Banshuharu

They were too close, close to each other, Pingqiu instinctively held his breath, and folded his arms to cover their chests.Xu Xiuyuan kept his eyes fixed on Pingqiu's face, but the oppressive feeling that the intimate distance was violated made Pingqiu gasp more and more under his intense stare, and there was a whooping sound in his throat.This inappropriate guttural sound made Pingqiu extremely embarrassed, he couldn't help but tuck his chin slightly to avoid his sight, at the same time he bent his knees, trying to move his body back.But he forgot that Xu Xiuyuan's arms were around his waist at this moment, but he pulled him back to his original position with a squeeze, and even pulled him closer.

The hot air surged under the thin blanket that the two of them covered together, Xu Xiuyuan's lips just touched Ping Qiu's cheek lightly, and Ping Qiu's face burned instantly.He finally confirmed the fact that tonight's string has been put on the bow, and there is no reason to resist, so he can only ask in a low voice: "Will you keep it a secret?"

"Secret?" Xu Xiuyuan asked back.Under the blanket, consciously or not, he placed one foot on Pingqiu's instep.

"Will you keep it a secret?" Ping Qiu begged, "Don't tell Lu Yang, I beg you."

"Are you afraid of being discovered by him?"

"Shouldn't it be?"

"What should be and what should not be? This is a promise you made to me. If you fulfill it and I accept it, what's wrong? You don't think it should be just because you have involved an unrelated third party, and based on their You may think that we are doing something wrong, and then they will bounce the pressure back on you, as if you are asking for trouble, so why did you involve them in the first place? This is between me and you, no You need a third person to know, and you don’t need him to blame you, or me.”

Pingqiu's thoughts were chaotic, as if Xu Xiuyuan was holding a rope ahead.He couldn't tell the direction, so he could only run along.However, the remaining sliver of reason rang in Pingqiu's mind, and he stuttered: "That's not the case, Lu Yang is not wrong, we are lying to him—I am lying to him, I should confess, I can't treat him lie."

"And then? You will quarrel, suspect each other, and then the relationship will break down, or even break up," Xu Xiuyuan asked, "Do you want to break up with him?"

Ping Qiu shook his head: "He is a good man, he treats me very well, I can't hurt him."

"In this case, it's very simple. I won't tell him, and you don't have to ask me." Xu Xiuyuan closed his eyes, pressed his forehead against Pingqiu's forehead, lowered his volume, and spoke like a dream, "Just treat me like I was when I was a child." I can’t solve a problem, so I’m here to ask you, please help me. You’re just helping me solve the problem, you’re right—put it to tomorrow.”

His hands were led by Xu Xiuyuan to put on his shoulders, Ping Qiu involuntarily used his strength as he said, and tightly grasped his collar with both hands.He repeated: "Is this right? Is it really okay?"

"Why not?" Xu Xiuyuan put his right hand gently on Pingqiu's waist, "This is a secret between you and me, no third person will know."

With Xu Xiuyuan's assurance, Pingqiu's expression was visibly relaxed.Seeing him slack, Xu Xiuyuan was about to go further, but Ping Qiu reached out to hold his cheek directly.Because of the slender fingers, Ping Qiu's fingertips still covered Xu Xiuyuan's ears, which made Xu Xiuyuan slightly tinnitus the moment he leaned forward to kiss.As if being put into an airtight glass cover, Xu Xiuyuan could see Ping Qiu's trembling eyelashes in the dim light, and his upturned nose, right on the side of his face through the cover. There was a soft bump.

With his eyes closed, Ping Qiu stayed on his lips for nearly ten seconds, not daring to make any extra moves during this period.Just by touching his lips, he could feel the lines on Xu Xiuyuan's lower lip feeling a little dry.Then he backed away a little, and pressed Xu Xiuyuan's lower lip with his right thumb compensatingly when he moved his lips away.

Returning to the original position, Pingqiu felt uneasy, looked into Xu Xiuyuan's eyes and asked: "How is it?"

"I don't know, it's very vague." Xu Xiuyuan said.

"What's blurry? Isn't that okay?" Ping Qiu said as he licked his lips, moistened his lips, and then held his face and kissed him.

It is said that the first time is raw and the second time is familiar, this time Xu Xiuyuan opened his mouth before he kissed him, Ping Qiu sucked his lips, and couldn't help but half-opened his mouth, so Xu Xiuyuan broke in easily, their tongues were entangled, Pingqiu also changed from holding his face actively to grabbing his collar.

