birth

When Xu Jia woke up the next day, he felt unbearably sore in his limbs and a dull pain in his head. He closed his eyes and rubbed the center of his brows for a while, then sat up from the bed suddenly, until he saw Fu Er who was sleeping soundly next to him, and he tensed up. His shoulders and chest slowly relaxed.It was already bright outside, and sunlight sneaked in through a few small gaps.He turned his arms uncomfortably, wondering why he was so uncomfortable, but didn't think much about it.After getting up and getting out of bed, he left the tent.

As for Fuer, who was lying on the bed, he had actually woken up when Xu Jia suddenly sat up. He blinked his eyes slowly twice, and the heavy rain last night appeared in his mind again.

The fruit that Zhang Yi picks is not an ordinary fruit, it is a must-sacred fruit.Of course, those cultivators of immortality will be fine if they eat it, but ordinary people or monsters will feel weak in limbs and drowsy if they eat it.It was also because Xu Jia was physically strong, and after eating so many holy fruits, in the end he just had an extraordinarily sweet sleep without any other discomfort.

Life is very hard.

So when Fu Er saw the Bisheng Fruit, he understood what Zhang Yi meant.Last night when the night fell and everyone fell asleep, he did wait for Zhang Yi's knock on the door.He knew that Zhang Yi couldn't let him go, and wanted to find a chance to take him away, but Fuer still refused him. If he really left without saying goodbye, I'm afraid Xu Jia's anger will be even worse this time than last time. If so... …then all their previous compromises would be meaningless.

The world will make a mess of porridge again, and all thoughts of life would be better than death.

Moreover, the reason why Xu Jia became what he is now, he also has an inescapable responsibility.

Zhang Yi clasped his fists at him and said, "Little Fuer, take care of yourself, I'm leaving first."

Fuer nodded to him in return, and stood at the door watching Zhang Yi's figure slowly disappear into the rain curtain. He didn't put down the curtain until he couldn't see anything anymore, blocking the moonlight and the sound of rain outside.

Bisheng fruit can only be found near Qingshi Mountain, that is to say... Is Qingshi Mountain near here?

When he came out of the small forest, Fu Er looked back as if feeling something, but he couldn't see anything except the continuous mountain peaks. Where is the rocky mountain?

He can't find his home.

Xu Jia looked back with him, "What's wrong?"

Fule shook his head and looked away.

Xu Jia wrapped the coat around him a little tighter, "Let's hurry up and try to get back to Gancheng tonight. If you can't take it anymore, just let me know?"

Fu Er gave a faint "hmm", alienated and without any emotion.

Xu Jia's heart suddenly felt as if someone had stabbed it with a small needle, and then he seemed to be full of anger, aggrieved and uncomfortable.He pulled the rein and whispered, "Drive!"

Zhou Shun waited for Pei Yu's Feige to deliver the letter, and then set off from Dongcheng to Gancheng. He was afraid of any accidents, so he kept watching the informant himself, not letting him leave his sight.It wasn't until he returned to Gancheng and saw the informant taken into the dungeon with his own eyes that he was slightly relieved and relaxed.

Zhou Shun ordered the people in Yugan Palace to clean up and down, and told them to prepare food, drinks and bath water, guessing that Xu Jia and the others would be back soon.Sure enough, after half an hour, the news came that Xu Jia and the others had returned to the palace.

When Zhou Shun walked out, he happened to meet Pei Yu's eyes. He stepped aside and saluted Xu Jia. After the salute, he pulled Pei Yu out of the palace gate. Pei Yu asked him, "Don't you need to serve the emperor tonight?" ?”

Zhou Shun said, "Hey, the emperor is busy today, so don't mind me."

After that, he couldn't wait to push him to Chasifang, stuck out his little head and said with a smile, "After working for more than a month, I can finally take a rest, if I don't get drunk today, I won't go home, I'll drink a lot! "

Pei Yu lowered his head and gave him a doting smile, and said softly, "Okay, I won't go home if I'm not drunk."

Fuer didn't go on a hunger strike with Xu Jia, he would answer Xu Jia's questions, but he never took the initiative to talk to him, and even when he spoke, he was very indifferent and polite, as if he had punched cotton. In short, Xu Jia felt very aggrieved.Of course he could see that Fuer didn't want to talk to him, that Fuer was angry with him, but he couldn't find a way to coax him except quietly watching him get angry.

Fu Er only ate half a bowl of rice before putting down his chopsticks, Xu Jia followed him and put down his chopsticks; Fu Er got up to leave, and he followed behind; When Er was about to close his bedroom door, he still followed behind without leaving.Fuer took a deep breath, turned around, blocked Xu Jia's way with both hands on the door frame, "I'm going to sleep."

