Banshuharu

When Lu Yang had such a serious tone, Ping Qiu was puzzled and wanted to ask, but the waiter knocked on the door and came in, interrupting his first sentence.When the waiter left, Lu Yang asked again, but Ping Qiu shook his head, just said that he knew, and I'll talk about it later.

Although he couldn't ask, Pingqiu knew how to read people's faces the most.Lu Yang's expression was solemn and his tone was deep. It was obvious that the topic he wanted to talk about was a bit difficult for him to talk about, and it was obvious that there was only one thing that could make a busy optimist like Lu Yang feel restless.

All of a sudden, Pingqiu was in a low mood, and thousands of gratifying and bad results were repeatedly jumping in his mind, making him unable to eat.While he was in a trance, the phone beside the table vibrated suddenly, and it showed an unknown number.Ping Qiu picked it up sideways, and said hello twice, but no one answered.He took down his phone to look at the number, and confirmed that it was a string of completely unfamiliar numbers.But close to the ear again, the other party has hung up the call.

"Who is it?" Seeing that he was at a loss, Lu Yang asked casually.

"I don't know, there's no sound on the other side." Ping Qiu turned the phone upside down on the table.

"Did you make a mistake, or it was a sales call, please ignore it," Lu Yang signaled to the table, "There are steamed eggs, do you want me to serve you a bowl?"

"No need," Pingqiu subconsciously refused, and after thinking about it, he added, "Maybe it's because I've been in the sun for too long during the day, and I don't have much appetite now."

"Your boss will let you spend the summer in the outdoors under the sun? By then, everyone will suffer from heatstroke, so it's still a question of whether you can eat or not. Do you remember that I used to train in the team, indoor training? We have no place to go as a team, and we are exposed to the sun every day, maybe twice, I got dehydrated in the sun, and I was relieved for two days."

"Remember, you told me."

"So I think now, I didn't listen to my family and stayed in the provincial team. On the one hand, I wanted to rebel against my parents. On the other hand, maybe I was really not suitable to be an athlete. My parents always said that I would do everything well." Laziness, it seems that it doesn’t matter, and I don’t have any ambitions. I originally wanted me to train in the team, not to mention how many grades I can get, at least it can grind my temper, but I don’t like it. Instead, this kind of life now is easy every day The salary is average, but I am very happy, especially when I am with you, I don’t think there are any difficulties that I cannot overcome.”

"Why are you talking like this suddenly? It's so strange." Ping Qiu felt uneasy and guessed, "Is something wrong?"

Lu Yang smiled at him, and shook Ping Qiu's hand firmly: "It's nothing, just with my dad—"

Before he finished speaking, the door opened in response.Lu Yang immediately cut off the voice, let go of Ping Qiu, watched his hand fall off the edge of the table due to loss of strength, and changed the subject at the same time: "Why have you been there for so long?"

"Has it been a long time?" Xu Xiuyuan wiped the water stains on his palms with a paper towel, "I answered the phone call. My parents called."

"What's the matter, they urged you to go back? That's right, you said you were going home before, has the time been set? By plane or high-speed train, do you need us to take you that day?"

"You still don't know? I told Pingqiu, but didn't he tell you?" Xu Xiuyuan said calmly, and easily turned the conversation to Pingqiu, even with a smile on his face, "I thought he would tell you."

"What are you talking about, he didn't say anything." Lu Yang also turned his gaze to Ping Qiu.

How could Pingqiu dare to say that it was Xu Xiuyuan who came out of the closet on a whim and made the whole family uneasy, so it was not easy to go home. Besides, there was no need to mention these things to Lu Yang, so he only explained in a few words: "The situation in his family is more complicated. Let’s go somewhere and see it after a while.”

"How long is a period of time?" Lu Yang asked, "At the end of the month, next month, or next month?"

"..." Ping Qiu knew that there was something in his words, but in front of Xu Xiuyuan, he couldn't explain too much, and he was also worried that Lu Yang's impulsive words would stimulate Xu Xiuyuan, making him mistakenly think that they had discussed in private. Only then can he throw away his hot potato.

