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It takes 28 days to form a habit.

But once the habit is formed, it will take many 28 days to get rid of it.

Chen Tingbai felt very uncomfortable. He had already said that he would not wait, but when it was time to go home, he would unconsciously procrastinate. In fact, he subconsciously wanted to wait for Xu Shaohua.

I also thought about whether to go to him, but I quickly dismissed the idea.

If people don't come, it's already the answer, and if they add it up, what's the matter.

I think clearly in my heart, but it is not necessarily old.Chen Tingbai couldn't control his body, and of course he couldn't make his heart obey.

When he looked up, it was almost nine o'clock again, Chen Tingbai himself was a little tired.In the past two days, the cold wave has been fierce, and it is really difficult for him to settle down and write properly in the evening.

Chen Tingbai raised his eyes to look at Hu Cong, and found that he still had some homework, and it would take nearly an hour to finish.Chen Tingbai thought that it would be fine to wait for Hu Cong to finish writing and then go home.

In order not to disturb Hu Cong, Chen Tingbai put down his pen very lightly, without making any movement.There was a bit of ink on the inside of his hand, and when he withdrew it, it rubbed against his pants.

With lowered eyes, Chen Tingbai rubbed the ball of ink with two fingers, and silently stepped aside to wait for Hu Cong.

I don't know if it's because of the long-term insomnia recently, but Chen Tingbai has always been aching a little these two days.It can't be regarded as uncomfortable, but it is this kind of looming pain that makes him feel very uncomfortable.I can't lift my spirits by doing anything, and smelling the burning incense sticks in the house makes me feel drowsy.

It turns out that not only missing will always follow me, but also the headache caused by insomnia caused by missing.

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Xu Shaohua felt that he was very funny, and he was afraid after hearing Chen Tingbai say a few words.

Coming out of the writing that night, he found himself covered in goose bumps.

It's not that there is anything that makes him uncomfortable with Chen Tingbai, what makes him uncomfortable is his every move, and Chen Tingbai can see clearly.

But Chen Tingbai didn't poke him, nor did he show the anger he should have.

It made me look like a clown.For a long time, Xu Shaohua was thinking, Chen Tingbai did this because he really didn't care about these things?

The money and profits that he longed for and pursued all his life were nothing more than bits and pieces that leaked from Chen Tingbai's fingers.So of course he doesn't care, if Xu Shaohua is willing, Chen Tingbai is willing to give more.

Of course, he can't have so many speculations.

He even thought with a villain's heart that Chen Tingbai was really moved, but he was helpless and disabled so far, and this was the only way he could let himself stay.

But no matter what kind of speculation it was, Xu Shaohua couldn't accept it.

He hated it, felt like a clown, and felt like a pet to be kept.

When he walked out of the text that day, he originally planned to never contact Chen Tingbai again. It was really hard for him to accept lying on the same bed with Chen Tingbai like today.

What's more, Chen Tingbai even pays so much attention to smoking a cigarette, which is completely out of tune with him.

Talk about what to try to be together, talk about what to try to like him.

However, the reality is the reality, Xu Shaohua no longer wants to admit it, but he can only admit that he can't do the things he boasted to his parents on his own.

You see, it's really easy for people to compromise in the face of reality. Two days ago, he said that he was like a clown in front of Chen Tingbai, but today he couldn't win the project in the conference room, so he immediately gave in obediently.

Almost without any entanglement, he knocked on the door of the word.

Worried that Chen Tingbai would reject him, Xu Shaohua went to a convenience store to buy a bottle of Erguotou before entering the text, and he drank a few gulps in one gulp, and splashed the rest on himself.

However, when he came to the door of Zili and saw that the light in Zili was still on, Xu Shaohua knew that he was sure to win.

How about the lyrics of the song that a very good singer tried?

Nothing to get, nothing to commotion.Xu Shaohua won't remember it for a while, anyway, that's what it means.

Just like that, when Chen Tingbai had to close his eyes and rest because of the pain in his head, the old-fashioned electronic doorbell rang several times.

He put his elbows on the armrest of the wheelchair, and when his hand slipped, the head resting on it was pulled down heavily.

Chen Tingbai supported the wheelchair with one hand to make himself sit upright, squinting his half-asleep eyes.Because of being woken up, Chen Tingbai's head started to ache again, and just wondering why there were still guests, someone threw himself into his arms.

The person in his arms smelled of alcohol and had the familiar body temperature that he thought about day and night. Chen Tingbai heard the person in his arms say to himself: "Xiaobai, please forgive me. Let's be together, please."

Regardless of the headache, let alone the shock caused by his sudden arrival, Chen Tingbai was worried that Xu Shaohua had drunk so much wine and came here on such a cold day, the road must be very cold.

He quickly asked Hu Cong to help Xu Shaohua sit down, and then asked Hu Cong to get a cup of warm water for Xu Shaohua to drink.

"You said you, go home and rest after drinking, and you still come here when it's so cold outside." Xu Shaohua kept holding Chen Tingbai's hand and did not let go, and Chen Tingbai was also held by him.

In fact, Chen Tingbai's body was always leaning forward, which made him uncomfortable, but Chen Tingbai couldn't care less about it now.

Instead, he rubbed Chen Tingbai's cold hand back and forth with his right hand. Although the words were reprimands, there was no reproach at all, and it was full of distress.

