That 1 his waist protruded

01

Some people like any kind of extreme, such as slender body, slender limbs, and soft waist.

The person who abducted me to bed in the first place liked it, and so did the person he later introduced to me.

Those years were crazy and desperate, the despair of wanting to sink with the setting sun.After dark is another me, chasing cheap pleasures and giving up my soul.

It looks good to express it with images, but it is just as good to describe it with what happened.

In my generation, there should be a lot of divorced parents.They had a new family quickly after their divorce and didn't need me as a legacy of my failed marriage.I grew up with my grandparents, and only my grandparents loved me.

Later, when the two elders got older, my uncle insisted on taking them to live together.They insisted on taking me with them, and my aunt often quarreled with them about this.

In the end, I still lived in my uncle's house together.

My uncle’s family has a cousin who is six years older than me. When I saw him when I was young, he would always take me to play.I moved into his house and shared a room with him.Unlike my uncle who looked on coldly and my aunt who was sarcastic, he welcomed me.

That year my cousin was doing an internship in his senior year, and the internship unit was with us. He lived at home and took good care of me.

Only later, he abducted me into bed.Cousins ​​who live together have this kind of relationship, which is more private and safer than him going to someone else.

The next year I went to high school, he also had a job, and he had more freedom in time and money, so he started to lead me around again.

He told me I wasn't his alone.He supports me having a bed partner other than him, just remember to wear a condom.He taught me that being liked is an advantage, use it well, and don't suffer.

At that time, I didn't know whether I liked boys or girls, and I was already drawn into this relationship.

Incest, or homosexuality.If my aunt finds out, I'm afraid she will pick my skin off.But she shouldn't have a chance to know.

My grandparents passed away one after another, leaving their wills and leaving their house to me.Meanwhile I moved out.

My cousin got married last year.

I'm just a younger brother, and my cousin's tenderness is reserved for my sister-in-law.

Our dysfunctional relationship is finally over.Not to mention love and hate, it was just a mutual comforting existence.

02

After my cousin got married, I completely indulged for a while.

Disco dancing and drinking are normal activities, and there will be sideshows afterwards.Sometimes I open the room, and sometimes I don’t even have the time to open the room. When the atmosphere is up, I will show it in the bathroom by the way.

That hidden bad relationship, I never understood his thoughts.He gave me warmth and happiness, but was afraid that I would depend on him.Take me to indulge and have fun, and remind me not to get hurt.

This kind of life was stopped by an accident, a small accident.

Because I injured my ligament due to a habitual sprain, I was undergoing surgery in the hospital, and I happened to meet my therapist Wang Yu.

At that time, because of his relationship problems, Wang Yu became the focus of gossip among idlers in the circle, and there were also some suitors who didn't think it was a big deal to watch the excitement.

I was probably one of them, and I invited him beyond my capacity.He wasn't interested in me, but comforted me after I told him about my mess.

"What humans want is dopamine, endorphins, adrenaline."

"Pure physical pleasure is the cheapest dopamine. There are many different pleasures in this world. You deserve to be loved."

He is really a very gentle person.He said he couldn't save me, but he gave me a hand anyway.

Probably luck bottomed out. After I met Wang Yu, I changed my dormitory, got a new roommate, and broke away from my previous life.

My previous roommates discriminated against homosexuality and wouldn’t let me hang my clothes on the balcony. When they touched my things, they acted like “I’m not clean anymore” and always seemed to hit people.Later, I got into a fight with them, and they went to the instructor again, trying to "get me out."

At that time, I didn't want to stay in school, I always went out to play.This time he was recovering from his injuries and moved to a new dormitory, which made him feel much better.The most important thing is that there is Yan Chaoling in this dormitory.

Yan Chaoling's dormitory has always been three people, and there is one vacant seat.He invited me to move here, saying that their dormitory would never bully me.

In the past year, I didn't have much contact with them. I couldn't figure out why Yan Chaoling suddenly wanted to help me, but he still moved there.The atmosphere in their dormitory is particularly good, and the daily sand sculptures are relaxed and lively.

Yan Chaoling explained: "I can't see them bullying people like that."

He was also a gentle man, a warm man.

The word "get out" came out of Yan Chaoling's mouth later, and I thought about it before realizing what it meant.He talks, sometimes a little funny.

I was in the hospital when I moved, and Yan Chaoling helped me pack my luggage, and resettled it, just waiting for me to leave the hospital and go back.

03

I recognized Wang Yu as brother.He is a much more reliable elder brother than my cousin.Well, it can't be compared like that.My cousin is not worthy of Ayubi.

Ayu asked me to have dinner with me after he found that I was abnormally thin.He seemed to know what I was facing at a glance.

He also took my hand and examined the scar on the inside of my wrist.I cut the skin many times, but I didn't dare to cut the blood vessels directly.As if he knew everything about it, he wasn't surprised, he just looked at it.Finally, he told me to remember to eat.

I was suddenly very sad, more sad than the dark scars being dug out and exposed to the sun.

I envy the man he loves, maybe I also have a little bit of jealousy that I don't want to admit.But I quickly figured out that I was too far from that person, just like Ayu and my cousin are not comparable, and I am not at all comparable to the person Ayu loves.

I have heard a lot of gossip about Berg and Ayu, and I can guess how much Ayu loves him from the clues.I don't have any covetous thoughts on Ayu, it's just that he is a warm person with the ability to love, and I instinctively long to be loved.

Before leaving the hospital, I exchanged contact information with Ayu.Yan Chaoling came to pick me up that day and helped me with my backpack.And I am on crutches, although the main function of crutches is to remind others to keep their distance and not touch me.I can walk now, but I don't dare to bear the weight, and I can't help but touch it.

When going up the stairs, Yan Chaoling carried me up, and then he frowned and asked me, "Why are you so light?"

I don't know how to answer.

Yan Chaoling concluded on his own: "You must not have eaten well. I will supervise you in the future."

After a pause, he said, "It's boring to eat alone. I'll eat with you in the future."

I am a little dumbfounded.

Actually, I can't eat much.It may be a side effect of taking medicine, or it may be a somatic symptom. I often don't feel hungry, sometimes I forget to eat, and sometimes I am very hungry, but I still have to vomit after eating.It was so uncomfortable that I simply stopped eating.

Yan Chaoling didn't know, and he didn't know such things inexplicably like Ayu.He just put me in the scope of taking responsibility for protection, and then used his thinking to try to understand and help me.

A little clumsy and a little silly.That's normal, good people don't always seem that smart.

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Volume 1 begins with Poe (Sun Ruiyi) perspective No. [-], telling the story of the couple.If driving, switch to the third person.