Fortunately, Xu Xiuyuan explained it for him: "I can't tell. I don't have many friends, and my family is not happy. I quarrel every day. I really don't know who to turn to for help. Coming here suddenly will really disturb you. If If necessary, I can pay the rent, but if I live outside, I’m afraid I don’t have enough money to spend, and I don’t want to use other people’s money—it’s not such a good relationship.”

According to what Xu Xiuyuan said, he was determined to hang on with Pingqiu.Lu Yang looked at Ping Qiu who was frowning at him and shaking his head, feeling a little depressed in his heart: Ping Qiu is just too talkative, soft-hearted, low-bottomed, and too good-faced to refuse.

But after all, this is what Ping Qiu promised. As a third party, Lu Yang, even Ping Qiu's apparent boyfriend, is still not qualified to go back on his word for him.Lu Yang admitted that he was still somewhat wary of Xu Xiuyuan because of Xu Ruiyang's relationship, but he tried his best to preserve the superficial politeness for Pingqiu, and tried to maneuver: "Well, you can stay here, and if you have any problems, just tell us. By the way. , as soon as your college entrance examination scores come out, you have to apply for volunteering in two days, right? How do you think about it? Are there any difficulties? Pingqiu happens to be doing extracurricular training, so he can be considered half a teacher, and the teachers in their institution are very good. Young, it seems that there are fresh college students, right? You can consult him if you have any questions, don't waste resources."

"He has his own considerations, so let's not interfere," Pingqiu snapped, "Let's eat first."

He hastily interrupted because he was worried that Xu Xiuyuan would feel a little offended when Lu Yang inexplicably asked about the situation of filling in the application form.Pingqiu is used to playing the role of going back and forth between the two, who would have thought that Xu Xiuyuan would actually respond this time: "I'm still thinking about it, I'm not sure yet. If I have any questions, I will definitely ask. As long as my brother doesn't think I'm annoying, I'm sure." Too little is too much."

Lu Yang smiled when he heard the words, and said affectionately to Ping Qiu: "Look, you don't have to be so cautious, it's not that you are rebellious in adolescence, Xiu Yuan knows that you care about him."

After saying this, it seems that Pingqiu cares about it but is chaotic, and it becomes a disservice to help.He was too lazy to practice Tai Chi between Lu Yang and Xu Xiuyuan, and simply buried himself in the soup, while listening to Lu Yang and Xu Xiuyuan chatting about the boxing match they were interested in, he lacked interest, his ears were listening, and his mind was too far away.

Suddenly, the phone by the table vibrated, and when he picked it up to answer it, there was still no response from the other side.Confused, Pingqiu looked at the screen and put it back to his ear, the call was automatically hung up again.

He was full of doubts, and his eyes turned from the darkened mobile phone screen to the pink and white wallpaper directly opposite, which had a glass window.It was pitch black outside the window, and he saw his own face reflected in the glass window, which was sleepy and tired, as well as an indescribable panic.Then his gaze shifted, from the glass window to Xu Xiuyuan's position diagonally opposite.

When Ping Qiu's eyes wandered, Xu Xiuyuan seemed to be staring at him forever. Ping Qiu wanted to interpret that look as curiosity and dependence, although he knew that Xu Xiuyuan's emotions towards him were never that simple. For example, at this time, he had a ghost in his heart. Xu Xiuyuan put his hands under the table on the table, and the phone that was tightly clenched on the table made a thumping sound, which could make Ping Qiu's eyelids twitch in shock.

Pingqiu had an intuition that the call that no one answered would still come back.

Sure enough, when the show was about to end, Pingqiu's cell phone vibrated again.His heart was beating fast, he grabbed his phone and stood up, making an excuse to go to the bathroom, but after going out, he walked quickly to the opposite direction, pushed open the glass door at the corner not far away, found a quiet open-air balcony, and answered the phone.

Just like the previous two phone calls, there was still no one on the other side.This time Pingqiu was surrounded by silence, he could hear some rustling and cracking sounds from the opposite side, as if someone was covering the receiver, and occasionally leaked some movement.

