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Xu Xie leaned on the sofa, holding up the mobile phone to watch videos one by one, amidst the psychedelic lights and loud voices, from the first to the last, and from the last to the first, over and over again.

The people around him noticed his behavior, approached him with a smile, and reached out to snatch his mobile phone: "Why are you looking so seriously? There are so many young ladies here looking at you. What's the point of staring at the mobile phone?"

Xu Xie calmly avoided his hand, turned off the screen, and raised a stereotyped smile that he had gradually mastered over the past few months: "Brother Mo, don't make fun of me, you know I have someone."

"Tch, I know, I know, your partner is the most expensive, and I can't even show you a photo." Xu Mo scratched his ears, the 25-year-old bachelor couldn't understand the thoughts of this little lover, and turned his head when he was bored. To tease others.

Seeing that no one was pestering her anymore, Xu Xie opened WeChat again, clicked on the last video, and dragged the progress bar to a certain point with her fingers. The young boy on the screen tilted his head.

At this moment, the light shone on Fang Zhi's face, clearly reflecting the moisture in his eyes, and a trace of dry tears winding from his eyes to his jaw.The next moment after that, the little boy on the screen suddenly lowered his head, his furry head shook, but he couldn't lift it up.

...It seems that I have been overwhelmed by a lot of sadness.

He was talking all the time, and his lips would not stop murmuring.But because of the bad shooting environment, the messy background noises covered his murmurs, Xu Xie couldn't hear many words clearly, until the end of the video, Fang Zhi almost fell asleep, and there was only a very soft sentence The mutterings reached Xu Xie's ears in the suddenly quiet background.

"...I miss him."

During the period when she first arrived in this strange city, compared to Xie Wen's obvious excitement and joy, Xu Xie never had a specific emotion.Sadness, sorrow, sadness, regret, loneliness, resentment, many, many, he seems to have none of them, and he seems to have a little bit of them.

Xie Wen asked him to find a school to continue his studies, but Xu Xie didn't listen to her anymore.He discarded all his worries and weaknesses. In this strange city, he had nothing but inexplicably indestructible, so that he was no longer afraid of Xie Wen suddenly, and had the courage to fight her.

After he had a big fight with Xie Wen, he moved out of her house near the sea and found a rented house by himself.The [-]-square-meter space, because the location is not good, is dark and dark all the year round without sunlight, but Xu Xie thinks it is very good, he can feel the freedom and relaxation that he has not seen for a long time in this space.

After a few days of dejection in the rental house, Xu Xie regained the social skills that he had neglected for a long time, and within half a month, he found a job and friends in this city that he was completely unfamiliar with.

Xu Mo is his new friend and boss.

The boss originally looked down on him, thinking that a kid who didn't graduate from high school could do anything, but later, probably because his ancestors belonged to a family, he reluctantly gave him a chance, and then he was conquered by his ability to work up.

Xu Mo thinks that Xu Xie is very interesting. He is a good university bully. If he can't study, he has to struggle in the society. He has a precious and beautiful partner, but he always hides it from others.

Facing these two questions, for the former, Xu Xie gave the answer what do you know, you scumbag, and for the latter, the answer he gave was what do you know, you single dog.

Xu Mo: "..."

In short, seeing that Xu Xie kept silent about these things, and seemed to avoid them whenever he could, Xu Mo wisely didn't ask more questions, but after that, he always liked to tease Xu Xie about his partner.

Before New Year's Day, Xu Mo received a big order, and the client was notoriously difficult to deal with.During that time, the company was lit up and down all night, and Xu Xie was too busy to touch the floor. After work every day, he would fall asleep as soon as he touched the pillow.

Hurry up, and finally wait for the customer's nod before the arrival of the New Year's Day holiday.The boss, Xu Mo, was very happy. With a big wave of his hand, he gave everyone a red envelope, and said that on the [-]nd, everyone should go to the bar, and anyone who can come will come.

Xu Xie, as Xu Mo's special care, is naturally not easy to shirk.

On the first day, Xu Xie went to Xie Wen's house.He didn't want to stay with Xie Wen, and he was busy, so this was the first time he came back after he moved out.

During this period, Xie Wen naturally did not give up harassing him, and the daily bombardment of phone and text messages consisted of dozens or hundreds of messages.Depending on his mood, Xu Xie would sometimes pay attention to her, and sometimes he would simply remove the phone card and put it back when he felt that it was almost done.

When she heard the knock on the door, Xie Wen was debating whether to send a message to Xu Xie, asking him to come over for dinner when he was free.

