The scheming beauty is always fishing for me

Ye Jin sighed slightly, he glanced at the wide open apartment door, fearing that Guo Yamei would turn back again, he went to close the door first.

As a result, as soon as he turned his head, he heard a squeak, and Xiang Qin held the doorknob with a frightened expression, his eyes flushed.

Ye Jin's heart softened: "I didn't leave, I just closed the door."

Xiang Qin pursed his lips tightly, and tightly clutched a card in his hand: "When... are you leaving?"

Ye Jin was taken aback for a moment, then she was helpless: "Why are you going? Come here, let's sit down and have a good chat."

He asked Xiang Qin to sit on the sofa, then went to the brown cabinet on the balcony to take out the medicine box, and also glimpsed the post-it notes that Xiang Qin treasured.

In the past, there was no medicine box in the apartment, but after Ye Jin came, he gradually filled the box with all kinds of home-made medicines, all of which were bought by Xiang Qin, for fear that he might not find them when they were useful.

Ye Jin took out a roll of bandages from inside, and then went to the refrigerator to get ice cubes.

There was an obvious slap mark on Xiang Qin's face, and it was already slightly swollen, and it might get worse if he didn't apply a cold compress.

When Ye Jin approached, Xiang Qin's whole body tensed up, different from the usual embarrassment, it was a kind of panic that he couldn't even express his sadness.

He has no one to complain about.

Blame his mother?

But the lie was his own.

"Does it hurt?"

Xiang Qin raised his head in a daze, looking at Ye Jin's cold eyes.

He suddenly grabbed Ye Jin's wrist, both of them froze for a moment, Xiang Qin felt offended belatedly, as if he had been shocked, he let go of his hand awkwardly.

"No need to apply..." Xiang Qin lowered his eyes a little uneasily, and then handed the bank card in his hand to Ye Jin.

Ye Jin: "...what are you doing?"

"I...I feel sorry."

Xiang Qin didn't find a reason for his deception, after these few minutes, he had already calmed down.

In fact, it was just two months ahead of his expected ending, and he would have to face it sooner or later.

Ye Jin was able to be so gentle to him in the end, it was already benevolent and righteous.

He held up his bank card, as if looking for something to say, and said after he had fully prepared himself: "University study is more important, part-time jobs are too hard, in the future, can you stop going?"

Ye Jin paused: "That's all you want to say?"

"There are more." Xiang Qin saw that his face was fine, and continued to muster up his courage: "Stop drawing on the computer so intensively in the future, it will hurt your eyes, you need to rest more..."

Xiang Qin seems to have decided on the ending of the separation: "If you feel embarrassed, I will explain Xiaofang's make-up class to them—"

Ye Jin: "..."

Xiang Qin thought very comprehensively: "The money in the card should be enough for you to live until you graduate... If you don't like it, you can borrow it from me and deposit it after work."

At this moment, Ye Jin really wanted to open Xiang Qin's mind to see what was inside.

But the heartache had the upper hand in the end, he felt suffocated just thinking about the scars on Xiang Qin's body.

Ye Jin pressed the ice cubes onto Xiang Qin's face again: "Is it finished?"

Xiang Qin didn't dare to move, he was a little apprehensive: "No..."

Ye Jin asked patiently: "I'll give you a chance, what's on your mind, explain it clearly."

Unexpectedly, Xiang Qin pursed his lower lip: "The birthday present you gave me, can I take it away..."

My heart ached, but when I heard this, Ye Jin almost laughed angrily.

Xiang Qin: "Or I can buy it at the original price, and you just pretend you didn't give it away..."

Ye Jin: "If you send it out, can you pretend that you haven't sent it?"

Xiang Qin rubbed his fingertips and lowered his request again: "Then... if the watch doesn't work, can I take the ankle strap?"

"I made that belt myself." Ye Jin lifted Xiang Qin's chin and smiled not so obviously, "Priceless treasure, what do you buy it for?"

Xiang Qin was startled... Ye Jin didn't mention it, so he didn't know that he did it by himself.

In this case, it is really inappropriate for him to take it away.

But he couldn't say the words of giving up, and after knowing that Ye Jin did it himself, he was even more reluctant.

"Then..." Xiang Qin nana said, "Can you have another meal with me at the end?"

Probably because he was really at a loss, Xiang Qin even thought about the contract irrationally: "The contract is not over yet... it's the last time, okay?"

His lips were almost bitten off.

Ye Jin supported his face with an ice cube in one hand, and pushed his lips away with the thumb of the other hand: "Do you still want to kiss me after biting me?"