"...Xu Ruiyang, is that you?" Ping Qiu asked.His temples were throbbing, as if someone had drilled into his head and beat a drum, thumping, thumping, making his questions much blurred.The other party was still silent, but Ping Qiu seemed to be able to hear his breathing, which made his scalp numb, and his hands and feet trembled uncontrollably.He was surprised that he would speak so bitterly again: "I know it's you, it must be you—why did you contact me because of Xiuyuan? If you're really worried about him, then you'll come pick him up and put him in person Take it back, not over the phone, and teach him your elder brother style, hypocrisy——except for this matter, we should have nothing to talk about. I blocked your last number, and this one will also , I don’t want to have any more contact with you-have you heard? If you hear it, then hang up.”

The call ended, and Ping Qiu didn't even hear a response from the other side.

After four years, Ping Qiu had to admit that he could no longer remember Xu Ruiyang's face, nor did he know what kind of mood Xu Ruiyang would be in four years later to contact his old lover at night, even though they were not A peaceful breakup, or simply can be said to end tragically.Pingqiu thinks he is not that magnanimous, and during the dinner with his incumbent, he hides in a corner and recalls the past with his old lover.As for what Xu Ruiyang wanted to say, Ping Qiu didn't care too much, he put the phone in his pocket, pushed open the glass door again, and returned to the private room.

After the show ended, Ping Qiu was held by the arm by Lu Yang at the main entrance of the hotel. He suddenly promised Lu Yang and the two to stay and talk quietly, but when he saw the opposite side, Xu Xiuyuan was standing in the shadow with his backpack slung across his shoulders, with his hands in his coat pockets , looking a little casual, looking at them entangled.

"Wait, I'll have a word with Xiuyuan." There was a small slope at the entrance of the hotel, and Pingqiu trotted towards Xu Xiuyuan, feeling like he was swooping into his embrace.When he stood still, it was Xu Xiuyuan who held his arm, and the two got very close, as if facing each other.

Pingqiu handed over the key to the bicycle lock to Xu Xiuyuan, asking him to ride home first.

"I drove the bike away, how did you come back?" Xu Xiuyuan asked, "Do you want me to pick you up?"

"No, Lu Yang will take me back. You ride home, pay attention to safety on the road, and tell me when you arrive. If I come back too late, go to bed first, don't wait for me."

"Are you sure he will send you back?"

"Ah?" Ping Qiu questioned.

Xu Xiuyuan smiled inexplicably: "I remember the last time you went to him in the middle of the night, did you have a quarrel. In the end he let you go home alone and didn't see you off."

Pingqiu suddenly realized which time he said: "...you follow me?"

"Following you? Normal people would say that's 'stalking', and then are you going to scold me?" Xu Xiuyuan took half a step back and raised his hands to his ears as if begging for mercy, "You made a lot of noise when you went out, I was afraid that something would happen to you, so I followed you, and when I got there, I realized that you were looking for him—this time, will you quarrel, and then he will abandon you and let you go home alone?"

"...I'm not a child, so I'm not afraid of walking at night. And the law and order here is very good, so nothing will happen."

"Really?" Xu Xiuyuan suddenly reached out and folded Ping Qiu's arms behind his back. Ping Qiu was caught off guard, and his chest suddenly collided with him, and the loose T-shirt collar was also twisted during the pulling, exposing half of his shoulders.Pingqiu cried out in pain, but Xu Xiuyuan immediately let go.

Seeing him clutching his shoulder and complaining of pain, although Xu Xiuyuan had a smile on his face, his tone was a little inexplicably gloomy: "I am standing in front of you, and you can't resist pulling your arm suddenly. What if someone sneaks up on you from behind? Clamp your arms and waist, you have no strength to resist, they can easily drag you into the alley, you don't even have a chance to call for help. Have you ever thought that if you are taken away, they will treat you What are you doing? Rape, or give you anesthesia, and poach some of your organs?"

Ping Qiu seemed to be frightened by Xu Xiuyuan's sudden idea, and was also shocked by his sudden swearing, so he couldn't help but take half a step back, and bumped into Lu Yang's arms just in time.

Seeing from afar that they seemed to be arguing, Xu Xiuyuan even grabbed Pingqiu's limbs with his hands. Lu Yang stepped forward and just happened to hug the flustered Pingqiu from behind.He asked, "Why did you talk for so long? What did you tell him?"

"It's nothing, just to remind me to be safe," Xu Xiuyuan took the lead and said with a smile, "Then I'll go first, you guys go on a date."

