Banshuharu

The relationship between Sun Qi and Xu Xiuyuan was not close from the beginning.Although the junior high school has been in the same school for 12 years, after the two really became acquainted with each other in the same class in junior high school, Sun Qi's impression of Xu Xiuyuan is no longer the "classmate next door" who used to compete with him for the first grade in the six years of elementary school. , Xu Xiuyuan's image became more three-dimensional to him, and of course, he hated him even more.

Interestingly, they were not familiar with each other in the neighboring elementary school classes. On the contrary, their respective parents were good friends, especially Xu Xiangnan and Sun Qi’s mother, Sun Fei. Barely counted as peers.Sun Fei admired Xu Xiangnan's ability to control her husband and teach her children, and often praised Xu Xiuyuan, the youngest son of the Xu family, at home for being obedient and worry-free, but little Sun Qi was not convinced, so she felt more and more hateful about Xu Xiuyuan in the next class.

With the idea that knowing oneself and knowing the enemy can win all battles, Sun Qi began to observe Xu Xiuyuan in all directions without interruption, so he can often be seen sitting by the fence outside the campus doing homework during school hours, waiting for half an hour. After school, sometimes an elder brother who came out with a bicycle would drive him home together, sometimes two.

Sun Qi couldn't remember Xu Xiuyuan's brother's face for a long time.But he remembered that at that time, Xu Xiuyuan would often be led by this brother into the canteen at the school gate, maybe to buy a piece of crushed ice, or just to buy a bag of sour ebony for [-] cents.

To this day, Sun Qi can recall the sense of vanity he felt when he was satisfied.Because when Xu Xiuyuan was holding a piece of crushed ice that cost [-] yuan, or a bag of sour ebony plums that cost [-] cents, he was holding a bag of chocolate-flavored ice cream that cost [-] yuan.But he didn't want to admit that despite this, he still envied Xu Xiuyuan, maybe because he had an older brother who could ride a bicycle, maybe because he didn't go home alone.

Because of this, after a long time, Mingming hadn't spoken ten words to Xu Xiuyuan in six years of primary school, but Sun Qi knew him better than other classmates.

When I went to junior high school, I accidentally discovered that the two were in the same class. At first, Sun Qi was still competing with Xu Xiuyuan secretly, but later found that he didn't take his vanity seriously at all. Sun Qi was like a flattened ball, leaking out With that inexplicable aura, the two slowly came together, unknowingly becoming the best friends.

As for the rumor about Xu Xiuyuan's brother, it also happened in their first year of junior high school.

That summer, rumors were like a plague, taking advantage of the high temperature to spread around the neighborhood.Some said that the eldest son of the Xu family robbed other male students of his girlfriend in his first year of college, and the two even fought; vented their anger; some said that there were no female students at all, and that Xu Ruiyang and his male classmates got together.What's even more eye-popping is that the "male classmate" in this topic is Heike Pingqiu from the same town as them.

Whether the rumors are true or not, uncles, grandparents, three aunts and six wives spread the rumors miraculously. Even Sun Fei, who always kept away from neighbors and gossips, whispered to her husband at night.As soon as she found out that Sun Qi was eavesdropping, Sun Fei held him by the ear and scolded him for being troublesome.Sun Qi begged for mercy, then turned his eyes and asked his mother after a while: What happened to Xu Xiuyuan's family?

The small town is conservative, and such a strange incident has happened in decades. The person involved is the son of Sun Fei’s close sister. Of course, Sun Fei does not want to tell her son, but she is also worried that this strange disease will be inherited, so Insinuate Sun Qi and ask him how he and Xu Xiuyuan get along, and whether Xu Xiuyuan has done anything that makes you feel uncomfortable.Sun Qi was annoyed by asking straight questions, so he ran away in a hurry, not wanting to gossip about friends with his mother anymore, for fear of getting burned, and causing trouble for himself instead.

However, rumors are rumors.In addition, Xu Xiangnan of the Xu family is well-known as a strong lady in the local area. Many people were waiting to see her teach her son Wufang to make jokes, but she still held her head high and strode past the doors of each house, hearing the neighbors talking about it. Instead of retreating, she asked who was talking about her and her son with a broken mouth, and had time to talk about her and her son. Why not stand up and have a good discussion with her? more clearly.

