Chunyin

"Does Master Zhuang still remember how to get to Tan Yuan?"

Of course he knew, how could he not know?

The tranquility and tranquility of that courtyard was originally reserved for me by him.

In the seventh year of Zhaotong, Zhuang Ziyu was appointed as a scholar in Wenyuan Pavilion. Because he was tired of the court struggle, he wrote a letter to resign.The emperor didn't want him to leave, so he sent another messenger to allow him to ignore the government and study books at home, and even gave him a mansion as a bookstore.

The bookstore is just behind Taixue.It is only an alley away from Tanyuan.

I pulled Guangling to hide where I was going, riding the wind and clouds, and in a short while, I passed through half of Liangzhou City to the dilapidated wooden door.

I walked up the steps and pushed open the small door with a narrow front, and the withered winter scenery of a yard came into view.There are no candles in the garden, only the fresh snow reflects the cold moonlight in the bleak westerly wind, and the pools, pavilions and pavilions stand quietly in this small garden.

I took a breath of the fresh air in the garden, and walked in with Guangling. The fresh snow was fluffy on the path, and only the "creaking" sound of footsteps could be heard in the quiet garden.

When I came to the water pavilion, the water in the pool outside the railing was pitch black, and the remaining lotus was standing in snow.

I said, "Even the willow tree has been cut down, but the garden is still the same as it was a hundred years ago."

Guangling: "Why do you suddenly want to come here?"

I reached out and brushed a handful of snow on the railing. It was icy cold and refreshing.

Why come here.

"I'm coming back to find the real Zhuang Ziyu." I looked back at him and said.

The rubbing snow didn't melt in my palm, I rubbed my fingers, watched the snow powder fall from my fingers, and said with a smile: "I walked in the sky once, and then I realized that everything has a cause and effect. People in the world are blinded by the world of mortals, so they can't see clearly. Now that I can jump out of reincarnation, and know that everything in the past is an illusion, I naturally want to seize this opportunity to find that Zhuang Ziyu."

Of course Guangling knew what I was talking about, he didn't say it before because he thought these trivial things were not worth mentioning, but now that I said it himself, he didn't intend to hide it, he just asked with a smile: "How do you know about this? "

I said: "I should have known it earlier. Liangzhou City is so prosperous, how can such a small and lonely garden be accommodated? I should have known that someone deliberately did it. It's just that I was in the middle of the game at that time, and I was in a daze, so I had this respite I don’t have time to think about it.”

He turned around and sat down by the railing, holding my hand that had rubbed snow in his palm, the coldness of my fingertips made him frown, and said: "This matter has been going on for so long, and you suddenly figured it out?"

I looked down at him, the moonlight made everything soft and ambiguous.It was as if I saw Zhuang Ziyu in Lilac's shadow when I passed through the noisy crowd, my heart skipped a beat, and I leaned over to get closer with a thought.

I was held by him with one hand, and the other hand was propped on the railing behind him, and the majestic god was surrounded by my weak arms.

The original straightforward explanation was swallowed by me, and I said softly, "Zi Yu, guess."

Guangling was stunned for a moment, then leaned back against the railing, looked up at me, smiled and said, "Brother Liang, tell me."

His cooperative posture was very helpful to me, and he said: "It was just in Yuntou that I found that this small garden and your bookstore are only separated by an alley, and they are actually next to each other. I suddenly remembered the few students who listened to you in the past After complaining a few words, saying that Master Zhuang has a strange temperament, there is a courtyard in the bookstore that can relieve fatigue, but you have always left it unused, and you still don’t allow them to enter. Then I realized that this garden originally belonged to you.”

Guangling nodded: "I see."

I lowered my head and touched the tip of his nose, and smiled in a low voice: "Brother Ziyu really took great pains for me."

In the night, Guangling's eyes were soft, and he smiled back and asked: "Only these two, how do you know that I reserved the place for you?"

"If not, how do you know that I like the rain in Tanyuan?"

I said, "I felt weird when you leaked your words on Yingzhou Island. But I didn't dare to ask at that time." I still feel sore when I think about it at that time, so I lowered my eyes and smiled bitterly, "Maybe you I don't understand, the trivial things that seem insignificant to you have great meaning to me."

I raised my eyes: "So, don't underestimate me, don't underestimate me. Even if I live and die in this life, it is not worth mentioning in your eyes, but I give you everything."

Guangling was taken aback when he heard that, and he felt a tighter grip on my hand.

I lowered my head and kissed him lightly on the lips, and said, "Guangling, I promise you, I will never run away again. Even if I never get back my soul, even if I have to suffer from being forgotten forever, I will never run away again."

The cold moon hangs alone, and the garden is silent.

After Guangling listened, he looked at me in silence for a long time, and finally said slowly: "Okay. I will write down what you said today."

However, his expression was plain, and there seemed to be sadness in his eyes, so I knew that even though he said so, he didn't believe me.I also want to know the reason, but there is no evidence for it. After a hundred years, I will forget this night and forget this vowed promise. What can he do?

Or—a thought flashed in my mind, and I felt a tight pain in my chest.

I asked him, "I said this before, didn't I?"

Guangling looked at me speechlessly.

I straightened up abruptly and took a deep breath, trying to dispel the dull pain in my chest.However, the bitter cold air poured into the lungs, making the pain even more unbearable.

I seemed to be pulling Guangling into a vortex with no exit, time and time again, Guangling was pulled deeper and deeper by me.He is obviously the omnipotent god on the mountain, but he is helpless and helpless because of me time and time again.

Guangling pulled my hand again, pulling me to bend over.

The night was cold and cold, and Guangling had a smile in his eyes through the dim tears. He said: "Everyone in the world has misunderstood the promise. The most important thing about a promise is not whether it is fulfilled or not, but the sincerity at the time."

"Therefore, you don't have to regret it. You give me your sincerity every time, and I am very happy."

There seemed to be a knife stuck in my chest, and a ball of cotton stuck in my throat. I looked at him with tears in my eyes, but couldn't say a word.

Guangling seemed to hesitate for a moment, then raised his hand and pressed lightly on the back of my head, raised his neck, and finally kissed me too.

Cold tears slid down my face, but something warm and soft came into my mouth, like the warm water in a pond in spring, wrapping me warmly and tightly, making me feel appropriate and safe.

I was soothed, and then gradually recovered.

——This was the first time he kissed me on his own initiative.

Raising my eyes, Guangling's slightly drooping eyelashes were close in front of me, black eyelashes like feathers, trembling slightly, my heart skipped a beat, I couldn't help but rushed forward, raised my hand to press Guangling's shoulder, and forced him again Lean on the railing.He rolled his tongue actively in his mouth, and was about to take a step forward, but he supported my waist and withdrew again.

It was as if the filled body was emptied in an instant, and the body was filled with cold wind again. I was emotionally ups and downs, and stared at him dissatisfied and doubtful.

He wiped the tear stains on my face, with a restrained tone and deep eyes, he said: "Okay. There are still important things to do."