Professor Baiqihehe chases his wife crematorium

"Go to sleep, Brother Yue, good night."

"Good night."

Yin Lou was lying on the sofa, with a smile on his lips, looking at the darkness outside the window, but felt that he was lit up. He jumped into the warm pool from the snowstorm in the cold winter months, and was warm from head to toe.

It's nice to be at home.

At night, the sound of the rain outside the window gradually weakened, ticking, with a hypnotic effect.

Yin Lou was half asleep and half awake when he heard the sound of the door opening, his nerves tensed, and he immediately sat up.

In the darkness, a small group of blurred figures walked unsteadily towards the door of Yuezheng's bedroom.

Yin Lou tentatively called out, "Xiaoqing?"

The figure turned back slowly, the voice was hoarse and pitiful: "Brother Yin...? I seem to have a high fever..."

Yin Lou hurried over, turned on the light and touched her head. The little girl's forehead was hot, obviously she had a fever.

"Good boy, Brother Yin will take you to see a private doctor right away." Yin Lou carried her to the sofa and knocked on Yue Zheng's door.

"Brother Yue, Xiaoqing has a fever."

Yuezheng heard this sentence in a daze, sat up from the bed, was so anxious that he didn't even bother to put on his shoes, and ran out stumblingly, "Xiaoqing?"

Yue Xiaoqing froze, looked at him with a frown, and said in a hoarse voice, "Brother, I feel bad..."

Yue Zheng went over to touch her head, maybe it was raining today and she caught a cold, it was very hot, he frowned: "Doctor Sun went out two days ago, let's go to the city hospital, Xiao Yin, please drive me, today this Bad weather to take a taxi."

Yin Lou froze, and subconsciously said, "I'll call my personal doctor over, soon."

"It's too slow. It will take him an hour anyway. The road is bad now, and he doesn't know how long it will take to go around. Besides, it's not good to bother people in the middle of the night." Yue Zheng put on Yue Xiaoqing's coat, "It takes less than 10 minutes to drive from home to the city hospital."

Yin Lou looked at Yue Xiaoqing's flushed face, and at Yue Zheng who was sweating all over his brow, gritted his teeth, and said in a hoarse voice, "Let's go, I'll drive."

Yue Zheng changed his clothes, picked up Yue Xiaoqing and went out with him, he was so anxious that he didn't notice Yin Lou's pale face and trembling hands.

Driving all the way to the city hospital, the rain had already stopped. After getting off the car, Yue Zheng hurriedly hugged Yue Xiaoqing and ran to the hospital. Yin Lou gritted his teeth and stared at Yue Zheng's back, trying to suppress the nausea and fear in his heart. followed.

Walking to the hospital lobby, Yue Zheng said to Yin Lou: "It's not convenient for me to hold Xiao Qing, Xiao Yin, you can register for me first."

Yin Lou was stunned for a moment, and asked with trembling lips, "Hang up...? Where is it?"

Yue Zheng didn't expect that Yin Lou, who knew everything, didn't even know how to register, but Xiao Qing, who was full of thoughts at the moment, didn't think about it. He only thought that his family had money and had a private doctor since he was a child, and he didn't go to the hospital very often. Put Xiaoqing into his arms, "You look at Xiaoqing first, I'll go."

Yin Lou nodded stiffly, the strange and familiar smell of disinfectant in his breath slowly and disgustingly climbed to the deepest part of his memory, awakening the deadliest memory, his face was pale, his eyes were bloodshot, his teeth were clenched, his lips trembled, his gaze Uncontrollably put it at the door, eager to escape from the bottom of my heart, her fingers were cold and trembling, but she still clenched her arms tightly, gently coaxing Yue Xiaoqing: "It's okay, I can get an IV drip soon, it will be fine soon, my dear... ..."

Yue Zheng ran up and down to take Yue Xiaoqing for examination, tossing and tossing for half an hour, and finally got hung up in the emergency room, Yue Zheng heaved a sigh of relief, looked at Yin Lou, but only saw a figure from behind.

"Brother Yue, I'm going to the bathroom..."

Yue Zheng didn't think too much, and told: "Go, come back quickly, I see that your face is not good, don't be cold."