Usually these neighbor scandals are circulated in secret, for everyone to make jokes after dinner. Different people have different opinions. It is ugly to put it on the stage. After all, no one has any evidence. They just listen to others and add fuel to the story. pass.The grievances and resentment of the villagers who were often discussed in the past, it will be over after a while, but Xu Xiangnan just doesn't want to be useless. She brought the scandal to the table, "chewing the tongue" and "taking the evidence" one by one. Few people are fooled.Within two days, the rumors about Xu Ruiyang had spread widely.

Therefore, although Sun Qi had heard about this incident, he didn't know much about it.However, he still has some scattered impressions of Pingqiu's face.Besides, Xu Xiuyuan's act of introducing Pingqiu to his friends today also made Sun Qi suddenly return to the past.Questions that he didn't understand when he was young suddenly became clear, and he couldn't describe what it was like in his heart for a while. He was surprised that Xu Xiuyuan really followed his brother's homosexuality, and surprised that the two brothers fell on the same person.

After dinner at night, the three roommates went their separate ways. Among them, Lu Zhiyuan took his girlfriend Pingqiu to say goodbye, saying that they could keep in touch with each other often, and joked that he would watch over Xu Xiuyuan for Pingqiu to prevent him from being snatched away by handsome boys from other departments.Several people laughed loudly, their faces were a little drunk, and they quarreled at the door for a while before breaking up.

In the end, only Ping Qiu, Xu Xiuyuan and Sun Qi remained.

His eyes fell on their clasped hands. Sun Qi originally wanted to pull Xu Xiuyuan aside to say a few words, but before he could speak, he asked Xu Xiuyuan to take the lead.

Xu Xiuyuan asked, "How are you going?"

"Take a taxi, or take the subway."

"Then be careful on the way, we will go first."

"You're not going back to school? Where are you going?"

"go home."

What Xu Xiuyuan said reminded Sun Qi of the day they flew to Beijing. He also said that he had moved in half a month early to live with his girlfriend in style.Now it seems that the "girlfriend" is Pingqiu, they have done what they should do, it is useless to argue and stop, Xu Xiuyuan is completely bent.

As long as he thinks that Xu Xiuyuan's incumbent had a relationship with his elder brother, Sun Qi will always be unable to control himself to wear colored glasses.He could only force himself not to look at Pingqiu as much as possible, and said to Xu Xiuyuan: "Then let's each go our own way, go back to our own house—we have different paths, right?"

"We're heading west."

"I'm heading east."

"See you then."

"Goodbye."

The two sides turned around and walked away, but for a short distance, Sun Qi's inner thoughts were turning back and forth.

He really couldn't hold back, turned his head, and looked at Xu Xiuyuan's back in the crowd, only to see his good partner pressing his side face on the top of Ping Qiu's hair as if coquettishly, and Ping Qiu bent over like a willow branch , and suddenly went up again.Xu Xiuyuan stopped while covering his painful side face, Pingqiu ignored him and continued to move forward, without taking two steps, turned around to look at him with a smile, stretched out his hand, Xu Xiuyuan was finally satisfied, and stretched out his hand to meet him With a grip, the two are parallel again.This time Xu Xiuyuan put the weight of his whole body on Ping Qiu, and Ping Qiu also compromised, hugging his waist with both hands, and the two walked intimately on the crowded street.

Watching them disappear completely, Sun Qi wiped his face to express his helpless approval, but he still held his heart for Xu Xiuyuan's uncertain future.

After catching the last subway, Xu Xiuyuan dragged Ping Qiu all the way to the first cabin.After taking his seat, Pingqiu was still out of breath, looked at the glass facing the other seat that could reflect the expressions of the two of them and smiled: "Look at you, your hair is all messed up."

Let him touch his hair, Xu Xiuyuan leaned his head on his shoulder and closed his eyes.

