That 1 his waist protruded

"There is no true recovery."

Ayu started going to the psychiatrist for follow-up visits and prescribed medicine.

Zhang Qiushu was a little worried, but Ayu just said lightly: "It's an old problem, just get used to it."

He was so depressed that Zhang Qiushu always wanted to do something to make him happy.

When Ayu came home from get off work, he had a dull expression on his face, changed his clothes, lay down on the bed and fell asleep.Zhang Qiushu finished dinner and stood beside the bed, hesitating whether to wake him up.

In the end, Ayu woke up by himself, sat up rubbing his eyes, and asked Zhang Qiushu, "What time is it?"

"Twenty past seven."

"have you eaten?"

"Waiting for you."

"Oh, you don't have to wait for me." Ayu got up, washed his face, and sat down at the dining table.

Zhang Qiushu had already served the meal, and after handing it over, he watched Ayu slouching and stuffing the dinner into his stomach without any taste.

"Do you want to get together with Deng You and the others?"

"Let's talk about it later."

"Play games with Shan Rui and the others?"

"Next time."

Zhang Qiushu was very worried, "Then what should I do?"

Ayu yawned, "Have you started to dislike me?"

"how is this possible!"

So Ayu smiled, "Just as a lumbar disc herniation will not go back on its own, there is only the difference between an acute attack and no attack, and there is no cure for severe depression, only when it is sick or not. In a sense, this is also the case. A chronic disease."

"It's been a long time since you committed a crime." Zhang Qiushu's hand holding the chopsticks loosened unconsciously, and the chopsticks fell on the table.

"Don't be like this." Ayu stood up and reached out to touch Zhang Qiushu's head, "I think you're going to cry when you're like this."

Deng You called everyone to get together in the group, but Ayu said nothing, and Zhang Qiushu, as a representative, said that he could not attend.

Deng You was surprised, "Is there anything you need to do?"

Zhang Qiushu cut the private chat and replied to Deng You: "He is not in a good state recently."

Deng You didn't realize it for a while, and it took a few more rounds in his mind to understand this sentence, "Have you gone to see it?"

"I went to prescribe medicine, but it still doesn't look good."

"In the first week, there are only side effects and no efficacy. It will take at least half a month. He has been there for so many years, maybe he is still a little resistant to the medicine. If you are not busy recently, spend more time with him."

Deng Younian went on and on about things that Zhang Qiushu would know even if he didn't mention them.But he could feel Deng You's worry and helplessness from Deng You's nagging.

After confirming that there was no follow-up in the group, Sun Ruiyi took the initiative to chat with Zhang Qiushu in private: "Brother, what happened to my brother?"

Zhang Qiushu rubbed his temples and answered a "sister" and a "brother".

Ah Yu was sitting in the living room hugging the pillow in a daze, a movie was playing on the TV screen, half an hour passed and he didn't even know the protagonist's name.

Zhang Qiushu saw that he was absent-minded, stopped the movie that was playing, and switched to another one.

The video started playing, and Ayu finally had a reaction.

"Watercolour?"

What he asked was of course not the name of the movie, but why it was released.

"I watched this movie with you at the time. Although we have been together for a while, I still feel that I didn't know you well enough in the past, so when I should have a good chat with you, I turned the topic to those who didn't. of."

Ayu asked back: "So now you want to do it all over again?"

Zhang Qiushu hesitated for a moment, but still nodded, "That's right."

Ah Yu still remembers the plot of the movie, he has seen it more than once, and he doesn't mind watching it again.It's not how much he likes it, nor how good the movie is, he's just thinking about something.

The movie is in reverse order. Although the ending is known from the beginning, I still have expectations for this story.

Zhang Qiushu turned his head and stared at Ayu's side face.Ayu's lips were pursed into a line. He didn't know what Ayu was thinking when he watched this movie for the first time many years ago.

Perhaps the love is too short, the memories are too long, or some associations that are not closely related to the movie.

"Actually, there are many things in this movie that I don't understand. For example, Carter's obsession with swimming, let's call it a dream. I am a person without dreams. There are too many people without dreams in this world. It's not surprising. Yes. But in the movie, Carter has swimming, and Danny has his paintings. It seems that no matter whether you succeed or not, you have to have a dream. I suddenly envy people who have dreams. Get in the way of our lives."

"We should choose a major at a loss when we don't understand the world, and go to work at a loss when we don't understand the society. Looking at it this way, it's really normal for people to make mistakes in life."

Zhang Qiushu asked him: "Have you ever regretted it? Did you choose to come to this city after studying this major?"

"I don't regret anything." Ayu tilted his head, "You played the movie again for me, did you want to say something?"

"I remember you said I was your first love?"

"Ah."

Zhang Qiushu said jokingly: "You really love me so much."

Ayu nodded and admitted, "Yes."

"I re-read it a few times later, and felt that the story was still bloody and immature, and the background was something I didn't understand, but in the end, the plot returned and it was better to take the person in front of me."

Zhang Qiushu's face darkened, "Then what about the person in front of you at that time?"

"Not at that time. Don't you think I'm a philanderer who doesn't even have a window period?"

Ayu's speech speed was slower than usual, probably because he was sick and listless.

Zhang Qiushu felt that he had forgotten what he wanted to say to him at first.

"Now is the time to cherish the person in front of you." Ayu finally comforted Zhang Qiushu a little.

"So you didn't find out what he had in mind, but you were coaxed by him, that's right." Su Hefeng smiled happily at Zhang Qiushu who was very melancholy.

It's not that he has to base his happiness on the pain of others, it's just that it's sour to see this guy suffering.

After laughing, Su Hefeng concluded: "Because he is Ayu."

What the hell kind of answer is that.

"Although I heard that he was sick, Deng Deng said that he finally remembered that Ayu is not omnipotent. But think about it, he should be in great pain, because of many small things that should not be noticed. I feel pain, but I can’t tell you clearly. He doesn’t want you to see these unexplainable pains, so he has maintained at least a calm state to face it.”

Zhang Qiushu sighed, "Although Ayu is not omnipotent, she is also very hardworking and gentle."

"So he worked too hard." Su Hefeng gave him a "you understand" look.

Seeing that Zhang Qiushu didn't understand, Su Hefeng gave a dry cough, and suggested sincerely and irresponsibly: "Enjoy physical pleasure with your partner, and your brain will always secrete some dopamine dutifully."

Zhang Qiushu's lips moved, but no sound came out.