Rebirth Comes Quickly

Perhaps she had been mentally prepared for a long time, and Ouya was not too surprised when the snow fell outside the window.She threw the blood-soaked clothes into the laundry basket, and wrapped the extremely small wound on her chest with gauze.She didn't want to commit suicide, let alone prove anything.She just wanted to numb herself with another kind of pain and forget about Shan Jinxuan.Thinking about it now, the actions just now were a bit extreme.

After a day of exhaustion, her body was almost exhausted, Ou Yayun simply washed her body and lay down on the bed.She thought she could fall asleep quickly, but every time she closed her eyes, the image of Shan Jinxuan would appear in her mind.She is smiling, she is indifferent and silent, she is considerate and gentle, and she is begging herself to give her a chance.

Indeed, Shan Jinxuan's words tonight made Ou Yayun feel sad, and even made her feel powerless and wronged like never before.But at such a time, lying alone on the cold big bed, she would still miss Shan Jinxuan involuntarily.Unable to fall asleep again, Ou Yayun simply got off the bed and took out the red wine in the wine cabinet to drink for herself.

Suddenly, she seemed to see a familiar figure standing there downstairs.In order to confirm her conjecture, Ou Yawen walked to the balcony and looked down.When she met the other's dark brown eyes, she didn't go down immediately, nor did she make any movements, but just stood there, staring at Shan Jinxuan in a daze.

The wind outside was very strong and cold, and snow mixed with rain fell from the sky, making Ouya in her pajamas shiver.Compared to her embarrassment, Shan Jinxuan was even better.She was wearing a black windbreaker and standing under the street lamp, her hair had already been wet by the rain and lost its original shape.The dim yellow light cast a layer of shimmer on her pale face, she looked at herself with a smile, her hands were casually and lazily put in the windbreaker pockets.That smile was somewhat apologetic, but full of pampering.

Ou Yayun didn't know how long Shan Jinxuan had been waiting for her here, and she didn't know if she would have waited forever if she hadn't found her.She only knew that at this moment, she didn't want to look away from her, even if she missed Shan Jinxuan for a second, it would be a kind of torture.

I don't know how long they looked at each other, until Ou Yayun felt that his hands and legs began to go numb before he came back to his senses.She saw Shan Jinxuan's lips moving, as if she was telling herself something.From the shape of the lips, there are three words.It's not something I've heard often before, but the most common yet unusual emotion in the world.

I love you.

Unable to bear the throbbing in her heart anymore, Ou Yayun ran out with an umbrella without even changing her shoes.Seeing that Shan Jinxuan's lips were turning purple from the cold, she didn't have time to say anything, but took the other person's hand and went back to the room, quickly took the blanket from the sofa and draped it over Shan Jinxuan's body.

"You take a rest first, I'll put hot water for you." Seeing Shan Jinxuan standing there trembling, Ou Yayun said distressedly.Ever since Shan Jinxuan was young, she couldn't see where this person bumped into, and would worry about taking care of even a small fever and cold.Now, seeing Shan Jinxuan in such a distressed state, how could Ou Yayun not feel distressed.

She ran upstairs, quickly filled a tank full of hot water, and went downstairs to take Shan Jinxuan, only to find that her legs had already been numb from the cold, and she could not walk at all.Ou Yayun bent down without thinking, and motioned for Shan Jinxuan to lie down.Although she couldn't directly hug someone like Shan Jinxuan, she could still carry him on her back.

Seeing Ou Yayun's posture, Shan Jinxuan naturally understood the meaning.She didn't hesitate, but just lay down on the ground.Hearing that Ou Yayun gasped when she was pressed down, her small body was trembling uncontrollably but she still pretended to be relaxed and said that she had lost a lot of weight.Shan Jinxuan stretched out her stiff arms to hug her, only thinking that Ou Yayun was very cute at the moment.

After finally reaching the bathroom, Ou Yayan placed Shan Jinxuan on the chair she had prepared temporarily, and wanted to undress her.But just stretched out his hand, but suddenly stopped as if thinking of something.Seeing the hesitation and anxiety in the other party's eyes, Shan Jinxuan didn't say anything, but gently held Ou Yayun's hands.