Xu Jia raised her head and looked at him with a pair of wet eyes.

Right here, right at this door.The unhappiness that happened to them here more than a month ago is still vivid, even palpable.Xu Jia's heart suddenly felt uncomfortable. He took a few steps forward, narrowed the distance between Fu Er and lowered his head, and said, "Don't be angry, okay? I was wrong."

Fuer looked up at him, and instead of stepping back, he asked seriously, "What's wrong with you?"

Xu Jia said, "I... I shouldn't force you."

Fuer looked at him and shook his head, "You still don't know."

Xu Jia tried to grab Fu Er's hand, "Brother, it doesn't matter even if you don't like me, you can forget what I said to you that day, if you want me to be your younger brother, I will always be your younger brother. As long as you Don't push me away, don't ignore me, don't just walk away without saying a word, okay?"

He doesn't force him anymore, so can all this go back to the past?

Fu Er looked at him for two seconds, then smiled suddenly, with tears in his eyes flickering faintly, he said, "Xu Jia, we can't go back."

He used to be too dull, too cowardly.He has been subconsciously avoiding, and has always chosen to ignore it.But now that this feeling has been laid out in front of him so bluntly, how can he pretend to be confused?

Fu Er said word by word, very seriously, "Xu Jia, I have thought a lot over the past month, and I have encountered many things and many people. I think I should apologize to you. Said...that sentence."

Every relationship should be treated sincerely, not belittled and neglected.

Xu Jia's pupils shrank slightly, and then he heard Fu Er say, "I don't know if I like you or not. I thought about it for a long time, but in the end I realized that I don't even know what liking is. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for your feelings. There is no way to respond."

Born with a dullness and lack of emotions, Fuer couldn't understand these emotions normally.

During the time before meeting Xu Jia, he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with this, but until today he felt a deep sense of powerlessness. He didn't know how to like or feel jealous. Even the most basic response of a sincere feeling can't do it.

Fu'er lowered his eyes, and suddenly thought of something, his expression softened a little.

Xu Jia looked down at him, her throat choked up, "Brother..."

"Perhaps, if you give me some more time, I might fall in love with you, or maybe..." Fudu paused, trembling and closing his eyes, "Or maybe I have fallen in love with you a long time ago, but I just don’t know.”

This sentence was like a thunderbolt that made Xu Jia stunned in place. He never expected to hear a word of love from Fu Er, let alone Fu Er would say these words to him.

"But Xu Jia..." Fu Er opened his eyes, and stared directly at him, "Now...it's impossible."

The smile on Xu Jia's mouth stopped before it had time to spread, "Why?" He didn't hesitate this time, and grabbed Fu'er's hand regardless, "Brother, it doesn't matter if you don't understand now. Yes, I can give you time, you can think about it for as long as you want, I will not force you, let alone rush you." He smiled suddenly, inexplicably flattering and somewhat pitiful, "Didn't you just say that? You Like me, you..."

"Xu Jia." Fu'er interrupted his irrational chatter, the moment he spoke, tears rolled down his cheeks, "Tell me, how should we count hundreds of lives?"

Xu Jia was stunned, "I..."

Fu Er said, "Xu Jia, tell me, so many lives, are you going to take them or me?"

So many, so many innocent lives.

What qualifications do they have to be happy?

There are two of them, one is standing inside the threshold, the other is standing outside the threshold; behind one is endless darkness, and the other is bright moonlight; the two of them, although they are only a short distance away, seem to be at the moment when Fuer's words fell. In an instant, the Milky Way, which cannot be crossed for thousands of miles, was separated.

Xu Jia was stunned for about ten seconds, and the expression on his face suddenly became incomprehensible and angry, "Why do we have to recite it? If I don't recite it, you can't either!"

Fuer looked at him, "Then tell me, how should these lives be counted?"

Xu Jia was silent for a while, staring at Fu Erdao, "They deserve to die."

Fuer looked at him as if something was broken, when Xu Jia sensed something was wrong and wanted to reach out to touch him, he quickly shook off Xu Jia, and gave him a slap backhand.

Another slap.

More than a month ago, the same place, the same position, the same slap.

Fuer clenched his hands tremblingly into fists, "How could you say such a thing?"

Xu Jia took one of his wrists and held them in the palm of his hand. Pulling forward, the distance between the two narrowed again, "Why can't I say?"

"Why should we bear their death?"

Fu Er, "It's the city you sent people to slaughter! How can you say that it has nothing to do with you!"

Xu Jia raised the corners of his mouth with a sneer, "Then why did I massacre the city? If you didn't leave me, how could I massacre the city?"

