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Xu Xie stood at the door, and through a door panel, he heard the muffled sound of something hitting the ground.

He closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, suppressing the anxiety that had surged several times before taking out the key to open the door.

"Where have you been?" Almost as soon as he opened the door, Xie Wen's voice rang, "Why didn't you answer my phone? Huh? I called you eighteen times, but you didn't answer any of them! Why?! What the hell did you do?!"

Xu Xie ignored her madness, walked around the pile of debris that fell on the ground, went to the living room, took off his coat, poured himself a glass of cold water and poured it into his stomach.

"Speak up! What are you doing behind my back?" No response was received, Xie Wen stepped on her slippers and walked to Xu Xie's side, "Do you know how scared I was when I woke up and found that there was no one at home?" ?Xiaoxie, Xiaoxie, my mother told you many times that you are the only one left! Don’t we have any trust between mother and child? Why don’t you want to say anything to your mother? Don’t do anything Keep it from mom, okay? Just talk and tell mom what you did, okay? Mom is very scared, very scared..."

Like many times before, the woman's sharp questioning slowly turned into a mournful question in the boy's silence.

Xu Xie sighed, pressed his forehead, and finally stood up amidst the woman's crying voice, put his arms around her shoulders, numbly and tiredly repeated what he would say every time this happened: "This time It is my fault."

He has no way to reprimand or complain about Xie Wen's behavior, because he knows that behind it lies her deep anxiety and worry for him.

What can be done?Can't do anything, can only coax.

Whether it's because of this beautiful starting point, or because of this fragmented home that needs them to support together.

"Yu You was injured. I went to pick him up to the hospital. I thought he'd be healed in a while so I didn't tell you. Who would have thought that it would be delayed until now." Xu Xie never mentioned Fang Zhi to Xie Wen, nor did he want to Being pestered by Xie Wen to ask about Fang Zhi, she told a little lie, "I didn't answer the phone on purpose, it was quite tiring, I muted my phone, and when I fell asleep, I would call when I woke up later." You sent a message."

"What about the back? I'll call you later and you still haven't answered." Xie Wen raised her eyes to look at Xu Xie, her eyes with faint watery eyes seemed a little sharp under the light above her head.

"Ah? Did you call me back later?" Xu Xie pretended to be stupid, took out his mobile phone and pretended to check, and continued to lie, "I came back by taking the bus. Isn't it a holiday today, and there are too many people ordering this. My mobile phone I put it in my pocket, and it was so crowded that I couldn't even take it out... I was in the car when I called at 45:[-]."

There is indeed a hospital about 10 minutes away by bus near his home.

Xie Wen was dubious, staring at Xu Xie's phone suspiciously, but after a while, she remembered that when she said she wanted to check Xu Xie's phone last time, her son who had been obedient to her since Xu Likai's accident happened because of this court She made a big fuss.

Thinking of this, she reluctantly turned her gaze away from Xu Xie's phone: "Then you won't do this next time. I've already been very upset about your going to the dormitory. If you don't report to me again Where did you go and what did you do, mom will go crazy... Xiaoxie, you have to remember that mom only has you."

Xu Xie pretended not to see Xie Wen's eyes, and when she saw that she had calmed down, she turned around and walked to the room: "Well, I'm tired, so I'll go back to the room to rest first."

"Okay, you go to rest first... By the way, tomorrow is Qingming, don't forget to get up early to buy flowers."

Xu Xie paused, and after a few seconds of silence, he replied in a low voice: "Got it."

When Xu Xie opened his eyes the next day, it was just twenty after five.

Gray light came in through the window, vaguely outlining the outlines of the low objects beside the desk——

It's part of that pile of loose bookshelves.

He entered the room last night, first made a confession with Yu You, in case Xie Wen asked Yu You to prove it, and then stared at the pile of parts for half an hour.

He didn't bother to reassemble it.

After being stubborn, the reality that should be faced is still to be faced. He doesn't have the ability to restore the bookshelf, so he can only let it scattered there.

Xu Xie got up lightly to wash up, and went out in black.

At this point, most of the stores are still open.Xu Xie was not in a hurry, and after slowly eating a drawer of steamed buns at the breakfast shop downstairs, he wandered down the street with a cup of soy milk.

During the Qingming Festival, the business of flower shops is easier than usual, and merchants also seize the opportunity to make money, and the opening time of shops will be earlier than usual.After Xu Xie walked around for more than ten minutes, he saw a flower shop on the corner of the street opened.

There were special bouquets for grave-sweeping in the shop, Xu Xie picked out the freshest bouquet and paid for it, and then called a car to the suburban cemetery.

"The dead have spirits, don't bother me, little brother, I'll send you here, and you can walk up the rest of the way by yourself."

Xu Xie thanked her, and after getting out of the car, she walked up a small hill and saw rows of neat and solemn white marble tombstones.

This time was still too early, the whole cemetery was deserted and silent, and with the cool and damp breeze, Xu Xie's fingers were stiff from the cold.

He walked through the cemetery and finally stopped in front of a tombstone.

The man in the black-and-white photo of the tombstone smiled and showed his big white teeth, and stared lovingly at the boy who bent over to put flowers in front of him.

