The world map and the only you

It was already late at night when the crew arrived at the hotel. On a winter night in Sydney, the temperature was not as biting as Beijing, but the wind was just as gusty.The company's uniform uniform coat was born for the sake of beauty, and it can't bear such an unscientific creation of nature.

A group of people got off the crew car and went to the front desk of the hotel to sign and get their room cards.Tong Yixin was sleepy and tired, feeling that he was top-heavy, and when he entered the room, he just wanted to plunge into the quilt and forget about waking up from a long sleep.

But when he really took a shower, dried his hair, changed into a set of pure cotton pajamas, and was lying on the bed, he couldn't sleep at all.

Tong Yixin blinked in the dark, and began to have doubts about life.

Probably for a flight attendant, eating when hungry and sleeping when sleepy is not a matter of objective conditions. It becomes a consideration of personal ability after a leap to upgrade. Other jobs require education, experience, and proficiency in Microsoft Office. The recruitment of flight attendants It is required to write in capital letters and bold: good health.

The body is the capital of the revolution, Chairman Mao is really insightful.

It was only twelve o'clock anyway, so it's fine if you can't sleep, there's nothing to force, Tong Yixin resignedly opened the curtains, and played with the phone for a while by the scattered lights outside the window.

Opposite the hotel, the Queen Victoria Building—actually a shopping mall—stands silently, a row of warm yellow lights are cast from the roof, reflecting on the Roman-style buildings 200 years ago, and it looks a little weird at midnight.

Tong Yixin lay on his side, opened Weibo, and skimmed through the list and trending searches. After reading it, he basically didn't remember anything. He was only impressed by a sleeping little milk cat with fleshy paws. Dudu, he high-fived his master in his sleep.Tong Yixin clicked on the blogger again, sucked the cat quietly for a while, and felt much better, but still didn't feel sleepy.

His eyes were a little sore, he put down his phone, looked out the window quietly, and stared at the turquoise glass dome at the top of the opposite building for a while.

Then he picked up the phone again, swiped Zhihu for a while, and then turned it off.

Opened WeChat, browsed Moments, and randomly clicked on Pozan when they saw pictures with pictures.

An hour passed, and he seemed to have done many things, but in fact he did nothing.

Finally, he looked at the clean circle of friends for a while, then switched to the chat interface, and opened Yan Ling's dialog box.

The faint light of the mobile phone was reflected on Tong Yixin's face.

["Yan Xuan" withdrew a message. 】

His fingers lightly slid across the row of small characters.

Tong Yixin was actually a little thankful that Yan Xuan chose to withdraw, otherwise he really couldn't pretend not to see it.It's just that it's placed like this, neither up nor down, and it's too awkward——

That's right, Tong Yixin couldn't turn a blind eye to Yan Xuan at all.

"Send an emoji." Tong Yixin thought this way, looking in his emoji package, he was not very satisfied, and he didn't see anything that was both sandy and polite.

Tong Yixin quit WeChat, searched on Baidu pictures, saved a picture, returned to WeChat, opened the dialog box with Yan Xuan again, and made the picture into an emoticon.Click to send.

Tong Yixin: [What shameful news did you withdraw again.jpg]

After posting this expression, he finally relaxed, as if the trance of the whole day had come to an end.But in some corners of my heart, there are some dreadful expectations, swaying, like a wisp of green smoke on a candle, coming out.

"I shouldn't be in contact with him anymore," Tong Yixin began to regret, "otherwise I will withdraw."

As soon as he thought so, Yan Xuan replied.

He first posted a [shy] expression, said: [It's nothing], and continued to talk about him: [Hey, we are all home, and we have to work overtime]

Tong Yixin was very speechless when he saw the word "嘤". Yan Xuan was a weird one when he sent messages, but this has not changed.

Yan Xuan sent again: [Are you here? 】

Tong Yixin typed "um" first, but after thinking about it, it seemed impolite, but Yan Xuan also helped him a lot in the morning, so he typed "um" again.

Tong Yixin: [Mmmm]

Yan Xuan: [Are you hungry? 】

Tong Yixin: [Eat a lot on the plane. 】

Yan Xuan: [Oh, I'm so hungry]

Yan Xuan: [weak, pitiful and helpless.jpg]

Tong Yixin: [Don't be cute]

Yan Xuan: [Mr. Tong Yixin, hello, my stomach is empty and I feel a little unwell. 】

Tong Yixin: […]

Yan Xuan: [Just kidding, go to sleep, I flew so early in the morning, good night]

They chatted naturally again like this, as if the red circles and exclamation marks in Yan's phone before were just a short-lived illusion.