"I only dare to come to see you after drinking. I'm afraid you'll get angry." Xu Shaohua didn't know if the alcohol was really on his nerves, and his speech was also soft.

Sometimes, he himself didn't know whether it was his intention to talk to Chen Tingbai like this.

Hearing what Xu Shaohua said, Chen Tingbai didn't know what it was like. He was obviously the one who was abandoned that day, and he was the one who had been waiting for these two days.

But Xu Shaohua's drunken and hazy eyes seemed to have magical powers.

Chen Tingbai even felt that if he hadn't been so awkward and had called Xu Shaohua earlier, Xu Shaohua wouldn't have had to drink so much, and he wouldn't have had to travel so far to come here in such a cold day.

In short, it is yourself who is tempted first.

And why should others suffer these crimes?

Hu Cong brought over the water, Chen Tingbai took it and let Xu Shaohua drink some water.

Chen Tingbai's face was tense, and his eyelashes were half down. He handed the cup to Xu Shaohua's chest, and ordered without much emotion: "Drink."

Xu Shaohua still didn't let go, so he took a sip of water from Chen Tingbai's hand and stopped drinking.In fact, I was not drunk, where did the dry mouth come from.On the contrary, Hu Cong added a lot of sophora japonica honey to this glass of water, it was too sweet.When the warm water rubbed Xu Shaohua's throat, he almost spit it out subconsciously.

Before Xu Shaohua heard Chen Tingbai's clear answer, he asked Chen Tingbai again: "Will you still be with me? If I'm not perfunctory, if I really like you."

The air conditioner in the room was fully turned on, and thick beads of sweat appeared on Xu Shaohua's forehead.

Chen Tingbai backed out, and the heavy wheelchair moved forward, and the owner sitting on it seemed to think of something, and turned his head again.

The back of the wheelchair concealed more than half of his face, leaving only his eyes with tight eyelids and a high bridge of nose.It's like being carved with fine jade.

"Stay honest."

Xu Shaohua blinked his eyes dimly, and the thought of chasing after him was instantly imprisoned, so he could only stare at Chen Tingbai's leaving back with embarrassment.

Chen Tingbai got into the bathroom, he didn't want to refuse, he just wanted to twist a towel for Xu Shaohua to wipe his face.

By the way...

By the way, calm yourself down.

The faucet was automatically sensed, and as soon as Chen Tingbai stretched out his hand, the biting cold water gurgled down.After rushing to get ink stains on Chen Tingbai's wrist, it also made Chen Tingbai's hands paler, and even because it was too cold, the knuckles turned an unnatural pink.

Chen Tingbai leaned forward slightly, tore off the towel hanging on the rack and threw it into the pool within a safe range.Throwing the towel into the sink, I realized that I couldn't wring it dry with one hand, so I had to call Hu Cong in to help.

"Xiao Cong, tell me, do I want to be with him?" Chen Tingbai looked at the towels in the sink, and suddenly retreated. He asked Hu Cong gently, not knowing how to answer Xu Shaohua outside.

"Don't you like him? Haven't you been waiting for him these two days?"

"But Xiao Cong, I don't want to be anyone's burden. You see, I can't even twist a towel to wipe his sweat when he's drunk." Chen Tingbai's mood suddenly became bad. When Shao Hua hugged him, he was obviously very happy.

Hu Cong didn't expect that his boss still had such worries. He felt uncomfortable and comforted Chen Tingbai in his heart: "These things are not something you should worry about, Master. The money you earn can make you all live comfortably. Having said that, he is not young anymore and can take care of himself. Don't worry." Then he handed the towel to Chen Tingbai.

Chen Tingbai helped Xu Shaohua wipe off the fine beads of sweat on his face, and gently wiped his face with a warm towel, Xu Shaohua felt very comfortable.

With Chen Tingbai, besides some other things he needs, tenderness is what he desires the most.

"Shao Hua, I've been waiting for you these two days, but you didn't come. I'm about to leave, but you're here again. But I'm afraid that if I'm with you, it will make things difficult for you. After all, my body doesn't have It can be better."

Chen Tingbai thought for a long time before speaking to Xu Shaohua. He really wanted to be with Xu Shaohua.But if it is true that he will become Xu Shaohua's burden, then forget it.

"But didn't you say that to be with you, you just need to like you? Then I like you. Xiaobai, it's so cold today that I'm here. Do you still want to reject me? Or do you mean that you didn't forgive me at all?" ?" Xu Shaohua thought that Chen Tingbai was also funny, why are you still being pretentious at this time, he was obviously waiting for him.

Chen Tingbai lowered his body and moved his body as close to Xu Shaohua as possible.

He kissed Xu Shaohua's forehead, and hugged Xu Shaohua as much as he could: "I hate people who sacrifice for me, give up something for me, if you have a way to go, if you have a better choice, you go , don't stay by my side. Do you know what I mean?"

This sudden kiss made Xu Shaohua shiver uncontrollably.

However, he quickly realized that he also hugged Chen Tingbai, and patted Chen Tingbai lightly a few times to comfort him.

"Don't worry, I won't be that stupid."

The author has something to say:

I just couldn't figure out why this article is so ugly when I read it now, what was I pretending in my mind before.

I have worked hard to improve my writing, but my foundation is too weak, no matter how I fix it, it will look like this.