he is afraid, he pretends

Wu Luming's reaction was always quick.

But facing Wen Siyuan's sudden question, he seemed to be unable to speak Chinese for a while, and stared blankly at Wen Siyuan without any response for a long time.

The beam of light in the ward was half-opened in front of the bed, dragging the ward into a short midday tranquility.

Until a very light doubt sounded.

"what?"

In the quiet ward, the sound of falling on the ground caused the two people present to be taken aback.

Wu Luming never gave such a blank response when he was solving Olympiad questions for middle and high school students or even advanced math questions at the level of university knowledge in elementary school.

After he reacted, he was obviously a little caught off guard, and his face hidden in the darkness gradually became hot.

Relying on the backlight and Wen Siyuan's lack of glasses, he couldn't see him clearly, so he quickly looked straight at Wen Siyuan unscrupulously.

Wu Luming could understand what Wen Siyuan said.

But this is completely different from the feeling when Wen Siyuan directly said that he likes him that day. He felt as if a bubble had popped out of his body, and the bubble slowly wrapped his heart, along with all the emotions that could be conveyed intuitively. .

The air bubbles wrapped his whole heart airtightly, until the person sitting in the sun put his glasses back on, patted the vacant place beside the hospital bed, and then looked at him silently.

Wu Luming did not refuse this time.

He got up and walked to Wen Siyuan's hospital bed and sat down. Because he suddenly came into the sunlight, he squinted his eyes for a while uncomfortably.

"You think he's bad?" Wen Siyuan's questioning voice suddenly came from his side.

After shortening the distance, the clearer voice carried obvious dryness after injury.

Before Wu Luming opened his eyes fully, he nodded, obviously without the slightest hesitation.

Wen Siyuan was silent for a moment: "Then what do you think of me, a good guy or a bad guy?"

Wu Luming turned his body slightly, with his back facing the sun, and finally he was able to fully open his eyes.

He looked at Wen Siyuan who was close at hand and also bathed in the sun.

Looking closely, Wen Siyuan's face was still paler than usual.

The anesthetic should be gradually losing its effect, and there was a slight frown between Wen Siyuan's brows.

He was obviously enduring the pain, but his gaze towards Wu Luming was as steady as usual.

"Good guy."

Wu Luming also didn't think about it. After speaking, his eyes fell on Wen Siyuan's injured shoulder, and he was about to say: "You..."

However, before he could finish speaking, Wen Siyuan spoke first.

"Although I let you live in my house, if you don't come to take the initiative to approach me, I will definitely not take the initiative to approach you."

"I never do things with a low success rate, because it is not cost-effective to spend time and energy on it, and people's time and energy are limited, so I have always been used to choosing an efficient and stable life track, and timely eliminating unnecessary things from my life. sporadic low success rate events."

After a long time of contact, Wu Luming has become completely accustomed to Wen Siyuan always speaking like an obscure definition in a textbook when he talks about important things.

So he understood quickly this time, and asked softly, "Do you think dating me is a matter with a very low success rate?"

"Yeah." Wen Siyuan was honest as always, "At least two years ago, I thought so."

"Two years ago."

Wu Luming murmured softly, and Wen Siyuan's initial question flashed through his mind again.

——You can live in directly as soon as you come, why do you think?

He pursed his lower lip lightly, and this time it was no longer a silly monosyllable, but asked aloud: "Brother Yuan, did you like me back then?"

Wen Siyuan was thinking seriously, and after a long time he gave a rigorous reply: "Maybe."

After he finished speaking, he quickly added an explanation: "My sensitivity to emotions is very low, so I am not sure myself. Since I studied Chinese in high school, in order to memorize a large amount of text information more effectively, I will consciously eliminate Some memories that are useless to me, such as people I have only met briefly, such as trivial things that have no impact on life. That's why Wu Shengjin told you that I have a bad memory."

"Actually, before you lived in my house, I only remembered that I had been in contact with you. I have no memory of many details of getting along with you. But when Wu Shengjin told me that you wanted to rent a house and had nowhere to go, I The first thing that comes to mind is, if you want, I can spare a room for you."