"It's not a date either—he's quite good at watching the momentum." Lu Yang didn't have time to say more, he could only embrace Pingqiu, wave to Xu Xiuyuan, and saw him go down the small slope in two or three steps, and quickly disappeared into the dim streetlight under.

Going west from the main entrance of the hotel is a road along the river.Lu Yang and Ping Qiu walked side by side all the way, the road was very wide and high, but the surrounding street lights didn't cooperate well, one light was on and the other was off, and the lights were far away, making the whole road along the river like being immersed in the dark sea. There are irregular bright spots everywhere, getting closer and closer, and rubbing shoulders with them at the moment of approaching-it turns out that they are the only ones going retrograde on the whole road.

At night, the sea breeze was too strong, blowing Pingqiu's hair wildly.He combed his hair with one hand, and the other hand was originally holding the hem of Lu Yang's clothes, but now it was naturally inserted into the inside of his arm, and he took advantage of the situation to hold his arm.Probably because of the cold, Ping Qiu lightly put his chin on Lu Yang's shoulder, leaning very close, as if cuddling against his side.

"What's wrong?" Lu Yang tilted his head and asked in a low voice.

"Nothing." Ping Qiu answered vaguely, half of his face buried in Lu Yang's shoulder, sniffing the air-conditioning that had not completely dissipated from his body.

When Pingqiu seldom took the initiative like this, Lu Yang's heart was surging, and suddenly he had the courage to speak: "I told my parents about the two of us."

"what?"

"I said, I confessed to my parents."

Ping Qiu's footsteps paused, Lu Yang was unaware, took half a step forward, turned around, and the arm that was originally held by Ping Qiu suddenly fell into the air.

"What did you say, directly? Did you scare them?" Ping Qiu's face was tense, and the nervousness was almost written all over his face.He remembered that although Lu Yang had not gotten along well with his family in the name of disobeying discipline for so many years, he had not publicly confessed his sexuality so far, but because he had never brought a partner at home at this age, his parents were more or less right The "underground love affair" he kept silent felt weird.

Lu Yang shrugged his shoulders and forced a joke: "What else can I say, just say that I have a date, but it's a man."

"You said that? Really?" Ping Qiu was surprised.

"Do you really believe it? I lied to you," Lu Yang stroked his hair, "Don't be so nervous."

However he would be wrong.Pingqiu's heart quickly lifted and landed with a crash.He tried his best to keep the expression on his face, so as not to look too lost or too eager: "Then what did you say, what about your parents, what's the reaction?"

"I didn't say anything. I just said that I have a very good friend. He is well-behaved and has a good temper. It is my blessing to be friends with him. If there is no accident, I want to be good with him for the rest of my life." Friends." Lu Yang's words seemed to be true and false, Ping Qiu was not sure.At the same time, Lu Yang took Pingqiu's hand, put him back in his arms, and said with a playful smile: "Is it euphemistic when I say that? I think it is quite euphemistic, but my parents You're smart, you'll get it right."

Pingqiu's right hand was pinched by his elbow, and he couldn't help but grabbed the clothes close to his chest: "When you told me, wasn't it just a suggestion? I thought you were just talking, why so fast, Don't you give your parents some time to accept?"

"How else do you need to accept it. I am me, I can't change it, and you are you, I can't change it."

"Don't think so, I didn't blame you—"

"What's my fault?" Seeing that Pingqiu got stuck suddenly, Lu Yang asked, but he withdrew his right hand and took out the vibrating mobile phone from his pocket.

It was dark and the road was dark, making the screen of the mobile phone appallingly bright, and Ping Qiu's face was even a little pale.The screen displayed a series of numbers without notes, before Lu Yang could take a closer look, Ping Qiu had already directly pressed the hang up button, and put the phone back into his pocket.

"Who, you don't answer?" Lu Yang asked.

"I don't know the number, don't answer it." Ping Qiu rubbed his nose, this time he took the initiative to hold Lu Yang's arm, and the two of them wobbled and walked along the Yanjiang Avenue again.

Lu Yang has always been talkative, and there is a purpose in his words, so the topic always revolves around his childhood fun with his parents. Occasionally, he uses exaggerated words, which can make Pingqiu laugh as he wished. Both sides seem to no longer care about the former The atmosphere becomes somewhat delicate topic.

