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After Fang Zhi said sorry, he immediately sent a lot of inquiries, but the other party remained silent and did not reply. In the end, it seemed that he couldn't stand his disturbing behavior. After Fang Zhi hit us and sent them, A red exclamation mark appears next to the dialog box for this message.

Fang Zhi didn't react at first, pulled down the status bar of the phone and turned on the mobile data again, and then returned to the WeChat interface, only to find a line of small words under the dialog box.

The message was sent but was rejected by the other party.

reject?What's the meaning?Why reject it?

Fang Zhi's mind was in such a mess that he couldn't think of anything.He couldn't understand the sorry, and he couldn't understand the rejection.He wanted to ask someone to ask what it meant and what was going on, but after looking around for a long time, he found that he was alone in the classroom.

The boy he is familiar with, who will always be by his side, laughs and jokes with him, and talks about the boy who is determined to love his life in the future, is trapped by a screen lock in another space he doesn't know, leaving him to slowly rise up, the tide rises Like infinite panic and loneliness.

Jiang An was halfway through his meal, but he was still worried about Fang Zhi who just had a stomach problem, so he took out his cell phone and called him.

The other end was quickly picked up, but only the sound of heavy breathing came over.Jiang An blinked suspiciously, and lowered his voice for some unknown reason, and called out cautiously: "Brother Fang?"

The breathing on the other end paused, and then Fang Zhi's hoarse voice came over: "Jiang An, what is it like to be blocked on WeChat?"

Jiang An didn't know why he asked that question, but he still gave a brief account of his circle of friends and the status of sending and receiving messages after being blocked.

Then, he heard Fang Zhi's breathing was heavier than before, as if he was suppressing some emotion.

He was about to ask what's the matter, but the other party hung up the phone neatly.

Fang Zhi had never been good at finding people, so after he hung up Jiang An's phone call, he didn't know what to do.

He sat there stiffly, a lot of things flashed through his mind randomly, but he didn't catch anything.It wasn't until Lin Yufeng sent a message asking him if he had any news about Xu Xie that he stopped this meaningless thinking and found his way in the confusion.

The two exchanged briefly through WeChat and phone calls, and finally Lin Yufeng said that he would be picked up from No. [-] Middle School, and the two went to Xu Xie's house to have a look together.

"Don't worry." Lin Yufeng comforted. After a while, he probably felt that it was not something that he could not worry about now, so he added, "... Anyway, let's go and have a look first."

Fang Zhi was so at a loss, he could only follow Lin Yufeng's instructions and walked to the school gate holding his phone.

Lin Yufeng came very quickly, sighed when he saw Fang Zhi standing at the school gate with a wooden face from afar, slowed down the car and slowly stopped in front of him.

Fang Zhi raised his eyes after a long time, saw Lin Yufeng's car, walked around to the passenger seat, opened the door and got in.

Along the way, the atmosphere in the car was suffocating and dull. Lin Yufeng wanted to speak several times, but when he caught a glimpse of Fang Zhi's dazed look from the corner of his eye, he silently closed his mouth again.

He knew this feeling all too well.It was because he knew that he couldn't say those comforting words that were almost self-deceiving.

After an unknown amount of time, Fang Zhi withdrew his gaze from staring at the screen of the phone, looked ahead without focus, and asked Lin Yufeng softly, as if casually: "Did he block you?"

Lin Yufeng was stunned for a while before he realized who "he" was referring to.Lin Yufeng paused for a while, then shook his head and said, "No."

After that, Fang Zhi never spoke again—

He didn't know if he was too special to Xu Xie, even such things were exceptions.

The car finally stopped in an old residential area in the old city, and the original brilliant golden light dimmed a little for an instant, as if people were placed in another damp and dark space.

Fang Zhi got out of the car behind Lin Yufeng, looked up at the surrounding environment and dilapidated buildings, and couldn't connect Xu Xie with this place for a moment.

Xu Xie is enthusiastic, rebellious, confident, and proud, but this place is quiet and decadent, and it is incompatible with that kind of Xu Xie.

"Let's go." Lin Yufeng locked the car, patted him on the shoulder to interrupt his brief thinking, and signaled him to go with him.

The narrow and dark corridor was full of garbage and full of stench, which Fang Zhi had never seen before.Lin Yufeng walked in front, kicking the rubbish in the way from time to time, muttering curses, and finally, he laughed at himself: "Maybe you have never been to such a place before? Damn, the people here don't know what to do." No matter how clean the corridor is, it will still look like this in a few days, and gradually, no one is willing to clean it up... Hey, it's here."