Fuer seemed to lose all his strength in an instant, "Yes, I'm guilty."

He was guilty of not being aware of Xu Jia's thoughts, guilty of choosing to run away in an evasive mentality, sinful of looking at all this and having no way to choose to stop it.In fact, when he saw the child stabbed to death from the waist and abdomen in that dead city, a trace of doubt really flashed in Fuer's heart, did he really do something wrong?If he had followed the elder's advice and hadn't gone down the mountain, he would never have met Xu Jia; if he hadn't met Xu Jia, all of what happened later would not have happened, and he is still the chief disciple of the Wangshuo Sect. old.

He originally wanted to save the world, but now... in this world, because of him, more people fell into misery and lost their lives.

"People who have broken the world of mortals and re-entered the world of mortals will inevitably cause disasters and worry about their lives."

Xu Jia's grip on his wrist suddenly loosened, and he also laughed like crazy, stepped forward and crossed the threshold, and stood in that inch of darkness with Fu Er, hugging him full, he Burying his head on Fuer's neck, he said, "Brother, if you must atone for your sins, then let the two of us go together."

Go to hell together, enter reincarnation together.

From then on, they tortured each other and could not live in peace.

But it's okay, we must, we can only be together.

Eye sockets were moist silently in the darkness, Xu Jia hugged Fuer even harder, Fuer didn't push him away, and didn't respond to him, just like a rag doll that had lost its vitality in Xu Jia's arms, motionless.

Arguing, tearing, torturing, and then falling together again, redemption, no turning back.

Before meeting Fu Er, Xu Jia's inner six senses have been sleeping, so he will not resent A Niang who abandoned him, and will not complain about the injustice of fate. all emotions.

It's because of Fuer.

Because of Fuer, that heart gradually warmed up, and slowly he had emotions and desires, and had emotions about the present and the past, so he felt heartache for Meng Gexing when he recalled the past, so he took action To take care of Sheng Wanwan's trouble, that's why Zhou Shun and the others met Xu Jia who "although he has a bad mouth and often doesn't behave, but he is always kind-hearted".

It was Fu Er who warmed this heart with his own hands, and it was Fu Er who abandoned it with his own hands.

Then he became that little wolf cub again, all the warm tentacles that had been stretched out were withdrawn, and he became cold and selfish. Everything in the world and even human life became insignificant again to him. .

His sweetheart eventually became his deepest obsession and unobtainable.

It can also be regarded as karmic reincarnation, tried and tested.

The news that Xu Jia had caught an informant in Dongcheng spread like wildfire, causing panic among the people in the court, and everyone was afraid of being splashed with sewage.And Yang Zhongliang was completely panicked, but he didn't dare to take any action without authorization, for fear that Xu Jia would catch him again if he didn't pay attention.

The harem is completely different from the tense atmosphere of the imperial court, because the Queen's Sealing Ceremony is half a month away as scheduled.All the concubines rushed to Xuanli Palace, hoping to make a familiar face in front of Concubine Hui, so that life would be easier in the future.Even Jiang Shuyue sent people to send a lot of treasures to show her heart.

With such compliments, Concubine Hui was in a good mood every day, and asked Yulong about her clothes more than a dozen times a day.While helping her comb her hair, Yulong said with a smile, "Your Majesty, don't worry, everything has already been arranged."

Concubine Hui looked at her through the mirror, "What about the size?"

Yulong said, "I've measured it seven or eight times, it must be fine."

Concubine Hui grabbed Yulong's hand on her shoulder, raised her head and said anxiously, "Do you think I have gained a little weight recently? Hey, do you want someone from the Shangyi Bureau to measure it again?"

Yulong tilted her head to the left, "Your servant is watching..."

Concubine Hui looked at him nervously, "How is it?"

Yulong smiled suddenly, "It's not fat, it looks better than before!"

Concubine Hui was amused by her, and her nerves relaxed a little, "Don't be so talkative, hurry up and help me clean up."

Yang Zhongliang was so anxious and uneasy for nearly a week, and was summoned by Xu Jia without warning.Yang Zhongliang had walked the road leading to the imperial study thousands of times, but none of them was as solemn and slow as this time.

Xu Jia seemed to be concentrating on writing calligraphy, but when she saw Yang Zhongliang came in, she just let out a faint "hmm". During the long silence, Yang Zhongliang's uneasiness was magnified to the extreme.

After an unknown amount of time, Xu Jia finally put down the pen in his hand, raised his head and said to Yang Zhongliang, "Ai Qing, I summoned you today because there is someone I want you to meet."

