wildfire in the heart

When I went downstairs in the morning, You Yu had already washed up in the bathroom.

I walked into the bathroom and hugged her waist, smelling the fragrance of her hair, Youyu was stiff and nervous, I knew she must be shy, and didn't know how to react to me.

After watching her put on her face cream and lip balm, I turned her around and looked into her eyes with a smile.

She was finally willing to look at me, and my eyes swept down inadvertently, and I was suddenly taken aback.

You Yu saw my eyes and subconsciously tightened his collar.

I felt a little guilty, and a little proud, I didn't know how to love her, so I put her in my arms and said, "You Yu, I'm very happy."

"Me too." You Yu said leaning against me.

After hugging her for a while, I took her hand, walked out of the bathroom and said, "Come on, I'll make breakfast for you, sit down and wait for me."

You Yu walked to the dining table and sat down, watching me go to the kitchen to fiddle around.

The breakfast this day was extraordinarily rich. I toasted bread, took butter, peanut butter and strawberry jam, brought them over, made two more cups of coffee, peeled two apples, cut them into small pieces, put them on a plate, and sent them over.

"Enough is enough, I can't finish eating so much." You Yu couldn't help but said after seeing me come and go several times.

"It's okay, you can eat more, if you can't finish it, I will still be here." Since Da Youyu moved here, my appetite has not been so good. Every time she cooks, I can make rounds, like a starving ghost Possession.

For breakfast this day, You Yu ate a little more than usual. She finished all the food I put in front of her, probably because she was really hungry.

After breakfast, You Yu wanted to clean up for me, but I stopped her: "Let me do it."

I tidied up the table and ran to the kitchen to wash up. After tossing, I came out and saw that You Yu had turned on her laptop and was studying. She also opened two books borrowed from the library. coming book.

I counted the days, and it was less than three months before she finally handed in her thesis, and her time was really tight.

Seeing her frowning slightly and thinking deeply, I decided not to disturb her, I just hope that she can graduate quickly so that I can take her home.

I was nestled on the sofa, checking emails, replying to emails, and just as I was replying, the mailbox suddenly indicated that new emails had come in.

I clicked on it and saw that it was from Lou Qin. In the letter, she told me in a very cautious tone that some projects in the company had some problems. I have a hunch, I can't tell why, I only know that my partners rarely had problems before, and even if there were problems, they seldom had problems together.

This time it seemed that things were not as simple as before. I hurriedly sent an email to Lou Qin, asking her to stabilize first, and talk to the partners first, and I will contact them as soon as possible.

After answering the email, I turned off the computer, and the sense of crisis made me suddenly realize that I hadn’t taken care of my business properly for a long time. Could this be a warning to me that I don’t care about work.

Still, I have no regrets because my time and energy were spent on someone I consider most valuable, and this person deserves it.

"Zhizhi, what are you thinking?" You Yu's voice came from above my head.

I turned my head and saw You Yu standing behind the sofa and looking at me with a smile, I said, "It's okay, I was wondering if you've finished your work."

"Sorry, I was too engrossed in reading just now."

"Understood, you have to hurry up with your graduation thesis!" I stretched out my hand, and Youyu put her hand in my palm consciously, and I took her from behind the sofa to me, and then hugged her and sat on my lap.

You Yu was afraid that it would crush me, so she used her feet to prop up a little bit of strength. Although I am not a Popeye, I am born with a good physique, so she doesn't need to worry about me at all.

I put my arms around her waist, buried my head in the hair on the side of her shoulders and asked, "After you finish writing your thesis and get your graduation certificate, what are your plans after that?"

I was full of expectations for her to say, what else can I do, of course I will go back to China with you, but she didn’t answer that way, she said: “I am going to apply for a one-year renewal, this visa is for international students to find a job here , I want to try to see if I can find a suitable job here. If I can accumulate some working experience in country L, it will be very helpful for my future development."

Hearing what she said, my heart dropped a foot in an instant. I planned there wishfully, but I didn't expect that she had other choices at all.

Of course I have no right to interfere with her decision, but I really don't know what else I can say against my will.

Seeing that I didn't speak, You Yu touched my ears with her hand, rubbed my earlobe and asked me, "Why don't you speak?"

"You Yu," I said with some difficulty, "I'm afraid of losing you."

"What are you thinking about?" You Yu looked at me with some surprise, "You won't lose me."