On the opposite side was an old man with a cane, Ping Qiu felt a little embarrassed, shrugged his shoulders lightly, Xu Xiuyuan raised his face in cooperation, like a balloon that was blown into the air, it paused for two seconds, and suddenly fell back to Ping Qiu's shoulder .

"Hey!" Ping Qiu called him in a low voice, but he saw Xu Xiuyuan smiling with his eyes closed, clearly knowing that he was being blamed, but pretending that he couldn't hear or understand.

Pingqiu's heart melted into laughter, and he didn't dare to look at the face of the opposite uncle.He blushed and looked away, and after a while his right hand was held again.He shook his hand gently, pretending to be calm on the surface.

Before today, Xu Xiuyuan hadn't been to Pingqiu's place for nearly two weeks due to his busy schedule and a lot of chores at school.They knew each other well what would happen tonight, Ping Qiu was led away by Xu Xiuyuan all the way, blushing and heartbeating, and did not express any opinion on Xu Xiuyuan's eagerness.He thought about it too, but because of his face, he didn't want to make it too obvious.

Walking quickly and trotting upstairs, when the door was about to be opened, Pingqiu was nervous, either he couldn't find the key, or the key didn't match the lock.

Xu Xiuyuan stood behind him and asked what was wrong, Pingqiu complained in a low voice: "Hands are numb from the cold." After speaking, he actually kicked the door bitterly.

Seeing this, Xu Xiuyuan's expression froze, and then he smiled.He pressed against Pingqiu's chest, laughing so hard that Pingqiu was trembling along with him.Really embarrassed, Ping Qiu even elbowed his lower abdomen, but he was not willing to use force, so instead of warning, it seemed to be flirting.

After finally inserting the key into the lock, when the door opened, Xu Xiuyuan entered with his arms around Pingqiu.

Suddenly there was a sound, and the next door opened.Chu Tiwei showed up wearing slippers and said, "I want to talk to you."

She pointed at Pingqiu.

Ping Qiu was taken aback, and hurriedly got rid of Xu Xiuyuan, and opened the door wide: "Then you come in, come in quickly."

The heating was on at home, Ping Qiu poured a glass of water for Chu Ti slightly, asked her to sit first, hugged her warm hands, then went to the bedroom, dragged Xu Xiuyuan up from the bed, cupped her face and kissed her, asking him not to come out first , Talk to Chu Tiwei for a while, it should be fine right away.

Xu Xiuyuan didn't know much about Ping Qiu, a female neighbor surnamed Chu, everything he knew about her was second-hand information from Ping Qiu, and when Ping Qiu met her day and night, he was always more familiar with each other than he was.Xu Xiuyuan would not tear down Pingqiu's platform at this time, so he promised himself that he would stay in the room.

"You can't eavesdrop either." Ping Qiu added.

"What do you think of me?" Xu Xiuyuan looked up at him with disdain, "I always listened openly."

"That's not allowed."

"What shameful thing do you have with her? Could it be that you're cheating behind my back?" Xu Xiuyuan said and put his hand on Pingqiu's belly, "Use this?"

"Don't mess around!" Ping Qiu slapped his hand.Time was running out, so he could only briefly explain: "I think she has an injury on her face, she must have encountered something bad, she has no one to confide in, and I am the only friend here, I always want to hear what difficulties she has encountered, It’s good to help her. So be good, wait for me here, and don’t listen to me, it’s disrespectful to others.”

"Understood," Xu Xiuyuan raised his hands as if begging for forgiveness, "You go to be your bosom sister, and I will stay here alone to guard the vacant room."

"Talking nonsense." Ping Qiu reprimanded, smiled again in a blink of an eye, kissed him on the lips, and then hurried out.

Lying on the bedside and playing with his mobile phone, Xu Xiuyuan was distracted to pay attention to the movement outside the door, there were occasional rustling sounds, probably caused by Pingqiu walking around.Among the two people outside, Chu Ti made no sound, while Ping Qiu spoke in a soft voice, the noise was no match for Xu Xiuyuan pressing the volume of the phone screen.