"I told you that when I was a child, I was actually brought up by my grandparents, and my parents took me back to me in the second grade of elementary school. Why, because I was spotted by the team, and they thought I was talented. I specially contacted my parents to ask me to go for an interview." At night, when the sea breeze blew, Lu Yang hugged Pingqiu's shoulders tightly. He leaned into Pingqiu's ear and said, " I hated my parents at that time, they were both busy, they helped me throw it to my grandma, maybe I saw it two or three times a year, but now I think of me, and then my rebellious period came earlier, so I just Make a fuss, make a fuss, and only dare to take advantage of my dad's absence."

"Why?" Ping Qiu looked up at him from his arms, "Will your father beat you?"

"That's right, he was very ruthless. I think back to when I was in primary school, basically as long as he was at home, I would get big ones for three days and small ones a few times a day."

"It's a lie, how could it be so exaggerated, I don't believe it," Ping Qiu smiled and tapped his lower back with his hand, "How can a father treat his child like this."

"Really, don't you believe it, could it be that your father—" Consciously said something wrong, Lu Yang immediately stopped speaking.

Seeing his apologetic face, Ping Qiu smiled and said, "What happened to my dad? What do you want to say?"

"Nothing, I forgot."

"Why don't you tell me? It's okay, and I don't mind. But if you want to ask me how my dad treated me before, then you may be disappointed, because I haven't met my dad at all," Pingqiu said. "When I was in school, single-parent families were still a very new concept. At that time, there were very few students in my class whose parents were divorced. If there were, they would be pointed out behind their backs and said, 'His parents are divorced. ’, not to mention the kind that don’t have any parents at all. But I have known since I was a child that I don’t have a father, and I have heard many people say how he disappeared, and some even said that I actually don’t have a father at all, because—— Because no one knows who my father is. So I find it strange that you mention things about your parents."

"You never told me," Lu Yang stopped, held Ping Qiu's face in his hands, lowered his head and kissed him on the lips, "Aren't you sad?"

"It's not sad. If I can talk about these things with you calmly, it means that these things are not important to me at all. Even if it's sad, I've been sad before, so I can bring it up now." Ping Qiu smiled slightly, turned his head and kissed Lu Yang's thumb on the corner of his mouth, as if reciprocating courtesy.

Maybe it was because Ping Qiu smiled too relaxedly, and Lu Yang suddenly felt some unsuitable courage at this moment.

"Actually, I've always wanted to ask you a question." Lu Yang looked at Pingqiu's face and said, "Since we met, you never seem to have mentioned anything about your mother. If we want to meet my parents, then your mother Over there, do you need to contact me too?"

Lu Yang thought that his words were empathetic enough, it sounded like an inquiry, more like a request.But what he didn't expect was that Ping Qiu's complexion suddenly changed suddenly, his eyes flickered, the corners of his mouth sank, and he even subconsciously took half a step back, showing that extremely defensive look in his eyes.But before he could speak, the vibrating mobile phone in his pocket blocked his chaotic thoughts.Maybe he wanted to take the opportunity to change the subject, Ping Qiu turned around while holding the phone, the phone was cut off directly, but he didn't turn back to face Lu Yang again.

All of a sudden, Lu Yang noticed something unusual in Pingqiu's back-to-back posture, and his gaze was fixed behind Pingqiu's ear: "That number again?"

Pingqiu didn't answer, and asked after a long time: "Why did you mention my mother all of a sudden?"

"Why did you mention it suddenly? You want to see my parents, so it's the same, I'll see your mother, what's wrong?" Lu Yang moved closer, and pressed his chest against Pingqiu's back, "I'm serious, I'm not joking. Since We both plan to take the relationship further, I can come out for you, why can't you put yourself in another place and give me a sense of security?"

"Is it not enough to have me?" Ping Qiu asked in a low voice.

"... Enough, but not enough. You know it. I want to know everything about you, your past, your family, and all your thoughts about the future. You can tell me, and you should tell me. And your mother, if we are together, she is also my mother, can I just want to see her now? Pingqiu, think about me, okay? When my parents and I make it clear, we will find someone Time, go back to your house and see your mother, parents and children don't have unresolved hatred, right? Okay?"

