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"Happy birthday--"

"everyday happy."

Fu Yuxi's gentle and deep blessing was like the last straw that broke the camel's back. It completely shattered the protective cover that Ruan Yu was forcibly supporting, but it was already full of cracks.

With the moment when the hard protective cover in his heart shattered, Ruan Yu's tears fell down.

As if she felt that she was too ugly, Ruan Yu lowered her head and looked at the steaming birthday cake in front of her with tears in her eyes.

It's just a simple bowl of home-cooked noodles. The soup base should be made of bone broth that has been boiled in advance, and the aroma is tangy.

Ruan Yu trembled with her fingertips, picked up the chopsticks to hold the noodles, choked up, and fed them into her mouth with big gulps.

Although he is a snack food person, he has always eaten in a gentle manner, and he has never devoured like this.

Fu Yuxi frowned and watched Ruan Yu's tears fall into the bowl drop by drop, feeling distressed as if those tears turned into sharp nails, piercing into his heart drop by drop.

Fu Yuxi's nose was a little sore, he swallowed hard, put his hand on the back of Ruan Yu's head, his fingertips dipped into some messy hair, and scratched gently, "Ruan Ruan, don't worry, eat slowly."

Ruan Yu was stuffing the chopsticks into his mouth, but he didn't look up.

"I'm afraid that if you eat too fast, your stomach will feel uncomfortable. Be obedient." Fu Yuxi still put his hand on Ruan Yu's head.

"It's delicious." Ruan Yu lowered her head, with noodles in her mouth, and said three words a little vaguely.

He chewed and swallowed it a few times, then spoke again, his voice choked up, "This is, this is the best noodles I've ever eaten..."

"For the first time, in 24 years, it's the first time someone cooks me noodles for my birthday."

Hearing Ruan Yu's trembling voice, Fu Yuxi couldn't bear to hear him continue. Before he could speak, he heard Ruan Yu continue, "It should be the first time someone said happy birthday to me, thank you .”

After Ruan Yu finished speaking, she raised her head and gave Fu Yuxi an ugly smile with tears in her eyes.

In this smile, Fu Yuxi seemed to hear the sound of his heart breaking piece by piece.

Ruan Yu's smile only lasted for a few seconds, and then he buried his head even lower. The hair on his forehead hung down to cover his eyebrows, but it couldn't stop his restrained shoulders from shaking wildly.

Fu Yuxi clenched his fists, and suddenly didn't know what to say. He had guessed that Ruan Yu's family was not happy, but he never thought that it would be to this extent.

Ruan Yu has a very good personality, lively and happy, always shining like a little sun, and always full of kindness to the people around her.

As if saying anything was very pale, Fu Yuxi heard his own voice, "From now on, I will be here on every birthday. I swear, I will never leave you."

Ruan Yu didn't say anything, just hugged the bowl, and ate all the noodles and soup in the bowl with tears mixed in.

Fu Yuxi watched him finish eating, took the bowl away, and brought out a small cake as if by magic.

Ruan Yu looked at the ugly little star-shaped cake, and raised her head to look at Fu Yuxi in surprise, with tears in her eyes, teardrops still hanging on her long eyelashes, her eyes were red and cute.

A rare embarrassment appeared on Fu Yuxi's face, and he pushed the small cake in front of Ruan Yu with some embarrassment, took out two digital candles and stuck them on, "I... tried to make a cake for the first time, although it was a bit ugly , but the taste should be pretty good."

"Make a wish."

Fu Yuxi lit the candles, picked up the remote control on the dining table and turned off the headlights.

The house was plunged into darkness, save for a little light from a candle.

Ruan Yu stared at the little flame in a daze.

Fu Yuxi was like a little flame in his heart. On this extremely dark day, with a bowl of birthday noodles and a sentence of happy every day, his little hope was lit up.

Ruan Yu lowered her eyes, closed her eyes and made a wish.

Fu Yuxi took advantage of this dim light to stare at Ruan Yu's devout wishing face.

Fu Yuxi tried for a long time to make this cake. Hearing the news of Ruan Yu's return yesterday morning, he thought that all his secret preparations had failed, but he did not expect to surprise and comfort the children in this way.

Fu Yuxi sighed, but he would rather his preparations fail than Ruan Yu like now.

Perhaps hearing the sigh, Ruan Yu slightly opened his eyes and looked at Fu Yuxi in a daze.

"Watch what I do, blow out the candles."

"You—" Ruan Yu blew out the candle, pursed her lips and said in a low voice, "Don't you have anything to ask me?"

Although it is a question, it uses a declarative tone.

Fu Yuxi paused while holding the remote control, but didn't turn on the light immediately.

"No. If you don't want to say it, don't say it." Fu Yuxi said with a sigh, "Those things that make you unhappy, how can I have the heart to let you say it again."

Fu Yuxi raised his hand in the dark, and gently wiped the tears on Ruan Yu's face with his thumb, "Don't cry, why did you suddenly become a little crying bag? I just want to make you happy."

I don't know where this sentence hit Ruan Yu's point, he suddenly sobbed twice, and spoke with a strong nasal voice.

"I--"

"I went to see my mother today."

"It rained a lot. Actually, you know, I really have almost no impression of my mother. I was only one year old when she left."

"I really want my mother to love me. Is it really my fault that my mother left? Why does he hate me—"

Speaking of this, Ruan Yu choked up uncontrollably, and extreme sadness spread throughout the room.

Fu Yuxi didn't make a sound, nor turned on the light, and listened quietly.