Fang Zhi paused for a long time, but he couldn't find a reasonable explanation for his sudden distress. He didn't recover until Lin Yufeng said it, and looked up at the closed door in front of him.

Lin Yufeng raised his hand and knocked on the door.

As the sound of knocking on the door panel resounded in the corridor, Fang Zhi raised his heart uncontrollably—expectation or fear, at this moment, it is impossible to say which one is more important, but subconsciously, he still hopes to see that person in the next second Opening the door, he smiled and said to him, "Brother Fang, why are you here?"

He tried his best to restrain himself from thinking about Xu Xie's loss of contact in the worst direction, but as the waiting time got longer and longer, the closed door still remained silent, and his fear gradually overwhelmed his expectation. , Fang Zhi's knuckles were all red from rubbing.

Lin Yufeng's brows and eyes were also covered with a cloud during the long wait.He raised his hand and knocked on the door again, this time with a little force, and called out at the same time: "Xiaoxie, Aunt Xie, are you at home?"

There was still silence inside the door, and there was no response, but the door next door creaked open at this moment.

"Are you looking for Xiaoxie?" A kind-faced old man poked his head out from the inside, pointed to the door panel they were facing, with a puzzled expression, "He and his mother moved away not long ago, don't you know?"

moved away.

Those three simple words sounded like thunder in Fang Zhi's ears.

He suddenly thought of what Xu Xie told him not long ago.

"People go to the empty building."

"Without a trace."

"If a person really wants to disappear and not be found, it is very simple."

"No news at all."

He was the person listening to the story, but now he is the person in the story.

The strange thing is that he didn't feel how sad he was at this moment, only a little bit, stuck in a corner of his heart, which didn't make him feel pain.

He did not collapse, his mind was not in a trance, and his heart continued to beat. He even bowed when Lin Yufeng thanked the old man and left. Not stagnant.

It's just that little bit of sadness that can't go away.

Really not much, just a little bit, even if compared, it is estimated to be no more than the size of a finger.But when Lin Yufeng started the car and stepped on the accelerator to take him away from that place, apart from the little sadness, there was also a little bit of grievance, a little bit of guilt, a little bit of sadness, a little bit of anger, and a little bit of boredom. Then, the emotion doesn't seem so bearable.

The fist-sized heart was filled with these finger-sized emotions piecemeal, and the heart was so sore that it almost burst out of water.

It happened to be a red light. Lin Yufeng didn't pay attention to the traffic light because he was thinking about something. Seeing the light jump into red, he slammed on the brakes, barely stopping before the stop line.

Because of this sudden brake, Fang Zhi jumped forward, bumped his head in front of him, and there was a "boom".

There was a red light in Lin Yufeng's eyes, and he cursed fiercely, "Fuck", but from the corner of his vision, he suddenly caught a glimpse of Fang Zhi's body bent, his head almost buried in his knees, and his whole body trembling slightly.

He immediately ignored what he was cursing, and after the green light turned on, he drove the car to a place that would not affect the traffic, and asked him what was wrong in a panic.

The skinny young man was silent for a long time before he mumbled out a few syllables that Lin Yufeng couldn't hear clearly even when he got close.

"...Xu Xie, my stomach hurts."

On this day, there are still four days before the autumnal equinox. The weather is still very hot, but there are already signs of autumn depression in various places.Fang Zhi declined Lin Yufeng's kindness to send him to the hospital, and walked aimlessly along the Wutong Avenue in the No. [-] Middle School by himself.

This campus ushered in new students, and the school uniforms were changed again. Everyone who passed in front of Fang Zhi was a stranger.

He walked through the unfamiliar crowd, and suddenly thought of a certain evening a few months ago.He gnawed on an apple and walked ahead, but Xu Xie made a mistake of half a step behind him.From the corner of the eye, the two shadows projected on the school wall intersected and intersected, and finally, under Xu Xie's deliberate adjustment, they turned into holding hands.

At that time, he was startled and frightened, vaguely feeling that he knew something, but thinking about it carefully, he didn't know what he knew.

There is only one heartbeat, specific and clear.

Thinking of this, he turned his eyes to the school wall, where there were only shadows, only a lonely shadow.

The boy who would quietly hold his hand in the dark disappeared without a trace.

A gust of wind whizzed past, rustling the leaves of the sycamore trees, singing the carols of the end of summer, one piece of emerald green was unbearably disturbed, fluttering with the wind, drawing a curved track and falling at the foot of the suddenly falling shadow .

It's like the last gift for the boy's midsummer.

The author has something to say:

Happy Valentine's Day! ! ! !After playing for a whole day, I finally rushed a little bit o(╥﹏╥)o (I know it’s short, don’t scold people, I’ll make it up!!!)