And the actor who secretly loves HE [entertainment circle]

Shen Youchen lived smoothly for 19 years, but was finally interrupted by an unexpected cyber hack.

The cause of the incident was because he couldn't stand his younger brother's request, so he took Shen Haoxi out to celebrate his birthday.

As a result, he was followed by some unscrupulous paparazzi and secretly took photos, and the scandal that he and Shen Haoxi were gay became public that night.

This scandal is actually very easy to solve, as long as Shen Haoxi's identity is disclosed to the public, these rumors will naturally be self-defeating.

Shen Haoxi also planned to do this from the beginning, but Shen Youchen felt that the scandal was actually easy to suppress due to their family relationship, so he rejected Shen Haoxi's proposal.

Shen Haoxi is just a freshman in high school now, if he exposes his identity prematurely, it will be like him before, when he arrives at the school, many people will try their best to come over, and there will be many media squatting at the school gate every day, trying to get a good shot material.

There is no doubt that as long as Shen Haoxi's identity is exposed, just the fame of their parents in the circle can bring countless troubles to Shen Haoxi.

For a high school student, these unnecessary attentions greatly affect a person's life, and they will not expose Shen Haoxi's identity until the matter has not reached the final step.

Shen Yujue and Lin Xingyuan also thought so, because of this negligence, before they completely suppressed the rumor that "Shen Youchen is suspected of being gay", the dark chains had already been laid out one after another. bright side.

Because there was no evidence to prove what happened to the actor after he entered Shen Youchen's room, and he was forced to withdraw after entering Shen Youchen's room.And the male actor's behavior to the outside world has always been showing weakness, which aroused the sympathy of most people, plus Shen Youchen's lack of strong clarification, it's hard to argue.

The connection of all kinds of signs seems to indicate that Shen Youchen is the one who bullies others.Almost overnight, all kinds of falsehoods about Shen Youchen came to nothing, and maliciously distorted scandals sprung up like mushrooms after rain, and he became the object of thousands of people's spurning.

At this time, exposing Shen Haoxi's identity is useless. After all, the scandal between him and Shen Haoxi is just the lead of this black drama on the Internet. Even if there is no lead, these black materials are "real" enough, and the public pays attention to it. The point has become that he relied on his family relationship and wanted to "unspoken rules" for same-sex artists, and without thoroughly clarifying this matter, even if Shen Haoxi's identity was exposed to the outside world, it was just superfluous and asking for trouble.

The scolding voices poured in overwhelmingly. Shen Youchen had a smooth star journey before, but once he encountered a trough, the gap was too great. Even if his psychological quality passed the test, he was gradually affected by those endless scolding voices and cyber violence.

The most scolding him is nothing more than attacking his sexual orientation, saying that he likes the same sex, disgusting people, and that he might as well die early.

But it was these extremely aggressive words that had the greatest psychological impact on him.

Because when he was there, he discovered that he liked the same sex, but he never dared to tell his family members about it, so he kept it a secret.

After nearly half a month of bombardment, even Shen Youchen felt in a daze that the fact that he liked the same sex was very disgusting in itself.

He knew that something was wrong with his mind, but he really didn't dare to tell his family about it.

After all, before Shen Haoxi cried and argued to him in front of him, "You are not that disgusting person".

Even my own brother thinks that homosexuality is disgusting, and I guess my parents think the same way.If they found out, would they also dislike him, ignore him, and ignore him?

This matter is like an endless loop, and there is no complete solution.

Shen Youchen became more and more silent, more and more withdrawn, and later on, he even felt that perhaps only after he died, these troublesome things could be completely subsided, parents would no longer have to run around looking for relationships for him, and Shen Haoxi would not have to blame himself all day long .

Once the idea of ​​suicide arises, it completely leaves the seeds in the bottom of my heart.

One night, Shen Youchen woke up from the nightmare again.In the dream, he was hunted down by countless people with knives and axes. Those people had clearly visible anger on their faces. While waving those terrifying sharp instruments at him, they called him homosexual, disgusting, damn it.

He hadn't been resting well during this time, and whenever he fell asleep, he would have similar dreams.The content of these dreams has been tormenting him, almost driving him crazy!

It was deep winter, and the heating in the room was just right, but Shen Youchen was covered in cold sweat, sitting on the bed panting heavily.At this moment, the previous thoughts of suicide grew wildly like weeds in spring, and soon got out of hand.

After sitting for a while, he got up from the bed, walked upstairs slowly, and soon reached the top floor.He opened the window with a blank face, and the cold wind came in from the outside, whistling past him.

Shen Youchen was only wearing thin home clothes, but he didn't feel cold, but inexplicably felt a little at ease, as if he had put down something heavy.

As long as he is dead, all this will be settled.

As long as he is dead, parents don't have to worry about it for him anymore.

As long as he is dead, the family will not be so chaotic and restless.