"I've always known why my grandma took me away from him. They kept it from me and didn't tell me. In fact, I always knew."

"When my mother just left, he didn't want to live anymore, he wanted to take me to die with him."

"Later, it changed. He just simply hated me and wanted me to die."

Fu Yuxi had mixed emotions in his heart, dull pain, sadness, and even more anger, he clenched his teeth hard to suppress, until the muscles on his cheeks tensed up.

"The years I lived with my grandmother were the happiest days for me. But I know they miss their mother very much."

"Grandpa and grandma secretly looked at my mother's photos. Later, others said that I looked more and more like my mother. Grandpa even looked at my face in a daze, and his eyes were red."

"I understand, I understand everything."

Ruan Yu stopped, tears fell in front of his face, he suddenly stretched out a finger to pick up a bit of cake and put it into his mouth.

The sweetness of the cream spread, but it couldn't hide the bitterness of the tears flowing down the lips.

"When I was young, I didn't know what other people's parents were like. I thought it was normal for me to be like this."

"Until I became sensible, I was still lying to myself day by day."

"Now that I think about it, I'm really a fool!"

"I have been living alone since I was 12 years old. Since no one loves me. Then I finally found my love!"

"Why do you still insult my love!"

Ruan Yu suddenly collapsed.

His sudden raised voice startled Fu Yuxi.

"I just like you!"

"What's wrong with me... woo."

Ruan Yu was so choked up that he couldn't speak, and gasped for breath.

Fu Yuxi's brain went blank after being shocked by his sudden confession, and was quickly pulled back by Ruan Yu's breathless voice.

Fu Yuxi didn't care about anything anymore, he stretched out his hand hard, hugged Ruan Yu on his lap, and patted his back lightly with his big hand to comfort him.

"Baby, don't hold back, breathe." Fu Yuxi coaxed him patiently.

Ruan Yu suddenly raised her two thin arms, hugged Fu Yuxi's neck forcefully, buried her face in his chest, and burst into tears.

Fu Yuxi embraced the trembling crying man in his arms, patted the back with one hand, and rubbed the back of Ruan Yu's head with the other. He raised his head vigorously, his Adam's apple trembled rapidly, and tears flowed silently down the corners of his eyes.

His heart was about to break.

The whole room was filled with Ruan Yu's suppressed and hoarse crying, and Fu Yuxi planted a firm but gentle kiss on Ruan Yu's hair.

I don't know how long he cried until Ruan Yu's voice gradually dropped. He cried until his whole mind was numb, and he whimpered with trembling lips as if lacking oxygen.

"I don't want to turn on the light." Ruan Yu said with a sob.

"Okay, no." Fu Yuxi agreed.

"I want to drink water." Ruan Yu asked softly with a hoarse voice and a nasal voice.

"it is good."

Ruan Yu didn't move, and Fu Yuxi didn't intend to put him down, so he stretched out his hand to reach for the water glass on the dining table.

After feeding him a few sips of water, he carried him directly to the living room, sat on the sofa, peeled a toffee and stuffed it into his mouth.

Ruan Yu was leaning in Fu Yuxi's arms, her hands had been lowered from her neck, and she was picking the buttons on Fu Yuxi's pajamas.

The curtains were not closed in the living room, Fu Yuxi stared at Ruan Yu through the faint light outside the window, the child was still panting uncontrollably, his lips and the tip of his nose were very red, his eyelashes were wet and stuck together in clusters, still hanging Unwiped tears.

Thinking of Ruan Yu's words just now, Fu Yuxi felt pain in his heart, as if a heart had been smashed and kneaded together, and then smashed again.

Although Ruan Yu's words were incoherent, Fu Yuxi understood every sentence. Now that he thought about all the actions of that scum, he gritted his teeth with hatred. How could such a person be worthy of being a father?

Fu Yuxi didn't even dare to think about how such a young Ruan Yu lived alone for so many years. When she was a child, Ruan Yu was so squeamish and cried a lot. What if she was sick?Who takes care of him?

The more Fu Yuxi thought about it, the angrier he became, and he wished he could rush to that scumbag and beat him up to relieve his anger.

"I got into a fight today." Ruan Yu whispered hoarsely, still clutching the buttons.

"Huh?" Fu Yuxi was still immersed in his anger.

"I said, I got into a fight today." Ruan Yu repeated aggrievedly, "My brother."

"Win or lose?" After saying this, Fu Yuxi understood how Ruan Yu got those injuries.

"I feel like I won."

"It's fine if you win. If you don't win, wait for me to help you fight back."

"Why are you like this, and you still persuade me to fight."

"It's not wrong, you can fight."

Fu Yuxi was leaning on the sofa, with his right hand around Ruan Yu's slender shoulders, and his left hand on his soft stomach, gently rubbing his stomach with warm palms.

"That cake you made is ugly."

"My knee hurts so much, rub it for me."

Ruan Yu's nasal voice rang softly in the empty living room.

Fu Yuxi listened quietly, occasionally responding in a low voice.

"I miss grandma..."

"In the future, I don't have to go back to that house again."

"Fu Yuxi - I have no home at all..."

After all this day has experienced too much, and the mood is ups and downs again, Ruan Yu's voice is getting lower and lower, leaning on Fu Yuxi's little head and slowly hanging down.

Fu Yuxi didn't move while holding Ruan Yu, and tightly hugged the man's hand, resting his chin lightly on top of Ruan Yu's head, and made a promise gently and solemnly.

"Baby, I can give you a home. Trust me."

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