cute crush method

[August 8, the weather was fine.

Mom, today is my birthday. Dad took me to eat noodles. There were two big eggs in it. I ate up the whole bowl. I even ate the egg yolk I didn’t like. Am I great? ? 】

[September 9, the weather was fine.

Mom, Dad said that I am very busy these days, and asked me to obediently do my homework at home after school. I did it, but I was a little scared when I was at home alone at night. Mom, can you stay with me? 】

[September 9, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, Dad brought back two people he didn't know. He said that they would live at home in the future and let that aunt be my mother, but I only have one mother, and I don't want others.Dad beat me because of that aunt, they must be bad guys, they came to snatch Dad from me, why didn’t Dad listen to me, Mom, what should I do to drive the bad guys away? 】

[September 9, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, I haven't eaten at home for ten days. I'm so hungry, but I absolutely can't eat food made by bad people. I must drive away the bad people. I can hold on. Can mom praise me? 】

[September 10, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, Dad scolded me again today. He asked me to call the son of the bad guy’s aunt my brother. I don’t want to call that, because the kid of the bad guy is also a bad guy, right?But why does Dad always protect the bad guys? Does Dad not like me? 】

[September 11, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, I learned an idiom in class today called "sit and wait for death". I don't think I can sit still and wait for death. I want to bravely fight the bad guys, let them leave our house, and save my father. 】

[September 12, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, I made a lot of plans successfully, but the bad guy auntie seems to be very hard to cook every day, so I used all these plans for the bad guy brother, and he didn't notice at all. As long as I persist, he will definitely not be able to bear to leave our house. Is it right? 】

[September 2, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, it’s Chinese New Year today, I miss you so much, but Dad is having New Year’s Eve dinner with the bad guys... Doesn’t Dad miss Mom? 】

[September 3, the weather was cloudy, very cloudy.

Mom, my plan was seen through by the bad guy brother, who took away the test papers I hid, but how did he know?And I was very scared today, thinking that I was going to be beaten, but he didn't tell Dad... This bad guy brother doesn't seem to be that bad? 】

……

The diary in the iron box recorded this, Han Xing leaned against the wall and lowered his head, rubbing his fingers gently against the thin paper.

There were a few pages of paper inside that were wrinkled, obviously shriveled after being soaked in water.

But he knew that it was not ordinary water, but Bai Xiangxiao's tears.

The image of a child lying on the bed crying and writing a diary to his mother came to Han Xing's mind, but the childish words revealed his truest thoughts. His fragility, helplessness and sadness were all recorded in this small notebook Go up and tell the relatives he misses the most.

And the weather inside, after they moved into Bai's house, has never been sunny again.

Han Xing silently put the diary back into the iron box and locked it, and completely let go of his defense against Bai Xiangxiao in his heart.

Later, facing Bai Xiangxiao's rude words and pranks, Han Xing felt that he was like a paper tiger with teeth and claws, bluffing to protect himself, hiding his cleverness and sensibleness, and thinking that he was fierce to deal with him, a "bad guy" ".

I also find it a little funny that Bai Xiangxiao doesn't call his brother on the surface, but calls him diligently in the diary.

Han Xing began to have a little interest in Bai Xiangxiao, and would read the secret diary in the iron box every once in a while when he was not around.

Han Xing knew that he should not peek into other people's privacy, even if the other party was only a fifth grader.

But he couldn't help it.

The clear light in the child's eyes made him want to find out.

It seemed that they lived together peacefully for more than a year. It was not until the incident of the college entrance examination that Han Xing fully understood that he should not stay in this house any longer.

Because even if he doesn't do anything, his existence will gradually deteriorate the relationship between Bai Xiangxiao and Uncle Bai, and will put his mother in a dilemma. In the end, it will only bring endless misunderstandings, conflicts and disputes to the family.

This is also one of the important reasons why Hanxing did not choose to repeat.

His childhood was not good, and Bai Xiangxiao's childhood should not have been full of conflicts and disputes.

The light in that child's eyes should be protected.

The night before he left Bai's house to go to the university for accommodation, Han Xing opened the password iron box again.

[On June 6, the weather...

Mom, my body hurts so much that it hurts to breathe. Will I die? Will Dad beat me to death?But I already know that I did something wrong today. I threw away my brother's admission ticket. My brother's mother cried very sadly, and my father was also very angry. He may never like me again...Mom, I am a bad person ?In this house, it seems like I'm the bad guy.Mom, I miss you so much, I don't want to live in this house anymore, can you take me away? 】

[On June 7, the weather...

Mom, Dad ignored me, I know I was wrong, I really want to apologize to my brother, but I don't know what to do, I am a little scared, Mom, if I apologize, will Dad forgive me? 】

[On June 8, the weather...

Mom, brother and aunt bought me a birthday cake and Lego toys, I was really happy, but my dad was not happy, he smashed the cake, scolded me, he asked me to apologize, he said he raised me for nothing, but why did I Listen to him, he doesn't like my father anymore, and this is not my original home, I don't know why I still live here.Mom, the little panda you gave me doesn't seem to work anymore, because no one likes me, am I a superfluous person? 】

[On June 8, the weather...

Mom, I regret it again. My brother is going to go to college in September, but I haven't apologized to him yet. If I apologize, will he scold me like my father?He must be very angry, he must hate me, I also hate myself, I don't even have the courage to apologize.Dad doesn't love me anymore, Mom, I have done such a bad thing, will you still love me?Please don't hate me like dad, I just need a little love, okay? 】

The weather is blank and every sheet is crumpled.

Han Xing looked at Bai Xiangxiao, the little panda hugging bamboo on the bedside, there was silence under the glasses, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed.

He hoped that his decision was correct, if his leaving would make Bai Xiangxiao feel better.

Then let him go.