Anyway, he himself is a disgusting person, even if he dies, he will deserve to die.

"Thump, thump, thump." Suddenly there was a sound of hurried footsteps from the stairs beside him, Shen Youchen came back to his senses, subconsciously turned his head, and saw Shen Haoxi appearing at the stairs.

Shen Youchen looked at Shen Haoxi's younger brother who was a little thin and haggard because of what happened during this period of time, and suddenly tightened his grip on the window, his distress for his younger brother suddenly overwhelmed the frantic suicidal thoughts in his heart.

He didn't dare to imagine what kind of psychological blow Shen Haoxi would receive if he witnessed his death with his own eyes.

Shen Haoxi has been blaming himself for this period of time. He didn't dare to approach him. He just stood at the top of the stairs and asked a little: "Brother, why are you still awake so late?"

Shen Youchen didn't dare to look at Shen Haoxi, he lowered his eyes to cover his gloomy eyes, and said in a low tone: "Haoxi, if one day my brother can't hold on and leaves first, then parents will leave it to you to take care of. "

As soon as he finished speaking, he was hugged by Shen Haoxi who rushed over. He heard Shen Haoxi's voice trembling and choking: "Brother, don't do stupid things! Everything will be fine!"

Shen Youchen closed his eyes in pain, without saying a word, he didn't know how long he could last like this.

He couldn't hold it anymore, so naturally he couldn't comfort his sad brother.

After that night, Shen Yujue and Lin Xingyuan, who had been busy dealing with scandals, came back and hired a psychiatrist to bring them back.

It's just that Shen Youchen kept silent about his knot, and the psychiatrist was helpless about his mental state, so he could only try his best to enlighten him, but because he didn't prescribe the right medicine, the effect was very little.

In addition to receiving psychological treatment every day, Shen Youchen found that Shen Haoxi had been pestering him and insisted on sleeping in the same room with him at night.

Shen Youchen knew what he was up to, and didn't object, and let him cling to him.

With relatives by my side, the effect is quite obvious.Shen Haoxi has been liked since he was a child, warm like a little sun, with him by his company, the number of nightmares that Shen Youchen had began to decrease, but this was only a temporary solution, not a permanent cure.When Shen Haoxi went to school during the day, the despair and suicidal thoughts in Shen Youchen's heart came out again.

Just when he didn't know what to do, Shen Haoxi gave him a mobile phone: "Brother, I will always be with you until you overcome the difficulties."

Shen Youchen looked at Shen Haoxi in front of him, and suddenly realized that his younger brother who had an accident and needed to be comforted by himself seemed to have grown up overnight.

His mobile phone was confiscated when Shen Yujue learned that he was mentally ill, and now Shen Haoxi gave him an old keypad phone that could only make calls and send text messages, but could not surf the Internet.

But he still received frequent text messages from Shen Haoxi, all of which were not too much content, but he still replied one by one.

In addition to Shen Haoxi's text message, Shen Youchen unexpectedly received a text message from another person - [Xing Chen, I'm childish, did something happen to you, you haven't played games for the past few days, and you haven't responded to QQ. 】

The full name of "Childishness" is "Childishness". It is Shen Youchen's regular partner in the online game. The two have been partners for a long time and have a good relationship. All kinds of looking for him.

Shen Youchen hesitated for a moment, but still replied to him - [something happened, I'm in a bad mood, I don't want to play the game. 】

In fact, since the accident, he had no time to care about the game. Later, Shen Yujue was afraid that he would be affected by the comments on the Internet, so he put away all the tools he could use to access the Internet, so he naturally couldn't play the game.

【What happened?Is it convenient to talk to me?I'm pretty good at unraveling people. 】Childish will reply soon.

Without waiting for Shen Youchen to reply, Childish quickly sent the text message: [By the way, didn't we add QQ and WeChat, why do we have to chat with each other through text messages so stupidly]

Shen Youchen can only tell the truth: [I can't access the Internet now, and I use an old keypad phone, so I can only make calls and send text messages. 】

Childish: [No way!Could it be that your family confiscated your Internet tools because you made a mistake? 】

Shen Youchen: […… so it is]

It is wrong to like the same sex.Then he was probably dead wrong and irreparable.

Shen Youchen: [I'm really sorry, I can't play the game for a while, why don't you find someone else to form a team. 】

There is no way, let alone in the mood.

Childish: [It's okay, it's okay to play less for a few days, without you as a partner, I can't cooperate with others. 】

The two chatted for a while, then ended the chat.

Shen Youchen thought that this netizen only thought of contacting him on a whim, but he didn't expect that in the next few days, Childish would send text messages to chat with him every day. At first, the content of the chat was about the adjustment of the game during this period. It gradually shifted to another direction.

