After dressing as a supporting actress, I and Bai Yueguang are in HE

Sun Haiyan thought she would not survive.

She didn't expect that when she opened her eyes again, she saw the snow-white ceiling of the hospital ward in front of her. Porcelain white bricks overlapped with bricks, and the black lines in the gaps formed a frame. She saw herself in it. soul.

She couldn't figure it out.

She had been cowardly and cowardly all her life, and she managed to muster up the courage once, how could she be rescued.

... She didn't want to open her eyes.

The husband will not care about her, the mother-in-law will come and beat her, the father-in-law will ask her if she did it on purpose, if she wants to use suicide to bring a stain on the Jiang family, and the housekeeper will bring those sisters who usually look down on her to come to see her... …

Just thinking about it made her want to die.

She doesn't want to face it anymore, is there something wrong with that?

Sun Haiyan stared at the ceiling for a while, until the nurse came in pushing the trolley and yelling at the infusion tube that had returned blood, then she came back to her senses.

"Hey, you finally woke up? I heard that you were sent here last night. What's the matter? Is there anything sad? It's okay to tell me if I can't find anyone. I will keep it a secret."

Sun Haiyan lowered her head: "...it's nothing."

The little nurse replaced the infusion tube with a new medicine bottle, skillfully squeezed out the air in the tube, and talked to her: "Auntie, you are as old as my mother. When it comes to death, think more about good things, life is not necessarily so unlucky."

Sun Haiyan wanted to say that she knew the truth, but when she was sitting in the bathtub yesterday, she recalled her first half of her life and counted everything, and found that she really couldn't find a single interesting thing in her life for so many years .

At the end of her life, she realized how failed she was.

The little nurse glanced at the door and said, "Auntie, your daughter is here to see you. ——Hey, you, Ms. Gu? Do you remember me?"

Gu Xiaoting scanned the name tag on her chest: "Yu Huaiyan?"

Yu Huaiyan nodded: "What a coincidence, I met you again in the hospital, isn't Miss Yan here?"

Gu Xiaoting: "She has gone to work."

Yu Huaiyan lifted the tray: "I'm going to check the ward first, you look at the needle, if there is something wrong, ring the bell, and someone will come from the nurse's station."

The door was closed by her, and the ward became quiet.

Gu Xiaoting sat down beside the bed.

From the moment she entered the door, Sun Haiyan's eyes were on her all the time, staring at her closely, with a scorching heat in his eyes that he didn't even notice, like a drowning man looking at the last straw.

Gu Xiaoting put the bag on the table and looked at Sun Haiyan.

She didn't speak, and neither did the other party.

The silence lasted for a long time, but Sun Haiyan still couldn't hold his breath, and interrupted the enigmatic silence first.

"...Yesterday, were you the one who sent me to the hospital?"

She clutched the sheets awkwardly.

Gu Xiaoting nodded: "It's me."

Sun Haiyan lowered her head even more: "Don't you ask me...why?"

Gu Xiaoting looked at her calmly, with indifference and indifference in his eyes: "You can say what you want, anyway, this matter has nothing to do with me."

The light in Sun Haiyan's eyes dimmed again: "I told you on the phone yesterday, and I still want to tell you again now, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"Actually, I always knew that I was bad. I was not a good mother, nor a good wife, nor a good daughter-in-law. I couldn't even be considered a good person. I did too many things wrong, but I said Chengwei’s apology is only a few words. Cheng Wei’s father always said that I blame others and don’t think about problems from myself. I think what he said may be right. I have always blamed others. I used to hate this society. Everyone around me."

"But Tingting, in fact, I was not like this at the beginning, I was not like this at the beginning, I don't know what made me become what I am now."

Gu Xiaoting looked away and said softly, "I forgive you."

The eloquent Sun Haiyan paused, and looked up in disbelief: "What did you just say?"

"——I forgive you." Gu Xiaoting repeated, his voice still soft: "I never blamed you from the beginning, because I know nothing, I have no feelings for you, I don't know what you are My mother, but for me at the time, you were very good to me, so I will not blame you, nor will I hold grudges against you. The forgiveness you always wanted is nothing but a non-existent, nothing at all."

Sun Haiyan was a little dazed, joy surged up, but was washed away by more blankness.

Gu Xiaoting reached for the bag: "What you did is not a big mistake, no one will point at your spine and scold you, you can do it, just relax."

Gu Xiaoting stood up, looked down at the past, and looked at Sun Haiyan's eyes again.

She is calm.

"As the little nurse said just now, there are not so many difficult things in the world. What is difficult is your heart. If you adjust your mentality, nothing is difficult for you."

Sun Haiyan looked at her, as if something blocked in her heart had been suddenly opened.

Gu Xiaoting looked at her.

Sun Haiyan seemed bewildered and confused.

After a while, she nodded: "I see..."

Gu Xiaoting: "Your life is not only for others, your life is your own, no one can make decisions for you, you are the master of your own life." - I know these words may have been heard by you Well, I won't say much, you decide for yourself."