Xu Xiuyuan has always been a good learner, he is good at drawing inferences from one example, but Pingqiu just gave him some advice at random, and he became a teacher after learning it once, and he kissed fiercely, making Pingqiu flinch from kissing.It used to be that he leaned his body close to Xu Xiuyuan, but now he was kissed by Xu Xiuyuan and hid straight away, and because his lips were glued together, he couldn't dodge no matter what, so he had to close his chest.

The kiss didn't stop until Pingqiu had difficulty breathing and patted Xu Xiuyuan's shoulder vigorously.Xu Xiuyuan gasped and left Pingqiu's chest, propping up his body on the bed with his palms.Pingqiu opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, only then did he realize that Xu Xiuyuan was holding his wrist with one hand, pressing him on the head of the bed from top to bottom, and he couldn't struggle, and resisted a few times as if he wanted to refuse. welcome.

In an instant, Ping Qiu's strong sense of shame made Ping Qiu lose the courage to speak, but Xu Xiuyuan took the initiative to respond.He was still breathing disorderly, but his words were full of doubts: "It's strange, I seem to understand it, but I don't seem to understand it."

"...What do you mean?" Ping Qiu looked at him, keenly aware that his gaze stayed in the direction of his lips for two seconds, he immediately covered his lips with the back of his hand, and his eyes drifted to another direction.

"Is it the same when you kissed them?" Xu Xiuyuan asked, "My brother and Lu Yang, maybe there are others, when you are with them, is it like you were with me just now?"

Ping Qiu mistook him for provocation: "I don't understand what you want to say."

Xu Xiuyuan lowered his body: "You love them, but you don't love me, so it's different-I can't be sure if you are like this."

"That has nothing to do with what you want to know."

"Why doesn't it matter? I have such doubts after seeing you and my brother. If I want to clear up my doubts, shouldn't it be you who asked me to stand in your point of view. How are you and my brother? I should How about it?"

Ping Qiu was confused: "Is that so?"

"That's right. So from now on, you have to go back to how you felt about Xu Ruiyang at the beginning. If thinking of him makes you feel very painful, then you can treat me as him," Xu Xiuyuan bowed his head and kissed him on the lips , "I remember, he always grabs your hand and puts it here, this hand will touch your neck."

The moment Xu Xiuyuan's hand touched the side of his neck, Ping Qiu shrank his neck violently, but clamped his hand even tighter around his neck.Pingqiu blushed: "Don't let it go, I'm itchy."

"Then you didn't hide when I kissed you just now."

Pingqiu's face was flushed, Xu Xiuyuan's words seemed to be laughing at his seriousness on the surface, but in reality he was off-kilter, confused, and surrendered to him early.

Fortunately, Xu Xiuyuan didn't insist on making Ping Qiu confront him about such insignificant details.He straightened up suddenly, and kneeled on both sides of Pingqiu's body with his legs apart.With the movement, the blanket on his back slipped off.Ping Qiu looked up at him, and what he saw was that his whole body was shrouded in the dim moonlight outside the window.

Only then did Ping Qiu realize intuitively that Xu Xiuyuan was no longer the little boy who sprinted behind his bicycle, he was a grown man, a man with a strong body and a complete mind.

The circle of shadow cast by Xu Xiuyuan's upper body due to the backlight hit Pingqiu's chest, which made his body concealed, except for one face that was exposed under the dark moonlight.Xu Xiuyuan looked down at him, seeing through the sadness in his eyes, so he leaned down, put his hands next to his ears, and kissed his cheek very gently.Every time he kisses, Ping Qiu can't help but tremble while resisting.With his eyes closed, he felt the other person's lips fall on his eyelashes, between his brows, the tip of his nose, and then his cheeks.No one kissed his lips, all the kisses were on the side of his face, which made Ping Qiu extremely uneasy.He began to resist, began to rub his body, raised his chin slightly, and involuntarily wrapped his hands around the neck of the other party in front of him, as if reminding him that he had forgotten where he was not comforted.Remedial kisses landed on the tip of his chin and the side of his neck, lips still bare.

Pingqiu finally opened his eyes, his eyes were filled with mist.He couldn't see who the face in front of him was in the fog, he just complained softly: "You forget again, you forget every time."