Although he felt that they were going to separate, Xiang Qin was still very obedient, completely unaware of the subtext in these words.

Stupid enough.

Ye Jin asked: "If I leave now in anger, will Brother Qin really not stay?"

Xiang Qin was startled, opened his mouth and remained silent for a long time.

Of course he wanted to stay, but he had no face to stay.

"What if I just refuse to eat this meal?" Ye Jindan said, "What if I don't want the money? What are you going to do?"

Xiang Qin took a breath.

"Since we're about to break up, why do you care if I take a rest or not, and whether the part-time job is hard?" Ye Jindan said, "I only spend my boyfriend's money, and only a boyfriend has the right to take care of me."

Seeing that Xiang Qin hadn't spoken, Ye Jin took away the ice and turned around after a pause: "Brother Qin really never took what I said to heart."

The familiar Qin brother gave Xiang Qin inspiration, he looked at Ye Jin's back in a panic and blurted out: "I like you! I like you..."

He repeated it loudly.

Ye Jin said a long time ago that as long as he says 'I like you', no matter where he goes, he will stay.

There was a slight smile in Ye Jin's eyes, and as soon as she turned around, she heard Xiang Xiugou say: "It's nothing else, I just want to have dinner together... is that okay?"

After all, this farewell may really be invisible.

It's probably not okay to pay attention secretly. No one likes a person who spreads a big panic about him, and he is still watching him in secret.

Ye Jin was really happy this time.

He didn't hide it either, he walked up to Xiang Qin with his long legs, pinched his chin and kissed him hard.

Xiang Qin was completely bewildered, and his whole body was so stiff that he didn't dare to move.

Ye Jin kissed very hard. In the past, their kisses were gentle and tender, but today they were extremely violent. Xiang Qin even felt in a daze that his lips had been bitten, and there was a bloody smell.

His tongue was also bitten, and Jin Jin seemed to be really angry...

Ye Jin withdrew her body: "Does it hurt?"

Xiang Qin nodded subconsciously, and wanted to shake his head after realizing it, but Ye Jin pushed him back.

"It's right if it hurts. If it doesn't hurt, you won't have a long memory." Ye Jin took a deep breath, "I said I want to leave, or did I say that I was so angry that I wanted to leave?"

"Do you like breaking up with loans so much? Just don't believe my feelings so much? Is it a joke that I like you? It's because of money that I'm with you, that's why I'm so vulnerable in your eyes?"

Seven or eight questions in one breath made Xiang Qin panic, and he quickly denied: "No——"

At the same time, a glimmer of hope rose in a hidden corner of my heart. Is it... not planning to break up with him?

"You did make a mistake and shouldn't lie to me, but won't you correct it when you know it?"

Ye Jin was a little tired from standing, and pressed Xiang Qin's shoulders to press him on the back of the sofa, supporting her upper body.

"Won't you say the words to keep you? Can't say the nice words of love? Is it so cruel just looking at me?"

Xiang Qin's flustered eyes were like those of a puppy abandoned by its owner, standing in the middle of the road, looking left and right, not knowing which way to go, confused and sad.

Ye Jin took a deep breath, and stopped forcing him: "I'll give you a chance to keep the things you've kept from me, don't tell me anything."

Xiang Qin was startled, for a moment he didn't know where to start.

He said cautiously, "It's true that I like you...since high school."

Ye Jin was so angry that he didn't know when Xiang Qin would get it.

"How did you know me?"

Xiang Qin pursed his lower lip: "My classmates dragged me to the basketball court to play basketball...you threw me a bottle of drink."

"..."

Ye Jin was really impressed by this matter.

He told Xiang Qin that he vaguely felt that his sexuality was different because of a boy on the high school basketball court.

He didn't tell Xiang Qin that, after watching his basketball game, he threw the drink he didn't like to drink to the other party.

At that time, I didn't think too much, I just thought that this boy was pleasing to the eye, that's why he did such a good-looking thing.

After throwing the drink, he didn't know the other party's reaction, so he left without staying.

Think about it this way...the first time He Jiakai said he liked him, it seemed to be that day too.

He was not fully aware of his sexuality at the time, and he was a little surprised by this, but he politely refused, saying that I don't like you.

Ye Jin regretted it for a while.

If he hadn't thrown the drink at the beginning, Xiang Qin might not have experienced what happened later.

Although he doesn't remember the boy's face back then, he vaguely remembers that he was sunny, maybe a little shy, but he smiled when talking to his friends.

