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Chen Tingbai was so emaciated, his face was so pale and so weak that Xu Shaohua was questioning where he got the strength to move his hands onto the wheelchair.

But his eyes were very bright, and the sight he projected seemed to be scalding, so hot that Xu Shaohua didn't even know where to put his hands.He drank so much on New Year's Eve that even when he was scared he could use the smell to embolden himself.As for the next few meetings, even though Chen Tingbai was furious, he couldn't hold back his physical exhaustion, so he didn't even have much momentum to speak.

For this reason, even if Xu Shaohua met Chen Tingbai face to face, he didn't have much fear.

In the final analysis, in one's life, there is no way to get stuck in a relationship.

It was an oolong to be together back then, even if it ended it would not be a pity.It's just that another method should be used. It shouldn't be two people standing opposite each other in the funeral home, and the cold wind above their heads should convey this sentence.

People are just weird.

Xu Shaohua brainwashed over and over again, brainwashing himself not to love, not like, not to care about, not to miss, not to regret.

But when he heard that something happened to Chen Tingbai, he still wanted to take a look.

Seeing Chen Tingbai suffering and haggard, his eyes would turn red.

Even now, when Chen Tingbai said that he would never see each other again, he would feel sad for no reason.

This kind of feeling is not up to the sky, can't get down to the ground, like the soul floating in the air, it is indescribably uncomfortable.But the most uncomfortable thing is that even now, he can't think of any words to stop all this.

Even if it was an apology, Xu Shaohua didn't know where to start.

On the contrary, Chen Tingbai felt that he had a lot to say.

Everything in this life passed by like a horse.

He saw that when he was very young, his mother took him to water the camphor tree at home in the yard.I heard that the tree was his birthday tree. Teacher Lu's husband planted it on the day of confinement, and asked her to carve Chen Tingbai's name on the trunk.

In spring and summer evenings, my father bought the best beef, and the family set up an oven for barbecue under the tree. Father's beer foamed, and the hops mixed with the smell of camphor trees floated in the air.

One morning in winter, the whole yard was covered with snow.Father built a chubby snowman under the tree, and wrapped Chen Tingbai's scarf loosely around the snowman's neck.My father and I were sweating from snowball fights, so Teacher Lu waved to them from the window on the second floor to let them go upstairs for breakfast.

He saw him running to his mother excitedly holding a bright certificate, saying that he would be a calligrapher in the future.At that time, he hadn't grown too tall, and his mother had to bend down to meet his eyes.Just like after the accident, everyone had to bend down a little to be on eye level with him.

But only his mother did it. No matter when he was a child or when he was stuck in a wheelchair, Teacher Lu always bent down slightly and smiled at him kindly.

That day, my mother bent down and rubbed Chen Tingbai's fluffy hair.

"Okay, Xiaobai will be a calligrapher in the future."

Chen Tingbai saw too much. He saw himself dyed blue hair during his rebellious period, turning the drum stick at his fingertips into a flower.

I saw myself writing down my youth and pride eloquently.

I saw my pen was broken, and my chapter was broken.

He saw Chu Qiu standing at the door of Zili, the handsome Xu Shaohua with eyes full of light.

So many overlapping pictures, good and bad, perfect and rotten.

Chen Tingbai saw his life brilliantly and scribbledly.

In this life, there was no scene that stayed in front of him for a long time, and the last thing that entered his eyes was Xu Shaohua, whose lips were turning pale, and he didn't know what to say.

He sniffed, and his long eyelashes covered his eyes, so that Xu Shaohua who was not far away couldn't see his emotions.

"I know, I knew from the beginning."

Chen Tingbai seemed to be talking to Xu Shaohua, and seemed to be talking to himself: "You are probably betting that I am so broken that I can treat you as a straw, and I don't think I will have much temper. Together or separately, the initiative is in your hands, and you can't suffer anyway."

