HP Margo's Diary

Mon, Jul30, 1995

Harry showed up downstairs, and he gestured for me to come down.

He greeted me as I walked out the door, and I didn't realize he was holding a green package in his hand.

He catches my gaze and grabs a handful of hair awkwardly "Happy birthday, Margo"

This sentence Margot seemed to break the ice, I laughed, "Did you cut your hair short?"

He also showed a shy smile because of my smile, and handed me the gift

"Let's go for a walk in the park" he said

I said "I put things away, you wait for me in the park first"

Then I ran upstairs to put the gift on the desk, and when I was about to turn around, I remembered something and took out a gift box from the drawer.

I ran downstairs, as if I was afraid I would be too late, and ran to the lake, and I knew he was waiting for me there.

However, the empty grass made my heart skip a beat, and the next second Harry's voice came from behind.

"What did you take?" he asked

I silently breathed a sigh of relief, smiled and gave him the things "I hope you can still use them"

He opened it and took out the pair of glasses.He was a little surprised, and quickly took off his own pair and put it on again. He grinned and looked up at me, "How is it?"

I smiled and gave a thumbs up.

Later we sat side by side by the lake, and I heard him talk about life at his godfather's house—there was a house-elf in his godfather's house who was always cursing, and he explained to me what a house-elf was; The godfather's poor cooking skills, but he resisted every time to finish eating. When I mentioned this time, his huddled faces made me laugh. He didn't feel embarrassed at all when I made a joke, and he grinned along with me.

He said that he thought he never wanted to go back to Privet Drive, but inexplicably, he began to miss it, the swing in the park, the lake, the ice cream at Cross Street, and the window at the Dursleys' house .He seemed to have something to say, but in the end he just gave me a deep look.

"I might die tomorrow" he pretended to be relaxed

"Don't talk nonsense!" I patted his shoulder nervously

He didn't refute me, but smiled and saw me staring at him seriously, his green eyes seemed to be shining with water, "No, Margo, I'm not afraid at all." His voice was firm, "Maybe I will, but I'm not. I will escape, Margo, this is my responsibility, I must complete it, and I will definitely complete it"

I don't know what responsibility he said, but I know that Harry will definitely do it if he makes up his mind, just like he said before, he must leave Privet Drive.

"You know Harry, I've always been by your side" I said softly

He paused, then nodded, tightening his lips as if suppressing something.After a while, he said softly, "Let's go, Margo"

I got up and walked with him on the way home, and suddenly silence fell between us.

My heart is a little heavy, and he doesn't know what he is thinking.

Suddenly, he stood still, and I didn't realize it all at once, so I turned around suspiciously to look at him who was one step behind.

As if he had made up his mind, he opened his mouth to say something.

However, in the next second, I seemed to feel a cold and desperate breath.

As the temperature dropped, I seemed to be thrown into another time and space, a time and space full of darkness and despair.Depression and fear seemed to wrap me tightly like a layer of low-pressure air, almost making it impossible for me to breathe.My eyes are full of blood red on the concrete floor, those familiar yet unfamiliar eyes, she used to look at me tenderly in the past, but now, her eyes are huge, the eyeballs are almost falling out of the eye sockets, bloodstained Flowed from lifeless eyes.Those discussions about this suicide reverberated in my head like countless times, and the last words she said to me before sending me to school-"Margo, my Margo..."

Suddenly, my body began to warm up, and the things in front of my eyes gradually became clear, and the temperature in my chest was especially hot - Dudley used his body to block me and the monster, and he was face to face with the monster at this moment , with an extremely painful expression.

At this time, Harry finally reacted, and he dispelled the monster.Dudley's body went limp all of a sudden, his eyes were loose, his face was pale, I don't know what he saw, the horror in his eyes didn't dissipate for a long time.

Wed, Oct 11, 1995

All that happened so unexpectedly, Harry's face became more dignified visible to the naked eye.

He left in a hurry after Dudley had settled down.

During this period, he stared at me deeply, but it seemed to be blocked by something. The distance between us was no longer the same as before, and we could expect to get closer without any scruples.

He didn't even have time to say those words.

Mon, Jan 9, 1996

I'm going back to France

My grandmother asked someone to find me, and I learned everything:

The rebellious girl was deceived by a British man's flattering words, and she didn't realize that a new life was conceived in her belly until the man left without a word, and insisted on giving birth to the child and bringing her to England.

My mother once told me that he was only separated from us until she fell from the roof in despair.

The old French old man learned that she had lost her daughter, and she was haggard overnight as if she was about to pass out in a second. I looked at her cloudy and loving eyes, the same brown eyes as my mother, and I couldn't refuse her. , and there is no reason to reject her.

Nothing in this house is mine, and I take out a stack of letters from the drawer, and those fancy-wrapped candies, a crystal ball with a snow scene, and a golden orb.

I said good-bye to Mr. and Mrs. Dean, and finally I went into number four, Privet Drive, across the way.

Entering through the door, I saw the cupboard under the stairs. I knew this was Harry's former room; past the food I handed in.

Mrs. Dursley said Dudley was upstairs, so I went upstairs to find him, and passed a locked door, which I knew was the room where Harry had lived, and we had separated our Letters were delivered from his room to mine.

"Are you leaving?" Dudley asked me

"Yes" I fell silent after saying this, I don't know how to face the feelings he gave me, when I can't give back.

"Are you coming back?" Dudley was the first to break the silence.

"I don't know" I said

"Then will you send me a postcard?" He asked expectantly and anxiously

I nodded hesitantly, looked up at him "I will send you a postcard" I paused "as a friend"

I think he understood what I meant, but he smiled happily, "Of course, we are friends, and I will send you a letter, Margaret"

This was the first time he called my name, but it was as proficient as if he had secretly practiced countless times.

i laughed too

"Does Harry know?" he asked

My smile froze for a moment, then I pursed my lips "No, please don't tell him either"

"Why?" He was a little surprised and puzzled

I didn't answer him.

In the end I walked out of Number Four Privet Drive, which I had never imagined before, the first time I walked into it, to say goodbye to it.

I only took the presents that Harry had given me, and I left the letters and diary in the original room.

And those my anticipation, my sour anxiety, my despair and powerlessness, and all my emotions about Harry are left in Privet Drive.

Maybe someone will find out one day, dust off and see all the emotions I hid in those gray days; it may lie forever in a dark drawer, and I'll be the only one who remembers things until I forget them too .

【Finish】

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