Just after Sun Qi returned to school, he sent a series of news to Xu Xiuyuan in a bombardment and siege posture, to the effect that he had already remembered the origin of Xu Xiuyuan's "boyfriend" and praised Xu Xiuyuan for being amazing. His ex-boyfriend, if he changed his gender, he would steal his sister-in-law.

Too lazy to argue with him in the dialog box, Xu Xiuyuan directly called him: "Come on."

"What are you doing?" Sun Qi was still shocked when he received his call, and said vigilantly.

"Don't you want to complain to me? Send it, and then shut up. I'll pretend you didn't say anything."

"Am I that kind of person? Besides, who can I tell this kind of thing, and someone has to listen to it."

"Your mother."

"...Although my mother and I are close, I can tell the seriousness of the matter. If you let me sneak away for you, doesn't it mean that you haven't told your family members, not to mention that your partner is still that one, "Sun Qi muttered, "I have a word with my mother, and she can tell your mother when she turns around. Then I can figure out the consequences with my toes. Your mother can immediately tie you up and bring you back from Beijing."

"Since you know everything, why are you asking me?"

"I just want to express my shock, there is no other meaning... I remember that the incident between him and your brother was very unhappy at the time. Your brother has ended up like that. Why do you repeat the same mistakes?"

"Just because he can't do it, doesn't mean I can't do it."

"But you both have the same mother. If he can't pass your mother's test, isn't it even more difficult for you?"

"So now he can only stay with my mother, like a waste."

Sun Qi was stunned: "You hate your brother so much? You said it's not two brothers, they like the same type, they go around and talk about the same one. I think that Pingqiu owed your brother in his previous life. It's only in this life that you two will take turns to suffer."

Unexpectedly, Xu Xiuyuan smiled: "This sentence is correct, I will write it down and tell him later."

"He's by your side? Are you two doing something bad?" Sun Qi was horrified, afraid of hearing something he shouldn't hear, and hurriedly hung up the phone, "I understand this matter in my heart, you bring him to see me And those friends of yours, don’t you just want me to keep it a secret for you? I know, I still have this insight, so don’t worry, as long as you don’t want to say it, it’s impossible for my mother and your mother to get it from me. Know anything."

"One more person."

"Who?"

"Xu Ruiyang."

"Who should I be?" Sun Qi kicked the stones, "I see, you are hiding in the golden house here, and you are hiding people from before your brother, can I tell him? Don't worry, I won't tell anyone, it's fine if you don't gone."

The call with Sun Qi was terminated, just as the sound of closing the door came from outside the house.Xu Xiuyuan got out of bed and saw that Pingqiu was standing in the entrance, and there was still a small open medical bag on the small table in the living room.

After tidying up the bottles and cans, throwing away the used garbage, and finally packing the small bag, Pingqiu suddenly stopped again, with his head lowered, and he gritted his teeth for a while before saying: "How could there be such a person."

According to Chu Tiwei's explanation, the bruises on her face, arms and calves were all thrown at her by her parents who came to collect debts in the evening, just because Chu Tiwei couldn't get them. Pay the 3 yuan they asked for.In front of her was her mother, who was kneeling and begging with her hands folded, and behind her was the stool raised by her father. No matter how fast she reacted, she was hit in the back, and her arms were so painful that she couldn't lift her arms now.

"There are two younger brothers in her family, only one year apart, and they are both going to high school this year. Her parents want to find a house for their son near the school. The family is under a lot of pressure, so they ask the eldest to fill it in." Pingqiu sighed, "Weiwei works. It's only been a year, how can they have money to provide for their sons, and it's not the first time that they will do it if they can't."

"She didn't call the police?" Xu Xiuyuan asked.

"Report it, don't worry, it's a housework, there's no need to make such an ugly mess."

"She won't escape?"

"After escaping many times, the job here is stable. I don't know where the parents heard the news."

"What about the two sons, why don't you express your opinion?"

"I don't know, she only told me these things, and she didn't want to tell me about the rest."

"Then you don't need to ask," Xu Xiuyuan said calmly, "She is already an adult and has the ability to deal with such things independently, so you shouldn't help her either. .”