"...Father Xu, I'm here." Xu Xie stood quietly in front of the stele for a while, and then said with difficulty, "There are a lot of things I want to tell you, so don't make me annoying."

"Your bookshelf is really not solid. I did my homework hard yesterday, and I didn't touch it or bump it. It fell apart by itself. Your son, I didn't inherit the kung fu from your hands. I knocked and knocked for a long time. Couldn't put it back together."

"Mom, she's still the same. Sometimes I'm in a trance, always wondering if she still loves me... When I save some money, I'll send her to the hospital. It's not a solution to procrastinate."

"Those guys are still the same. Brother Lin said he was going back to college, but he has been procrastinating until now, and he hasn't seen him go back."

"The older the old Zhou is, the more mother-in-law and mother-in-law, I let him read every day so that his ears hurt."

"That kid Yu You, let's say he's not doing his job properly. His big V account on Weibo allows him to manage it pretty well."

"Why... Didn't you like him the most at the time? You said he was obedient, quiet, and good at studying, so let me learn more from him. Tch, goodbye, he's so easy for Yu You to take care of now, I don't even want to be with him."

Xu Xie babbled about trivial matters, and mentioned everyone around him one by one. In the end, he really couldn't think of anything else to say, so his voice stopped abruptly.

No one else came from the cemetery, so he stopped talking, and the whole cemetery fell into silence again.

Xu Xie was in a daze for a moment, and suddenly felt that the timing was very suitable to tell some secrets that could not be explained to others.

"Dad." He breathed a sigh of relief, and spoke to Xu's father's photo very seriously, expressing his sincerity that he dared not tell anyone, "I have someone I like. His name is Fang Zhi, and he is a boy." child."

It was just a gust of wind, and the ending of his words was blown away into the distance.

Fang Zhi stayed up all night and compiled the math materials and sent them to the aspiring youth group before noon.

[Fang Zhi]: [File]

[Li Xiao]: Ahhhh!thanks thanks!

[Li Xiao]: Offering my knees.jpg

Immediately after Li Xiao, many people made bubbles one after another.

Fang Zhi flipped through it casually, and it was full of strings of rainbow farts.

Seeing that no one asked questions or anything, Fang Zhi casually threw the phone away and threw himself into the bed to catch up on sleep.

At around three o'clock in the afternoon, Fang Zhi was woken up by the milk ball.

"Don't make trouble." Fang Zhi woke up in a daze, pulled the milk ball off his face and pushed it aside, took out the phone under the pillow and squinted to read the news.

He clicked on WeChat, and it was a message from Fang Haisheng at the top.

[Uncle]: I went back to my hometown to visit the grave, and I will be back around ten o'clock in the evening.Remember to eat when you wake up, don't toss yourself into the hospital like before.

Fang Zhi looked at the phrase "go back to his hometown to visit the grave", and then vaguely remembered that today is Qingming.

He moved his finger, replied "Yes", looked down, and saw that there were 99+ messages displayed in the aspiring youth group.

Fang Zhi clicked on it, and was terrified by all kinds of "you are my father", "good guy, I'm a good guy", "this wave is like 666", etc., and felt that he and the world were already separated. derailed.

He switched back to the main interface of WeChat, and under the aspiring youth group was Xu Xie's stick figure panda head.

Xu Xie didn't send him a message, but Fang Zhi accidentally clicked on the chat interface with him.

The last item in it was the news that Xu Xie reported his safety to him last night.

[Big Brother Xu]: Get home safely.

At that time, he was busy looking for a specific analysis of a big question, but did not reply.

Fang Zhi stared at the solitary sentence on the screen saying "Get home safe and sound", and for no reason felt that his lack of reply seemed to be too much.

This kind of report of safety and confession of one's whereabouts is only said by people who are close to them.

Would Xu Xie be very sad if he didn't get a response?

Thinking of this, Fang Zhi typed a short composition in the chat box to explain why he didn't reply to the message yesterday.Just when he was about to send it out, he felt that he was being sentimental and made a fuss.

It's not a message that must be replied, what is he explaining so vigorously?

Hypocritical.

Even though he thought so, Fang Zhi became entangled and bored in an instant, and he grabbed his hair that was frizzing everywhere in his sleep.

Suddenly, he seemed to be obsessed with something, just wanting to say something to Xu Xie.But the words in the chat box were typed and deleted, deleted and typed again, but nothing was sent, and there was still only a single message on the chat interface, "Home safely".

...however you look at it, it's uncomfortable.

"Fuck." Fang Zhi cursed in a low voice, attributing all the inexplicable emotions to his not waking up.

Displeased, Fang Xiaozhi angrily rubbed the culprit who woke him up, then threw the phone away, rolled up the quilt, and planned to go back to sleep.

After closing his eyes for 2 minutes, Fang Zhi suddenly opened them.

Today is... Qingming.

After Xu Xie came back from the cemetery, he went to a video game mall in the city center.

This video game mall was the favorite place where he and Father Xu used to come and play.The place has just been renovated recently, and it is a holiday, and it is full of people who came to play together with Zhang Qun.