How did he fall asleep that night, Ping Qiu couldn't remember clearly.When he woke up, he saw two pillows at the head of the bed, and Xu Xiuyuan was nowhere to be found.Sitting with the quilt in his arms for a long while, Ping Qiu put one of the pillows back on the floor, and the blanket beside it was neatly folded.

At this time, reason came back, Pingqiu stepped on the cold mat with bare feet, and once again felt a strong disgust for his bottomless tolerance, especially at this time when he received a good morning message from Lu Yang, Pingqiu kept whipping in his heart Self, and wiped his lips with his wrist fiercely, until his lips were stinging and did not stop.His head was in chaos, he lost his strength and fell back to the edge of the bed, his feet slowly moved together, his ten toes stomped on each other as if venting his anger, and kicked away the blanket that Xu Xiuyuan had patiently folded in the morning.However, the blanket was kicked and he ended up kneeling on the floor to refold the blanket.

Xu Xiuyuan came home with breakfast, just in time for Pingqiu's big bowl of egg fried rice to come out.The portion of breakfast suddenly increased, Ping Qiu concentrated on eating, and ignored Xu Xiuyuan's gestures.Until the edge of the bowl was held down, Ping Qiu was no match for Xu Xiuyuan in strength, so he had to drag the bowl away, and then he asked: "You are in a bad mood. What's wrong?"

"I regret it," Ping Qiu said with his head down, "I shouldn't have promised you, it was wrong for us to do that, and it would be wrong for anyone else, so I regret it, I'm sorry."

"What's the reason?"

"I told you."

"You lied to me," Xu Xiuyuan looked straight into his eyes, "You are lying, you can't fool me with such words."

"Then consider me lying to you," Ping Qiushou clenched his right hand on his knee into a fist, "I can't go on, I can't face Lu Yang, this is lying to him, I don't want to betray him."

"Do you think you betray him by doing this with me, or do you think it's a betrayal of him when you think of Xu Ruiyang when you're with me?"

"I didn't!" Ping Qiu raised his head with a startled expression.

"You have," Xu Xiuyuan said firmly, "Last night all you thought of was him, you couldn't control it, because Xu Ruiyang and I are so similar, even I asked you to treat me as him, so you confused and hesitated, I'm scared too—you haven't forgotten Xu Ruiyang at all, have you?"

Ping Qiu picked up his fingers: "I'm not! I don't understand why you always talk like that?"

"You can accuse me of speaking badly, but if you can't even be honest with me, I don't think you are honest enough with Lu Yang."

"...Okay, since you know everything, why do you want me to treat you as your brother? I can't do that, so just treat me as a broken appointment. I can't reach the level you want, so don't force me anymore. "

"Is it because I remind you of him, or have you never let him go?"

"I won't think of him anymore. It's all in the past. I've been looking forward. Lu Yang and I have a good life, so I don't want to mention him," Ping Qiu said stubbornly, "Please tell me He, don't text me in the future, it will only bother me."

"Why didn't you tell him yourself?"

"..." Ping Qiu remained silent.

"To be honest, sometimes I can't tell whether you can't let go of him, or are you afraid of him—" Before he finished speaking, the phone by the table rang suddenly, Xu Xiuyuan looked at the notes on the screen, and then turned his gaze to Pingqiu's face superior.

Pingqiu was confused, but Xu Xiuyuan then turned the phone screen towards him, and when he suddenly saw the note of "Xu Ruiyang", his expression became even more rigid, as if Xu Ruiyang caught him and his biological brother on the spot thousands of kilometers away. In the middle of the night, they talked about their never-ending past in the morning.

Regardless of Pingqiu's ugly face, Xu Xiuyuan picked up the phone, but kept looking at Pingqiu: "Hello."

Xu Ruiyang didn't know what to say on the other side, but Xu Xiuyuan actually made Xu Xiuyuan smile.He turned to Ping Qiu and replied: "I'm in the south, living with a friend—who?"

Pingqiu suddenly became nervous, unable to listen to this conversation that was deliberately aimed at him, so he got up to pack the dishes and hid by the pool, and then turned on the water.From the corner of the eye, Xu Xiuyuan also left his seat and went directly to the balcony, Pingqiu couldn't help but let out a long sigh of relief, letting the splashing drops of water wet the sides of his face.

