressive personality, it is not necessarily a bad thing. Youyu is the same, so who will protect her?"

Shu Ci is a sensible person, she said: "But, do you know that you will unknowingly exert your aggressive personality on her. She has always tolerated you because she loves you. You are good, and you are getting better and better. Arrogant, more and more excessive. You ask yourself, You Yu gave you a sense of security, have you given her a sense of security?"

I really want to say "Yes, I love her so much", but I know very clearly that I have been kidnapping Youyu with my love, but Youyu didn't realize it.

I know that after Shu Ci heard my story, her evaluation of me became worse and worse. In the past, she may have had a little nostalgia for me, but now it is completely gone. She may be very glad that she did not have the urge to try at that time. Puncture that layer of window paper.