"It was very unusual for me, because I have always had an aversion to people entering my personal space. After you moved in, the unusual things became more. I found that as I got along with you, I Actually, I am slowly remembering the memories related to you that I have forgotten."

"It's never been like this before." When Wen Siyuan said this, there was obvious confusion in his voice, "If you forget, you just forget. The memories that will be forgotten by me must be memories that have been processed by the brain into useless information, just like paper quilts. Throw it into a shredder, there is no reason to pick it up again."

Wen Siyuan suddenly paused, then fixed his eyes on Wu Luming.

"After realizing that I like you, I realized that the memory related to you is not useless information, but dangerous information. I don't want to forget it, but my subconscious mind thinks that I shouldn't remember it, because it will deviate from my life direction of maximizing benefits. Choice. So at the end of the day, instead of throwing your piece of paper into the shredder, I put it in a box with a lock. When you came to me again, the box opened naturally."

Wu Luming received a huge amount of information, his eyes were open for a long time without blinking.

His face, which was habitually wearing various expression masks, lost all the masks at this moment, leaving only the most primitive ignorance and confusion.

It took a long time before he finally blinked his eyes lightly, and asked, "Don't you think dating me is a low success rate thing now?"

"Still." Although Wen Siyuan answered this way, his voice was slowly soothing.

"I have always known that I am not good at feelings, so in this matter, I have to consider more and more comprehensively than other things. Your feelings for me, my family, your family, all of us I need to take into account the environment and so on, and obviously at the moment, taking all these factors into account, it is still a low success rate thing."

"Then why do you still... have a relationship with me?" Wu Luming's voice was unconsciously a little dry.

"Because you have already taken too many steps towards me. It stands to reason that I should have stopped you the first time you approached me, but not only did I not do so, I even connived you to walk closer to me. Xu Qiqi He said before that my behavior is a scumbag. He is right. In terms of feelings, I am indeed a despicable person. I even have to see clearly that you like me before I dare Face up to my feelings for you. It is too much to let you go so far alone, you proved to me that 5% can be mentioned to 20%, so the remaining 80% should be completed by me."

Wu Luming's expression hadn't turned back from being completely dazed, but he was able to fully understand Wen Siyuan's meaning.

Every word of Wen Siyuan expressed his love for him.

Wu Luming rarely felt overwhelmed.

Before he came to Wen Siyuan's side, he just wanted to have a little liking.

Now that there are so many coming, he suddenly fell into indescribable panic and anxiety.

"But Brother Yuan, I..." Wu Luming pursed his dry lips lightly, "I lied to you about being afraid of bugs, horror movies, and thunder and rain."

"I know, the night I came home early from a business trip, I saw you sitting alone in the living room watching a horror movie."

Wen Siyuan was silent for a while, and finally continued: "I also heard about you fighting and sending someone to the hospital."

Wu Luming's pupils shrank slightly: "Then why do you still..." like me?

"You asked me what I thought of you before, and my answer was smart, meticulous and kind, and I still think so."

Wen Siyuan's words are always rigorous and serious, so serious that no one will doubt the authenticity of his words.

Confusion appeared on Wu Luming's face again: "Why?"

He was really puzzled.

"I told you just now that I am a despicable person in my relationship. Do you think I am a bad person now?"

Wu Luming shook his head.

A smile appeared in Wen Siyuan's eyes, and he raised his hand to stroke Wu Luming's hair.

"In the same way, even if you really threw Cen Xiwen into the lake in front of me in the morning, it wouldn't affect me to think that you are smart, meticulous and kind. You insist that you are sinister, hypocritical, and you will be revenged, and I also insist that I am in love An egoistic scumbag, but our insistence doesn't affect each other's perception, so we're no different."

"Wu Luming, we are the same, we are just complicated and ordinary people."

—Trust my discernment, you are not a monster.

——We are the same, we are all just complicated and ordinary people.

Wu Luming took a deep breath, but still couldn't restrain the eyes that were getting wet.

He lowered his eyes, like a child who was thrown at a crossroads and didn't know how to go, he was quiet for a long time, and finally exhausted his energy and asked the last question: "Why didn't you let me rescue that girl in the morning?" little girl?"