Without the company of familiar people, Xu Xie stood alone at the door for a while before he realized that he had lost contact with the bustle.

Since Xu's father passed away, every year when Xu Xie came back from the cemetery, he would go to a place where he and Xu's father shared memories.

It's just that without Father Xu, every place is the same as the video game city in front of him, which makes him feel too noisy.

I can't get in by myself.

He was alone, so small, if he entered, he would probably be overwhelmed by the turbulent sound waves and crowds inside.

Xu Xie was about to leave when the phone in his pocket vibrated.

He took it out to look, and was surprised to find that it was a WeChat message from Fang Zhi.

He was a little happy, and his fingertips felt strangely itchy when he clicked on the message.

On the screen, there are only three words and a question mark in the white dialog box.

[FZ.]: Where are you?

Xu Xie originally wanted to make an appointment with Fang Zhi at a hot pot restaurant or something, but when he tapped the screen with his fingertips, he directly sent a location.

[Brother Xu]: [Location]

[FZ.]: Wait for me, I'll be right over.

Xu Xie stared at the message from Fang Zhi in a daze, then turned her head to look at the gate of the video game city in a daze, finally found a seat for people to rest on the side of the road and sat down obediently, and began to wait for Fang Zhi obediently.

Within 10 minutes, Fang Zhi arrived.

"What kind of place is this?" He walked to Xu Xie's side, looked suspiciously at the door with colorful lights in front of him, and frowned, "The design of the door of the box you like here is the reference?"

"Come so fast." Xu Xie still had a sense of unreality in Fang Zhi's appearance.

"It's not far from my house." Fang Zhi pointed to the gate of the video game city, "What are you doing here?"

"What else can you do here... to play." Xu Xie rubbed her fingertips and lied.

"Oh." Fang Zhi didn't doubt that he was there, and after a moment of silence, he said, "I've never been to this kind of place, why don't you take me in?"

After Fang Zhi said this, Xu Xie felt her heart tremble twice in disappointment.

He looked at Fang Zhi, blinked, blinked again after a while, and smiled back after a while, "Okay."

For the next two hours, Fang Zhi showed Xu Xie his talent in games in all aspects.

A batch of shooting machines in the video game city are newly introduced, and no one has played them before. The highest record is 517 points.

Fang Zhi figured out the rules of the shooting machine, and got acquainted with the feel of the shooting machine. With 7 goals and 520 points, he directly broke the record.

Xu Xie watched in amazement from the side: "Is this really your first time playing?"

"Nonsense." Fang Zhi flicked his sore wrist, squinted at Xu Xie, looking a little proud, "I practiced shooting before."

He said he had practiced, but in fact he was too idle in his freshman year of high school. He had nothing to do and wandered around the basketball court next to the community with Fang Haisheng. Occasionally, he brought a basketball to play a few games when he was interested.

Fang Zhi was good at playing, and suddenly felt that the crowded scene was not so disgusting, so he took Xu Xie to look at this side, touch that side, and play a couple of games when he saw something interesting.

Compared with Xu Xie's handicap, Fang Zhi can quickly pick up any game, and when he played the dancing machine, he attracted a crowd of people watching.

"Holy shit, this little brother is so handsome!"

"This hand, this figure, this waist, this leg...my God..."

"Don't rob me, I'll go up and ask for WeChat when it's over."

……

Pushed to the outermost edge of the crowd, Xu Xie quietly held a basket of game coins and smiled as the backdrop: "..."

Vinegar.

Not happy anymore.

I regret bringing someone in.

Taking advantage of Fang Zhi's song, Xu Xie went to buy a bottle of water, and came back just in time for Fang Zhi to finish dancing.

Seizing the opportunity, Xu Xie squeezed through the crowd to Fang Zhi's side and handed him the water: "Let's go after dancing, it's getting late, I'll treat you to dinner."

Fang Zhi nodded, took the water, unscrewed it, took a sip and put it in his mouth, took off his jacket and put it on, and followed Xu Xie to leave the video game city.

He was straightforward and did not give anyone a chance to come forward and talk to him.

The two found a noodle restaurant near their home for dinner, and then walked along the road to digest food.

"Did you have fun?"

Holding a panda doll grabbed from a crane machine in his hand, Fang Zhi replied in a good mood: "Yeah. What about you?"

Xu Xie didn't expect Fang Zhi to ask back, feeling faintly lucky today: "Of course I'm happy."

"Just be happy." Fang Zhi muttered softly, and after looking at the panda in his hand for two seconds, he stretched out his hand towards Xu Xie, "Here, I'll see you off."

"Send it to me?" Xu Xie was very pleasantly surprised, took the doll, looked it over and over in her hands, and thanked with a smile, "Thank you."

Fang Zhi lowered his head and kicked the stones on the road. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of the bright and hearty grin of the young man beside him, and couldn't help but twitch the corners of his mouth.

The street lamps lit up one after another, drawing two long shadows walking side by side for the two of them.

Fang Zhi looked at the occasionally intertwined shadows extending from the two people's feet and projected on the ground in front of them, and thought it was good.

——He didn't let Xu Xie become lonely like the sentence of "arrive home safe and sound" without any response.