She made herself visible only to me

"Why are you here?" The boy looked at Su Nian with a smile and asked back.

Su Nian hesitated for a moment, and thought of an accurate title: "Senior Wu?"

The boy was wearing a set of simple sportswear, with a few beads of sweat hanging on his forehead, he nodded and said, "Don't say you came to the playground to run, your legs don't look very good... ..."

Su Nian also smiled when she heard this, and said while walking, "Of course I didn't come for a run, I just came for a walk in a bad mood..."

Wu Sinian followed her footsteps, and asked with concern, "What's wrong?"

Su Nian lowered her head and didn't know where to start, so she shrugged and said helplessly, "It's hard to say."

"Hmm...let me guess..." Wu Sinian walked beside Su Nian, and said relaxedly, "Either it's something about study or something about love."

"Senior, you really understand..." Su Nian continued, "Then tell me."

"In the classroom that day, I noticed that everyone else was listening carefully to the speech of the seniors and sisters. Only you looked disdainful and buried your head in the corner secretly reading extracurricular books..." Wu Sinian said slowly.

Su Nian stopped, looked into Wu Sinian's deep eyes and said, "So what?"

"You are reading "The Man Who Stole the Shadow." Wu Sinian loved this novel the most when he was in high school, so when he saw Su Nian reading this book, he immediately felt kind.

"so what?"

Wu Sinian stared into Su Nian's eyes, as if lost in memory, and after a while slowly said: "Last year, I was just like you, sitting in the last row of the classroom, reading that book idly."

Su Nian couldn't help laughing at herself after hearing this: "But the senior was admitted to Peking University, but I am the bottom one."

Wu Sinian sighed, and said softly, "Did you know? There are some things in your eyes that are different from others."

"Oh?" Su Nian turned her head to look at Wu Sinian, waiting for him to continue.

"A kind of arrogance and inferiority engraved in the bones." Wu Sinian said lightly, "It's very contradictory, just like me."

Su Nian hurriedly said: "I don't dare to compare with the senior, I'm really bad, even worse than the senior imagined."

"Never compare with others, everyone is different, the important thing is to find the difference that suits you best." Wu Sinian stopped and looked at Su Nian again, and continued: "You will always be you, it is different Fireworks, please believe this."

On the playground shrouded in darkness, Su Nian saw that Wu Sinian's eyes seemed to be shining endlessly, she shook her head, and suddenly asked: "Senior, what do you think is the meaning of being alone?"

She has been looking for an answer to this question.

"Have you watched "Those Things in the Ming Dynasty"?" Wu Sinian asked.

Su Nian nodded.

"Do you remember the last sentence of that book?"

Su Nian thought for a while and replied, "Live your own life in your own way."

"Do you know how I understand this sentence?" Wu Sinian looked into the distance, and said in a deep voice, "In this world, some people live in tall buildings, some live in deep ditch, some are glorious, and some are covered in rust, but this is Life, no matter what you are living now, or no matter how bad your grades are, you should know that life itself is just two words, experience."

After finishing speaking, Wu Sinian continued: "Therefore, there is no need to envy others, and it is actually a blessing to live this life according to the way you like..."

Su Nian stopped where she was when she heard this, and was stunned for a long time before she slowly opened her mouth: "Senior, do you think that poor students deserve to be discriminated against, stared at, snubbed, and ridiculed?"

Wu Sinian sighed, and replied: "In this world, there are always people who attack the weak to obtain some kind of spiritual pleasure. You should know that there are many such people, and I have experienced it too."

"Huh?" Su Nian obviously didn't believe it. How could a person like Wu Sinian, a man of heaven, be like her?

"When I was in the third year of high school, I didn't like to do questions, I didn't like to take exams, I didn't like to do the same papers, I didn't like to stay in the class like a prisoner every day..."

Wu Sinian recalled his high school years, with inexplicable heaviness and pain in his voice.

This is not like the attitude that a top student should have.

"so what?"

Wu Sinian replied flatly: "So, I don't take the monthly exam, I don't take the midterm exam, I don't hand in homework, I don't write papers, I have to go to the playground to play football and basketball every day after class... Then I became a teacher and a classmate The aliens in our eyes..."

"However, the senior was admitted to Peking University in the end..." Su Nian sighed firmly.

"Because I know that learning requires mood. If you are unhappy every day, you will not realize the true meaning of knowledge... Learning also requires efficiency. If you can't concentrate on thinking about problems, then no matter how many questions you brush It doesn't help... Learning still needs a method, if you can't find a learning method that suits you, then no matter how many hours you study every day, it will be useless time..." Wu Sinian said slowly, and finally asked Su Read a sentence: "Do you know what is the ultimate gap between people in learning?"

When Su Nian heard this, he suddenly thought of Zhou Mo, and asked, "Is it IQ?"

Wu Sinian smiled, shook his head, and corrected: "It's the ability to think. The only difference between people is the way of thinking."

Su Nian looked at Wu Sinian's face blankly, and heard him continue: "Many people don't know how to think, and they don't bother to think. But the first condition to solve a problem is to learn to think, so that you can see the essence of the problem, and This is essential thinking. In real life, many people often only see the tip of the iceberg."

Su Nian once again expressed deep agreement with Wu Sinian's words, she seemed to realize something, and said to Wu Sinian: "Senior, I understand what you said, it's getting late, I have to go back."