When Xu Xie resolutely moved out of here, Xie Wen didn't think it was a big problem.At that time, she was immersed in the joy of starting a new life, and her dependence on Xu Xie and her desire to control were not so strong.Furthermore, she felt that in this strange city, Xu Xie had no other acquaintance except him, and the two of them were in a dependent relationship. No matter what, Xu Xie would not abandon her.

So that day, after discovering that the quarrel could not stop Xu Xie, Xie Wen thought that she graciously allowed his rebellion.

She firmly believed that Xu Xie was just out of breath.Just like children who run away from home after a big fight with their parents, most of them will not go far at all. In the end, even if they are wronged and sad, they will return home with sobs.

She enjoyed her new life peacefully, one day, two days, three days... Until a week later, when she found out that Xu Xie hadn't come back, she finally became flustered belatedly.

She frantically called and sent messages to the other party, sometimes pleading, sometimes madly, she was too familiar with these moves, and she also believed that Xu Xie would be defeated by these moves.

But the attitude of the other party was hot and cold, and occasionally answered the phone, but only coldly told her to go to bed early.

After going back and forth, she finally learned to reflect under Xu Xie's attitude that she had never had before.

In fact, she has always known.Xu Xie has been soft-hearted since he was a child. The rebellious boy who is born rebellious is always very kind to the people he cares about. It is the kind of kindness that even if you ask for his favorite thing, he will not hesitate to give it to you.

Xu Likai said before that we, Xiaoxie, are so soft-hearted that we are easily bullied.

But she dismissed it, saying that such a brat, who could bully him.

But the facts proved that Xu Xie was easy to be bullied, otherwise she wouldn't have used Xu Likai and threatened Fang Zhi to do so many things that he didn't even want to do.

Yes, threats.

The moment this word flashed in Xie Wen's mind, she seemed to be hit by a stick suddenly, and her brain, which had been in chaos for too long, suddenly woke up.

She thought that Xu Xie's every compromise was due to her family and blood relationship, but in fact, looking back, it was not the case at all.Xu Xie will not compromise. Under her yelling and crying, pretending to be gentle, he will only compromise in front of the people he cares about.

Every time I take self-righteous control, it is actually Xu Xie's last resort to compromise under the threat.

After thinking about all this, Xie Wen suddenly tasted the bitterness in her mouth.At this moment, she suddenly remembered a certain afternoon a few years ago. At that time, Xu Likai had just passed away. She couldn't understand Xu Xie smoking, so she stayed alone in front of Xu Likai's photo for a long time, without eating or drinking, until Xu Xie finally died. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I begged her in a crying voice, saying, Mom, I don't smoke anymore, don't do this, let's eat.

... At that time, was she more happy or bitter?

When the knock on the door sounded again, Xie Wen dragged her feet to open the door.

When she saw the tall and straight boy in front of the door, she was stunned.

She always felt that Xu Xie was still young and she could control him, but in fact, as time passed inadvertently, the boy who was about the same height as her in her memory had grown so tall that she needed to step on his shoulders to reach his shoulders.

Xu Xie brushed all her hair up, showing sharp eyebrows and eyes, and she already looked like an adult in every gesture.He passed the bag in his hand to Xie Wen with no expression on his face, and his voice was no longer a clear and clear boyish voice: "Happy New Year's Day, I won't go in and sit. I will pay you every month from now on."

Xie Wen took it, then stared blankly at Xu Xie and turned around.

The tall figure full of rejection and indifference left little by little, Xie Wen's joy that had not yet spread in her heart turned into panic, and she couldn't help calling him: "Xiaoxie!"

The other party stopped walking and continued to walk forward, turned his head slightly, and there was still no emotion between his eyebrows and eyes.

Xie Wen twisted the fabric of the hem tightly with her fingers, hesitated for a moment, and then asked cautiously: "Do you want to stay for a meal?"

Xu Xie refused without much thought: "It's not necessary."

Seeing the figure leave little by little until he turned the corner and disappeared, Xie Wen slowly felt a sharp dull pain.

She knew that after leaving this time, the boy she thought she was in control, but who had always had the opportunity to escape from her but compromised again and again because of soft-heartedness, would never look back.

Xu Xie had a long, long sleep after returning home.

He seemed to be in a dream, but he didn't seem to be doing anything. In short, he was woken up by the alarm clock in a daze. When he struggled to wake up, it was already noon on the second day.

There are two to-do items that automatically pop up on the phone, one is a specific thing, to attend a party, and the other is not something, but he wrote it down here in case he forgets.

