are you a clown

Lin Chensan can understand a little bit about the mood that Zheng Zeshao said.

But the difference is that Lin Chensan belongs to: I thought I knew myself very well, but actually I didn’t. What I knew was only what I could understand about myself.It may be very convoluted to say this, and it may be suspected of deliberately circumventing people, but if you use a more vivid analogy, it should be clear.

For example.

Lin Chensan used to think that he was a relatively kind person, so much so that he could be called a kind person.Generally speaking, such people should be of the sympathetic type.

Yes, of course we should think so, until the real thing happened... When Lin Chensan was in college, he took the bus back to school once, but the bus encountered a car accident on the way. It can be said that the person riding the battery car was going the wrong way. However, at that time, Lin Chensan was not half sensitive to the number of casualties. Even after learning that only the retrograde person died, she was full of blame for the retrograde person, thinking that he 'deserved it', 'Sooner or later, something like this will happen'... Blame the car accident scene left by him and wait for the police to maintain it.They were dissatisfied with the result that the bus had to stay because the deceased had been hit by the bus, and they were dissatisfied with the result of changing buses because they had to pay for the consequences of the deceased.

Full of discomfort and irritability that the original plan was disrupted for no reason.There are many negative emotions and sympathy, but the sympathy is not for the death of the deceased, but for the passengers who got on the bus with me, and the driver who was questioned by the police for no reason.

That was not the reaction she knew she should have at all, and it was only when she calmed down a little later that she woke up to her own intolerance and indifference.

It was wrong to ride a bicycle retrograde, but because it delayed her trip, she condemned it to that point in her heart. No matter what the result was, she had already realized the inhumanity hidden deep in her heart.

That shouldn't be the way normal people should think.

Not to mention that the dead are the greatest... But it shouldn't be that kind of reaction...

But from this, she also understood some truths that she didn't understand before.

Whether it is to change the world into what we expect, or to fight all the way not to change the world but to keep the world from changing ourselves, it is more or less an enemy of the world, as if the world is so bad things, but is there anything wrong with the world itself?No matter what kind of society human beings end up in, the world is material and independent of human will, and the opposite of those words is that it is we who constitute the world we are talking about.

So the conclusion is very simple, as long as human beings exist in this world, they will definitely hurt others.

Some people are good to me and bad to others.I am a good person to you, but I may be a bad person to others.Such seemingly contradictory but harmonious things are common wherever they are placed.

As the Lucifer effect says: There are no absolutely good people or absolutely evil people in this world. Good and evil lurk in the depths of human nature at the same time, appearing in turn in different environments.

Everyone wants to be a good enough person, with enough beautiful character and appearance, but being a real person is often mixed with good and bad, so Lin Chensan can understand Ma Tiantian's mood a little bit.

Even if you don't want to understand that kind of self, but because you are yourself, you can't accept it, and you can only accept it.

But this kind of mood is not something she can explain in detail.In a sense, she hasn't gotten so familiar with Ma Tiantian that she can rely on her own unilateral understanding to talk to others.

And for the behavior of making others cry, Lin Chensan can only say sorry out of thin air.

With the help of Zheng Zeshao, Lin Chensan's moving trip was very convenient.

"Just one trip. It's really easy for your family to move." Zheng Zeshao glanced at the empty trunk, and made a closing speech to Lin Chensan, "I thought it would take at least a few trips."

"It's really a pity that I only asked you to move here." Lin Chensan almost rolled his eyes.

"Since you said sorry to me in such a serious manner, I can only accept it mercifully." Zheng Zeshao glanced at the time on his watch, opened the car door and sat in. If I can intervene, I won’t just stick around here, so I’ll go back first.”

"Okay." Lin Chensan stretched out his hand halfway, but before he waved it, he said in a low voice, "Thank you."

She is not very good at expressing gratitude, she has been like this in the past, she is like this now, and she must be like this for a long time to come.But there's nothing wrong with that.Thinking of this, she looked around the environment of the new house.

It's a refreshing feeling.

It was still a long time before noon, so she bought cleaning supplies such as brooms, mops, toilet brushes, and [-] disinfectant at the convenience store outside the community.