He didn't look up at Wen Siyuan after asking, and continued to lower his head silently.

Wen Siyuan's answer didn't sound right away, but the hand that was originally on his head slowly moved down, and then precisely stuck to the scar on the back of his head.

"It's just that you will have a headache on a normal rainy day. In such a cold weather, you can't dry your hair immediately after soaking in water. Can you guarantee that your headache won't get worse?"

Wen Siyuan's hand on his scar was very light, but Wu Luming felt a tingling numbness emanating from the scar.

He still didn't dare to look up at Wen Siyuan, and in the end he just said in a huff: "Just because of this?"

Wen Siyuan was silent for a while this time.

But he finally answered, just lowered his voice: "You said that you want to have an older brother who can protect your younger siblings."

The clean white bed sheets were instantly moistened.

"Don't you have a bad memory?"

Wen Siyuan seriously corrected: "My memory is very good, but I don't remember useless information. You can freely ask me any details of our relationship."

After he corrected it, he saw that Wu Luming had lowered his head for a while, but there was no intention of raising it. The hand that was originally on the back of Wu Luming's head slowly moved forward, and finally stuck to the side of Wu Luming's face.

Just when he was about to hold Wu Luming's face up, Wu Luming suddenly raised a hand and pressed it on his wrist.

Then the young man's obviously suppressed voice sounded again: "Brother Yuan, if I said that I really hated the person Cen Xiwen mentioned today, even for a moment... I think it's good for him to die, do you still think that?" Will I save that little girl?"

"Yes, because it's a child." Wen Siyuan finally managed to hold Wu Luming's face up, "You don't seem to realize that you have tolerance for all children with almost no bottom line. You just lived in my house for more than a month. At least half the kids in the building know you and want to be close to you."

Every time the two of them went to the park near their home, when Wen Siyuan was among the elders, Wu Luming must be among the children.

Wen Siyuan couldn't help but think of Wu Luming who fed cats in the snow back then.

The skinny boy put the food in front of the stray cats, but he didn't feel that he was doing something good, he tightened his hands and feet, and didn't touch any of the stray cats.

If it is only about looks, Wu Luming's looks are very easy to be loved by others.

He has a baby face and big eyes, so he doesn't even need to spend much thought, just staring at a person in an ordinary way, it is easy to make people feel soft-hearted.

He has a rare natural childishness, but that childishness is usually overwhelmed by his layers of masks, fading away on the edge of disguise and reality.

At this time, his eye sockets were red, and clear tears rolled out of his wide-open eyes from time to time, and his mouth and nose were dyed bright red without exception.

Wen Siyuantuo subconsciously curled up under Wu Luming's face, and finally moved lightly, just wiping away tears for Wu Luming.

And the man who huddled up while feeding the cat raised a hand to his uninjured shoulder under his movement.

Instead of pushing away, he gripped the clothes on his shoulders tightly.

The distance between the two was unconsciously shortened.

The originally silent air began to change gradually.

Just when sparks were about to explode, an abrupt bell rang through the quiet ward.

The two people who were already very close paused at the same time, and turned to look at the ringing mobile phone next to the hospital bed.

The three characters "Xu Qiqi" jumping on the mobile phone are like a death notice.

Only then did Wu Luming remember that there was Xu Qiqi who was going to pay the fee, and he immediately wiped away the remaining tears on his face.

Seeing Wen Siyuan staring at the phone with an unclear expression for a long time without making a sound, Wu Luming called softly: "Brother Yuan?"

Wen Siyuan had no choice but to pick up the phone and answer the call.

Xu Qiqi on the other end of the phone was ignorant, and came up with a sentence without beginning and end: "The bird downstairs in the hospital is so beautiful!"

Wen Siyuan: "..."

Xu Qiqi quickly said again: "But no matter how beautiful it is, I can't help watching it. I have been watching it for almost 10 minutes. I think you two should be hungry after watching it, so let me ask politely. Do you think I will watch it for a few more minutes?" Is it better to buy food?"

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Xiaowen: I think it's more appropriate for you to watch Lifetime Bird directly :)