"I'm angry at them for doing it. If we can't reach an agreement, we can't beat the child."

"Then you don't have to worry about it. Isn't the one next door to you a martial arts instructor? She has the ability to protect herself."

"I'm just worried about her."

"But she obviously doesn't need your help."

"I know, I know everything, but," Ping Qiu was a little puzzled, "Xiu Yuan, isn't your reaction too indifferent?"

Xu Xiuyuan didn't deny it: "Each family sweeps the snow in front of the door, don't worry about others, especially if the other party doesn't ask for your help at all. If you care too much, that's superfluous."

Unable to argue with him, Pingqiu surrendered: "Maybe."

"She opened her mouth, and if you help, that's called helping in the snow; she doesn't need your help, but if you insist on showing extra kindness, it might be called adding insult to injury."

He was still protesting from the bottom of his heart, but Ping Qiu had to admit that what Xu Xiuyuan said had some truth.

At this moment, the door rang, Xu Xiuyuan opened it, and Chu Tiwei was standing outside.

During this period of time, I have met Xu Xiuyuan several times, but this is the first time I have seen him so close.Chu Tiwei seemed very unaccustomed to being close to strange men, she frowned and took a step back, holding up the dozen of yogurt she was carrying in front of her eyes, covering her face, and said in a muffled voice, "For Pingqiu."

She had long legs and long arms, and she almost gave Xu Xiuyuan a fist when she stretched out her hand like this.Xu Xiuyuan hurriedly took a half step back, looked back at Pingqiu, but saw him smiling, and said while smiling, "Take it. Thank you, Weiwei."

After taking the things away, Chu Ti put down his arms slightly, but still looked at Xu Xiuyuan defensively with both eyes: "The discounted yogurt, drink it quickly, it will expire."

The two often go together to the nearby shopping malls to buy some discounted food that is about to expire, and Pingqiu is used to it.Saying goodbye to Chu Tiwei, Xu Xiuyuan was still holding the dozen yogurt to check the date.

Ping Qiu smiled, went to the kitchen sink to wash off the teacups left in the morning, and asked, "How long is it expired?"

"The shelf life is four days, the factory date is on the [-]rd, today is the [-]th, and it will expire tomorrow."

"Tomorrow is the [-]th, the [-]th will be over..." Ping Qiu froze in place before finishing speaking, "Today is November [-]th?"

"Yes, what's the matter?"

"That's only one day away from the eighth day."

"What's wrong with No. [-]?" Xu Xiuyuan noticed the abnormality, threw the yogurt on the dining table casually, and asked.

Pingqiu glanced at him and said slowly: "No. [-] is my mother's birthday."

At such a mention, Xu Xiuyuan also froze.He knew in his heart that Pingqiu's feelings for his mother Ping Qinghong were very complicated, not to mention intimacy or hatred, but this was Pingqiu's secret, he didn't take the initiative to tell it, and Xu Xiuyuan didn't intend to ask.He is much smarter than Lu Yang, and he is only staring at the hole in Pingqiu's heart that needs to be filled urgently.

"Some people love birthdays, and some people think that birthdays are just an ordinary day every year, but it's nothing more than a big deal," Xu Xiuyuan said.

"Isn't every birthday a reminder to us that whose mother's day was so many years ago? It may be an ordinary day for children, but it has different meanings for different people."

"Are you interested?" Xu Xiuyuan asked, "You want to contact her?"

"...I don't know," Pingqiu said in a low voice, "Actually, I send her some money every year on her birthday and during Chinese New Year. It's really only a little, and I don't earn much. Give it back to me, and after a long time, I will accept it. Maybe it will still be like this this year."

"That's also very good. You send her a certain amount of money regularly. To her, it's considered safe." Xu Xiuyuan took the plastic gloves and washed the rest of Pingqiu's cups and saucers.

"On the 50th, her birthday is this year, so she should have—" Ping Qiu raised his head slightly, silently counting the years, "[-] years old. Fifty this year."

"At home, it's usually celebrated throughout the year."

"She doesn't like this."

