The world map and the only you

Chapter 18 Beijing - "Love is just a word"

Yan Xuan didn't know how he got through this distraught night. He handed in the report before the deadline, but he didn't feel that relaxed at all.

People's satisfaction comes from many aspects, such as work, emotion, and hobbies, but perhaps they cannot complement each other.

It started to rain again in Beijing, and it seems that there is a lot of rain this autumn.Yan Xuan sat on the chair in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, his head was swollen, his eyes were sore, and he was still wearing the clothes that he planned to send Tong Yixin to change into. He stared blankly at the glass window, and the clean mirror reflected his exhausted face.He couldn't figure out what went wrong, but he felt like crying.

Why do you work so hard, but still can't do anything well?

Why do you want to make Tong Yixin happy, but you just please yourself, and the other party doesn't even say whether he accepts it or not, it seems to be very sad.

Yan Xuan always thought that he was a good student. When he was young, his relatives would praise him for being smart and smart. He could also be a player with a 4.0 gpa in B major, but now he was faced with such a question and couldn't start.Why did such an extremely difficult problem appear at the moment when the two had just reconciled, he was confused and contradictory, and for a moment he didn't know whether to blame himself or fate.

He looked down at his phone, he didn't dare to call again, he just sent a message: [Yixin, I didn't mean that, I didn't ask you to follow me, I just wanted to make you happy.Don't hate me, okay?I'll be with you whatever you want, or if you don't want me to be with you, then I won't bother you, but don't ignore me. 】

He didn't realize the contradictions in his words at all, he just poured out his emotions.

【I'm so scared. 】He said.

Tong Yixin didn't reply, but anyway, he should be content. Compared with before, at least he has returned to China, there is no time difference of [-] hours in the Pacific Ocean, and there is always an infinite turning point for things.Yan Xuan comforted himself like this.But thinking of Tong Yixin and being sad because of himself, he could only wait, helpless, so his nose was sore, and he cried, the lights outside the window were dizzy with tears, swaying into one piece.

The next morning, Yan Xuan called Feng Chen and wanted to invite someone to dinner.

Feng Chen taunted him nonchalantly: "Hey, my god, you have missed me so many times, do you still think of me?"

Yan Xuan admitted that he was in the wrong, and acted like a petty fud: "Brother, Boss Feng, I was wrong, you have to understand the suffering of social animals!"

Feng Chen smiled: "Xiao Fan and I are shopping in Sanlitun, are you coming?"

Yan Yao simply tidied himself up, shaved off the stubble that grew out at night, and set off for Sanlitun regardless of his swollen eyes.

"Where are you?" Sanlitun was crowded with people on weekends, and it was too congested. Yan Xuan got off a taxi at the Agricultural Exhibition Hall two intersections earlier, and sent a WeChat message to Feng Chen.

Feng Chen: "Hey Tea is standing in line, come on, let's line up together for half an hour."

Yan wandered there, and the golden ginkgo leaves scattered all over the ground. When he looked up, the branches of the tree cut the blue sky into a picture frame by frame, and each cloud was different.

Yan wandered to Xicha, the entrance was like an airport security check, there were two or three rows of people standing in line around the corner, Feng Chen and his girlfriend Xiao Fan—oh no, she is now his wife—standing in line I don't know how long I'll have to wait.

Yan Xuan saw them and waved towards them.

"Yan Xuan." Xiao Fan greeted him with a smile.

Yan Xuan is actually very envious of Fa Xiao, who fell in love since high school, went abroad to study together, and returned to work together. It was not without twists and turns, and it was really admirable that they could really achieve positive results.Xiao Fan is also a very beautiful and gentle girl. From the very beginning, she knew about his sexual orientation and about his relationship with Tong Yixin, so she was very tolerant, without any element of curiosity.

Yan Xuan: "Hello Xiao Fan, are you guys waiting here? Can't you order online?"

Xiao Fan smiled: "There is no real queue, waiting for you here, isn't it easy to find."

The three found a coffee shop to sit, each had a glass of Americano, and ordered some snacks. Feng Chen then looked at Yan Xuan's face and asked him, "Why are your eyes so swollen?"

Yan Xuan was a little embarrassed, and took a sip of coffee: "Ah, is there any? Didn't sleep well, I worked overtime again yesterday."

"Huh," Feng Chen pretended to be surprised, "You can still get such big double eyelids without a good night's sleep. You have to tell the plastic surgery hospital next door about your skills."

Yan Xuan took the reflection of the mobile phone screen to light up, and it was true that the double eyelids were swollen.Feng Chen's mouth always hurts, and it's not over yet: "Do you remember Wu Xiaoping? I saw her just after she had her double eyelid cut, and she looks like you are now."

