A Faithful Dog's Secret Guard

Jiang Yao woke up from this dream that had haunted him day and night for eight years, and sat up from the soft bed blankly. , and he just needs to lie in bed and rest.

That day, he clutched the hair tie and cried out the truth back then. He had thought that Xiao Yin's reaction might be anger or indifference, but Xiao Yin said with a smile: "Back then you already had your own way. Blame it, I remember I didn’t blame you then, and I still do it now.”

These years, Jiang Xuan said that he was torturing himself because he could not get out of the barrier of self-blame and guilt. In fact, what happened back then had nothing to do with him. Now that Xiao Yin said it himself, he felt that he should have been relieved, but he did not. It's something on his mind, but he doesn't feel that way.

At first he didn't understand why this happened, Xiao Yin didn't blame him for accidentally blinding his eyes, and told everyone in the secret pavilion that he was his benefactor, and he found him after searching for many years, and he must repay his kindness in the future , and then he was arranged to live in a separate courtyard in the Hou's mansion. Every day, maids and servants came to take care of him. The meals and snacks were exquisite, which he could not eat before. He should be happy, but he doesn't have much joy these days.

He was a little dazed every day, recalling what Xiao Yin said and did after their reunion, his attitude towards Jiang Xuan when Xiao Yin thought that person was Jiang Xuan, and what he said to him when the truth was revealed that day. If so, he thought over and over these days, no matter how stupid he was, he could still see some problems.

Xiao Yin has been checking his identity since a long time ago, and basically concluded his true identity, most of the time he was teasing him, and after Jiang Xuan appeared, Xiao Yin did not fully believe Jiang Xuan's words , I also tentatively asked him later, and roughly guessed who was real and who was fake from the clues.

Therefore, Xiao Yin's tenderness and kindness towards Jiang Xuan may be mostly fake, so what about him?

How much of Xiao Yin's good and bad feelings towards him is true, and how much is false?

He can't understand and can't figure it out, Xiao Yin may be such an unfathomable person, he can speak kindly to those who know that he is deceiving him, and he can also speak sarcasticly to those who know that he is kind to him.

"My lord, it's time to eat." The boy who delivered the meal put several dishes on the table one by one, and called him with a smile, "Eat your meal first, and then I will change your medicine."

At the beginning, there were many maids in this room, but after seeing that he was not comfortable getting along with women, the housekeeper changed them all to servants, and seeing that he didn't like to have much contact with outsiders, but liked to be alone, so he catered to his preferences. The boys were all sent outside the house, and they would not come in casually without his summons, and would only come in to say something when cleaning the house and delivering meals.

Jiang Yao is very unaccustomed to this kind of life, but after Xiao Yin arranged him here, he never appeared again. He didn't know how many times he asked the servant: "Master... where is the master? Can I go see him?" ?”

"Master Hou wants you to rest well, don't think too much." The boy's answer did not change, "Master Hou must be busy."

Seeing that Jiang Yao didn't speak, the boy said again: "Master Hou said, if you have anything you want, or what you want to do, just tell the housekeeper."

"No." Jiang Yao looked at the food in front of him, shook his head and said, "I don't want anything."

Jiang Yao has always been so taciturn, and the servant has gotten used to it. Just as he was about to retreat, Jiang Yao asked again: "Then...can I go see my brother?"

"The villain will go and tell the housekeeper for you, it should be fine."

Jiang Yao said "thank you", picked up some light vegetarian dishes with chopsticks to eat, the dark guards usually don't touch meat, one is to maintain weight, and the other is that meat and fish are often tasteful, which is not conducive to hiding , so he looked at these big fish and meat, but he couldn't get used to it.

He didn't know how Xiao Yin would treat him in the future, whether he would always treat him politely at home as a benefactor, or if he would not allow him to stay by his side after thanking him.

If he could choose, he didn't want to be this benefactor, he would rather continue to be Xiao Yin's hidden guard as before.

He suddenly understood that the reason why he couldn't be happy was probably because he had always regarded the incident back then as the only bond and connection with Xiao Yin. For Yin's side, it's okay to feel guilty or make up for it, but now that Xiao Yin knows the truth, he doesn't care, it's as if he has cut off the bond between them with his own hands. Dust, ashes return to ashes, and there is no connection with this stranger.

That's how it should be...

But Jiang Yao is very sad. He has been waiting for so many years, he is unwilling and has desires, now Xiao Yin doesn't blame him, will he... like him more?

After the meal, the boy came to him and said that he could go to see Jiang Xuan, and he had better go at dinner time, because Xiao Yin would have dinner with Jiang Xuan, so he could go too.

So it was almost dinner time, Jiang Yao went to the front hall early to find Xiao Yin and Jiang Xuan, went outside, saw Jiang Xuan sitting near the window through the open window, glanced at him from the corner of his eye, and smiled Xiao Yin didn't speak, but Xiao Yin sat a little far away, as if he was making tea, from his angle he could only see a piece of robe, similarly, Xiao Yin probably didn't see him outside the window.

He was about to go in when he heard Jiang Xuan say inside, "I wonder if Lord Hou still plans to let my brother stay in the mansion?"