Of course, among them, the main reason is that childishness sends a lot of text messages.His text messages were all interesting, and coupled with his recent comments about not being able to get in touch with the outside world, after a while, Shen Youchen's attention was diverted, but his inner depression was slightly relieved.

Unlike Shen Haoxi's careful search for topics, which seem to be normal but actually carry a little heavy text messages, childish messages don't have so many worries, and look more relaxed.

Of course, it can only be done with ease.After dealing with a psychiatrist, Shen Youchen also knew in his heart that his condition would probably not get better until the knot in his heart was completely resolved.

However, his knot is so easy to solve.

At least for now, he dare not confess his sexual orientation to his family.Because once this matter is said, it should have a great impact on the family.

He confessed his sexual orientation to his family, and it was useless except to increase the troubles and disputes of the family.

But if he doesn't find someone who can listen to him and respond to him, and just hold back like this, he feels that one day he will force himself to death.

This day, when Childish sent a text message to chat with him again, Shen Youchen hesitated and decided to try it out.

Anyway, the other party is just a netizen, and it should be normal to discuss some gossip casually.If the other party is very resistant to this matter, he will immediately stop this topic, and will not mention it again.

Shen Youchen: [I have been forced to go to the gateway and have been confined for a long time, and I don't know what happened during this time, I always feel that I am going to be derailed from this world. 】

Childish: [A lot has happened recently, what do you want to know about?I can tell you. 】

Shen Youchen: [I remember when my phone was confiscated, it happened that Shen Youchen was scandalized, I don't know what happened next. 】

Childish and honest reply: [The follow-up to this matter is that he was exposed to a lot of black material again, and the whole Internet was black, but his family has a strong background in the entertainment industry. The left and right black material that was resolved was insignificant. For him, the most important thing was to find evidence to solve the black material that harassed the same-sex actor. 】

Shen Youchen looked at the text message that came back, and felt that it was ridiculous for him to discuss his gossip with a person he didn't know in reality. He hesitated for a while, and pressed the button to enter the content of the text message——

[Then what do you think about this? 】

He sent the message, was stunned for a while, and finally couldn't help laughing at himself.

Did he want some comfort from a stranger?Or something else to make yourself feel less uncomfortable?

But the childish answer can be imagined, it should be the same as those people on the Internet, who hate him extremely.

Wanting to gain relief from childishness is just wishful thinking.

With that in mind, Shen Youchen turned the phone over and covered it on the table.

The childish answer came back quickly, and after the phone vibrated several times in a row, Shen Youchen rubbed the center of his brows in pain, struggled for a long time, then turned the phone over again, and clicked on the text message of childish return.

Seeing this, his eyes widened a lot.

Childish's answer was beyond his expectation.

Childish: [I think he is really innocent, don't look at his black material flying all over the sky, in fact, none of it is true!Even the actor said that he was harassed by Shen Youchen, it was all false. 】

Childish: [Don't believe me, what I said is true!My brother is also an actor, and he was harassed by that shit, but my brother was more vigilant, he didn't let him into the room, he beat him up, and then asked the director to kick him out of the set.Speaking of which, it's not because of his nouveau riche father that this kind of bad record artist can be so confident.Without his father, this scumbag would have been banned a long time ago, how could he still bully men and women in the entertainment industry? !I bother! 】

Childish: [Shen Youchen was unguarded against him this time, and that's why he was allowed to enter the room and fall into his trap.In fact, with the background of Shen Youchen's family, blocking this person is actually as simple as crushing an ant to death. his rumors.Alas, this dog is really disgusting. 】

Childish: [That scumbag is acting like a dog because of the heat of Shen Youchen and the Shen family, but I believe that the truth of this matter will come to light one day, but it will probably take a long time, after all, the Shen family wants To settle this matter, we need to find a way to collect the evidence of those entertainers in the entertainment circle who were abused by that scumbag. up. 】

Shen Youchen looked at those densely packed words, a little lost in thought, and the pain in his heart suddenly dissipated a lot.

As soon as his incident happened, more than half of the fans he had accumulated little by little instantly dropped. This was undoubtedly a huge blow to him-obviously, under the circumstances of this public opinion, even his fans did not Put too much trust in him.

What Shen Youchen needs most now is the trust of others.These childish long speeches and trust in him are like a few rays of light emerging from the endless darkness.

He doesn't need to speak up for him publicly on the Internet, he just needs to know that there are still people other than his family who are willing to believe him, that he didn't do that.

Even if there is only a little bit of this trust, the little spots of light they carry can illuminate him as long as they gather together.

The mobile phone rang suddenly, Shen Youchen looked at the caller ID on it, and subconsciously pressed the connect button.

"Hey, I've been typing for so long, but you just disappeared for me??? Not a single reply???" A childish voice came from the receiver of the phone.

His voice is a little immature, it is a clear and sweet juvenile voice, it doesn't sound too loud, he is about fourteen or fifteen years old.