"That's right," Xu Xiuyuan took off his gloves, turned around and leaned against the stage, "I don't see my aunt many times, but she gave me a very special impression. Have you ever heard someone say that she is like a bamboo, It’s hard to get close, as if it can’t be bent.”

"Really? I haven't heard of it. Is that a good thing?"

"Don't you think so?"

"I don't know. I can't tell what is good and what is bad. It may be right. She is like a bamboo that cannot be bent. She is always hard and cold. No one can get close to her. She It seems that he has no feelings for everyone." Suddenly his nose became sore, Pingqiu hurriedly turned his head to look at the light source in the living room, and then continued after a pause, "Even I would be surprised, if you don't like children so much, you are not ready to welcome a child , then why do you want to give birth to a child, isn't this asking for trouble?"

Xu Xiuyuan approached silently, embraced him from behind, and folded his hands in front of his belly.Regardless of Pingqiu's resistance, he still hugged him silently, as if encouraging him to continue talking.

"...Some parents have children to collect debts, some are born to be court judges, and some just dig out a piece of flesh from the body, because it has grown on the body for ten months, so they somehow have a responsibility, but love, In fact, I can’t get it out at all,” Ping Qiu’s throat felt choked, “I’ll call her the last money on the eighth, and we’ll have nothing to do with each other. I’ll give her back her money, and we’ll get back together later. Nothing to do. She has done her duty to me, and now it is my turn to do it."

Until now, recalling that afternoon, Pingqiu still remembers it fresh.

At that time, he had just finished the school's monthly exam, and when he returned to school this weekend with double studies, he would be followed by the province's exam.Pingqiu was overwhelmed by the pressure of heavy schoolwork, and broke up with Xu Ruiyang near the door of the house. He was reluctant to let him go, and the two pushed Xu Xiuyuan away.

That year when Xu Xiuyuan entered primary six, he began to understand some issues between the sexes. Ping Qiu was afraid that he would see some clues, so when he said goodbye to Xu Ruiyang, he kept a distance from him as much as possible.

Still clutching the note from Xu Ruiyang in his palm, before entering the house, Ping Qiu had a quick look at it, and Xu Ruiyang asked him to meet at the abandoned cement factory in the town at night.Ping Qiu was looking forward to it, when he entered the door and saw Ping Qinghong sitting in the living room, he was very happy, and asked her if she was hungry, he wanted to eat noodles in clear soup tonight.

I don't know how sudden happiness always comes, and how quickly it dissipates.Ping Qinghong handed the bank card on the table to Ping Qiu, with her usual calm expression, and told him: "This is the college tuition I saved for you. I don't know how much you need, I will calculate it at 8 a year , here is [-] yuan. You take it well. Then we will settle the dispute."

Pingqiu was confused: "What is cleared? What do you mean? I don't understand."

"I have an obligation to support you. I will give you all the tuition fees for high school and college, plus living expenses. If you take the card, my obligation to you will be fulfilled."

"I don't understand, what is 'obligation is over', are you leaving?" Ping Qiu backed away in a panic, with his hands behind his back, but refused to accept the bank card handed over by Ping Qinghong.He intuitively felt that this was a trap, so he controlled himself not to jump down, and kept asking.

But his question has not been answered, and even his question is a superfluous question for Yu Ping Qinghong.

She still had the same expression, the same eyes, and she still said the same words.She said that she had fulfilled her obligation to Pingqiu, and she gave the money that should be paid; she also prepared the stable life that should be prepared for him.Besides, what else can Pingqiu take away from her?

Ping Qinghong thought about it carefully and asked him: Is it because the money is not enough?But this is already the limit of her ability. Furthermore, according to the law, her mission could have ended on the day Pingqiu came of age. After that, whether he went to college or not, he himself was not in her consideration. Wan, it is already the last compensation she can pay Pingqiu.

Ping Qiu was speechless, as if he was completely frightened.He asked in a low voice and uneasily: "You don't want me anymore? Or did I do something wrong that made you angry?"

