The world map and the only you

It is often said that nothing is impossible if you want it enough and try hard enough.

This is the most beautiful vision, but the reality is not always the case.

Tong Yixin seriously put studying abroad into his plan. According to the timeline, he started preparations in April and May, which should be in time for the application for spring admission next year.He told Yan Xuan about his plan, Yan Xuan naturally agreed with both hands and feet, and they selected several schools on the west coast of the United States, and the first choice was the University in San Francisco.

Tong Yixin's previous school grades were actually not bad, but he has been away from school for too long, and his work experience for so many years has nothing to do with academics. Except for some work in translation, he has no projects to offer, so he can only do his best. Apply to relatively good universities.For cost considerations, try to have scholarships or teaching assistant opportunities.

Past transcripts, language scores, recommendation letters, resumes, statements... He has been away from school for too long, and faced with all kinds of materials and certificates that need to be submitted, he has no clue. Standing in front of a completely unfamiliar door, he has a kind of Anxiety that can't be realized.

"I... I've worked hard..." Tong Yixin looked at the to-do list Yan Xuan made, and touched his face with a headache.

In fact, everyone will experience such a period of time. Life seems to set a threshold for people, and they must cross it, sooner or later.Some people work harder in school and find it easier later on, and others the other way around.

The smooth sailing in the early years did not make that threshold disappear. It has been waiting for Tong Yixin, waiting for him to work hard, and waiting for him to face more difficult challenges.

The first level is to take TOEFL and GRE.

Tong Yixin's language skills are not bad, but he has been out of the environment for too long, and the basic English used on the plane is not enough.He took a set of mock exams, and his reading and listening comprehensions were fine, but his speaking and writing comprehensions were nowhere near high marks. Gre's words are okay, he actually prepared a lot a little bit earlier, just for the possibility of going abroad to find Yan Xuan.

"So we should start practicing quickly!" Yan Xuan said to Tong Yixin in the video, "Why don't you enroll in TOEFL class?"

Tong Yixin looked at the report card of the model test and wrinkled his nose unhappily: "Do you know how expensive the TOEFL class is in Beijing now?"

"Hey," Yan Xuan really didn't know. He didn't care about these expenses at the time, and he didn't know how much money his parents spent on him. He asked, "Then what should we do?"

Across the screen, Tong Yixin showed him a smile of unknown meaning, Yan Xuan trembled all over, and heard Tong Yixin say: "Hello, Teacher Yan."

Yan Xuan wondered: "What kind of novel play is this?" After he finished speaking, he was a little shy, looked at Tong Yixin expectantly, and said, "This... classmate, what do you want the teacher to do?"

Tong Yixin knew that his thoughts were wrong, but he didn't clarify, bit his lower lip, narrowed his eyes slightly, and said, "Teacher, I want you to help me."

Seeing Tong Yixin's expression, Yan Xuan became excited and pretended to be calm: "How, how can I help."

Tong Yixin begged, her beautiful eyes shining brightly: "I want Teacher Yan to teach me."

Who can bear this!Yan Xuan groaned in his heart, instinctively stood up in some places, and said anxiously: "Teach!" While staring at Tong Yixin on the screen, he quickly thought about how to do the video play, should he take off his clothes, should he... …

Tong Yixin regained his serious expression and said, "Then teacher, tell me how to answer this question first, Do you agree or disagree with the following statement? Eighteen-year-old sare not mature enough to vote."

Yan Xuan was stunned: "What?"

Tong Yixin: "How to answer this question, I think I can answer it well, but the automatic score just won't go up."

The passionate play between teachers and students that Yan Xuan imagined was not realized at all, and before he had time to be disappointed, he was pulled to study hard and make progress every day.After answering several questions, Tong Yixin proposed again: "Let's use English for video chat in the future."

Yan Xuan looked at him in horror: "Areyouserious?"

Tong Yixin nodded seriously: "Yes, say something please."

"..." Yan Xuan didn't expect such a sudden question, he was speechless for a while, and said, "Iloveyou."

Tong Yixin will not let him get away with it: "Say something more complicated."

Yan Xuan cheated: "No, allIwannasayisIloveyou."

Tong Yixin really wanted to practice speaking, and said, "Please, something different."

"OKthen..." Yan Xuan's wicked eyes bubbled up, and he smiled slightly, "fuckme?"

Tong Yixin: "..."

Yan Xuan added politely: "Brother loves me? You just sit on this." He pressed the screen down and circled his hands up, "Sit on it and move yourself?"