The environment probably affects a person. For a long time, Xu Shaohua felt that Chen Tingbai's voice was like the kind of incense sticks in the words.

Because of his weak breath, his voice was always quiet and ethereal.Even if you speak coldly, you can always hear some warmth hidden under the ice spring.When talking to Hu Cong, this tenderness is not much, but to him, that tenderness is greater than coldness.

He thought that Chen Tingbai's speech was like this, but he didn't expect it to be otherwise.

Now Chen Tingbai's speech is not the same as in the past.

His voice is very hoarse, the kind of hoarseness that is extremely disappointed and has nowhere to vent. A simple word of exhaustion is not enough to describe it.

This passage, like a closing statement, was like a slap in the face, constantly slapping Xu Shaohua's face and heart.

He had to admit it, but subconsciously wanted to deny it, "No, it's not, Xiaobai, listen to me, I..."

It wasn't until now that he seemed to come back to his senses, and eagerly approached Chen Tingbai in three steps at a time.Then one of the few people squatted beside Chen Tingbai's legs.

Like a drowning man catching driftwood, Xu Shaohua grabbed Chen Tingbai's left hand, and firmly grasped his curled soft palm.

He hurriedly apologized: "No...Xiaobai, listen to me, I..."

Chen Tingbai's eyes drooped down, watching Xu Shaohua pull his unconscious hand, from Xu Shaohua's whitened fingertips, it could be seen how flustered Xu Shaohua was at the moment.

On the night of New Year's Eve, Chen Tingbai once wanted to wait for Xu Shaohua to come back. He must let Xu Shaohua half kneel at his feet like now, begging for mercy and apologizing in panic.

Later, at the door of Zili, he saw cigarette butts in the corner, and he thought about it too.If Xu Shaohua could come in, bow his head and admit his mistake, maybe his wisdom teeth wouldn't hurt.If he was more comfortable and relaxed, he might not be so irritable, and if he was in a better mood, he would calm down.

But now, he doesn't feel much better, he doesn't have the joy he hasn't seen for a long time, and he doesn't feel that it will make him feel comfortable.

He couldn't feel the temperature of Xu Shaohua's fingertips.Xu Shaohua didn't want to explore how much sincerity was in this apology.

Just like looking at other people's affairs, he watched Xu Shaohua explain intermittently and hastily with no expression.

Chen Tingbai also forgot how much he listened to.

He felt so tired, slowly closed his eyes and then opened them.

"For a long time, I have also been brainwashing, brainwashing you to love me, maybe one day, you will fall in love with me too. I started the bet first, and the bet will last forever. Even if I am not very sure, I still took the bet //Table. Xu Shaohua, I lost, and I can't afford to lose. So don't have any more intersections, you work in my dad's company now, we will always have intersections..."

Chen Tingbai paused, "Or to put it another way, I will think of your purpose for approaching me."

When the words fell to the ground, Xu Shaohua was also stunned, his mouth that had been talking non-stop just now fell silent, only his lips were still moving.

When he looked down at Chen Tingbai before, he couldn't see Chen Tingbai's eyes, but now that he looked up, he could clearly see all the emotions in Chen Tingbai's eyes.

The eyes that were still numb and tired before suddenly changed when he finished the last sentence.

It became Xu Shaohua's most familiar eyes, the kind of eyes he has seen in the eyes of everyone who looks down on him.

It is the most understatement, but also the disgust that makes him hate the most.

The previous fear and regret were gently punctured like a thin balloon, revealing the resentment wrapped in the innermost part.

Xu Shaohua laughed suddenly, his eyes narrowed into a long thin line.

"Chen Tingbai, why are you still talking so hard? What do you have worth holding on to?"

Xu Shaohua didn't use any force, just pushed Chen Tingbai's wheelchair back a lot, but Chen Tingbai sitting on it didn't have the ability to resist at all.

He is obviously a person who will fall down at the first push, why should he sit upright, why should he decide his whereabouts.

