And the actor who secretly loves HE [entertainment circle]

When everyone is young, there are always some secrets that are unknown to others, and they don't want others to know, secrets that belong only to themselves, and Shen Haoxi is no exception.

Some people hide these secrets in their diaries, or keep them in their hearts, but Shen Haoxi, he keeps all his little secrets that he doesn’t want others to know, or some broken thoughts, or some dreams that he thinks are great, Throw them all into the space of his QQ account.

He didn't add any friends to his trumpet, and after he knew how to set permissions, he even set the dynamics of the space to be visible only to friends—anyway, he didn't have any friends on his trumpet. Only he can see those things.

His "dream" of wanting to open a book club was recorded in the small space.Because he has been thinking about this dream for many years, and he has never thought of giving it up until now, so he has always remembered it deeply.

And when he was in high school, he experienced what happened to his brother at that time, and he behaved perfectly to the outside world. In fact, being perfect is also very tiring, so he put all the negative emotions and some true thoughts from the heart. Throw it into the small space.After he found out that he was bent, he was afraid that he would be cast aside by thousands of people just like his elder brother. He was a little at a loss and panicked for a while. At that time, it was hard for the family to get rid of that troublesome thing. He didn't want to involve the family because of this incident. Uneasy, so this matter that could not be announced, was finally recorded in the space by him to vent the shock and anxiety in his heart.

If he didn't have any place to vent his emotions, his spirit would have collapsed after a long time.

If we look back at the space of the trumpet now, the earliest ones are his innocent and innocent thoughts, and the later ones are his negative catharsis from the heart.

When many people grow up and look back at the naive and ridiculous posts they posted before, or the non-mainstream posts in the second grade, they will always feel unbearable and erase them.However, Shen Haoxi never intended to delete these things. After all, no matter how you say these things, whether it is the innocence and ignorance when you were young, or the non-mainstream secondary school in adolescence, or the content that mainly focuses on venting emotions later, bit by bit, it will matter. It is a record of his growth.

Sometimes he looks back at those things, and he can still recall his mood when he wrote down these posts, either happy, frivolous, angry, annoyed, or sad.

He always thought that only he could see the dynamics of his space, but the gift his mother gave him, and it was so specific that even the name he gave the book club at that time, explained one point from the side—that is his trumpet , Most likely he was raped by his mother!

So she should have known about her sexual orientation a long time ago, but she has been pretending not to know.

Since my mother knew it, she and her father should not be able to hide it from him, given the degree of obscenity between her and her father.

Her intention in giving this gift was not only to realize her childhood dream, but also to imply to him that she had figured out everything she needed to know.

Shen Haoxi's eyes drooped slightly, and he made a decision in his heart. When he finished filming, he should come out with his parents.

Shen Youchen has been paying attention to his reaction, seeing that his expression is wrong, he hesitated and said: "Don't you like this gift from mom?"

Shen Haoxi smiled: "No, I like this gift very much."

Only then did Shen Youchen feel relieved: "That's good, by the way, this bookstore of yours, remember to give me a lifetime membership, and when I go there, remember to give me a discount."

"Okay, okay, I'll get you a lifetime limited membership card, and it's free for you to go there."

The two brothers chatted and laughed for a while, and finally the topic ended with a phone call—Shen Youchen's.

Shen Haoxi knew who was calling when he saw the change in his expression.Except for his "brother" whom he has never met, who else can make his brother reveal this kind of expression-he doesn't know whether his brother is up or down, but the word brother can be understood as "brother Husband", can also be understood as "brother's wife", in fact, quite a panacea.

Shen Haoxi blinked at Shen Youchen, put on the earphones wisely, and then made a zip movement for his mouth.

Shen Youchen couldn't help laughing because of his actions, he shook his head amusedly, and then pressed the connect button.

Shen Haoxi was a step slower in turning on the music, so before the prelude started, he heard a male voice from his brother's cell phone.

That voice is very nice, gentle and has a special magnetism, just listening to it like this makes people feel very comfortable.

Shen Haoxi always felt that the voice seemed familiar, but for a moment he couldn't remember where he heard it.

The prelude to the singing sounded, instantly occupying his ears, isolating the voices of his brother and him.

Shen Haoxi put down the exploration in his heart, and turned to open his own QQ account.

Sure enough, he found an unremarkable friend in the list of the small account. He usually used this account and didn't look at the friend column very much. He always went straight to the space, but he didn't notice this.

Although his mother might know all his secrets, Shen Haoxi didn't feel too angry.

After all, when he was in high school, his mental state was really bad. His mother may have secretly cared about his mental state because of this.

Thinking about it carefully, most of his birthday presents afterwards were almost the same as those mentioned in his dynamics in the space.

What he is most puzzled at the moment is when and how his mother added him as a small friend.

After all, he remembered clearly that his trumpet had never received any friend requests.

Shen Haoxi was obsessed with this matter, when his phone vibrated suddenly, he clicked on WeChat and saw that it was his mother who sent red envelopes in the WeChat group of four at home.

He opened it subconsciously, and there was only one red envelope, 88.88.

Shen Haoxi: [Wow, Mom, you are so stingy! 】

Empress: [picture]

Empress mother: [Happy birthday, your dad and I went shopping again! 】

Before he could react, his dad also sent a red envelope, which he clicked on, 66.66.

Shen Haoxi: "..." No, why did you send a close photo of yourself and your dad to wish me a happy birthday! ! ! ! !

Looking at the outfits of the two in the group photo, he probably guessed that the two of them had gone to Australia - if they were able to wear refreshing summer clothes outdoors at this time, besides traveling to the southern hemisphere, where else could they go.

But Shen Haoxi also knows that his mother has always been afraid of the cold, and he seems to have inherited this characteristic from her, so he is also particularly afraid of the cold.

In a good mood, he roughly wrote down the photos he took today and what he did, and sent a message to Moments.

In the past, he would post his daily routine on Weibo, but now that Weibo has become the center of attention, he doesn't intend to reveal too much about his personal life on it.

Anyway, he still needs to give himself some personal space.

He doesn't have many friends on WeChat, but they are basically close friends. There is a row of red numbers wishing him a happy birthday, and he also brought a red envelope. He replied one by one, and finally moved into Fu Junzhen's dialog box.

Fu Junzhen sent a file a few hours ago, Shen Haoxi clicked to download it, it was a song.

Birthday song sung to him by his boyfriend.

Shen Haoxi couldn't help bending his eyes and laughing. He added this song to the playlist and started the single cycle.He originally thought about chatting with his lover, but when he glanced at the top of the phone, it was past eleven o'clock, so he dismissed the idea.

Anyway, he's flying back tomorrow, so it's not too late to talk about anything.

Shen Haoxi: [Good night, boyfriend, see you tomorrow. 】

The author has something to say: I went out today, sat on the bus for three hours, and arrived at the hotel after seven o’clock. After I finished my work, it was ten o’clock, and it turned out that I only coded so much until now. Let’s take a look (.???) ?