Yin Lou didn't speak, and the moment he walked out, his pace quickened, he almost rushed to the toilet, locked it behind him, vomited suddenly, his pupils were dilated, nosebleeds flowed, and he knelt on the ground within a few seconds, shaking like he was in the toilet. In the twelfth lunar month of winter, the eyes are gradually blurred, only the voice in my heart is getting louder and louder.

Disgusting, disgusting, dirty, don't touch me, get out, get out... I have to go, I have to escape, it's too late, help me...

"Ugh... ah... vomit... uh..." He propped himself on the ground with one hand, obviously unable to vomit anything, but physically unable to restrain the desire to vomit, the fundus of his eyes overflowed with tears because of the vomit, his whole body was like a being forced The desperate wild dog was panicked, desperate, angry, and unable to resist.

"Brother Yue..." Yin Lou clenched his hands into fists and hit the ground hard. The pain made him recover a little bit of consciousness. He remembered that Yue Zheng told him to "come back quickly", but now he was standing still. Can't get up.

He couldn't let Yue Zheng see him like this, he couldn't let Yue Zheng pity him, he didn't want to.

They have already come to this point, there can be no mistakes, they have finally come to this point...

Yin Lou growled in pain, the back of his head hit the wall hard, the veins in his neck seemed to burst open, his convulsed fingers were awakened by the pain and forced to press the emergency call of the mobile phone, and Jiang Tinghao's grinning voice came from the opposite side: " Ouch, what does this master want me for? It’s not that I’m showing off to you. Just now, Yingying mailed me a little turtle for me to raise. It’s so cute. I’ll tell you—Hello? Yin Lou? Talk! Fuck! What’s going on? Son? You talk!"

Yin Lou opened his mouth several times but failed to make a sound, his eyes were staring, his eyes were dull, his whole body was tense as if he was competing with himself, and he would never be able to tell the winner. Syllable words: "city... hospital... first floor, toilet... place..."

Jiang Tinghao didn't know what fell, and cursed: "Fuck! You went to the hospital! Your nerves were flooded or you got an electric shock! I'll be right there, you control it! Don't let me collect your body!"

Yin Lou raised his right hand and grabbed his throat fiercely, his breathing was cut off, his pupils were dilated, his face turned from pale to flushed, and the memory that was locked into the deepest part evilly entangled his nerves, like a gangrene Whisper in your ear.

So dirty, you are so dirty... I really want to touch you... The boy is so good-looking, isn't it just for me... So cute, look at me, how dirty you are...

"No..." He closed his eyes, opened them again, gritted his teeth, lowered his head and raised it violently, hitting the back of his head hard against the wall, the pain made his eyes dark, but he also came to his senses, let go of his hands, and fell Leaning against the wall, breathing wildly.

The loss of consciousness caused by suffocation and the dizziness caused by the impact made him hallucinate, those obscene eyes, unbearable scenes, approaching hands and obscene laughter... Yin Lou smashed his fists on the ground like crazy, begging for pain relief take it all away...

He can't die, he can't die...he has to wake up, wake up and go back...

The phone suddenly turned on, and the word "Brother Yue" was like a life-saving straw. Tears flashed in his eyes, and he withdrew his self-harming hand, holding it tightly.

Yue...brother...take me...home...

When Jiang Tinghao opened the door and saw Yin Lou, he thought he was dead, went over and grabbed him, only to see his eyes move slightly, he gasped suddenly, and yelled: "Fuck, fuck, fuck!"

Yin Lou's whole body was stiff, his teeth were clenched, his head was bleeding from being hit by himself, his lips were stained red with nosebleeds, his hands could no longer be seen, bloody and bloody, they were all skin traumas but they looked no different from half-dead people.

Gong San brought his personal doctor to carry him up, but his eyes moved slightly, and his voice was so low that he could barely hear it. "Brother Yue..."

Jiang Tinghao put his ear to his mouth: "Speak louder!"

"Emergency...room...Yue...Brother..."

Jiang Tinghao heard it clearly, stared, and said for a long time: "Fuck!"

He turned his head and said to Gong San: "Take him back, I'll go find Yuezheng."

After speaking, he took off his coat and put it on Yin Lou's head. This face should not appear in front of outsiders in this form.

Gong San was about to run out with someone on his back when he heard the words and looked at him: "Yue Zheng?"