Tong Yixin pressed the hang up button quickly, and the screen went black.

But no matter how gag, there should be no small pressure.If all efforts are for love, it will inevitably seem too desperate. Tong Yixin tried to convince himself to love academics and look forward to studying abroad, but the reality is that it is really difficult.

If there was no Yan Xuan in that picture, he clearly knew that he would not make such a choice.In other words, he made a bet that is extremely dependent on others, requires 100% trust, and needs that trust not to be let down.

Dong Fei disapproved of his decision very much, but as a friend, he could not influence his choice.It just raises many practical questions: "Do you have enough money? What major are you studying? What will happen after you finish?"

And, most importantly: "What if you break up when you're halfway through?"

All kinds of worries were endless. In fact, Tong Yixin had also struggled with these issues, but he wanted to live with Yan Xuan too much, so he just answered Dong Fei like this: "It's okay, I have a solution."

what else can we do?

All people's troubles come from "not being rich enough". Tong Yixin didn't believe this before, but now he does.He carefully calculated all the assets he could use. Anyway, he can feed the whole family by himself. If it is just reading, the problem is not too big. But if you add the monthly mortgage payment, five insurances and one Jin has to stop paying when he loses his job. These trivial things are simply a headache.

During that time, Tong Yixin read the private messages on Weibo very seriously, hoping not to miss any information about promotional cooperation.Some fans complained in the comments, why did they start posting advertisements recently, and Tong Yixin felt very uncomfortable after reading it.In fact, he didn't want to make an account that was run as a hobby so utilitarian, but what if it could be made into a large one?Going to the United States, ending a long-distance travel... Do you not have to worry about these things?

In addition to brushing the questions, he studied how those well-known bloggers wrote soft articles, and how they could output interesting content and attract sponsors.He found that many Internet celebrities of same-sex couples have started online shop business to earn money from fans, and even had the idea of ​​opening an online shop in his mind.

But he really doesn't like it, and doesn't want to take advantage of the fans who have been with him like friends for so many years.The more he delved into the matter of promoting soft articles, the more he felt that he was not good enough, and he was very discouraged.

Wei Feng laughed at him: "Where is it so easy?"

Tong Yixin himself knew that it was not that easy, but it was still very sad that he couldn't do it—especially when he felt extremely short of money.

Everyone has had the dream of jumping to the top and stepping on the spire.Even before the real start, I fantasized about how to cash out and what to do after earning a "small goal".As everyone knows, people who are stronger than others are like green leeks in a vegetable field, being harvested one crop after another.

The reality will tell you clearly, who is not a disher?

Yan Xuan didn't understand Tong Yixin's concerns. He just got his first month's salary, and his current income is not bad. There is still a lot of living expenses left by his parents before, so it is no problem to support the lives of two people.

And Tong Yixin is not very dependent on other people's characters, he wants the relationship between the two of them to be pure forever, and talking about money will change the flavor, and he doesn't want to be Yan Xuan's subordinate in any sense.Therefore, he secretly digested all these troubles about money, and did not mention it to Yan Xuan.

Yan Xuan helped Tong Yixin revise his application documents and perfect his resume, just like an overseas study agency. He also asked his classmates who work in New Oriental to share the experience of the internal examination machine, so that Tong Yixin could come here quickly and apply for a better school.

Tong Yixin felt that his career as a flight attendant did not add points, but Yan Xuan disagreed: "I really know a sister who is a graduate student at Stanford, and she was a flight attendant before."

Yan Xuan gave another example: "The head of our company's HR, I saw her linkedin that time, which airline she was with before, but I can't remember exactly."

In this way, the two of them negotiated and worked hard for the same goal.Yan Xuan didn't have enough time after work, Tong Yixin was often writing questions here, and Yan Xuan was writing documents over there, and the two talked a few words from time to time.

Fortunately, in October, Tong Yixin successfully got an offer from the school of his choice, which is also close to Yan Xuan's work place and has a little scholarship.

Applying for a visa, resigning, and going abroad, Tong Yixin went straight.

It's just that those apprehensions, those all-or-nothing hidden worries, should belong to human nature, right?Tong Yixin tried his best to ignore these emotions, but he couldn't get rid of them, so he had to take them with him, and together with the anticipation and excitement of seeing Yan Xuan, he packed up and went on the road.

The author says:

Hey, I'm not a pigeon, I'm a tired bird... Maybe some of you are gradually getting the reason for breaking the mirror?In fact, I really didn't misunderstand the dog blood or something.