[HP]Helen Pan

At this point in the matter, when I nodded to Draco, I thought the two of us should be reconciled.But in fact, reality mercilessly popped my pink bubble.

After that kiss, I don't think there seems to be any real improvement in the relationship between us, at least Draco still feels so deliberately alienated to me.His profile at the moment looked so indifferent, as if the sentimental and vulnerable guy just now was just an illusion to seduce an ignorant girl.

"Helen, you know I don't want to put you in danger." Draco also realized my unhappiness.He grabbed my arm with both hands, looked at me, and said with an extremely serious expression, "So, maybe we have to keep a distance, at least in front of people, like just now and before." Hesitant, looked at me and asked again, "What do you think?"

"What do I think?!" I repeated his words, in a tone of mocking sarcasm.Although I don't know exactly what expression I have now, at least I think my voice sounds ridiculous.I looked at Draco, and asked seriously and clearly, "Are you sure you're serious?" I was very angry, and I reached out and pushed him on the shoulder hard, even wanting to give this man a hard time. The guy slapped twice, "Then why did you say what you said before?! What do you mean being with you!? I think we should just stop seeing each other! Then I can find a better one, at least not A man who dare not admit to his girlfriend!"

"Helen..." Draco whispered, he lowered his head and stared at me, I seemed to see the slightest concern in his eyes, which made me feel even more uncomfortable.I had just decided to give everything I could for him, but he turned around and rejected me completely.He said he was doing it for my safety, yes, for my safety.But has he ever thought that if his refusal is a great negation to me.

Perhaps it was the effect of the alcohol that made me lose control of my emotions. I screamed loudly and punched him indiscriminately.After losing control for a moment, I stood still and gasped for breath, but my eyes were fixed on him.

Suddenly, Draco opened his arms towards me as if to hug me.I felt that my nose was too much for me in an instant, and tears welled up. I took a step forward and put my hand around his neck and forced him to bend down to me. When the distance was almost equal to zero, he opened his mouth and bit his lips hard.He was obviously in pain, and he let out a cry of surprise, but then I blocked all the words in his mouth with my lips and tongue.We started kissing each other like crazy, with our tongues, our teeth, our souls.My arms around his neck tightened, unknowingly he took back the dominance of this struggle, I slowly stood on tiptoe, getting closer, getting closer, as if I was really walking into his heart.

"Please don't push me away, okay? I can't stand your rejection." Between kisses, I said with unsteady breath.Draco didn't speak anymore, just hugged me tighter, he buried his head in my neck, his body trembling a little.

"What are your plans for the Christmas holidays?" I broke the silence after a relatively wordless hug.

"Father is in Azkaban, and mother has found a safe place to hide. I don't plan to go home. It seems that Hogwarts is the safest at present." Draco hugged me, and he hooped me In his arms, which made it impossible for me to see his expression clearly.But when he mentioned Hogwarts, he inadvertently squeezed his hand on my arm, which hurt me a little.

"Then..." I thought for a while, and then I suggested, "Would you like to come to my house for Christmas?"

"Helen?" Draco was clearly taken aback by my proposal.

I looked up and whispered, "Look, I thought maybe you could go talk to my grandfather, he'd like you, I promise."

I know that the arrest of Lucius has caused the prestige of the Malfoy family to plummet, and Draco has also changed from an arrogant young master to a down-to-earth son.I can imagine what kind of place Slytherin is, and Draco's loss of power can be clearly seen from the casual eyes when those people look at Draco.Maybe now that the Malfoy family is weak, he will need the support of another prominent family. If my family can provide Draco with such support, I will be happy to do so.

"If you asked me to visit your house before, I would gladly accept it. But now...you know, I have a bad reputation, and I will get into trouble with me." Draco smiled, Some look lost.

"I don't care." I smiled and held his hand, fingers interlocked.Draco is not a Death Eater, that's all I know.

Draco and I decided to go home after the Christmas break had already begun, so it was just the two of us at the station.This saves us from having to bear other people's probing eyes, but now even if everyone jumps out against my decision, I will not separate from Draco.

I am willing to use everything I have to defend the love between me and Draco. The moment I nodded, I silently made a contract in exchange for my life.Yes, I admit that I have the romantic and irrelevant blood of knights in my body. Since I love someone, I am willing to give all my loyalty, even if the relationship is unequal, I am willing to accept it.

My grandfather was partial to me and he was always supportive of my decisions.So that day, he personally came to pick us up at the station, he gave me a hug, and then he glanced at Draco with something meaningful in his eyes, and then he hugged him too, it seemed like a very strong hug.

"Young man! Welcome to Pan's house," said the grandfather.

We went to the old house in the suburbs first, and Draco looked a little prim.At this moment, my grandfather went back to his own room to change clothes, and Draco and I were the only ones sitting on the sofa in the hall. Although his expression was smiling, I could feel his discomfort.