Brother Fang's birthday.

Seeing these words suddenly, Xu Xie felt his heart was stabbed hard, causing him to bend down in pain.

People always say that time is a good medicine to heal pain. No matter how much you have been obsessed with it, it will eventually be peeled off into fragments of dust in the long years. One day, when a gust of wind comes, the dust will disperse.

Xu Xie felt that this was quite true. At least during the few months he was busy with his livelihood, he never missed the young man who blushed when he was teased. It was only very occasionally that he saw a certain plane tree, saw a tree on the side of the road. A certain wild cat in my home, seeing a building similar to the No. [-] Middle School, would lose his mind for a moment, and then wonder where the familiar figure would pop out from.

He felt that it would be good to be separated from each other in this way, pretending that nothing happened between them, nothing ever existed, and slowly forget each other in the rivers and lakes.The other party is good, and he is also good.Don't worry about Xie Wen's sudden threat, don't worry about Fang Haisheng's questioning after finding out, just live in peace, their future will be bright.

But people are really strange.Obviously thinking so in my heart, but my body always sings against it.

So when Xu Mo asked him if he had a partner, he nodded without hesitation, and when he realized it afterwards, he didn't want to explain or argue.

So when he learned that Fang Zhi's birthday was approaching, he contacted Lin Yufeng who had planned to never contact him again in this life, and begged him to give Fang Zhi a gift for him.

On the day of contact, Lin Yufeng cursed for 10 minutes before calming down, and then asked him, are you planning to break up with Fang Zhi like this?

He silently scanned the rings, necklaces, and photo albums beside the pillow, and after a long, long silence, he answered, um.

Lin Yufeng sent him two words, cowardly.

The coward originally wanted to coax to the end, but when he saw the teenager in the video who was so drunk that he was crying because he was so drunk and mumbled that he missed him, he suddenly couldn't coax anymore.

How can he admit that he doesn't want to forget Fang Zhi at all, but he is afraid that when he sees Fang Zhi again, the other party will hate him, hate him, even hate him, or treat him like a piece of air and ignore him, when he doesn't exist.

He dared to think about any bad ending, but Fang Zhi would forgive him, and then they would get back together again. He dared not even dream of a happy ending.

After that birthday party, Fang Zhi became a little more cheerful, at least he wouldn't frown every day with a cold face, as if everyone owed him [-] million.

Life in the third year of high school is still busy, and Fang Zhi still doesn't give himself a chance to miss.Jiang An watched helplessly as his brother Fang endured stomach pains and studied every day, climbing up to the first place in the grade. He was also strongly motivated and vowed to study hard in the next semester.

At that time, there was still about a week before the winter vacation, and Jiang An said that Brother Fang was weak and strong, and I wanted to learn from him, while playing crazily and disturbing Yan Qing, euphemistically, enjoying the last playing time.

Every time at this time, Yan Qing would slap him, sometimes on the arm, sometimes on the back of the shoulder, making Jiang An scream and scold her tigress repeatedly, no one will marry her in the future.

Chen Mushu didn't know if he was influenced by Chen Qiruo, so he studied very carefully.Jiang An often whispered in his ear, complaining that he was like an old monk in meditation from the beginning of his studies, and he ignored him no matter what.

The next day, Chen Mushu began to carry earplugs with him every day.

This made Jiang An so angry that he babbled more vigorously every day.Later, Fang Zhi, who was still at the back table, annoyed him and told him that Yan Qing was also planning to take the Z University exam. Only then did Jiang An stop this foolish behavior, and turned around to ask Yan Qing why she changed her target.

On the day of the end of the final exam, Lao Han had another long talk with Fang Zhi.After the young boy became stubborn, no matter what Lao Han asked, he just said, "I just want to get into Z University."

Old Han was annoyed and helpless, and in the end, he revealed something that he had not told Fang Zhi: "Do you know that Xu Xie's student status has not been transferred? This proves that he still has to go back to us for the college entrance examination! But he disappeared So thorough, if he doesn't come back to take the college entrance examination, do you plan to go to Z University alone?"

He thought that this would at least make Fang Zhi calm down and think about it, but he didn't expect that after his sentence, Fang Zhi's eyes suddenly lit up, and he asked, must he come back here to take the college entrance examination?

Lao Han held his breath tightly in his chest, neither up nor down, and finally he could only point to the office door, signaling Fang Zhi to get out of here.

On the night of New Year's Eve, at the dinner table, Fang Zhi's cell phone rang non-stop.He didn't even need to click on it to know that it must be the teenagers of the aspiring youth group wishing each other a happy new year.