No one is willing to expose the illusion, avoiding talking about it is the most appropriate, and appropriateness is what Tong Yixin needs most.

Tong Yixin looked at the three words "Good night", and suddenly remembered the hundreds of days and nights in the past.

At that time, no matter which city he flew to, no matter whether the city Yan Xuan was in was in broad daylight, he would always say "good night".

But the word "oh" is not always there.Occasionally, Yan Xuan would have a small temper, or sometimes he was too busy, so he only sent the word "good night", which seemed cold.

In fact, it may not have any other meaning, but this is the case in different places, and it is easy to think blindly from one or two words.

Tong Yixin thought for a while, opened the memo, and sent Yan Xuan a list of delicious takeaways nearby.He usually arrives home in the middle of the night while flying, so he has accumulated a lot of good restaurants that are open late at night.

Then he sent a "good night" emoji, and Yan Yao replied with an emoji package made by Xiaoguai, with the words "Dream about me" next to it.

I don't know whether to dream of people or dogs.

Tong Yixin doesn't know why, he really likes Yan Xuan's cuteness, even if time has passed, the corners of his mouth will turn up inexplicably, and his heart will become soft.

He clicked on Yan Xuan's homepage, and the update of Moments was still in June last year, which was the day they broke up.And he had deleted Yan Xuan's business card at that time, so he never saw it.

The photo was taken on Jiuquhua Street in San Francisco.Yan Xuan may be standing on Russian Hill, looking down at the whole block, flowers, bungalows, ups and downs of the road, the quiet Pacific Ocean in the distance, and a corner of the tram carrying tourists.The sky was fine that day, and it was no different from before, but Yan Xuan stopped being funny and wrote very seriously:

【Xiaoguai and I are still here, but you come and go freely, like a cloud.How small is the world?It made me meet you, fall in love with you, want to love forever.

You said that it is better for us to say goodbye from now on, but I will only take it as the starting point of loving you, forever and ever. 】

Tong Yixin's breath was stagnant, of course he remembered how they bid farewell at Jiuquhua Street that day, every frame of the picture.A moment of memory engulfed him, as if he had returned to that summer of last year.

At that time, they had just agreed to break up peacefully and stop pulling each other.

Yan Xuan finished his business trip in Chicago and returned home in San Francisco in the early morning.And Tong Yixin was packing the boxes.

Yan Yao was stunned when he entered the door, he seemed a little at a loss, just stood there, watching Tong Yixin sitting on the carpet, rolling up the clothes one by one, stuffing them into the box.

Tong Yixin looked up: "Are you back?"

"Yeah." Yan Xuan nodded.

Tong Yixin continued to pack his luggage and said softly, "I'm flying back home at 12 noon today."

There are two floor lamps in the room, the light is soft and not too glaring.

Yan Yao took two small steps forward, stumbled over a small ornament on the ground, and was still in a daze: "You...you are too sudden..."

"Didn't you make it clear? Why is it so sudden?" Tong Yixin didn't look at him, but just smiled.

Yan Yao walked up to him, knelt down on the off-white carpet, and held his wrist: "No, I didn't expect you to leave so soon. No, you can't do this..."

Tong Yixin stopped what he was doing, just looked at Yan Xuan quietly for two seconds, then leaned over slightly, kissed him lightly on the forehead, and said, "Good boy." His tone was a little indulgent. Helpless.

"Didn't it be agreed?" Tong Yixin smiled again.

Yan Xuan looked into Tong Yixin's eyes, and smiled downwards, with a very gentle arc at the end of his eyes.He looked at it, and suddenly his eyes turned red.

He couldn't keep him.

"Then can you take a stroll with me before you leave." Yan Xuan's hand slid slightly along Tong Yixin's wrist, and held his hand.

Tong Yixin didn't dodge, he nodded and said "OK".

Yan Xuan was really tired, Tong Yixin wanted to pack up his things and asked Yan Xuan to go back to bed to sleep, but Yan Xuan refused and insisted on staying next to him, falling asleep on the carpet in a short while, and asked Tong Yixin to put him on the bed. Move to the sofa and find a blanket to cover him.