Tears welled up in my eyes instantly, and I buried my head in her chest and said, "Youyu, we will always be together."

She stroked my hair and said, "Well, we'll always be together."

I have nothing to tie Youyu, I can only rely on my sincere heart, I am so attached to her that I don't even realize that I am actually several years older than Youyu, I should be her Rely on, not let her give me confidence all the time.

Domestic affairs made me start to worry, and I was also worried about Youyu's affairs. At this time, I was in a dilemma, but I had to make up my mind to solve the problem quickly to prevent the situation from getting out of control.

In the afternoon, Youyu went to the university to meet her thesis advisor. She had made an appointment with the professor in advance. I sat in the house without her, feeling empty in my heart.

It was not until she came back with great difficulty that my heart was gradually filled.

This afternoon when she was not at home, I thought a lot. Seeing her come back, I did not get up, but stretched out my arms to her. After seeing my expression, she hurriedly put down the things in her hands, sat next to me and asked me: "I know, what's the matter?"

I hesitated to speak, and when I really opened my mouth, I talked about it from left to right: "Is the meeting with the professor going well today?"

"Well, it went well," You Yu said, "The professor is a gentle person, and he gave me a lot of useful advice."

I know that her dissertation supervisor is a native of country Y, in his fifties, but most of his hair is already gray.I accompanied Youyu to meet him once before, but I didn’t enter his office at that time. After they finished talking, they chatted a few more words at the door of the office. I stood by and listened silently. When the professor saw me, he nodded to me. Smiled a bit.

After listening to the conversation between the professor and You Yu, I knew that the professor was very serious and responsible, and You Yu must have benefited a lot. I also knew that You Yu's graduation thesis would not be bad.

"You Yu, come on!" I squeezed her hand and said.

You Yu saw that my expression was different, so he asked me softly: "Do you have something to tell me?"

She has seen it all, and there is no point in hiding it anymore, I am determined to tell her the truth: "You Yu, I have to go back to China as soon as possible, the company has some urgent matters to deal with."

"Oh." After Youyu said oh, she thought thoughtfully and didn't speak again. She neither urged me to go back nor showed any intention of keeping me.

Sometimes I really don't understand You Yu's thoughts, the emotions she expresses to me are always calm and natural, not fast or slow, as if she thinks it should be like this, but all this is always not enough in my opinion, She's obviously not as obsessive as I am, and she's still able to do things that I can't.

But how can I be willing to blame her? If I blame her, won't I push her further and further away?

We didn't talk much after that, she seemed to acquiesce in my leaving, I packed my luggage on my own, after dinner I began to hesitate whether to go to the attic tonight or sleep in the small room next to the living room.

It was almost eleven o'clock in the evening, and You Yu was lighting up the night battle as usual. I was on the sofa and repeatedly studied several emails from the partner that Lou Qin had forwarded to me. The more I looked at it, the more confused I became. She is still typing on the computer with great concentration.

It was already late at night, I couldn't help but yawned, You Yu probably heard it, she turned to me and asked, "Sleepy?"

I didn't want myself to affect her, so I said, "It's okay."

Even so, You Yu packed up the stationery on the desktop and turned off the computer.

After finishing all this, she went to the bathroom to wash up, and then went up to the attic silently.

I didn't know what she meant, so I had to wash up first. After washing up, I stood at the foot of the stairs on the first floor in a daze. I didn't know what to do.

I was stunned for a moment, seeing that You Yu hadn't responded, so I had to turn around and turn off the light in the living room, and went to the small room next to the living room to lie down.

For some reason, I was a little tired, and not long after I lay in bed, I fell into a drowsy sleep.

In the haze, I seem to be in a dream. I feel someone lying beside me. My first reaction is that person is You Yu. Then I think about it, maybe not, it may be the fox girl or the passionate female ghost described by Pu Songling. , my mind was confused, and I went astray for thousands of miles.

In the mist, I turned over, but I couldn't open my eyes. The person opposite me breathed and heard me, so I thought, if I can't open my eyes, try to talk to the head office.

"Are you a fox?" I muttered.

"No." The voice was so familiar.

"Then you are a female ghost?" After asking this, the hairs on my face stood on end.

The other party didn't speak, just stroked my cheek lightly with his hand, that hand was warm, I felt relieved, luckily it wasn't a ghost.

Alas, I sighed in my heart, the dream can be so real, at this moment, the soft words and gentleness are by my side, I only wish to sleep for a long time and not want to wake up.