Jiang Tinghao rubbed his hair, his complexion was extremely bad: "Ah, you don't need to worry about it...what the hell is going on."

Yue Zheng looked at Yue Xiaoqing in the outpatient clinic. The girl fell asleep drowsily after taking the medicine. Yin Lou didn't come back after going out for a long time. Lou made a phone call, but no one answered after ringing for a long time. He made several calls in a row, and then turned off the phone.

He froze for a moment, and the bad premonition in his heart was getting stronger and stronger, but Yue Xiaoqing couldn't leave him, and he was so anxious that he turned around, and when he was about to call the police, a familiar face walked in the door.

Jiang Tinghao came in with a few nurses, and saw Yue Zheng standing by his seat.

Yue Zheng ran over and asked anxiously: "Where is Yin Lou? Did you see him? He just now—"

"San'er has just been carried out, and she is still alive." Jiang Tinghao frowned and looked at Yue Xiaoqing. He guessed the cause and effect, and scolded Yin Lou in his heart, but his tone was calm, "Get your sister first." Take it to the ward."

People are still alive?Yue Zheng didn't understand, but the nurse had already picked up Yue Xiaoqing and walked out holding the bottle. He could only follow, and asked Jiang Tinghao as he walked: "What's wrong with Yin Lou? Didn't he go to the toilet? He was injured. Is it? He—"

Jiang Tinghao took a deep breath and said, "If he doesn't go to the toilet, he can blow up the emergency room."

Seeing that Yue Zheng wanted to ask again, he said, "Get your sister settled first, and we'll talk about it later, as long as you know he's fine now, Gong San is with him, and he's already gone home."

Yue Zheng was full of worries and questions and could only hold back, Jiang Tinghao took Yue Xiaoqing to a single ward, two nurses stayed behind to watch her, Yue Zheng comforted her and the little girl fell asleep again , he was free to go out and ask Jiang Tinghao.

The two occupied a spare ward, Yue Zheng walked in and asked, "What happened to Yin Lou just now?"

Jiang Tinghao rubbed his temples and looked at the man in front of him.

Handsome is really handsome. The nine-point handsome guy certified by Master Jiang is invincible except Yin Lou, who is very abnormal. But other than that, Jiang Tinghao can't figure out what charm this man has that makes Yin Lou so right. People who don't care about life will die or live, and even ran to the hospital desperately because of him.This made Yin Lou more uncomfortable than death.

Love is so fucking weird and so fucking awesome.

He looked at Yue Zheng and handed out a cigarette.

Yue Zheng didn't answer, he wanted to know what happened to Yin Lou now, and his brows were furrowed in anxiety.

Jiang Tinghao didn't feel embarrassed either, he withdrew his hand and put it in his mouth, and said with a cigarette in his mouth, "Yin Lou called you Brother Yue, and I'll call you Brother Yue too, Brother Yue, brother, to tell you the truth. Either you Just follow him, or, just refuse directly, and he would be better off drowning on that day two times, and you are both happy."

Yue Zheng stared at him: "What do you mean?"

Jiang Tinghao also looked very bad, and said: "Just now, in the toilet, he almost hit his head against the wall and killed himself."

Yue Zheng's pupils constricted, and he looked at him: "How is it now? Have you checked? What did the doctor say?"

Jiang Tinghao said: "I'm not in the hospital, I'm going home."

"Why is it not cured?!"

Jiang Tinghao shook his head, "It's not that he can't be cured, it's that he can't be treated in the hospital. After that incident, he never came to the hospital once, and he couldn't come. Physical and psychological resistance made him want to self-mutilate."

Yue Zheng suddenly remembered Yin Lou's previous words, "Brother Yue, you don't need to know", his mother said, "We are sorry for him, and he closed himself up after that incident"...

That incident, that incident made Yin Lou what he is now.

Yue Zheng clenched his fists and asked hoarsely, "Is it related to what he experienced before?"

Jiang Tinghao nodded, "Yes, he didn't tell you, did he?"

"He doesn't want me to know, can you tell me."

Jiang Tinghao hesitated for a moment, and laughed: "If you want to hear it, I can say it. After all, he didn't want you to know that he thought he was just playing with you before, and then he didn't want you to think he was dirty. Now he probably doesn't want to. Get sympathy."