Xu Shaohua stood up, patted the dust on his knees, and asked Chen Tingbai with an angry smile: "I know I'm a villain, I know I'm despicable, and I even know that I don't love you at all, but I still keep me." , isn't it because no one wants you?"

He has always been good at masking his panic with anger.

It doesn’t matter if you’re flustered at the moment, or you’ve really been punctured and you’re angry from embarrassment, anyway, we’ve already talked about this, and there’s nothing to take back, so we simply continued, “Chen Tingbai , even me, even me you like, don't you admit that you are worthless?"

"Why do you want to decide whether I will stay or not?"

Compared to Chen Tingbai's calm as ice-like voice, Xu Shaohua's voice was too loud, especially in such a deserted place.Even if the funeral home staff didn't want to gossip anymore, they were still attracted by the noise, and kept turning their heads to look at him and Chen Tingbai.

For many moments, Xu Shaohua felt that he could say and do something else, but in the end, it became a practice and statement beyond his control.

On the contrary, Chen Tingbai, he was still sitting in the distance coldly.

Suddenly, Chen Tingbai's hand moved slowly, and moved it into his pocket.Xu Shaohua didn't even see clearly, but Chen Tingbai threw something on the ground.

There was a crisp sound, and the sound of something being smashed.

Xu Shaohua was stunned for a moment, not knowing whether to look at the ground or to see what Chen Tingbai was doing.

Before he came back to his senses, Chen Tingbai had already turned his wheelchair and walked outside.Only his silent back was left.

"Chen Tingbai..."

The throat is always faster than the brain, so Xu Shaohua stopped him in an instant.

The figure who was leaving slowly stopped unexpectedly, but he didn't intend to turn around, but just tilted his head and waited for Xu Shaohua to continue.

Chen Tingbai suddenly remembered something, and asked him with a smirk, "I think, you probably never looked at the things I gave you."

Xu Shaohua pursed his lips as a tacit consent.Sometimes Chen Tingbai would give Xu Shaohua a few books out of the blue, or a little gadget that he thought was worthless.

But the pace of modern society is so fast, how can Xu Shaohua have time to look through those books, they are still lying brand new on the bookshelf at home.

After getting the ideal answer, Chen Tingbai's tensed shoulders suddenly dropped, as if he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Whether you are qualified or not, you will know when you go to work tomorrow. Well, don't make yourself too ugly. Let's go."

After that, Chen Tingbai never looked back.

In those eyes that were half curious and half watching the excitement, Xu Shaohua suddenly felt very tired.

At this moment, he suddenly understood the impossibility of himself and Chen Tingbai.

Impossible is impossible, even if he cheated, cheated vanity, and cheated a little short-term benefit.But what's the use, turning his head, those things are not his, he just had them briefly.

As for Chen Tingbai, even though he was in a state of embarrassment, he still sat in a high position, and someone like him would still rush forward.

Xu Shaohua turned his gaze, and there was a key lying on the ground, and a square jade-white stone on the key chain had been smashed to pieces.

Tingfeng Xulai's Tingzi and Xuzi's corners were broken, and they were worthless.

The author has something to say:

It's over, it's over, this article is messed up.

Cut the outline a lot, at least [-] words.

I just can’t figure out why I wrote this article in the first place. Looking at it now, it’s full of slots everywhere, but according to the original outline, it will really write Xiaobai so cheap (the illiterate pinches people in the middle of the night).Wrong feelings are wrong no matter what, and it is not a pity to end.

OK, the black history is over, kowtow, thank you for reading my article.

In addition, this book is really bad. If you have given a reward, you can tell it in the comment area. I will return the rewarded Jinjiang coins to you, just take a look at it, it is not worth the money.Then the next book will finish Wen Renzhu, and it will be finished within this month. I hope you will continue to support~ Thank you for reading my article.

By the way, Happy Women's Day.

May every sister have the courage to stick to herself.