"Your teacher called and said that his grades came out this afternoon, and he wanted to ask about your application, but he couldn't contact you. What about you, when are you going to go home?" There was a rustling sound from Xu Ruiyang's side, probably from that A group of friends in his business.

"Didn't you tell me not to go home for the rest of my life?" Xu Xiuyuan said.

"That's all angry talk, can you take it seriously?" Xu Ruiyang sighed, "Besides, I don't want to bother with you. If it wasn't for my parents pestering me every day, I wouldn't even want to know where you are now. But Xu Xiuyuan, I have to remind you You, you are an adult now, you should be responsible for what you say and do. You tell the whole family that you like it in one sentence-this is not verbal bragging, not a novelty, I don’t know why you choose the college entrance examination I told my parents two days ago, and then ran away without a trace, is this your responsibility? Pat your ass and run away without explaining anything?"

"I'm not responsible? Could it be that the clothes hanger that Dad broke that night was actually my dream?"

"Then you shouldn't have said those things that day!" Xu Ruiyang said angrily, "You don't know how much they have hoped for you. In the last two days, you made such a mess at home. Shouldn't you come back and explain clearly? The mess you made is solved? At least you should give them some time to think about it. If you have something to say, you can’t talk about it? Anyway, no matter what, you have no reason to leave at this time. "

"Sounds so nice, didn't you want to go at the beginning?"

"..."

"Didn't you want to take Pingqiu away at the beginning? You have two train tickets in your drawer. It seems that you have never sent them out. You gave them time to think about it, so this is your result. But I am not you. My future with you is absolutely It won't be the same way, so you don't have to worry about me."

"Xu Xiuyuan!" Xu Ruiyang snapped, "What exactly do you want?"

"Do what I want." After Xu Xiuyuan finished speaking, he hung up the phone directly.

After Pingqiu cleaned up the sink, he saw Xu Xiuyuan open the balcony sliding door and approach.He didn't want to be seen through, so he turned around in a pretentious manner, and suddenly someone was approaching from his back. Xu Xiuyuan put his forehead behind his head, clasped his hands in front of his belly, leaned completely relaxed behind Pingqiu, and suddenly sighed for a long time.

Being hugged from behind by him made her whole body stiff, Ping Qiudong didn't dare to move, and didn't dare to ask more questions.But Xu Xiuyuan's dependence on him is obvious, Pingqiu froze for a moment, and patted the back of his hand tentatively, but Xu Xiuyuan grabbed his wrist, folded his hands on his chest, and hugged him even tighter.

"I finally know why you left there in the first place," Xu Xiuyuan said in a low voice, covering his lips in Pingqiu's hair, his voice was vague, "You are sad, no one understands you at all, even my brother gave up on you, you When a person left, did you hate him?"

"No."

"You lied. You always wanted to keep him, but he gave up on you on his own initiative. How could you not hate him?"

"If you say no, then there will be no," Pingqiu tried his best to break away from Xu Xiuyuan's hug, and turned to look directly at him, "Did he scold you?"

"He didn't bother to scold me, he just warned me not to be irresponsible."

"He warned you not to be irresponsible? Xu Ruiyang warned you not to be irresponsible?" Ping Qiu smiled miserably, "What qualifications does he have to warn you?"

"So I told him that I won't compromise until I actually make a decision. I'm different from him. If he can't do it, I can." Xu Xiuyuan took Pingqiu's hands, "You understand now, I It's really not Xu Ruiyang, because I'm not as cowardly as him. Even if it's to help me, are you still unwilling?"

Pingqiu's eyes flickered: "I know, but it's unfair to Lu Yang, I can't hide it from him."

"Do you want me to be more clear? You haven't forgotten Xu Ruiyang at all. In this case, you still choose to associate with Lu Yang. Is this fair to him? Before me, you were lying to him."

"I didn't!" Ping Qiu retorted subconsciously, "I told him all these things, I didn't lie to him."

"Then when I met him for the first time, why didn't you dare tell him who I was? He didn't even know Xu Ruiyang's name. Is this your confession?"

"I just don't think it's necessary to tell him—"

"He also doesn't need to know our affairs," Xu Xiuyuan interrupted, "You see, a very simple matter, you always have to make it very complicated. I promised you a long time ago that this is Our secret, I will not tell Lu Yang, nor will I tell anyone else. If you think this is too far for you, then let me ask you, don't you get something from me? "

Ping Qiu shook his head: "I don't understand, I don't understand."