They went out early in the morning and went to BlueBottle for breakfast. Xiaoguai was only three months old at the time, and he couldn't take him out for a walk, so he had to prepare food for him at home.Xiaoguai was ignorant of what happened to human beings, and just lightly licked Tong Yixin's hand.

A tree that cannot be named is lush in depths and shallows on the side of the road. Two birds flew over, landed on the branch, and dropped a leaf.The aroma of coffee wafts from the street corner.

When they were in different places before, every time Tong Yixin came to visit Yan Xuan, he liked to come to this coffee shop, but they really lived together, Yan Xuan had already started working, and there was always time to spare.

I didn't expect to break up, but my wish came true.

"The first time we dated in San Francisco, you said you wanted to try the coffee from this store. At that time, this store had just become popular." Yan Xuan and Tong Yixin sat by the window of the coffee shop, looking out the window and said.

Tong Yixin couldn't help laughing: "What nonsense are you talking about, it has been popular for more than ten years, okay?"

Yan Xuan was stunned.

Tong Yixin: "In the beginning, you said that everyone knows the delicious food in San Francisco, but in the end, I don't know as much as I just scroll through Instagram."

Yan Xuan also smiled, and thought to himself, isn't that just to chase you.

Since the two first joined WeChat, Yan Xuan came to harass Tong Yixin every now and then, but the lives of the two really did not intersect, and they always seemed a little awkward and deliberate.

So when Tong Yixin flew to San Francisco again, he didn't tell Yan Xuan.

Tong Yixin rented a car, and wanted to take advantage of these two days to have fun in San Francisco by himself, take some photos, and make a San Francisco strategy, but he didn't expect that he just left to go to the bathroom near Jiuquhua Street. It was smashed, the camera and bag were gone, but the gangster was quite "humane" and left his ID.

Tong Yixin panicked at the time, and waited there after calling the police, not knowing who to contact.But he can only stay in San Francisco for two days, and he has not lost his passport, so he has to fly when he should, so what should he do if there are still things to deal with?

With no money on him, and the rented car was smashed, Tong Yixin didn't know what to do for a while.At this moment, he thought of Yan Xuan.

Yan Ling appeared half an hour later.In fact, Tong Yixin's impression of him at that time was already very vague, after all, it was only a one-time relationship, but Yan Xuan himself was very eloquent, and when we really met, it was not as embarrassing as Tong Yixin had expected.Not only did he help Tong Yixin deal with these bad things in an orderly manner, but he also took Tong Yixin through San Francisco within two days.

It seems more important that Yan Xuan is more handsome than Tong Yixin in his impression.

During the itinerary, he visited University B, and Tong Yixin knew that Yan Xuan was studying here as an undergraduate, and that he would continue to study law at University B as a graduate student, which sounds quite advanced.From this, the two people really know each other.

"I might have to go to the airport at 09:30. If there is a traffic jam, I will be too late." Tong Yixin said to Yan Xuan after drinking up the Americano in his hand.

Yan Xuan looked at his watch: "There is still half an hour, shall we go to Huajie?"

Tong Yixin did not refuse.

They left BlueBottle and drove to Jiuquhua Street.

But the sky didn't work out, the road was a bit congested, and cars kept honking their horns, which made people feel irritable.

"I really have to go to the airport, it's too congested today." Tong Yixin said.

Yan Xuan clenched the steering wheel, as if a little unwilling: "Then leave later."

"Don't do this." Tong Yixin shook his head, then lightly touched Yan Yao's head, and whispered, as if coaxing him.

Yan Ling pursed his lips tightly, his face was tense, and his brows were slightly furrowed, as if he was about to cry.

Tong Yixin couldn't bear it, and turned his head to look out the window.

He said softly, "Obviously you don't want me anymore."

As if it was a harmless little joke, the car moved forward slowly, and inadvertently passed the place where Tong Yixin's car was smashed.

That year, Tong Yixin, who lost his camera, was very panicked, waiting for the young knight to rescue him in a strange country.But now, the knight has grown up and has the sky and the earth to pursue. The prince can't keep him, love can't keep him, and time can't keep him.

He will always grow up, have everything he wants to have, the world belongs to people like him.

When he is mature enough, he will know that love is not too important to him.

However, Tong Yixin did not expect that today, a year later, he would see that boy and say:

"I will only take it as the starting point of loving you, forever and ever."

The author says:

ah it's good to be young