I thought to myself, whether it’s a fox, a ghost, or a dream, I can’t let go of what is in my hand. I touched the hand on my face, took advantage of the situation, and hugged him tightly, and went to sleep.

Just like that, I had a solid and long sleep, and when I woke up in the morning, it was already light.

I found myself lying alone in bed and knew that last night was indeed just a dream.

As the morning light hit my face, I suddenly regretted and annoyed. I felt guilty for my stinginess yesterday. I realized that some things need to be communicated, and holding them in my heart is a kind of barrier.

I sat up and tried to shout twice: "You Yu, You Yu."

There was no reply, so I got up and searched downstairs with bare feet, but there was no one.

I think she probably went to the school library to look up information, and she seemed to mention it yesterday.

My feet involuntarily took me to the stairs to the attic. I walked up slowly step by step. I didn't make up my mind to go up yesterday, but I still can't help but want to go up today.

When I walked to the attic, I thought I would see a neatly folded quilt, but suddenly I saw that the quilt on her bed was not folded, and a clump of long black hair was exposed on the pillow. My heart was so scared that I almost jumped out.

Last night, I shouldn't be thinking about fox girls and female ghosts. Suddenly, I thought it was a female ghost on TV.I covered my chest and gasped for breath, I was so scared that I couldn't understand.

After careful identification, I finally confirmed that the one lying there was a living Youyu, not some ghost or ghost.

I wondered in my heart, why is she still sleeping at this point, could it be that she is sick and uncomfortable?

Thinking of this, I hurried to her bedside to test the temperature of her forehead.

The temperature is normal and there is no fever.

She hummed lightly, slowly waking up.

I hurriedly withdrew my hand, but she still woke up, slowly opened her eyes, and looked at me with blind eyes.

I looked at the end of her delicate and affectionate eyes, and I was a little lost for a while. She looks like a little fox who has just woken up.

"Are you awake?" To ease the embarrassment, I asked her.

"Hmm." Her tone was a little lazy.

"What time is it?" she asked.

Before going upstairs, I checked the time: "It's past nine o'clock."

"Huh? It's past nine o'clock?" I guess she didn't expect that she would sleep so late.

"Did you not sleep well last night?" I asked her.

"Well, I didn't sleep well." Her voice was thin and soft, and she seemed to be complaining a little bit, and my soul was taken away by her.

I made up my mind and asked, "Why didn't you sleep well?"

"It's not because of you." You Yu seldom spoke so bluntly. After she finished speaking, she narrowed her eyes and smiled at me. My heart beat faster and my blood boiled. I felt that she had something to say.

I pretended to be calm: "I didn't do anything, why is it my fault?"

"What didn't you do?" You Yu raised his voice slightly, "You almost suffocated me."

"Ah?" What's the situation, what did I do?

Seeing that You Yu didn't answer, I understood instantly, and I asked her: "You...was you last night?"

"Otherwise who do you think it is?"

"I...I thought I was dreaming." I answered honestly.

"Oh," You Yu sighed slightly, "you covered me so tightly in your dream, I could only barely breathe, and you let go after holding it for most of the night. I saw that the sky was a little brighter, so I came up to catch up on sleep .”

It turns out that, although I feel guilty at the moment, but more of it is joy that cannot be restrained. I force myself to control the corners of my mouth that I want to raise and ask: "Why did you come down?"

"Yesterday, I waited for you for a long time, and saw that you went to sleep by yourself. I felt a little uncomfortable, so I went downstairs to find you. I didn't know that I was restrained by you as soon as I went." Looking at Youyu's lips that were still lying there Telling the story one by one, my heart was very tight, and I found that it was easier for her to reveal her true feelings when she was lying down.

I don't ask for more, she is willing to get close to me in her heart, and I am very content.Thinking about it carefully, I was wrong, I was always seeking perfection and blaming, and I always set the rhythm on my own, without considering her personality or her feelings.

I should have said sorry to her, but I know it doesn't make much sense. I want to prove to her with practical actions that I will match her rhythm, slowly run in, and integrate those things that we haven't fully revealed. out of the complete self.

I lowered my head and kissed her for a long and lingering kiss. After the kiss was over, I said, "Youyu, I will go back soon when I return to China this time. You can write your thesis at ease, and I will miss you."

"Okay, I wish you all the best." You Yu said softly.