He didn't dare to call her mother. This title, which represented the close blood connection, was unexpectedly strange to them.Ping Qiu didn't want to admit it, he never seemed to feel the natural closeness between mother and child in Ping Qinghong, she was cold, unable to cover or knock.Pingqiu yearned for her when he was young, and fawned over her when he grew up.

"I didn't want you." Ping Qinghong frowned slightly, as if he didn't understand Ping Qiu's words.She said: "You were never mine. You are human and I am human. I just gave birth to you and I have an obligation to raise you. Isn't that enough?"

"Don't you love me?" Ping Qiu asked in a low voice, such self-defeating questions made him feel ashamed and desperate, he didn't dare to ask loudly, just asked in a low voice, don't you love me?

"Love you?"

"Mom always loves children, this is your nature, isn't it?" Ping Qiu seemed to be begging.

"My nature? Is it my nature to love you?" Ping Qinghong was confused, "No, I don't need to do this. It is only my obligation to raise you, and it has always been."

From that moment, Pingqiu suddenly discovered that it turns out that not any kind of relationship connected by blood is more stable than ordinary social connections.He was suddenly told that his beloved mother did not love him. The reason why she was willing to take care of him in silence for 18 years was because this was a compulsory course for her as a mother. This was her task, her job. .

Ping Qiu understood it thoroughly, so he couldn't stay in this house any longer.It seemed that every second he stayed, another ghost would emerge from the cracks in the wall to beg for his life.They called him a voracious blood-sucking leech who spent the past 18 years clinging to his emaciated and silent mother, sucking her blood and bone marrow.

Ping Qinghong hated him, but couldn't get rid of him.And the only thing Pingqiu can do, to protect his poor self-esteem, is to politely but unfamiliarly refuse Ping Qinghong's so-called "university fee obligation".

During his studies, he worked three odd jobs a week to raise tuition and living expenses for the next semester.He lived frugally, practiced work early, and carefully calculated every expenditure, just to pay off the obligations that Ping Qinghong had spent for him, which seemed to have become his obligation to Ping Qinghong.

"When I was studying, I envied the classmates who had fathers, and even more envied the classmates who had a good relationship with their mothers. I used to wonder why some mothers and children are inseparable, and some seem to be inexplicably put into the same family. Under the eaves, forcing them to live together as mother and child for more than ten years, I will feel that I have not done well enough, so I am not liked by others."

Pingqiu said to himself: "But later, slowly—although it took a long time, I gradually understood that for a mother, loving you may be her nature, but we should also accept that she has Don't love your rights."

Xu Xiuyuan didn't speak all the time, only listening to Ping Qiu rambling.He talked upside down, his memories jumped, and he didn't know what to call Ping Qinghong.Calling her mother, it's been too long, such a name is very strange, he can't say it, but other names seem to be unable to replace her, so he can only use "she" vaguely.

"When did you cut off contact?" Xu Xiuyuan asked suddenly.

"When did you lose contact?" Pingqiu raised his head, opened his lips slightly, stared blankly at the ceiling for a while, and recalled, "It was my freshman year. I told her the truth and told her everything about me. In fact, I know she won't help me, but I have no one else to talk to but her."

"What did she say?"

"Just say, that's my business and has nothing to do with her. It's no big deal whether she knows it or not. I don't need to tell her."

"Have you ever thought that she might have known it long ago." Xu Xiuyuan asked calmly.

"If you know it, you know it," Ping Qiu said slowly, "Anyway, it doesn't matter."

"Who else knows these things except you and me?"

"Nothing."

"Xu Ruiyang doesn't even know?"

Shaking his head, Ping Qiu said: "At that time, I didn't want to tell him."

Xu Xiuyuan asked again: "Then why tell me now?"

Ping Qiu looked up at him, as if he didn't recognize Xu Xiuyuan anymore, he focused on every detail of Xu Xiuyuan's face.

Suddenly, he reached out and hugged Xu Xiuyuan tightly, clasped his hands on his back, and pressed his cheek against his chest.Pingqiu didn't speak, but his actions had already answered for him: there was no premature or empress dowager, everything was just right, there was no reason, no omen, if he wanted to say it, then he said it.

