wildfire in the heart

I took an apple from the fruit plate and went to the sink to peel it for her. When I finished peeling the apple and turned around, I saw You Yu's face was full of tears. She was crying so quietly, which made my heart beat violently. Knowing that I made a mistake, I touched a forbidden area in her heart.

She seemed to be unable to control her emotions anymore, and I inadvertently made a gap in the dam that was built in her heart.

I was in a hurry, I put the apples on the plate, my hands were still sticky, and I wanted to wipe her tears.

Realizing that her face would be dirty, I hurriedly took my hand back and went to the sink to rinse. When I came back, she had already turned her face to the other side. She was hiding from my sight and didn't seem to plan to turn back. .

I was very flustered, and said in a murmur, "You Yu, I'm sorry."

After a while, You Yu controlled the crying in his voice and said, "It's none of your business."

Even though she said so, my heart has already cried out a brook with her, and I feel that my heart has become a water bag, which is so heavy that it is about to be unable to bear it.

I fell into You Yu's emotions so deeply, I couldn't extricate myself, I wanted to share everything about her as if I had been fascinated.

All this happened so suddenly, I don't know whether it was she who charmed me, or I was stupid enough, in short, at this moment, I can no longer be calm.

I turned to the other side of the hospital bed, and met You Yu's face, You Yu was a little surprised, she quickly turned her head to the other side, and I went back unrelentingly, You Yu turned back a little embarrassed.

I was afraid that she would escape again, so I supported her face, and her pupils dilated instantly. I knew she was a little uncomfortable, but I didn't intend to let go.

"Miss An, don't do this." You Yu stared at me with shining eyes, and there was a hesitant light inside.

"No," I suddenly became blunt, "I...I want to chase you."

"You!" You Yu obviously didn't know how to face me like this.

"I know," I said hastily, "I know you are still sick, and you haven't liked me yet, you don't have to decide now, I just want you to know my heart. Because... because I see you sad My heart hurts so much." After I finished speaking, my eyes were red, and there was a sour feeling in my eyes, and my lungs were a little short of breath.

I'm afraid of You Yu's sentencing, I wish I could close my eyes, but I can't be cowardly, if I coax, it will make it harder for You Yu.

"Miss An..., I know..., thank you." This was You Yu's reply.

She knew, since when did she know?Thank me?Then what?Countless questions arose in my mind at the same time, but now I can't ask any more questions, I can only wait for You Yu to answer my doubts proactively, if she doesn't tell me and I still ask, that's forcing her, so I decided to temporarily Take a step back.

I said: "Youyu, you don't have to thank me. I want to thank you, thank you for making me feel excited and like someone."

"You don't understand me." You Yu sighed, she closed her eyes slightly, I found that she was a little tired, the patient shouldn't experience so many emotions, it would take a lot of damage to the body, I shouldn't arouse A past she doesn't want to remember.

I admit that I don't know You Yu well, but I don't care about her past at all. If she wants to talk, I'll listen. If she doesn't want to talk, her past is a blank slate to me, and I'm happy Take the moment we met as the beginning of our lives.

Like Youyu or not, I decided to let my heart tell me that I don't want to do too much rational analysis.

So from the beginning to the end, I simply like her, not because of anything else, just because she is her.

"You're tired, go to sleep for a while, I won't bother you." I let go of my hand on her cheek and took a step back.

She glanced at me wearily, and that glance made me feel that there was a gap between us suddenly. This gap made my footsteps imprisoned.

You Yu really fell asleep very quickly, she slept for a long time, when she woke up again, she became very calm.Her attitude towards me was kind of weird, and she said something that made me feel like I was just her benefactor.Her extremely polite words of gratitude made it obvious to me that she was pushing me away.

I quickly came to a conclusion, that is, You Yu may have had a little affection for me, but she didn't like me that much.

I was devastated to realize this, but I fought back and tried to play the role of a good boss.

I can no longer be with her in the ward because that is not what she wants.

I went back to the house I rented, but I went to see her two or three times a day, and when I saw her indicating that she was tired, I quickly retreated.

A week later, Youyu was discharged from the hospital. Country L's medical benefits are very good, and hospitalization doesn't cost money, so she doesn't have to worry about medical expenses, which is also a comfort to me.

She started to go to school normally, and I couldn't let go because I was depressed. Without saying goodbye to her, I ran to country W, a neighboring country of L, and traveled alone with a backpack for a few days.

I haven't contacted You Yu for the past few days, and You Yu hasn't contacted me either. I don't know if she thinks of me. I'm wandering around by myself like a fool, pretending that You Yu will notice my loss of contact , And finally willing to take me to heart.

After returning to country L from country W, I took the initiative to contact Youyu.I'm afraid that if I don't contact her for too long, more barriers will form between us, and I don't want this to happen.

I called You Yu to the house and office I rented in country L, and said I wanted to talk to her about work.

