That 1 his waist protruded

82

During the November holiday, I took Zhang Qiushu home with me.This is already considered coming out of the closet, and it is still the kind of direct introduction to a boyfriend.After all, there are only two things in this world that cannot be hidden——

My dad always thinks he understands me, and I hope I don't have to waste my time talking about it this time.

This is not a bet that my parents love me so they accept me, but the economic foundation determines the status of the family. Now that my wings are hardened, they can't do anything to me.

Of course, they can also treat it as if they don't see it or know it.This is their freedom.They are very proficient in this set, just like no matter how I explain that I will not get married, they all say "you are still young, you will figure it out later".

We have nothing to do with each other.

There are two possibilities for this stalemate to continue.

One is when they are old and sick and have to need me, even if I am "not doing a proper job" in their eyes, they have to accept it.

The second is that my dad's stubborn temper just refused to accept it. When that day came, he gave up the treatment and went on a hunger strike to wait for death. He intended to make me regret it for the rest of my life.My mother can't, she's not so rigid.

Either way, it's not the result I expected.

Although I have passed the age of needing the approval of others to prove myself, even if they don't accept it all my life, I can live with confidence, after all, I still have some regrets.

When I was 26 years old, I thought about introducing Zhang Qiushu to them.To be precise, at that time I loved him so much that I wanted to show it off to the world - you see I have such a good lover.

It's just that I was afraid of scaring Zhang Qiushu and my parents, so the idea was shelved later.

83

We sat on the plane back to my hometown - because it was far away, there were only two options for taking the train: a 36-hour sleeper and a [-]-hour train, both of which were rejected by Zhang Qiushu, and finally we booked the ticket.

Even flying back still takes six hours, enough to sleep on the plane.

I was about to go to bed after getting on the plane, but Zhang Qiushu was a little uneasy.To be honest, I haven't seen him in such a difficult situation for a long time. From the very beginning, this guy is calmer than me when things happen, and he can hold the airs of his predecessors.

When we were both young, he once assumed the position of "backbone" in my life.

But it's cute to see him worried and tangled.Recently, I have praised him a lot for his cuteness in person. Now he is a little allergic to this word. If I am not allowed to say it, I can only think about it in my heart.

In half a year, Zhang Qiushu will be 39 years old.This guy is not the type whose face is so tender that his age is vague, but he still maintains his figure, dresses appropriately, and is full of the charm of a middle-aged man.

And I still maintain the aesthetics of the past, admiring the mature charm of men who are slightly older than me-although I know that Zhang Qiushu is not as perfect as he looks on the surface, and he is terribly naive in private.

Well, cute as hell too.

I slept for more than an hour, and when I woke up, Zhang Qiushu was looking at me from the side.When I opened my eyes, I said sadly: "You finally woke up."

I replied: "What you said is like a vegetative person who has been sleeping for many years, or a person who has just been rescued from death after being seriously injured and seriously ill has finally woken up."

Zhang Qiushu: "Shut up, don't set up flags."

I laughed. "Still nervous? Do you want to sleep?"

Zhang Qiushu couldn't sleep, so I talked with him for a while, then listened to music on my mobile phone, and gave him an earphone.

After half an hour he finally fell asleep and I was relieved.

I'm nervous too, but not both of us.Both of them were so nervous that they could pass through the house without entering. The problem was that Zhang Qiushu still had the posture of "you have to give me a name".

I can't bear to let him down.

84

The first thing you do when you get off the plane is go to the hotel you booked.He was surprised how cheap the local taxis were.

In fact during my student days, the main modes of transportation were buses and walking.The specific one depends on the distance and time of the journey. As long as I am not in a hurry, I will use the journey of about an hour.In most cases, taxis are even more reluctant to take.

In the summer of my internship, there was a heavy rain when I got off work, and I couldn’t even hold an umbrella, and I was completely wet when I got home.My dad said: "If it rains like this again, you can take a taxi." But at that time, the concept of taking a taxi didn't seem to be in my mind at all.

I'm too embarrassed to tell Zhang Qiushu about this kind of thing, lest he show that distressed and regretful expression.

He once said that he hoped to know me since he was a child, a few years older than me, live in my neighbor, tutor me in my studies, teach me principles, take me to play, he will protect me when someone bullies me, and he will accompany me when I am lonely .

I didn't have the heart to hit him. If he was really in my environment, he wouldn't be so carefree.Let him have this kind of dream.

I don't think I had a miserable past. The poverty in my youth was mainly due to my guilty conscience. I felt that I, a dead gay, couldn't be justified in life, so I dared to spend more money at home.

What I really struggled with was the days when I just ran to a big city to work hard.But later, Zhang Qiushu "targeted poverty alleviation" to me before I couldn't make it any longer.

He gave me a chance, and in the end I was able to settle down on my own after leaving my hometown, which is considered worthy of this help.

85

As soon as he went to the hotel to rest, Zhang Qiushu was scared.It's okay for me to be timid because of my closeness to my hometown, but he acted more exaggeratedly than me.I had expected this a long time ago, so I was not in a hurry to go home.

But Zhang Qiushu was dissatisfied again: "When are we going to meet the parents?"

I vaccinated him first: "If they are suddenly not friendly to you, don't be sad. Most likely they have noticed it and pretended not to know."

Zhang Qiushu waved his hand, "I'm mentally prepared to be beaten out with sticks."

I rubbed my chin and assessed my dad's temper, "He can't beat you, because he's afraid he won't be able to pay. He can only beat me. But my mother is also very good. In the early years, she went to the morning market and night market, went to the market and so on. , have conflicts with people, and have never lost by cursing people,"

So Zhang Qiushu was even more scared.

I asked him, "Do you want to sleep?"

Zhang Qiushu shook his head, "Everyone is going to sleep like a fool."

"You don't have to be so nervous. I told my family that a friend wants to come here to play and come back with me. You go back with me, that is, to see each other. If you don't get kicked out by luck, at most you will be together Have a meal."

"In fact, you don't need to care about their attitudes. No matter what they think, it won't affect my feelings for you."

Zhang Qiushu couldn't even stare at me weakly, "I'm even more panicked when you say that."

I asked: "Then go back and make a quick decision?"

Zhang Qiushu sighed, "Wait a little longer."

I kissed his forehead, "Don't panic, I'm still here."

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