"You don't know? I know," Xu Xiuyuan said, "That's because you love me, you trust me, and you are willing to tell me all your secrets."

The Pingqiu that Xu Xiuyuan likes is the Pingqiu who is good at loving people.And Pingqiu, who is good at loving, is often naked and has no secrets.Today, it was Ping Qiu who handed over his secret to Xu Xiuyuan's palm.

That night, Pingqiu slept very soundly and did not have a single dream.

Early the next morning, Xu Xiuyuan returned to school in time for the first class.He was washing up, and Ping Qiu was helping him pack his satchel in the living room, when the phone on the table dinged, Ping Qiu thought it was his phone, but when he looked at the lock screen interface, his eyes were immediately attracted by a few text messages.

Xu Xiuyuan’s note to his father Fang Haichang was his full name. Ping Qiu watched his messages jump to the main screen one after another: one questioned what Xu Xiuyuan was doing and asked him to call back quickly; He wanted a divorce with all his heart, and even Cao Yanhua vented his anger with him. The divorce agreement was slapped on the table, and his mother was going crazy with anger; there was also a problem about children.

But the lock screen quickly went black, and there was movement in the bathroom, Pingqiu didn't look at it carefully, pretended to be passing by, but lost his mind, and wiped back and forth in front of the sink with a face towel.

Xu Xiuyuan laughed at him for being confused when he got up in the morning, and while putting his mobile phone into his pocket, he took off the coat on the hanger at the door.Pingqiu was used to twisting the buttons of his clothes, because he was in a trance, one button was missed, and the whole row was messed up.He hastily apologized and clacked heavily in a hurry, but Xu Xiuyuan held his hand and asked him what's wrong.

Maybe he didn't sleep well, Ping Qiu said so.

In the next two days, Pingqiu always paid attention to Xu Xiuyuan's emotions. If he showed a little agitation, he would be terrified, for fear that Xu Xiuyuan's family would cause chaos because of Xu Ruiyang.

Surprisingly, Xu Xiuyuan did not show any abnormal emotions.He still attends classes and studies, occasionally participates in school activities, and runs to Pingqiu whenever he has free time.

As time passed, Ping Qiu naturally comforted himself that maybe it was Xu Ruiyang's little fight, he was like this when he was adolescence, he always liked to make some oolongs to show his sense of existence, and I think this time is no exception.

On November [-]th, Ping Qinghong's birthday, Ping Qiu still transferred a small amount of money to her at a fixed time every year, but this time the amount was slightly larger than before.

That whole day, Pingqiu held his mobile phone and never left his body, but until twelve o'clock at night, the mobile phone was still silent.He lay flat on the bed, and for some reason, wanted to laugh at himself.But after laughing, he felt very tired again, so he turned on his side and had a not so good sleep.

November ended smoothly, and December arrived as promised.

At this time, Beijing has already had a snowfall.Listening to Xu Xiuyuan's description of the snowy scene in their school, Ping Qiu was so dreamy. The next day, Xu Xiuyuan led him into the school for a tour. Ping Qiu was dragged to take many photos, and he smiled twice. curved.

On the same day, I also had lunch in the school cafeteria that Pingqiu was thinking about.Ping Qiu lay on the balcony on the second floor and looked down. He could catch the snow falling from the eaves with his hand. There were male and female students chasing snowball fights downstairs, which made him feel as if he was back in college.

At night, he and Xu Xiuyuan's classmates and friends went to eat nearby, Pingqiu took the initiative to hold Xu Xiuyuan, and walked side by side with him at the end of the crowd, shaking their hands back and forth, the two walked more and more slowly.

Pingqiu often prays, hoping that Xu Xiuyuan can live such a carefree life forever.

One day in late December, Pingqiu was at work.Suddenly a colleague broke into the door and told him that someone was looking for him outside.He went out in a daze, but saw a lady who was completely unfamiliar to him in front of the rest sofa in the lobby.

The other party stood up, looked at him with a smile, and stretched out his hand, "Ping Qiu?"

"Yes, I am Pingqiu. Are you?"

"My surname is Cao, Cao Yanhua."