Don't be shy

Jiang Song's words were originally meant as a joke. Since he knew Xie Yao, he had already figured out the softness and character of the little anchor who would step down at the first step. He originally expected that after saying this sentence, the little anchor would go At the meeting, I said that I was not tired and it was still early, and then I continued to chat with him until late at night as usual.

It's just that he underestimated the dedication of the little anchor as a praise fan.

Who would have thought of this, after all, even Jiang Song's parents can't guarantee that they can figure out all the little habits of their son, including the habitual intonation of every word he speaks.

So the former sus captain who didn't know that he had completely lost his horse, didn't play cards according to the routine when facing the phone, and the little anchor who really turned around and ended the conversation with him before ten o'clock, was a little choked Living.

Jiang Song frowned and doubted himself very much.

He has been so obvious, shouldn't the little anchor start to have doubts, and try to find "evidence" by chatting with him, and then take off his vest?

Jiang Song glanced at the last two sentences sent by Xie Yao, and the exclamation mark above made him feel a toothache.

Why did it explode all of a sudden.

He couldn't figure it out, and finally had no choice but to say good night.

I hope this good night can be a little smooth to the little anchor.

Xie Yao stared at the good night that popped up on the message board, his eyes were wide open, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.

He didn't dare to click into the dialog box, because he was afraid that he would see "the other party is typing" before he exited after clicking in.

Didn't Xie Yao plan to go back? It would be embarrassing then.

Xie Yao met Jiang Song at the age of eight, and learned about "games" for the first time from the lessons that almost forced him to breathe.

At the age of ten, he couldn't help but touched the game, and since then it has been out of control. At the age of 11, he was severely reprimanded by his father and cut off his Internet.

When he was 12 years old, he heard from nowhere that Jiang Song had joined a professional team, so he resolutely ran away from home and knocked on the gate of the sus base alone with a small backpack on his back.

No one knows how the 12-year-old kid ran across the city to the capital and found the sus base. Xie Yao never told anyone.

At that time, Xie Yao was extroverted, smiling at everyone, and his eyes were still bright.

His grandma has always supported him in playing games. The old man has taught books all his life and knows what is ideal and what is reality.

At that time, the Xie family had a big family business, even though there was only Xie Yao in this generation, but she felt that the family business should not be the bondage of the grandson, but should be his backing.

After Xie Yao ran away from home, grandma has been doing ideological work for Xie's father on his behalf.

Xie's father has been a businessman for half his life. He acts vigorously and has a stubborn personality. It took a full year to be persuaded by his grandma.

Xie Yao couldn't hide the light in his eyes when he was playing games. Father Xie had never seen Xie Yao like this in piano class.

Later he compromised.

When Xie Yao was almost 13 years old, the country included e-sports as a sport, and Xie’s father finally let go of all his opposition and dissatisfaction.

In April, the day before Xie Yao's birthday, Mother Xie persuaded Father Xie, who hadn't seen her son for almost a year, to rush from City B to the capital to give him a surprise.

It rained heavily that day, the road was slippery, and the rain within ten meters was like a curtain. Xie Yao's parents had a car accident on the way to the sus base, and both died.

Xie Yao will never forget that when the hospital contacted him through the police station, the doctor told him that Father Xie held Mother Xie in his arms and wanted to protect her before he died, but failed.

The two of them also had a birthday cake that had been crushed and deformed by the collision.

That was the first time Xie Yao left the sus base when he was 12 to 13 years old, and he never went back after that.

He deleted everyone's contact information and fell into a blind spot of self-doubt.

He believes that he was too stubborn, which led to the death of his parents.

If the death of his parents crushed the 13-year-old little Xie Yao, then the death of his grandfather became the last straw that crushed him.

During that time, Xie's father happened to sign a huge amount of money. Suddenly, the liquidated damages almost wiped out Xie's family's working capital.

Unexpectedly, the house leak happened to be raining overnight, and another shareholder of the company fled with the money at this juncture, leaving the crumbling company and employees waiting to pay their wages.

At that time, Xie's family could hardly afford any money. More than half of the company's money went into the aborted project, part of it was swept away by shareholders, and the rest paid liquidated damages, and even went into the savings of grandparents.

Xie’s small villa where he lived for many years, some personal belongings left by his parents at home, jewelry utensils, grandparents’ books, including the piano that Xie Yao once hated, and his game account.

But all those worth some money were sold at a low price to pay off the debts.

It took an instant for the building to collapse, and a company like Nuoda went bankrupt just like that.

At this time, the grandfather who was busy all night, visiting and comforting employees, and negotiating mortgage compensation with the bank, died suddenly and silently on the desk at night because he was too old and overworked.

At that time, Xie Yao was sluggish and decadent at home, until that morning when he opened the door to ask grandpa to eat, but when he walked in, he only met grandpa's already cold and stiff body.