"Sorry, I'm rude, can you do it yourself?" Ou Yayun thought that Shan Jinxuan's action was rejection, and the disappointment on her face became more obvious.However, Shan Jinxuan actually took her hands and placed them on the buttons of her windbreaker.Such a hint was too obvious, which made Ou Yayun feel unbelievable.Ever since the two met again, although Shan Jinxuan treated her very well, she never wanted to expose her body in front of her.

Ou Yayun didn't understand why Shan Jinxuan did this, but she was always a little disappointed.Five years ago, she had always been the one being asked for.She likes the feeling of being possessed by Shan Jinxuan, but she also longs for this woman.Today, the relationship between the two people is different from before, but the situation has not changed.Whenever I want to touch her past, the other party will use an invisible barrier to isolate me.This feeling made Ou Yayun feel sad, as if Shan Jinxuan regarded herself as an outsider.

"Can I?" Ou Yayun asked softly, her hand shaking Shan Jinxuan's windbreaker.After hearing her words, Shan Jinxuan did not answer, but kissed her with those cold lips, giving her the most intimate and practical greeting.Receiving this tacit kiss, Ou Yayun slowly unbuttoned the front of her hand, and took off the already soaked windbreaker.Immediately afterwards, Shan Jinxuan's body wearing only a white shirt was exposed in front of her.

Ou Yayun knew that after taking off this dress, she would see Shan Jinxuan's body.This body no longer has the greenness it once had, but has been completely replaced by maturity.Thinking of this, she slowly moved her hands, unbuttoned the shirt one by one, and took it off.However, the scene in front of her made her unable to proceed to the next step.

The white and smooth skin in memory is gone, replaced by a body full of scars.Shan Jinxuan's shoulders became so slender at some point, a knife-like scratch was on her collarbone, countless fine scratches were chaotically branded on both sides of her shoulders, and on the back was a scar from The burn marks on the back meandering to the ribs.Such strange burns could not be an accident at all, it was clearly caused by someone intentionally. As for what kind of equipment, Ou Yayun couldn't identify it.

In addition to these scars on her body, Shan Jinxuan's left arm was covered with pink circular scars.These marks have regular and fixed distances, appearing every few centimeters, and there are many fine and long scars drawn by knives on the wrist.Just looking at these scars, Ou Yayun could imagine how painful it would be when these wounds were applied to Shan Jinxuan's body.

"You..." You said the word, but there was no more words.Ou Yayun felt her eyes hurt, her nose was sore, and her beating heart was even more obvious.Her whole body was shaking, and her breathing was short and difficult.She took off Shan Jinxuan's trousers with almost feeble hands. Fortunately, there were no obvious scars on these legs, but they were so thin and fleshless that it made her feel even more uncomfortable.

"Don't do this." Looking at Ou Yayun's appearance at this moment, Shan Jinxuan knew that she would behave like this not only because of distress, but also because of anger and self-blame.For the first two, Shan Jinxuan is very useful, but she doesn't want Ou Yayun to take all the faults on herself. This person has done too much for herself.

"Xiaojin, I'm sorry, it's all my fault. I didn't protect you well, so you were hurt like this. Tell me, does it still hurt?" Looking at Ou Yayun's out-of-focus eyes, Shan Jinxuan knew , the other party has reached the point where he loses his mind when he sees himself injured.I remember that once I was killed, Ou Yayun also behaved like this, stabbing the man who hurt her with a knife in front of her into a hornet's nest.

"I'm fine, I'm really fine." Seeing Ou Yayun bowed her body and curled her whole body together, Shan Jinxuan hugged her in her arms distressedly regardless of her own body.Although this hug was not as warm as usual, even slightly cold, it softened the hearts of both of them at the same time.

"I'll help you."