This passage made Yuezheng's heart tighten, but he still said firmly, "Go ahead."

Jiang Tinghao looked into his eyes and said, "I don't want you to stay with him because you sympathize with him, and then you find that you can't live with him and then separate. He is not as strong as you think. San'er and I both committed suicide before. I thought he was just joking to lie to you, but it turned out that the will was real, and he really planned to die like that. Without you, he felt that life was meaningless. If you didn’t go that day, there would be no such thing in this world now. Yin Lou is this person."

Yue Zheng was stunned, and after a while, he laughed at himself and shook his head: "I never doubted that his suicide was fake."

Jiang Tinghao didn't have the habit of covering up his brother, gloating: "You're so deceitful, you're unlucky to meet him, but you're also amazing, you can make him so determined."

Without waiting for Yue Zheng to speak, he said seriously: "Think about it now, I am not morally kidnapping you and you have to be with him or something, but if you know about this matter, first of all, you have to keep it a secret. Think you can do it."

"Secondly, at least, if you really think he is an unfamiliar beast, just reject him after listening to me, so we can get together and break up, and we will solve it on his side. But if you treat him because of this matter Say something exciting, especially about "dirty", Yue Zheng, I just want you to know that if San'er and I play our lives together, Yin Lou won't be able to keep you."

Yue Zheng examines his own heart, he undoubtedly likes Yin Lou, and the things Yin Lou has done up to now let people see his growth one by one, but the past thing is like a thorn, He firmly nailed Yin Lou to a certain place more than ten years ago.

Even if the two of them can't go on together in the end, he still wants to pull Yin Lou, just to love this person, he has to pull him, he may be the only person in this world who can pull him up .

Jiang Tinghao observed Yue Zheng's expression, and after a while, took a puff of cigarette in relief: "I don't know you, but my intuition is quite accurate, I think Yin Lou saw the right person."

Yue Zheng didn't speak.

Did he read the wrong person? He didn't think he was so great. He just thought that Yin Lou, who is working hard to get better now, is a very cute child. Whether there will be any intersection in the future, he hopes that Yin Lou can be freed from that experience, let go of everything, and love the person he wants to love.

Jiang Tinghao pressed the button to extinguish the cigarette, turned to look at him, his eyes darkened, and began to whisper about Yin Lou's dark and suffocating past.

"He realized that he was gay when he was in junior high school. He felt nervous, but he was not afraid. He told his dearest parents about it immediately, eager to support him, but his father...was homophobic. He felt Yin Lou was ill, and the illness was unclear. After being beaten at home, he was sent to a so-called private psychiatric hospital run by a good friend when he was 16 years old."

"And that good friend, 'liked' Yin Lou for a long time."

The amount of information in this passage is too great, Yue Zheng's heartbeat was completely messed up, and he looked at Jiang Tinghao sluggishly, as if a child's helpless and disappointed eyes appeared in his mind, who was sent to that kind of place by his biological father...

Jiang Tinghao didn't give him time to react, and continued: "That bastard didn't dare to do anything because of Yin Lou's father's power, but just tied him up pervertedly every day, took people to do it next to him, and said a bunch of unbearable things. If it is in the ear, he repeatedly hypnotizes and brainwashes him to 'not clean', and stares at him obscenely."

"Fuck!" Yue Zheng gritted his teeth fiercely, at this moment he didn't know what to do, he wanted to kill that bastard, but he couldn't go back to the past to find Yin Lou, he really wanted to hug Yin Lou now Saying that you are not dirty, I really want to say that you are right...but he can't even do it.

"The days of being restrained, injected with various psychotropic drugs, hypnotized and brainwashed, and obscene with mental visual language lasted for half a year," Jiang Tinghao paused, barely suppressing the anger in his heart, and continued: "It's ridiculous Yes, Yin Lou once tried to get rid of the medical staff, but he couldn't get out, so he could only steal the phone and call his family for help. Lou took it back."

Yue Zheng tightly closed his eyes.

"Finally one day, that beast couldn't bear it anymore and wanted to attack him. Yin Lou overheard him, pretending to die suddenly that night, and knocked her unconscious while the nurse wasn't paying attention, but he couldn't escape, he could only hide. The whole Everyone in the hospital was looking for him. Surrounded by three doctors, he snatched his mobile phone and fled desperately. He hid in a bathroom. This time he made the right call, and he called the police.”