Yan Xuan: "..."

Xiao Fan nudged Feng Chen with his elbow, motioning him to say a few words less. It looked like he had cried, which is why such a straight man couldn't tell.

Feng Chen looked puzzled.

Xiao Fan asked Yan Xuan worriedly: "Are you okay? What's wrong?"

Xiao Fan asked very gently, as if he understood everything and could understand everything, as gentle as water.Yan Xuan rubbed his eyes, thought for a moment, and said, "After I returned to China, I moved across from Tong Yixin's house."

"Ah..." Xiao Fan exclaimed in a low voice, she turned to Feng Chen and asked, "Why didn't you tell me?"

Feng Chen was very at a loss. He stuffed a small biscuit into his mouth and asked, "Oh... no... Where does Yan Yao live, why should I tell my wife..."

Xiao Fan hated that iron could not be made into steel, and was too lazy to talk to him, and asked Yan Xuan: "Then how are you doing now?"

Yan Xuan was discouraged and said: "I said before that I would chase him again, but it seems that I ran away in anger again."

He talked about all the things during this period, especially what happened in the past two days. Xiao Fan praised Yan Yao for his cheekiness for a while, and lamented how fast their progress was. .Feng Chen just listened quietly, not knowing what advice to give.

Yan Xuan said: "I'm afraid he'll ignore me, it's me...how do you say that word?"

Feng Chen: "Hurry up?"

Yan Xuan shook his head and said, "No... I checked Zhihu and Weibo before, and I saw a statement."

Xiao Fan: "Wife chasing crematorium?"

Yan Xuan nodded: "That's right, that's what I said."

Xiao Fan brushed her hair, said with a light smile, "This is not a chasing wife crematorium, you... can I be more straightforward?" She raised her eyes and looked at Yan Xuan inquiringly.

Yan Xuan seemed to see a little hope, maybe Xiao Fan could know what Tong Yixin was thinking.He nodded hastily, his head was a little dizzy if he nodded too fast.

Xiao Fan turned the coffee cup in his hand, thought for a while and said, "You seem, how should I put it... You keep saying you love him, like him, but you haven't really done anything."

Yan Xuan was taken aback.

"How many times can you deliver breakfast and supper in the past two months? You are busy with work, and you and Feng Chen have not had a single meal. You must not have much time to spend time with him," Xiao Fan stretched out Finger, for example one, two, three, "Then you send him WeChat every day, but this, he can definitely feel that you like him, but what can this bring him? That is, he is still replying to you, in fact They all have a good attitude and still have feelings for you."

Maybe seeing Yan Xuan's shocked expression, she added: "But girls and boys may think differently, this is just my personal opinion."

Yan Xuan sniffed and his lips trembled a little: "But what should I do... I have no choice but to try my best because he has returned to China and I am busy with work."

Feng Chen didn't think it was that complicated, so he snapped back and said, "He didn't let you go when he saw it. Make more appointments, sleep a little, and everything will be fine. If you quarrel at the head of the bed and talk at the end of the bed, you might as well move in together."

Xiao Fan rolled his eyes, moved closer to Yan Xuan, and said, "Don't pay attention to him." Feng Chen was so disgusted that he got up and went outside to smoke.

Xiao Fan thought for a while, and comforted Yan Xuan: "I don't really know him very well, but I always feel that he is a very good person, good-looking, and has a good personality, right? I saw him on Weibo before. , lived a very wonderful life. The thing you mentioned is quite a small thing, that is, you didn’t send him to the airport. But it must be more than this reason, and he is not such a stingy person? You still want Think about why he broke up before."

Yan Xuan nodded thoughtfully, and felt that he understood a lot. The crux of the matter was not this matter at all, but a cumulative process.He thought back and forth in his heart, wishing he could simply engrave Tong Yixin's name on it.

"The key is how to do it." Yan Xuan said firmly.

"Yes," Xiao Fan pursed his lips, "Love is just a word, anyone can say it, of course it doesn't mean to do something grand, but you have to let him feel it."

Yan Xuan was really educated, looked at Xiao Fan gratefully, whispered several proposals, and even took out the computer in his bag and started typing.Xiao Fan conspired with him, discussing various possibilities and effects, and Yan Xuan suddenly felt that the future was bright.

The author says:

I read everyone's comments yesterday and found that everyone has different ideas about "Is it difficult to balance work and relationship?" Welcome and thank you for your discussion!However, Sesame Sauce Cake is just a standard salted fish, not to mention work, hobbies, and life. I can’t even balance the time of playing mobile phones and sleeping at night (/=_=)/~┴┴