"Impossible, don't think about it."

"Why is it impossible? She is your mother, not some other stranger. You can't never see her in your life, can you?"

"She won't see you!" Ping Qiu blurted out, and realized in an instant that the words were too aggressive, causing Lu Yang's face to change drastically, so he hurriedly added, "She won't see me either."

"Why?" Lu Yang thought his reaction was too abnormal.

"No reason!"

"Are you hiding something from me?" Lu Yang asked.

"No!" Ping Qiu shrank his shoulders defensively, crossed his arms across his chest, and bumped his shoulders against Lu Yang's chest, and was about to move forward.

But Lu Yang's reaction was faster. He took Pingqiu's way with a big step, and impulsively said: "What is the conflict between you and your mother? You said you didn't go home because no one at home would wait for you. Is it because you can’t go back, or are you afraid to go back?”

"Don't ask." Ping Qiu had a negative attitude and blindly resisted.

"Let me not ask, then you tell me."

"What's the use of telling you? It has nothing to do with you."

"If I don't ask, you will never tell; if you don't tell, the problem will never be solved." Lu Yang grabbed his arm, because Pingqiu was struggling hard, and he couldn't help but increase his strength, " What's more, it's your mother. No matter how cruel you are, you are still mother and child. You have no brothers and sisters, and your mother's only relative is you. I know she must be very important to you, so she can also become a very important person to me—— "

"Stop talking, and don't ask. This is my business, and it really has nothing to do with you." Ping Qiu persistently wanted to get rid of Lu Yang's restraint, repeatedly pulling his hands and repeatedly pushing and resisting.But Lu Yang seems to have made up his mind to ask him to decipher it tonight, no matter how much Ping Qiu pushes and pulls him, Lu Yang still stands in front of him and remains motionless.

"You throw the question to me, let me stop asking now, Ping Qiu, what are you deceiving yourself?" Ping Qiu resisted, and Lu Yang finally ran out of patience. With a violent wave, Lu Yang took two steps back unexpectedly, barely standing still.

"Don't ask, I can't let you see her!" Ping Qiu was forced to speak bluntly.

As soon as these words are spoken, they hurt others and themselves.Ping Qiu saw that Lu Yang's expression changed from anger to confusion, and then ridiculed after the confusion.He has never seen Lu Yang show that kind of expression, and say the same thing: "I can't see her? Why can't I see her? Is it because I can't see people, or you never thought about telling your mother about us Relationship? Because we are both men, or because of Xu Ruiyang?"

Pingqiu frowned twice, looking into Lu Yang's eyes in disbelief: "What are you talking about? What does this have to do with Xu Ruiyang?"

"The past between you and him is well known. You don't want to go home, and you don't want to disclose my relationship with you. Isn't it because of him?" Lu Yang said in an aggressive tone, "You two are childhood sweethearts, you have done everything you should do, The person who should be seen has also been met. I know you can't forget him now, it's okay, I will bear it, I will bear it, you still can't forget him, and you still love him! But Pingqiu, you can't be so selfish like you, you want to We can get the approval of my parents, what about you, what promise have you made to me?"

"...I didn't force you to confess, that's not what I forced you to do." Ping Qiu seemed to be stunned, and his arguments were pale.

"Yeah! You didn't! It's just me being sentimental, and I thought it would make you happy, reassured, and at least know that I mean you. I really wish we could go a little further, a little further, but It’s not enough for me to think so, you can understand everyone else, why can’t you understand me?”

Lu Yang's voice was trembling, Ping Qiu suddenly thought, is he crying?Or will you cry?Why are you crying, obviously he is Pingqiu who is being questioned, but it is Lu Yang who seems reasonable and innocent, so why should Lu Yang cry?Without Pingqiu, Lu Yang still has countless loyal friends and loving parents. Even he himself would not have nothing after losing Pingqiu. Lu Yang obviously has everything, so why should he cry?Fake like a hypocrite.

The anger in his chest was burning vigorously, and now on the surface, Pingqiu was a little untenable, his vision was also constricted and blurred, and he didn't even know how he took out the vibrating phone, and how it was snatched away by Lu Yang .