"The police arrived and the beast was arrested. Yin Lou's father didn't punish him at all. He just took him home without apologizing. Instead, he told him that this is homosexuality. You are the same as that beast. You are disgusting. All dirty."

Jiang Tinghao looked at Yue Zheng, "Do you know why he hates his mother so much? Because his mother believed in his father from the beginning to the end, and did not dare to resist his father. Just because of her cowardice, she let her son live in that kind of hell. place, lived for seven months and nine days."

Yue Zheng covered his eyes tightly, his teeth chattered slightly, and the dull pain in his heart was not as bad as his heartache for Yin Lou.

16 years old, a 16-year-old child, has been betrayed by his parents, molested by his father's friends, isolated and helpless, no one can trust, no one can save him, as if the whole world is abandoning him...

Jiang Tinghao looked at the moon that appeared outside the window, and said softly: "After that, he experienced a long period of mental recovery. He refused to be touched by anyone, resisted anything sent by anyone, and locked himself in the room. You can't enter either. The psychiatrist is also a doctor, and he injured several times. His father wanted to deal with him, but his mother stopped him. This woman finally regretted it, and tried her best to send Yin Lou out of Yin's house. , living in another place, Yin Lou finally came out slowly by himself."

"It's just on the surface. San'er and I were with him when we were young. During that time, he didn't allow us to get close. After more than two years, we were able to communicate normally. He also changed. Both are good, but in fact everyone looks dirty. He thinks that all relationships are fucking farts. Trusting in relationships is equivalent to exiling himself. Whether life or death is decided by the other party. For him, this kind of thing is tantamount to playing with his life. "

Speaking of this, he looked at Yue Zheng and said word by word: "Yue Zheng, he is risking his life for you."

Yue Zheng's heart trembled.

"Although in your eyes, it may be just a little bastard doing what he wants, but if you really can't accept him forever, I beg you on behalf of Gong San and me, just reject him directly. I know you can't talk him out, so you can tell me, San'er and I will take care of the rest, it will definitely not cause any harm to you, and I will not touch you as Chong Yingying, we can do whatever you want—"

His words were interrupted by Yue Zheng's crying, Yue Zheng grabbed his hair tightly, tears flowed all over his face at some point, wet and salty tears flowed into the corners of his mouth, the pain made his heart ache, Yin Lou's experience in his mind As if imaging, playing in a loop over and over again.

That's the person he loves the most in his life, the person he wants to pamper at the top of his heart, the person he can't help but feel sorry for even if he is severely hurt, the person he loves the most... How could anyone dare to do this to him? He, how could someone treat him like this, how could!

Jiang Tinghao sighed, not knowing who he was comforting. "The bastard was sentenced, and was beaten to death by prisoners in the prison."

Yue Zheng didn't feel at ease when he heard it, he just felt that his heart was tightly clenched by one hand, he was so painful that he couldn't breathe, and his eyes blurred for a while.

Brother Yue, in my eyes the world is dirty, only you, only you are clean...

Brother Yue, take me home, this place is too dirty, I want to go home for a while, just for a while...

Brother Yue, even if I am a beast, I still want to be a human being by your side...

During this period of time, I...reflected on myself, I am not worthy of such a good you, I don't even have a complete and healthy personality...

I will do my best to become someone who can stand by your side...

Yue Zheng cried like a child, choked up and shouted: "Xiao Yin... Yin Lou..."

Jiang Tinghao didn't comfort him, but just opened the door silently and went out.

He did what he had to do, even if Yuezheng couldn't accept it, it was because the two of them were destined to each other. This matter was just a joke made by God on Yin Lou from the beginning. There was no good beginning, but how much effort and courage did you put in to get a good ending? It's useless, it's a matter between two people, and no matter how hard one person works, they can't change the past.

The moment we met was wrong. Turning things around is all played out on TV, and passing by is reality.

There is no need for Yue Zheng to be responsible for Yin Lou's past, he speaks harshly, but even if Yue Zheng did something, he will not do anything to him, after all, he is someone Yin Lou likes with his life.

His task now is to call Gong San, ask Yin Lou if he is awake, and then tell him that Yue Zheng and Yue Xiaoqing are fine and can go home tomorrow.

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