"Then let me teach you, you can use me to forget Xu Ruiyang, completely wipe out his memory for you, replace him with me, or use me to forget him, isn't it killing two birds with one stone? So stop doubting, you All you have to do is trust me."

After finishing speaking, Xu Xiuyuan inserted five fingers of his left hand between Ping Qiu's fingers, and bent down to kiss Ping Qiu's mouth at the same time.Ping Qiu was so kissed that he closed his eyes and recoiled, and then, Xu Xiuyuan hugged him hard and made it hard to breathe.Pingqiu struggled twice, the back of his neck was gently pressed by Xu Xiuyuan with a soothing force, he gradually stopped resisting, and relaxed his body, allowing Xu Xiuyuan to hold him tightly.

In the afternoon of that day, Pingqiu was entertaining senior high school students who came to the school for consultation.The parent of the student is a middle-aged woman in her forties, dressed plainly and behaved cautiously. She showed embarrassment to the price list of each subject, and always pulled the taciturn student to make her make a decision.Ping Qiu patiently followed them to discuss in a low voice, but his eyes fell on the badly worn black and white canvas shoes at the other mother's feet, and her half of her calf that was exposed because of the short trousers.He stared at it for a long time, feeling that this scene seemed familiar. After a while, he looked away and got up to add some water to the paper cups in front of the students and parents.

Although the class schedule was not finalized in the end, the parent held Ping Qiu and talked for a while before leaving, hoping that he would tell her honestly what kind of tutoring intensity would be more suitable for her daughter's current learning situation.But after hearing Pingqiu's specific analysis, the tuition fees that exceeded the budget made the parents lose their calm.

Pingqiu sent the mother and daughter out of the main entrance, watched them get on the bus, turned around and entered the door, and saw the colleague at the front desk chewing fruit and waving at him: "Don't always have this expression, let the principal see it, and you will get some points in the regular meeting next week." You have a name."

"I just think everyone is working hard." Ping Qiu said.

"No way, it's so easy to raise a child now, everyone wants to send their children up, so don't we bridge builders have to 'keep up with the times'? Otherwise, like when we were in school, our classmates would still look down on us. People who take extra-curricular tutoring think that they are learning too badly in class, so they will ask teachers for tutoring."

"It's true. When I was studying, we didn't even have serious tutoring institutions."

The colleague suddenly said: "That's right, Pingqiu, I heard that your grades are very good, you just failed the college entrance examination?"

"No, it's all based on their random guesses. My academic performance has not been stable. And it happened a few years ago, let's not talk about it," Pingqiu smiled, and changed the subject, "I went upstairs, There is a new student coming today, I have to help him find a teacher."

"Busy." The colleague waved to him.

On duty in the evening, Ping Qiu received a text message from Lu Yang.Both of them were working at this time, Lu Yang also said that he suddenly remembered, and asked Pingqiu if Xu Xiuyuan planned to go home in two days.When Pingqiu heard it for the first time, he thought it was Lu Yang's guesswork, but Lu Yang said with certainty that Xu Xiuyuan took the initiative to inform him.Ping Qiu was suspicious, and subconsciously thought that it was because Xu Xiuyuan had something in his family that it was inconvenient to inform him, an outsider, so he deliberately delayed the time and planned to talk about it that day.

With Lu Yang's "informant", Pingqiu was absent-minded that night, clocked out after the end of the shift, and only found someone chasing after halfway out of the gate.

Cheng Zinong trotted over with his schoolbag on his back, stood still out of breath, and asked Pingqiu why he was walking so fast.

Ping Qiu apologized: "I didn't hear you call me just now. What's the matter, you have something to do with me?"

"I'll return your clothes." Cheng Zinong handed the paper bag to Ping Qiu.

"Actually, you can just put it on the front desk. The other teachers will remind me." Pingqiu glanced at the paper bag and found something unusual. "It doesn't seem to be mine. Did you take it by mistake?"

"That's right. I bought this new one. I lost the original one. I'm sorry."

"If you lose it, just throw it away, it's just a coat, you don't need to buy me a new one," Pingqiu handed the paper bag back, "I can't accept it."