Grandpa was lying on top of it, with a few documents for asset liquidation under his hands.

There was only one small lamp on the desk, which had been on all night because no one had turned it off.

At that time, Xie Yao could no longer utter a sound or shed tears. He just stood beside his grandfather for a long time, putting his hands on his body, his warm palms became colder and colder.

Obviously the desk lamp was shining a warm yellow light, but Xie Yao's eyes were completely dark.

The small rental house was very cramped. At that moment, unprecedented remorse and guilt pushed him to the edge of the small house, and his thoughts and heart were trapped here.

The sudden death of grandpa caught grandma by surprise, but she couldn't express her sadness because something happened to Xie Yao.

He didn't eat or drink or talk at first, and kept holding hands saying that his hands were cold, but in June, the air conditioner was turned on at [-] degrees, and the quilt was covered layer by layer, sweat dripped from his forehead, Xie Yao was still talking cold.

He suffers from depression.

Grandpa took care of the most difficult part. All the pending repayments have been settled. Grandma can only force herself to suppress her grief. She took her little coffin book and sold the few remaining jewelry. Yao sees a doctor.

That year, sus was first replaced. Xie Yao was waiting for the doctor to call his number in the hospital, and a young man who came to see the doctor with the patient number was watching the live broadcast on his mobile phone.

At this time, Xie Yao's illness had begun to improve under the treatment, but he was always taciturn, unable to speak a few words a day.

Until the young man next to him couldn't hold back his excitement and shouted in a low voice: "Praise is amazing!"

Xie Yao had been torn back and forth between the death of his parents and grandpa and the game that year, but he was forced to face up to his longing under the guidance of the doctor.

The doctor told him that he was not wrong, the death of his parents had nothing to do with him, the death of his grandfather had nothing to do with him, his ideals and aspirations were not wrong, he needed to face up to his own heart.

While Xie Yao was in pain, he fearfully had a glimmer of hope for the doctor's words.

But he can't touch the game anymore, he will tremble and break out in cold sweat when he touches it, and even go into shock if it is serious.

Until that "praise" sounded in his ears.

Praise has always been the light in Xie Yao's life, no matter before or after the age of 12, this name has been throughout his life.

Since then, if there is no torch, praise is his only light. (1)

Xie Yao was lying on the bed. He had just showered and hadn't completely dried his hair, and there was still moisture in the tail of his hair, leaving a little wet mark on the pillow.

Holding the phone in his arms, he stared at Jiang Song's chat box, his eyes were empty, and he didn't know what he was thinking, and the tips of his ears were red.

With the sound of the keyboard, Xie Yao changed Jiang Song's note to praise for a while, and changed it to a big liar for a while, back and forth several times, and finally wrote two words "good night".

If you change the remark, it should be said to him himself.

Xie Yao was in a trance again, and finally sat up suddenly from the bed, and directly stretched out his hand to pat twice his face that suddenly became hot again after taking a bath to cool down.

After calming down for a few seconds, Xie Yao opened Zhou Tian's dialog box expressionlessly.

Gad: "Come out."

Zhou Tian always likes to stay up late, he is a full-fledged night owl, and now it is less than twelve o'clock, he is very energetic.

But because he cheated Xie Yao last time and pierced his boss's window paper at Xie Yao, he has been very guilty when talking to him these few times.

Xie Yao saw that he said "the other party is inputting" several times in hesitation, and finally replied the message without confidence.

Son: "...what are your orders?"

Xie Yao used to like to make fun of himself by bullying Zhou Tian, ​​so he thought about it and decided to give his good son a blast.

gad: "Nothing, I just wanted to inform you."

Son: "...you tell me."

Xie Yao rubbed his chin: "You are going to have a father."

Son: "...Didn't I always have a father?"

Xie Yao hissed: "Your father, I am going to find another father for you."

He thought his hint was obvious enough, but he didn't expect that Zhou Tian, ​​who was opposite him, had a bad brain.

Zhou Tian turned pale with shock: "I only have you as my father, don't recognize anyone else, don't do anything stupid!"

Son: "Isn't he just a boss? Let's just kick him out. There's no reason why he can't think about it because of him!"

Xie Yao: "..."

Fuck, he shouldn't be thinking too smart about this idiot.

Xie Yao rolled his eyes and straight to the point.

Gad: "Get out!"

gad: "What are you talking about, it's not big or small."

gad: "My boss, your future father, show some respect."

gad: "After all, I'm going to chase him."

Xie Yao clicked send after typing. He looked serious on the surface, but in fact the tips of his ears were already red to the point of bleeding.

Zhou Tian reacted for several minutes, and finally sent him a message trembling.

"Fuck!!"

Two words are worth a thousand words.

The author has something to say:

(1) Adapted from Mr. Lu Xun's words, the original intention is about Mr. Lu Xun's personal testimony of that era. If there is any discomfort, I will delete it!

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