Shen Youchen was silent for a while, and then said: "No, I was a little surprised to see your answer."

Childish: "What I said is true!!! My family is in the entertainment industry! The level of understanding of this matter must be much higher than that of ordinary netizens. When Shen Youchen's family finds enough evidence, this matter will be reversed gone."

"...I didn't say I didn't believe it." Shen Youchen replied dryly, and then he asked again, "I was surprised because you don't seem to... care about homosexuality?"

"What's wrong with homosexuality? The person you like happens to be of the same sex. What's wrong with that? Is it because they are few in number that they deserve to be labeled as mentally ill or crooked, and suffer discrimination from other people?" the childish voice said. His tone was suddenly a little harsh, and after he finished speaking, he said, "Those people have too much prejudice. This kind of thing is actually born, it cannot be changed, and they should not be discriminated against."

Shen Youchen actually felt that what he said made sense, and whispered: "It seems to be like this."

Childish: "I was thinking that if you are extremely homophobic or homophobic, I will block you directly later."

"How come." Hearing his answer, Shen Youchen seemed to have finally found a tree hole where he could confide freely, and said in a low voice, "Do you know why I was locked up at home? It's because of this..."

"Ah." The childish voice was obviously surprised, obviously, even if Shen Youchen didn't say it directly, he still understood the meaning.

"Coincidentally, I'm also...about the same as you." After a childish pause, he said comfortingly, "The elders are indeed more stubborn in their thinking. There is nothing we can do about it. All we can do is wait. Wait until the time is right, until the day they admit it from their hearts."

Perhaps it was because they confessed to each other, even through the mobile phone, Shen Youchen still felt that the relationship between the two of them had drawn a lot, and they talked for a long time on this issue, Shen Youchen said: "Thank you for chatting with me for so long. "

Childish: "You're welcome, it's good to ease your mood a little."

Shen Youchen: "Huh?"

Childish smiled on the other end: "From the moment you answered the phone and heard the voice, I could tell that you were not in a good mood, or rather, in a bad mood. As soon as the call came off, I probably guessed that you should be It’s because of those things that I’m in a bad mood.”

Shen Youchen was surprised at his carefulness, and remained silent for a while, before admitting: "Yes."

"It's okay. If you really can't find someone to talk to, you can come to me. Although I can't help you much, at least I can help you share some of the burden." Childish said.

Shen Youchen hesitated: "This seems to waste a lot of your time and energy."

Childish: "Don't waste it. In fact, I'm alone in the hospital right now. It's very boring. It's better to have you talking with me than no one."

Shen Youchen: "Hospital?"

"Well, I had a little accident not long ago and was hit by a car. Now I live in a single room in the hospital. My family is very busy, so I didn't let them accompany me." Childish explained casually, "So you and It doesn't take much energy for me to chat, to be precise, it can be regarded as helping each other to relieve boredom. Even if you don't find me, I have to find you. "

After hearing the childish explanation, Shen Youchen finally figured out why this kid could keep chatting with him for half a day when he was supposed to be in school.

Shen Youchen: "Are you okay?"

The childish tone was relaxed: "It's okay, I just hurt my leg. It's not a serious problem at first, but my brother insists on sending me to the hospital for recuperation. It should take about a week before I can be discharged from the hospital."

Shen Youchen breathed a sigh of relief: "Your brother also cares about you."

Childish: "Well, I know."

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As Childishly said, after several twists and turns, Shen Yujue and Lin Xingyuan finally collected enough evidence to help Shen Youchen turn the tide of public opinion in one fell swoop.

Perhaps the two of them opened up their hearts, and they also hit each other's hobbies. Coupled with the company of each other for a period of time, the two became more and more familiar, and in the end they had nothing to say.

Shen Youchen also learned Childish's real name - Wen Junzhi.

In this way, with Wen Juanzhi's company, Shen Youchen survived the most difficult period, crossed that hurdle, and solved his knot in the heart.Shen Youchen accompanied Wen Junzhi through the confusion of his adolescence, guiding him in the future direction.

Although they are separated by the Internet, they are like good friends they know in life. They care about each other, share joys and sorrows together, and accompany each other to grow up.

They are each other's confidants and indispensable friends in each other's life journey.

Wen Junzhi's birthday happened to be Christmas.Shen Youchen happened to be free, so he disguised himself and delivered the prepared birthday present to Wen Junzhi himself.

On the day Wen Junzhi's college entrance examination ended, Shen Youchen sent a message to Wen Juanzhi, wishing him a happy graduation.

In the evening, he received a call from Wen Juanzhi: "Brother Shen, since we both... like men, do you want to think about being my boyfriend?"

Shen Youchen couldn't help laughing: "Okay."

The author has something to say: The main cp has already given out enough sugar in the main text, so I will write about the bond between brother and Xiaozhi~

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