Xiao Yin was silent for a moment, then replied: "It depends on what he wants, if he wants to, of course he can."

The hidden guards outside the house were all in the dark, and no one was guarding the door. Jiang Yao hid sideways by the window, listening to the conversation inside quietly. Although he guessed that Jiang Xuan was actually asking for him, he didn't know why. He had the courage to go in and listen, or he was afraid that Xiao Yin would lie to him in front of him, without him, Xiao Yin should be able to tell the truth.

"Oh, then I don't know what capacity Master Hou intends for my brother to stay in the mansion?" Jiang Xuan said again, "He was your secret guard before, but isn't it appropriate now?"

Xiao Yin said: "Of course, since I have confirmed that he is the one who saved me back then, I naturally treat him as a superior guest like these days."

"But didn't Master Hou guess it a long time ago?" Jiang Xuan smiled, "Master Hou didn't believe what I said at the beginning, right?"

"I believed it at first, but then I felt that there was a problem with both of you, so I became suspicious."

"Then why didn't Lord Hou tell you earlier?" Jiang Xuan said, "Brother thought that Lord Hou had admitted the wrong person before, so I was very sad."

"I was indeed at fault for this matter. I caused your brother to suffer. I will apologize in person." Xiao Yin said, "But... why don't I tell your brother himself if I don't tell him? I tried him several times and gave him Opportunity, he just doesn't say it."

Jiang Xuan secretly smiled sarcastically at a place where Jiang Yao couldn't see, and thought: So you blame Jiang Yao for not talking?This is without guilt at all.

Jiang Yao who was outside the house could also hear clearly, feeling a sense of loneliness in his heart.

"My brother didn't say it because of me." Jiang Xuan explained, "I'm to blame for this."

"This matter is over, I don't want to blame anyone." Xiao Yin waved his hand and said, "As for the future, I will take your brother's opinion as the standard."

"So Master Hou regards him as his benefactor now?" Jiang Xuan asked again, "Has Master Hou ever thought that brother actually doesn't need Master Hou to repay his kindness and treat him as a benefactor?"

Xiao Yin frowned and said, "What does Mr. Jiang mean by these words?"

Jiang Xuan considered his words and said, "I mean... Lord Hou and his elder brother had a fate in the early years. Now that he has said everything, he never thought of treating my elder brother as...a friend?"

"Friends?" Xiao Yin seemed to be taken aback for a moment, then laughed again, "Master Jiang thinks I have friends?"

"Oh? Am I not counting as Lord Hou now?"

"For me, only those who are profitable can be my friends." Xiao Yin said lightly, "Master Jiang, do you understand?"

"Master Hou's reputation of being cold-blooded and ruthless is indeed well-deserved."

Jiang Yao didn't listen to what the two people in the room said. At this moment, he only felt an uncomfortable stuffiness in his mouth and nose, and he couldn't breathe.

Before coming, he had thought about who Xiao Yin would regard him as now, if he wasn't a secret guard, who else could he be Xiao Yin's?

He really didn't want to be the so-called benefactor. He didn't feel that he was indebted to Xiao Yin at all, so he didn't need Xiao Yin to repay any kindness. Xiao Yin was polite to him, but he would feel uncomfortable, because he saw Come on, politeness means alienation. Xiao Yin lacks trust in people, and it is even less likely that he will trust a benefactor eight years ago. He probably will be wary of this benefactor asking for something from him based on his kindness.

He has thought about the word "friend". He has no friends since he was a child, and the dark guard should not have friends, and no one will be friends with him, but he still wondered nervously, would Xiao Yin think so?Will Xiao Yin regard him as a friend?

If it was a friend, would he be able to get closer to Xiao Yin in the future?Then Xiao Yin will never forget him again?

But Xiao Yin clearly said that only profitable people can be friends, he thought, Xiao Yin's words were too subtle, in fact, he should just say that people like him are not worthy of being his friends, anyway, it means the same thing, He couldn't be more sad.

He comes from a lowly background, of course he has nothing to gain from him, and he is not as resourceful as Jiang Xuan. He really has nothing to gain.

The glimmer of hope that had been burning these days was extinguished in an instant. He squatted on the ground, buried his head in his arms and remained silent for a while, tears overflowing from the corners of his eyes wiped on his sleeves.

He shouldn't have these hopes. He and Xiao Yin really can't even be friends, let alone other things...

The author has something to say:

Zha Yin said on the surface: You are my benefactor, I will treat you well.

Zha Yin thought in his heart: We are not even friends, don't love me, there is no result.

Let me explain, the Zha Yin character is a heartless character. Because of the accident eight years ago, his state of mind has changed greatly, and his whole person has also turned black. He is cold-blooded and ruthless, and he is destined to die alone.In addition, he was born in the small crowd, and he has the mentality that the superior is superior. The unequal status is the root cause of the two people's inability to resonate. He thinks that Goose may really have the kind of you who treat me well is your reason. As it should be (scumbag!), whether I treat you well or not depends on my mood.But it will definitely change in the end, the goose is a key to him, it will make him rekindle his feelings, and this can't make them together without a bloody plot that he understands after he loses it (狗头)