She came, her expression was normal, I found that she was really stable, but I always lost my way.

I told You Yu about the progress of the cooperation with the milk company. In fact, I asked Lou Qin for this information in a hurry after I came back. The whole thing seemed to be my homework to meet You Yu.

After hearing this, You Yu nodded and said, "Great, Ms. An, it looks like everything is going well." When she said it was great, she wasn't particularly emotional. I know she's talking to me right now. Guarded against.

"Would you like to celebrate and spend my birthday with me?" I asked her cautiously.

Youyu's face finally changed, she was thinking seriously, she is not an unreasonable person.I live and work alone in country L, and she seems to feel obliged to accompany me.

I added fuel to the fire: "It's really pitiful to go out to a restaurant to celebrate your birthday."

The soft-hearted You Yu was moved by me, she said: "Okay, where are you going?"

There was a burst of joy and ecstasy in my heart, and I hurriedly said: "Let's go to the best steakhouse in the city. They have a great set meal." I went to that steakhouse when I was on a business trip to Country L. , it is considered the most decent steakhouse in S city.

The gap between the rich and the poor in City S is not obvious, and the culture of the entire urban area is very casual. People don't have any special preference for whether it is high-end or not. Basically, all the restaurants in the city are very close to the people.

There are not many restaurants to choose from here. Most citizens don’t eat out very much. They only come out for dinner with friends or family dinners on special occasions.

For someone like me who doesn't cook well, life here is very difficult.I have to worry about my own meals for three meals a day, and I am really exhausted.Frozen food and fast food have me spinning my head these days.

When I was in China, I was used to big fish and big meat. It is extremely difficult for me to follow the Romans when I come here. If you have a meal with me, my appetite will definitely be good.I even thought, if Youyu agrees to be my girlfriend, I will learn how to cook and prepare delicious dishes for her every day.

The next day, I waited for Youyu to leave school, and called a car to wait for her at the school gate. I saw her wave goodbye to Kasper and then ran towards me.

I jumped out of the car in a hurry, opened the door for her, and waited for her to sit in before I sat next to her and closed the door.

The driver's English is not very good. He only exchanged a few words with me and set off.

I looked at You Yu with joy, I wonder if You Yu saw the joy and affection in my eyes, she and I looked at each other, smiled, then turned to look at the side window.

When we arrived at the steakhouse, we were led to a table for two that I had reserved in advance. I ran over to help her pull a chair. She was a little embarrassed because I was also a girl, but no one paid attention to us. Everyone was happily chatting with their partners. , I certainly don't care about these.

We sat down to order the main menu of the night and chatted.

At first I couldn't enter the state, and I kept watching her giggle, which made her feel uncomfortable, so I had to stare at the flickering candlelight on the table.

The red wine in the package was served, and I started to prepare for the home game.

I poured red wine into You Yu's wine glass, I toasted, and she picked up the wine glass too, I touched her and said, "Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me."

"Happy birthday to you, Miss An." After You Yu finished speaking, we took a sip of red wine together.

My alcohol capacity is not bad, but I noticed that You Yu only took a sip, and I guessed in my heart that she might not be able to drink.

Before the main course was served, I began to tell You Yu my childhood anecdotes, my family, and why I celebrated my birthday grandly.

From You Yu's expression, I can tell that she thinks I'm a treasure of myself.

I admit that birthdays are very special to me, and I am actually afraid of birthdays.I am afraid of getting older, I am afraid to death, because I am afraid, so I want to celebrate it more and more, I treat my birthday as an enemy and I want to defeat it.

Unknowingly, I brainwashed You Yu forcibly, so that she began to slowly walk into my private world, so that she had to understand me and empathize with me.

I think I have seen through Youyu's weakness. She seems to be a person who pushes people away, but in fact she is a soft hearted person who is very considerate of others.Her defense against me should not be because of me, but because of something in her heart that I have never experienced.

The dishes were served one by one, we ate and chatted slowly, of course I was the main one talking, she ate politely and listened carefully, she would occasionally talk about her school, but she obviously didn’t want to Talk too much about your own family.

"This is delicious." I couldn't help but cut a piece of the steak that was just on my plate and put it on her plate.

You Yu was a little dazed, looked at me and said, "Miss An, I can't eat that much."

"Then just eat this one."

Seeing that I persisted, You Yu had no choice but to accept it.

After eating this meal for more than two hours, I said to her, "Youyu, can you take a walk with me?" I didn't want her to go back yet.

I took her around the city center, and then we walked together to the stone bridge next to the church, and I asked You Yu, "Are you cold?"

You Yu subconsciously tightened the scarf and said, "Fortunately, it's not cold."

She didn't wear gloves, and after my eyes fell on her hands, I couldn't leave them anymore. A thought began to roll in my heart, I wanted to help her warm her hands.