He also clicked into WeChat to follow the trend, and swipe down by the way, sending everyone New Year's greetings.

Unknowingly, it just reached the bottom of WeChat.

The panda head portrait lay there quietly, deliberately forgotten for several months.Fang Zhi looked at it, inexplicably read a trace of grievance from its expression.

At the dinner table covered with various dishes, Fang Haisheng was telling bad jokes, He Hui didn't bother to talk to him, only Li Zhihe smiled cooperatively.

The lights outside the window are brightly lit, and there are occasional fireworks blooming in the distance.

Wechat messages kept coming, and it was always noisy and vibrating. Some people replied to him with New Year greetings, and there were also news of grabbing red envelopes in some groups.

This is the most lively year Fang Zhi has had in more than ten years.

He didn't click on Xu Xie's WeChat, and never sent him a message. He was afraid of seeing that red exclamation mark, seeing this symbol that represented their loss of contact.But on this day, at this moment, he suddenly felt a pain in his heart, which was so heavy that it overwhelmed that fear.

He thought that Xu Xie was now in a completely strange city, with no familiar friends and people around him, and only a crazy Xie Wen was with him, so he couldn't bear the pain that spread from his heart to his whole body.

After hesitating for a long time, he still opened the wechat with trembling fingers.He quickly clicked on the input method, typed in the four words "Happy New Year" in the dialog box and sent it, then he hurriedly backed out without looking at anything or expecting anything, and then let the words of "Happy New Year" come out one after another. WeChat news, once again squeezed the panda head to the bottom.

After the year is over, it means that the college entrance examination is approaching.In the new semester, Jiang An fulfilled his promise, buried himself in the sea of ​​study every day, and even became short-sighted due to excessive use of eyes.

Some people look good with glasses, such as Chen Mushu. After wearing glasses, the whole personality will become different and have a good taste; while some people will look ugly wearing glasses, such as Jiang An.

On the day of getting glasses, Yan Qing accompanied him. It is said that when he put on the glasses for the first time, he was almost scared.

"Originally not bad, how could you be so ugly with glasses on?" Yan Qing was heartbroken, and with a look of hatred for iron and steel, Jiang An felt wronged and said that after graduating from high school, he must have surgery and get rid of glasses .

Fang Zhi really got busy after the self-enrollment brochures of major colleges and universities were released.In the past six months, whenever he was free, he sent himself to the competition, and won many awards. Li Xiao and others who also participated in the competition were very unhappy with his vicious competitive behavior. They had the courage to ask him, Can you give them a way out.

Fang Zhi actually thought of nothing else.He just felt that if he got more awards and discounts, he would be more confident of being admitted to Z University.

Li Xiao was about to cry when he heard his reason: "But, Mr. Fang, your grades don't need to be reduced and you can be admitted to Z University."

It was also on that day that Fang Zhi suddenly discovered that he had already caught up with Xu Xie at a moment that he didn't even know.

But the person who was pinned in place waiting for him to chase had disappeared.

Subsequent materials submission, review, test, everything went smoothly.

The weather was getting hotter, and Fang Zhi felt that the long sleeves he had put on not long ago had been taken off and turned into short sleeves. The sycamore trees on Wutong Avenue in the No. [-] Middle School were once again green and lush, and the cicadas were intertwined again. The boy rushing under the scorching sun changed. Round after round, the heat and vigor remained the same.

On the first day of the college entrance examination in June, early in the morning, there was a dark cloud swaying slowly in the sky, not too fast or slow, floating over the heads of the densely packed anxious crowd like teasing.

Old Han stood at the entrance of the examination room, yelling hoarsely, blushing: "Everyone check carefully! Examination admission card, ID card, pencil refill! Who is that! What are you going to do! Go to the toilet quickly!"

Fang Zhi wandered outside the crowd, looking at this side for a while, then that way for a while, and finally his sight was too obstructed, so he jumped onto the flower bed and searched the crowd with his eyes.

He's looking for that bastard Xu.

He remembered that Lao Han said that if Xu Xie's student status had not been transferred, he had to come back here for the exam.The school probably still had a glimmer of hope, not only did not revoke Xu Xie's student status, but also printed out his admission ticket.

On the day when the admission ticket was issued, Fang Zhi went to the first class, and under the curious eyes of everyone, he stuffed Xu Xie's admission ticket into his pocket.

He actually knew that Xu Xie probably wouldn't come to take the exam, but he still had such a small hope that he would keep his word.