Noticing that Shan Jinxuan's hands were still trembling, Ou Yayun said softly, helping her into the bathtub.The hot water covers the body and drives away the cold inside.Seeing Ou Yayun lowering her head to help herself clean her body, it was obvious that the other person looked very quiet and stable, but Shan Jinxuan felt very uneasy. The more normal Ou Yayun behaved, it meant that she was trying her best to get rid of everything. Things weighed on my heart.

Thinking of the conflict that happened tonight, Shan Jinxuan deeply blamed herself.She has long said that she should be more mature and don't always do things that make Ou Yayan uncomfortable.But today, she still couldn't control it, and got angry at Ou Yayun as childishly as before.She knows this person's feelings for her better than anyone else. The whole world can say that Ouya is not good, but she can't.

Now, the gap between the two is widening again. After thinking about it, Shan Jinxuan, who couldn't sleep, still came to Ou Yayun's house.She doesn't expect the other party to find her, let alone beg for forgiveness.She just wanted to accompany her quietly, even if she couldn't hug her face to face, as long as she was separated by a few miles, that would be fine.

"Yu, I still have something to say to you, but I want to apologize to you for my behavior tonight. I'm still immature, and I haven't done many things well. I haven't mentioned the past five years in a foreign country. It's not that I don't want to tell you, it's just that I don't want to let you know about those dirty and dark things. But now it seems that I can't help if I don't say anything."

Through Ou Yayun's beautiful dark eyes, Shan Jinxuan saw the scarred self in her eyes.If it was possible, she even hoped that Ou Yayun would never know about the past, but she knew very well that even if she didn't tell it, she would find out sooner or later with the ability of the other party.

The pain engraved in his bones makes Shan Jinxuan feel pain all over his body when he thinks about it. Everyone is forcing you to hate your lover, and everyone is forcing you to tell you that loving that person is a big mistake.Verbal aggressiveness is far from enough, and psychological fear and hints are the most frightening.During that period of time, Ou Yayun almost became an existence that Shan Jinxuan didn't dare to think about but had to think about desperately.They wanted her to hate her, but she tried hard to love her herself.

After thinking about it for a long time, Shan Jinxuan slowly opened her mouth until the familiar tingling pain reappeared all over her body.At this moment, Ou Yayun covered her mouth with his hands, and placed delicate kisses on every scar on her body.Those kisses were soft and delicate, like petals scattered on the lake, nothing else but beautiful ripples.It wasn't until she kissed all the scars on her body that Ou Yayun raised her head again and looked at herself.

At this moment, she saw hatred and unprecedented killing intent in this woman's eyes, but more of it was distress and love.That love is too thick, thick as blood, hot as fire.It was as if everything in the world had turned into the love for her, blending together and entangled in Ou Yayun's eyes.At this moment, Shan Jinxuan wanted to kiss Ou Yayun's eyes, and tell her that she was really fine, and stop showing such a sad expression.She will also feel sorry for her, and she doesn't want her to worry about her own affairs.

Perhaps seeing what she was thinking in her heart, Ou Yayan shook her head, touched her face with both hands, pressed her head lightly, and embraced her in her arms.At this moment, listening to Ou Yayun's heartbeat, Shan Jinxuan didn't know what the other person's expression was, but could only feel drops of hot water falling down Ou Yayun's chin into her hair.

Surprised, more sad and distressed.Ou Yayun looks extremely seductive, full of femininity and beauty, but Shan Jinxuan knows that she is actually an overly strong woman.She used her young body to support the entire Ou family, no matter how many injuries she suffered, she would only bear it alone.This woman seldom cries, except in front of her, she never shed a single tear in pain.

Now... the touch on the top of her head is so real, Shan Jinxuan really wants to comfort Ou Yayun, but she is not willing to expose the most vulnerable side of her.At this moment, Ou Yayun cried in the most silent and quiet way, and the reason was still for herself.All her tears flowed for herself.

"Xiao Jin, I would rather be hurt thousands of times than see you suffer a little bit. You always don't understand my heart, but in fact, I just want you to be well and safe by my side. Any The person who hurt you, even if it's just a hair, I will pay for your pain with his life."