Humans are really strange creatures. No matter how lazy they are or how uninterested they are in certain things, once they are labeled with a certain label, they will involuntarily be drawn by that label to make their limbs move and start working. .Lin Chensan would say that because she is very lazy. She always thinks about fishing when she is working, and she knows how lazy she is at home when she is not working. Cleaning carefully in such an environment without supervision is tantamount to nonsense, but the solution is not without: she specially bought that kind of polyester-cotton canvas overalls, bright yellow, and added fluorescent strips.

People and clothes, sometimes I really don't know which side affects which side.

When you dress casually, your behavior will become more casual, but when you dress formally, you will subconsciously ask yourself to be orderly in every move, straighten your waist, and conform to the professional style of the elite.

So when he put on the cleaning work clothes, Lin Chensan's enthusiasm switch was completely turned on.Sweeping and mopping the floor, mopping the floor, sweeping the floor... only if the corners and corners of the eyes are clean and meet professional standards will they be reluctant to let go.

Plug in the earphones on the mobile phone, put the mobile phone in the trouser pocket, wear the earphones in the ears, listen to the ed sung by Hitomi Takahashi in "Gintama", repeat the single song, and work in a loop.

Lin Chensan cleans up innocently and happily like an idiot.

I don't know how many times I cleaned the wooden floor, Lin Chensan finally stopped to look at her work, she was very satisfied, and then a plain white hand stretched out: "Here, barley tea."

She took it without thinking, and drank the glass until there was almost no drop left. Then she woke up like a dream and went to see the owner of that hand.This is a girl who looks a little sick, her face is too pale, whether it is the wrists exposed outside the sleeves or the face covered by the small but fluffy forehead hair, it gives people a fragile look An unreal feeling that will shatter when touched.

A white vest with long white sleeves, black pants, and black shoes.The slightly puffy long hair is also black.

To describe it in three words, it is fresh, natural and refined.

She held a bottle of drink with the label removed in her left hand, and kept the posture of handing it out with her right hand. The thing that was handed out was obviously the glass that was held in Lin Chensan's hand at this time. If you didn't guess the liquid in it, Wrong, it should be what the other party said, barley tea.

It wasn't a familiar voice, and he didn't have the impression that he had heard it before. Lin Chensan was convinced that he didn't know the other party.

"My name is Lin Jianwu, and I'm a tenant here." Lin Jianwu's right hand is still in the same posture, "I see that you sweat a lot. If you don't replenish water in time in this weather, your back will be sore easily. painful."

It feels like a good person.

Lin Chensan returned the glass naturally, and the new roommate thoughtfully poured her a new cup of barley tea. After receiving the glass in her hand, she took a sip before saying: "Lin Chensan Chen San is also a tenant here."

Lin Jianwu's eyes seemed to be rippling a little like the surface of the water: "Sorry, I thought you were the cleaning staff here."

Lin Chensan also knows that dressing like this is easy to cause misunderstandings, but she doesn't have any feeling of inferiority because of this, maybe she has already mentioned inferiority, and not to mention that she is not inferior must have confirmed this point: "Because I came here earlier, so I just wanted to clean up the place. This dress is to improve work enthusiasm."

"So, I'm blessed with a new roommate, and I feel that I will have a good cohabitation life." Lin Jianwu nodded, and then said, "Do you mind if I go to the room to pack things first?"

This Lin Chensan has no right to mind at all.So she nodded.

Only then did Lin Chensan realize that the luggage of this new roommate was very simple. There was only a standard [-]-inch suitcase and a handbag that only contained a laptop computer depending on the situation.No idea how that glass came about.

Maybe people come first, things are on the moving company's side, and they are still on the way.Lin Chensan guessed so.But as if he noticed Lin Chensan's gaze, Lin Jianwu stopped when he walked to the door of the room: "Would you like to go out for a meal together at noon later?"

The words without confusion are not Lin Chensan's illusion.

Adhering to the belief that it is not a bad thing to have a good relationship in this regard, Lin Chensan swallowed, and nodded cautiously.

So, in such a big winter, they ate cold noodles with tomatoes and eggs for lunch in a shop with a Lanzhou ramen sign.

Very confusing diet.

But there seems to be nothing wrong.

"Can you accompany me to the supermarket to buy something?" After lunch, the new roommate made a new invitation.Because the other party preempted the lunch payment, Lin Chensan couldn't say no to it.

This is the first time she has completely lost the initiative in interpersonal communication.