Everyone is crowded at the entrance of the examination room, and there is a lot of mobility. Sometimes this person is here now, and then appears there after a while.But Fang Zhi didn't feel impatient.This is the only chance, the only chance to catch the man, and he has to be patient.

"Jingle Bell--"

The ear-piercing bell rang, heralding the entrance to the examination room. All those who were either idle, in a daze, or taking the time to memorize something at this moment all raised their heads at this moment.

Then, the gate of the examination room opened, and the congested crowd found a flood outlet like a stream of water, and they all rushed there.

Soon, there was no one left at the entrance of the examination room, except for the parents and teachers who were waiting anxiously, and the occasional candidates who came hurriedly stepping on the tail of the bell, the examination room was empty.

Laohan watched his students enter the examination room, and his tense nerves relaxed slightly.He raised the thermos and was about to take a sip of water when he suddenly caught a glimpse of a tall and straight boy standing on the flower bed from the corner of his eye.

... So isn't that Fang Zhi? ? ?

Immediately, he couldn't care less about drinking water, and hurried over to pull Fang Zhi's sleeve: "What's the matter with you? Can't you hear the bell? Come in quickly!"

Fang Zhi remained unmoved, and squeezed Xu Xie's admission ticket in his pocket: "...wait a little longer."

"What are you waiting for!" Lao Han was so mad at him that the veins on his forehead burst out, "What are you waiting for? Ah? This is the college entrance examination, do you know?! This is the college entrance examination! Fang Zhi, are you Aren't you trying to piss me off?! What are you stubborn about! What have you been stubborn about for half a year!"

His voice was a bit loud, which attracted the attention of many people.Fang Zhi has a good face, and he is not used to and doesn't like the gaze of others, but he doesn't care about it at the moment, looking at a blank space far, far away, looking forward to the arrival of that familiar figure.

No matter how old Han yelled and scolded, Fang Zhi always stood there like a sculpture, muttering something: "...wait a little longer, just a little longer."

"Okay, I can't control you, let your uncle control you!"

Fang Haisheng was supposed to accompany Fang Zhi to the exam today, but because something happened at the farm, he entrusted Lao Han to watch Fang Zhi more.

Hearing that Lao Han wanted to call Fang Haisheng, Fang Zhi recovered briefly.He pressed Laohan's hand to dial the phone, and there was a faint pleading in his eyes: "Uncle...Uncle Liu, don't tell my uncle, I will wait a little longer, just a little bit, soon..."

Lao Han glared angrily, but slowly turned off after meeting Fang Zhi's eyes.

He has been friends with Fang Haisheng for many years, and he has watched Fang Zhi grow up over the years.This young man is always cold and indifferent, without any desire or desire, as if nothing can stir up the slightest disturbance in his heart.

He thought Fang Zhi was born like this, but he saw him like this today.

He suddenly realized that the person he was waiting for was really important to him.

Laohan suppressed his anger forcibly, and asked in a cold voice: "I don't need to tell your uncle, but I only allow you to wait another 5 minutes."

Fang Zhi lowered his eyes, raised them after a long silence, and said slowly, "...15 minutes late for the college entrance examination is allowed."

Lao Han stubbornly refused to take another step back: "I will only give you 5 minutes."

After that, Fang Zhi didn't answer anymore, but cast his eyes on another blank space again.

Lao Han felt that this was the most difficult 5 minutes for him.He couldn't understand this group of teenagers, nor could he understand their whim and persistence.He was very scared, Fang Zhi would continue to wait when the 5 minutes were up, and he actually had no better way to stop him.

Fortunately, the young boy was honest and trustworthy. After Lao Han reminded him softly that 5 minutes was up, he lowered his eyes and walked down from the flower bed silently.

Because his expectations were not high, Fang Zhi was not particularly disappointed or sad, he just felt that a place in his heart suddenly collapsed, and it echoed faintly in his chest cavity, like a sigh.

"Okay, can we go in?" Lao Han stood behind him with a worried expression on his face.He was afraid that Fang Zhi would not be able to take the exam in this state. After hesitating for a moment, he said cautiously: "Otherwise, you can give me Xu Xie's admission ticket. I will give it to him when he comes."

To Laohan's surprise, Fang Zhi refused.

"No need." He took out the exam admission ticket that had been crumpled into a ball in his pocket, waved his hand, and let it float to an unknown distance with the intensifying wind.

"He won't be coming."

This is the college entrance examination, and it is his first step towards the future he promised with that person. He thought that he could stand side by side, but after all, it was nothing but joy.

In the end, he can only go to a song that belongs to him alone.

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