The house elf Lulu brought soft cakes and fragrant black tea at this time, Lulu poured a cup of tea for the two of us respectively, then raised his head and looked at my face cautiously, and there was a 'bang' on the spot Disappeared.

I held Draco's hand and said with a smile, "If our relationship will bear fruit, then sooner or later we will integrate into each other's family, right? It's just a matter of time."

Draco held my hand instead, cupping my face in one hand, pursing his lips and looking like he was about to cry.After a long while, he kissed my lips and said, "I love you."

I smiled, "Me too."

After my grandfather came downstairs, he invited me and Draco to go to his study to talk. Of course, I knew he needed Draco's sincerity, which would allow us to reach a consensus.

"Forgive me, but can I see your wrist?" Grandpa sat on the other side of the leather sofa and looked kindly at Draco who was interlocking my fingers.

"Of course." Draco smiled, and he lifted his sleeve to show his wrist, very calmly.

"Very good." The grandfather smiled and opened the small box at hand, took out a cigar, cut off one end with a knife and lit it with a wand, "Can you tell me why you... um, changed your mind?"

Draco obviously also cherished this opportunity. He leaned forward and said bluntly that he was unwilling to take another path that his predecessors had walked on and had been proven wrong by his father. He wanted to try to change.He had secretly agreed with Dumbledore that he would serve the White Wizard, not the Dark Lord.

Words like innovation and reform were my grandfather's favorite words, so he was quick to accept Draco's rhetoric with a smile.

"You have reached a consensus with Dumbledore." The grandfather exhaled a puff of smoke ring, and he repeated Draco's words in a subtle tone, with a half-smile on his face.

"Yes." Draco nodded and admitted, "The Dark Lord asked me to do one thing to show my sincerity, and that is..." Draco paused, as if he had made up his mind before saying, "Kill Dumbledore."

"Oh my God!" I couldn't help exclaiming, is Voldemort a lunatic? !How could he get Draco to kill Dumbledore? !How could a student who hadn't graduated kill the world's greatest White Wizard? !

"Oh?" said the grandfather, looking interested, "Is Albus planning to cooperate with you in continuing... the Dark Lord's plan?"

"Yes." Draco nodded, he licked his lips, and then said, "Professor Snape intends to complete this task for me, but I think if I do it, it will be more trustworthy for the Dark Lord .”

"Professor Dumbledore wants you to be a spy?" I said in surprise, God knows how dangerous it is!

"Yes." Draco looked at me, smiled, and squeezed my hand reassuringly.

"Then it seems unwise for you to get too close to us now." The grandfather thought for a moment, and then he asked, "Or the Dark Lord wants you to be a spy too?"

Draco paused, then looked at his grandfather and said sincerely, "Yes! You are right."

Grandpa got up and walked around the sofa after hearing the words, and then he turned his back to us and fiddled with a potted plant by the window, "So, have you seen Alec? Or have you heard anything about him?"

"No! I haven't seen him." Draco recalled, and then said, "Just heard that he was always with You-Know-Who."

After listening to Draco's words, the grandfather continued to fiddle with the pot of grass leaves. After a long time, he said, "There will be a reception the day after tomorrow. I have an invitation here. Maybe you and Helen can attend with me."

"Yes! I'd love to." Draco laughed sincerely.

"Okay, let Lulu take you to your room to have a look! I think he's almost cleaned up." The grandfather said, taking a puff of his cigarette.

Following the grandfather's voice, Lulu immediately appeared in front of us, he blinked his big eyes, then timidly bowed to Draco and made a gesture of please.

"Helen, can you stay for a while? I have a few words to tell you." Just when I wanted to leave with Draco, my grandfather stopped me.

"Grandfather, what's the matter?" I was a little absent-minded, and I felt that as the host, I should go to appease Draco instead of letting him go to his guest room alone.

"Helen, my little angel." The grandfather's suffocating momentum just now disappeared suddenly, and he became kind again. He was looking at me worriedly, and said, "Look, I don't want to stop you from falling in love, but you have to think clearly, we can never expect a snake's gratitude."

I suddenly felt a tingling sensation.

Yes, I am very aware of Draco's self-esteem and pride that comes from blood and genes.And now it's like I'm giving him something and he's forced to accept it.It may hurt his self-esteem, so that instead of being grateful for me, he feels a dark resentment, and maybe one day he will leave me without hesitation because I will remind him of this period. The time when I had to bow my head under the low wall, but I couldn't help it, because now it seems that this is the best way.

"Yes, so I don't have extravagant expectations." I frowned, answering unwillingly.

Grandpa came and hugged me, he put his arms around me and patted me on the back, then he said, "No, I have to ask for what my sweetheart deserves." Grandpa said, "As long as you want, Then he must be your husband, I promise."