It's not dull and restrained like Xiang Qin is now.

"I'm in Class [-], and I'm four classrooms away from you." Xiang Qin still managed to capture some happy content from his dusty memory while talking, "There was a monthly exam, and I tied for first place with you."

This is probably what secret love feels like.

A person is performing a theater that no one is watching in their hearts, and any element that is close to them can be imagined as their only fate.

"and after?"

Xiang Qin thought about it: "Later, my mother found out that I like boys, and then let me drop out of school, trying to make me 'better'... I couldn't stand it, so I ran away from home."

The experience of those few months was summed up in a few words so lightly by Xiang Qin, without mentioning all the important points.

"Don't lie to me again." Ye Jin stretched out his hand to pinch his collar, and slowly pulled it to his shoulder, "What's the matter with your injury?"

"They beat him..." Facing Ye Jin's eyes, Xiang Qin panicked, afraid that Ye Jin really didn't want him anymore, so he could only tell the truth, "Then they sent me to the hospital."

Ye Jin's breathing was stagnant, her heart ached beyond words.

What kind of hospital can beat people like this?

Guo Yamei was 'eager to save her son'. She sent Xiang Qin to a psychiatric hospital that was said to treat homosexuality. She gave a large sum of money and said that as long as her son was cured, she could scold her son, beat her... anything.

"The hospital treats you..." Ye Jin's eyes turned red, he took a deep breath, "What did they do to you?"

Xiang Qin pursed his lower lip, and said as calmly as possible: "Take medicine...and electric shock."

Other than that, it's like going to jail.

You have to get up on time every day, you have to eat at the specified time, and you can’t go to the toilet for more than 5 minutes. There is monitoring in the ward, and you are not allowed to chat with other "patients". , to close Xiaohei/House.

Ye Jin closed her eyes, and asked, "You just said... almost killed you, what do you mean?"

If it's just a summary, that's all. Guo Yamei still remembers Xiang Qin's studies and thinks that he has to go to school after he recovers.

But if you leave school for too long, you will definitely not be able to keep up with your studies.

So she kept urging, and finally, at the suggestion of the 'doctor', she spent money on MECT surgery, also known as electroconvulsive therapy without convulsions.

— which itself is used to treat depression and bipolar disorder.

Xiang Qin was obviously not sick, but he was powerless to resist.

But during the treatment, his heart suddenly stopped beating... Probably because of the random medicines given to him before, and the accumulated effects of multiple electric shocks, his heart couldn't hold it anymore.

If it is not rescued in time, others will be gone.

When he woke up, the college entrance examination was over, the person he liked didn't know which university he applied for, and his future was very slim.

Finally, after being bored in a closed room for a month, Xiang Qin took the initiative to meet Sunshine for the first time, and said to Guo Yamei and his father, "I want to leave here."

The first time he did such a rebellious thing, he was just informing his parents, not asking for advice.

He left on the same day with his ID card and did not take any money.

At that time, he didn't think about the future, Xiang Qin just wanted to leave that suffocating environment.

It doesn't matter if he dies, or goes to a strange city to be a stranger...he doesn't want to stay here.

"The doctor said that my psychological quality is quite good, and I haven't completely collapsed..." Xiang Qin saw Ye Jin's face was ugly, and quickly added, "It's what my psychiatrist said in the past few years."

After a few months in that place, normal people become abnormal.

Xiang Qin's originally introverted personality became completely dull and reticent.

He didn't want to be close to anyone at first, and he felt pain all over his body when someone approached, not just the same sex.

——This is the effect of the treatment, dragging a normal person under the sun into the shadows.

The doctor will put photos of the same sex in front of you, even videos that are not suitable for children, and force you to watch them, while using electric shocks on you, so that you will feel nausea, nausea, pain, and fear when you see the same sex from both physical and psychological levels .

The only fortunate thing is that after Xiang Qin left home, he met Zhong Buyun who was so kind.

Just like last year when it was hard to get home, Zhong Buyun took Xiang Qin, who was curled up in the alley like a beggar on a rainy day, back to see the doctor.

Otherwise, Xiang Qin would have been burned to death that day.

Since then it has slowly gotten better.

Under the slow guidance of a regular psychiatrist, after three long years, he barely turned back to a normal person.

At first, when Ye Jin got close to him, her face would blush and her heart would beat, not only because of embarrassment, but also because of psychological discomfort.

Fortunately, this time he met a good doctor.

Without Ye Jin's knowledge, Xiang Qin gradually got used to Ye Jin's closeness, his holding hands, hugs and kisses.

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