Cheng Zinong took a step back: "If I lose your clothes, I'll give you back another one. What's the problem? And if you don't accept it, my mother will scold me—you take it."

Seeing his firm attitude, Pingqiu no longer twitched: "I'll take the clothes, thank you. It's late, do you want to go home by bus?"

"I ride a bike."

"But there are no cars here, you have to go a little further," Pingqiu pointed out the direction for him, "go ahead in the high school campus, turn a corner, there are a lot of cars over there."

"Then let's go forward, will you drop by?" Cheng Zinong asked, seeing Ping Qiu nodding, he smiled a little, "Let's go together."

Along the way, perhaps it was a rare situation where the two of them were alone without the teacher-student relationship. Cheng Zinong was very lively and kept talking, occasionally making Ping Qiu laugh.

When they were talking about the embarrassing incident of a certain male teacher in their attached middle school giving a speech, Ping Qiu saw his rich body movements, and said with a smile: "I thought you were shy, but I was wrong."

"That depends on who it is." Cheng Zinong kicked the stone beside him, "I don't want to talk to those people at school."

"Why, do you have conflicts with your classmates?" Pingqiu thought about the last incident, and asked carefully, "Do you have troubles at school? For example, how do your classmates treat you, and how about the teacher?"

"You're worried about me?" Cheng Zinong suddenly stopped, staring at Pingqiu with burning eyes, "You're worried about me, aren't you?"

"I regard you as a friend, and I will definitely worry about you." Ping Qiu avoided the important ones.

"Yes, we are friends, you said it before. You said that every time you see me, you will think of you before, and you also said that I am like your younger brother, so you will treat me as a friend. I remember it all."

Pingqiu laughed: "You don't have to be so anxious, I didn't deny it."

"I'm not in a hurry," Cheng Zinong panted nervously, "Since you said we were friends, why didn't you come to my house for dinner before?"

"That's two different things. Your mother wants to invite me to dinner because I'm a teacher and you are a student. I can't agree—even if I'm a friend."

"Why?" Cheng Zinong raised his voice, which attracted the attention of passers-by on the street, "Why can't you agree?"

"I can be friends with you, but the premise is that you are the student I take over, and all the teachers in this institution know that I don't want to be the special one," Pingqiu comforted, "I accept your wishes, this one I also accept the jacket, but I really can't accept the others."

"The other things you said—" Cheng Zinong's heart beat suddenly accelerated.Pingqiu's vague words seemed to be trying to uncover the thin fig leaf on his body.He tightened the belt of his schoolbag, and suddenly a strong impulse flashed in his mind: rush up, grab Pingqiu, tell him everything, there is nothing to hide, only Pingqiu will definitely accept it.

However, the timing did not give Cheng Zinong the possibility to react - the red light on the opposite street changed to a green light, a bicycle came across the street, and the bell rang, causing Pingqiu to turn his head and look across the street, and immediately Say goodbye to him: "I'll go first, goodbye."

Cheng Zinong only had time to say goodbye to him, and saw Pingqiu trotting across the crowded zebra crossing, holding on to the handlebar of the bicycle under the flashing green light across the street, and then took the two books handed by the other party. flip.They chatted for a few words, and soon walked away side by side.

Xu Xiuyuan was in the library again today, Pingqiu knew about it.I heard from him that he stayed there until he was kicked out by the administrator, went home and rode his bicycle, and came here to look for Pingqiu with two new books.Now that he was driving him home, in order to prevent Pingqiu from moving and falling, Xu Xiuyuan took his hand and pressed it against his stomach, reminding him to "sit firmly".

Holding the new book in his arms, Pingqiu held Xu Xiuyuan's abdomen and front clothes tightly with one hand, his body was slightly tilted, the head-on night wind hit his face, there were psychedelic neon signs on the side of the road, speeding vehicles and people walking constantly flitted past him.Ping Qiu suddenly empathized with him, couldn't help laughing, and slapped Xu Xiuyuan's waist with his palm, asking him to "hurry up", "faster".

Xu Xiuyuan speeded up at his request, his thin shorts were blown back by the wind, and the hem of his clothes lightly hit Pingqiu's face.They shuttled through the neon lights of the city, but Pingqiu suddenly remembered the dark and narrow country road in his hometown.

He raised his face and looked at the dark night sky. He shook his head and said to himself for a while, "I want to go home, I really want to, I always want to."