After speaking, Su Nian turned on her phone and found that Zhou Mo called her several times, but she didn't answer.

Wu Sinian also took out his mobile phone from his coat pocket, and left a contact information for Su Nian: "If you are not happy in the future, you can call me anytime."

Su Nian said thank you gratefully, then hurriedly turned to look for Zhou Mo.

At the school gate, Su Nian saw Zhou Mo looking for her all over the world on a small electric donkey.

"A Mo!"

Zhou Mo's complexion didn't look very good. The moment she saw Su Nian, she breathed a sigh of relief, but she didn't say a word.

After arriving home, Zhou Mo didn't ask Su Nian why he didn't answer her phone or reply to her messages, instead he walked into the studio by himself and closed the door.

Su Nian was also very upset, she had too many questions about Qin Li.

After taking a shower and returning to the bedroom, she accidentally saw a photo frame on Zhou Mo's bookshelf, which was a photo of Zhou Mo and a woman when he was a child.

In the photo, the woman smiled, looking intellectual and gentle. She gently held the child in her arms. Zhou Mo was still wearing a braid at that time, looking like a tiger.

Su Nian knew that it must be Zhou Mo's mother. Looking at the photo of the mother and son, she couldn't help but think of herself.

In memory, it seems that her mother has never taken a photo with her in her arms.

Putting down the photo frame, Su Nian silently walked to the balcony, she just wanted to light a cigarette now.

On a summer night, the weather is muggy, but there is a rare cool breeze blowing on the balcony.

Su Nian poked her head out of the window, with a just lit cigarette in her hand, she inadvertently glanced at a pot of newly planted sunflowers on the window sill.

Perhaps the reason for the successful transplanting just now is that the soil in the flower pot still has a fresh breath. The sunflower flower buds are small, not as big as a palm, shaking from side to side under the blowing of the evening wind.

Su Nian remembered that there was no such pot of sunflowers on the balcony in the morning.

She stretched out her hand to touch the sunflower flower disc, and the smoke curled out of her mouth and slowly dispersed with the wind.

Just thinking about why Zhou Mo went to buy a new pot of sunflowers so quickly, Su Nian suddenly felt someone hug her back.

Su Nian knew it was Zhou Mo before she even opened her mouth. She resisted at first, but she heard Zhou Mo say slowly, "Nian Nian, don't leave me, okay?"

Su Nian put down the cigarette in his hand, and said helplessly, "A Mo, I didn't leave..."

"I was terrified when you disappeared today..."

"What are you afraid of?" Su Nian's voice was a little hoarse from smoking.

"I'm afraid that you will be angry, that you will ignore me, that you will leave me..."

When Su Nian couldn't reply to the message, Zhou Mo always felt like he had lost the whole world.

Su Nian felt that Zhou Mo's voice sounded like he had been crying, so he coaxed, "Ah Mo, don't worry, I'm right here."

Zhou Mo coughed twice, hugged Su Nian, pointed to the pot of sunflowers and said, "Do you still like it?"

When sending Su Nian to the classroom in the morning, she mentioned that she likes flowers, especially sunflowers, so Zhou Mo went to the flower market to buy her favorite flowers.

Su Nian felt that Zhou Mo's chin was pressing against her neck, and the warm breath was exhaled in her ears, and she hurriedly broke free from Zhou Mo's arms.

Looking at Su Nian's bewildered actions, Zhou Mo immediately understood that the relationship between the two of them still had a long way to go.

Su Nian walked around the sofa, took out a bottle of Coke from the refrigerator, unscrewed the cap and drank it all in one gulp.

Zhou Mo leaned on the door frame of the balcony and looked at Su Nian quietly. She always felt that Su Nian was not in the right mood today.

"Ah Mo, I'm tired, I'm going to sleep." Su Nian walked into the bedroom, but was pulled back by Zhou Mo.

"Nian Nian, you are unhappy." Zhou Mo looked into Su Nian's eyes, "Tell me, why?"

"It's nothing..." Su Nian replied lightly, and then walked to the bedside.

Zhou Mo turned off the light, and the two lay on the same bed, silent to each other.

Ever since Su Nian moved here, she has gradually lost her fear of the dark.

"A Mo, is that your mother in that photo frame?" Su Nian tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep.

Zhou Mo replied, "Well, yes."

"Your mother is very gentle."

"Well, she's a painter." Zhou Mo said lightly.

"Did your mother die of illness?" Su Nian asked again, because she saw Zhou Mo's mother in the photo, although she was wearing lipstick, but she could still see that she lacked energy and blood, giving people a long-sick look. Feel.

After a while, she heard Zhou Mo slowly say two words: "Suicide."

As soon as the words fell, Su Nian suddenly felt that the night seemed to be quiet.

The whistle of the car downstairs and the noisy voices of people in the city disappeared in an instant, leaving only the breathing of the two people.

Su Nian didn't know what to say, she turned over, reached into Zhou Mo's quilt, found Zhou Mo's hand, held it tightly, and whispered, "Ah Mo, I'm here."

Feeling the warmth from Su Nian's palm, Zhou Mo quickly and firmly held her hand back.

The author has something to say:

The reason for the interruption is that I went to chase POI, and then the setting of the second book is similar to POI. . .