Sun Haiyan nodded slightly.

Gu Xiaoting got up from the hospital bed and was about to leave, when she was about to grab the doorknob with her hand, she heard a voice behind her.

"Tingting, can you... come and see me in the future?"

There was expectation in Sun Haiyan's voice, and even some cautiousness.

These words are a request, and I hope she can agree to her request.

Gu Xiaoting shook his head.

Logically speaking, she should agree at this time, after all, Sun Haiyan was rescued after he attempted suicide.For a fragile person like her, he should be obedient to her, but Gu Xiaoting doesn't want to give her hope that doesn't matter.

She wanted to tell these people that the person they should really be sorry for, the person they should have asked for forgiveness, was gone.

She is just a bystander.

So she chose to refuse.

"Let's see each other less in the future. I'm usually busy, so I won't see you often."

Yan Muhuai was waiting for her at the door.

Seeing her come out, Yan Muhuai unfolded the thin scarf in his hand and put it on for her.

Gu Xiaoting and her walked out along the corridor.There is a window every two meters next to the corridor. It is now afternoon, and the outside sky is just right. The not particularly warm sunlight in late winter shines through the glass windows, and the color makes people feel refreshed.

"Sister, why do you think you have such a relationship with the hospital recently? You come to the hospital every three days." Gu Xiaoting stepped on high heels and stood on the second-to-last staircase, jumped down lightly, and landed steadily.

The sound of high heels tapping on the tiles echoed in the empty stairwell.

Yan Muhuai pushed open the door of the corridor: "Let's go, go to the first floor to change the medicine, the wound on the hand needs to be changed for the last time."

The injury she mentioned was the wound that Gu Xiaoting accidentally rubbed on his hand on the beach before.

Gu Xiaoting lifted up his clothes and took a look, the wound was not that big at first, but after a few days it almost healed, only Yan Muhuai still took it seriously.

She didn't refuse, and walked out following Yan Muhuai's shadow.

Not long after she changed her medicine, Rong Bailu, who heard about it, sent a message.

Gu Xiaoting couldn't explain clearly to her in a few words, so he simply called her.

Rong Bailu on the other end quickly connected: "Hey, Jiaojiao, where are you now? I'm at the entrance of the hospital, do you want to come and see Ms. Sun? Although Jiang Chengwei is a bastard, her mother... After all, before Treating you so well, she is like this now, it is a bit unreasonable for you not to come and see her."

Gu Xiaoting asked her: "Which door? I just came out of her ward, so I won't go. If I can't find my way, I will wait for you upstairs. When you come up, I will take you there."

Rong Bailu said yes, and after a while, she sneaked up from the corridor with a large bouquet of carnations.

Gu Xiaoting twitched his brows slightly: "Are you a thief?"

Rong Bailu made sure that she and Yan Muhuai were the only ones in the stairwell, so she took off the mask and whispered: "I went to the bar yesterday and was photographed by paparazzi, and I don't know what's going on with this group of people, they chased me all day long , and took pictures. My agent called me at night and I was almost crying. She told me not to go out casually. This is not a special situation, so I didn’t listen to her. You are about to come and cry with me."

Gu Xiaoting raised his chin: "Someone is here.

Rong Bailu immediately put on the mask again, and pushed down the peaked cap, pretending that she was not there at all.

When passers-by came out of the stairwell, Gu Xiaoting took Yan Muhuai's hand and walked up: "I'll take you to the door, and you can go in by yourself."

Rong Bailu's voice came through the mask, a little muffled: "I know, I just don't want me to waste your time."

Gu Xiaoting glanced at her, but said nothing.

Rong Bailu said: "By the way, Jiaojiao, don't rush to leave later, I have something for you, I was planning to go to your house to look for you, but I just met here."

When she reached the door of the ward, she stood aside and let Rong Bailu in.

The latter straightened his sleeves, and opened the door with a smile: "Aunt Sun, I'm here to see you..."

The next words were blocked by the closed door.

Gu Xiaoting sat down on the chair in the corridor, pressed the space between his eyebrows, and counted the time silently in his heart.

About ten minutes later, she didn't wait for Rong Bailu to come out of the room. Instead, she waited for a group of nurses and doctors to rush into the ward. After them, Rong Bailu came out of the ward in panic.

She was a little stunned: "Jiajiao, Ms. Sun just cut her wrist again."

Gu Xiaoting suddenly raised his eyelids and looked over.

Rong Bailu said at a loss: "It's not me, it's the housekeeper of Jiang's family and Jiang Chengwei's father's secretary inside. After they said a few words, Ms. Sun couldn't control herself and picked up a fruit knife and cut it on her wrist... "

There is no need to say the rest, the secretary and the housekeeper were kicked out of the ward by the doctor.

The former looked well-dressed, but his face was slightly annoyed, he looked at the door and snorted coldly, and then walked away.The butler stood aside expressionlessly, not caring at all that it was his master who was being rescued inside.

Who are these people.

The author has something to say: I feel my body is hollowed out.