After all, Zhou Shun brought in a middle-aged man from the door. The man was wearing a plain white robe, with a square medicine box on his left shoulder. However, Yang Zhongliang's face turned pale the moment he turned around and saw him, and he took several steps back before he could react.

Xu Jia looked at him from a high place with her hands behind her back, and said with a slight smile, "Does Aiqing still remember him?"

"Mr. Doctor of the Sheng Mansion, Doctor Huang who was called into the palace by Concubine Mi to give birth later." Xu Jia said as he walked down, approaching him step by step, "Do you still need me to introduce you?"

Yang Zhongliang's lips trembled uncontrollably, and his hands clenched into fists, "What does the emperor mean by this? Besides, Doctor Huang has already..."

Isn't it already dead?

Xu Jia didn't answer him, but just winked at Zhou Shun, and after a while, someone came in carrying a stretcher, and it seemed that the person was covered under the white cloth, "Ai Qing guess again, I want a stretcher today. Who is the second person introduced to you?"

After all, Xu Jia didn't wait for his answer, but took a step forward and lifted the white cloth, revealing the dead body inside.

"If Aiqing doesn't know him yet, then..." Xu Jia reached out and tilted the man's head to one side, revealing the black totem on his neck, "Do you know him?"

Yang Zhongliang had already been frightened to the point of ashes, trembling, "Your majesty, minister..."

Xu Jia backhanded and tore off the mask on the face of "Doctor Huang" next to him. It turned out to be a mask.

Xu Jia casually threw the mask beside the corpse, and he said coldly, "Do you need me to say anything more?"

Yang Zhongliang immediately knelt down on the ground, "Your Majesty, spare your life! Please forgive me once for the sake of the Yang family's dedication to the court for so many years! Your Majesty, Your Majesty!"

Xu Jia bowed his head, "You're a smart person. Today I called you here instead of directly sending troops to capture Concubine Hui. You should know that I'm giving you a chance."

Yang Zhongliang raised his head, his eyes showing fear.

Xu Jia continued, "Concubine Hui murdered the emperor's heir, and you murdered me. You deserve to be father and daughter." He chuckled sarcastically, and walked around Yang Zhongliang slowly, exerting invisible pressure, "There is a tacit understanding."

In fact, if Yang Zhongliang hadn't seen these people's evidence first, he would have made some sophistry, but now Xu Jia directly laid out the evidence in front of him, telling him: Don't be ignorant of good and evil.

Xu Jia paused, "You should know what I want."

Silence spread slowly in the hall like a tide.

Yang Zhongliang's eyes were filled with turbid tears, and his forehead slowly hit the ground, "I obey the order!"

The next day in the court, Yang Zhongliang's crime of murdering the emperor was made public, and the military power was handed over, but considering the Yang family's loyalty to the court, everyone except Concubine Hui was executed.

On the night of the edict, the soldiers on the death row reported that Yang Zhongliang hanged himself and died in the prison.

After all, Concubine Hui did not wait for the phoenix crown and Xiapei, but for the news of her father's death and the imperial decree to put her in limbo.

She sat powerlessly on the ground, and at that moment, she couldn't even cry.

There is a feeling of dreaming, and a feeling of the end of the dream.

She has been sent to the palace since she was 14 years old. Since then, she seems to have no other value and meaning of existence except to be a queen.Now, her dream has been completely shattered. Compared with being sad and crying, she actually has a sense of relaxation and madness at the end.

Waking up from a dream is crazy, who can laugh at whom?

After Concubine Hui was thrown into limbo, she frantically collected all kinds of beautiful ribbons every day. She didn't want to be a queen now, she just wanted to find a beautiful ribbon to end her life, until Yulong sneaked into the palace that day. Leng Gong stuffed her the suicide note left by Yang Zhongliang before his death through the crack of the door.The first two words on the suicide note already made her burst into tears. It said, "Huan'er, I'm sorry, Daddy can't accompany you anymore, but you have to be strong and you must live a good life, Huan'er."

Huaner.

How long has it been since anyone called her that? It seems that since the day she became Concubine Hui, she has lost her name and meaning of existence.Time flows back under these two words so easily and miraculously. She seems to have seen herself in the emerald green tube top skirt that year, and happened to curtsey to Yang Zhongliang with a smile. At that time, there was something in her eyes. Light, with a crisp voice, she said, "Daddy, don't worry, my daughter will let you live a good life in the future."

But in the end, I don't know which step I took wrong, one wrong step, one wrong step, to the point where my family is ruined now.

Things are people and nothing is done, and tears shed first.

Xu Jia had no intention of going to see Concubine Hui in the cold palace, but he received the news that Concubine Hui wanted to commit suicide. Even though he felt that he had nothing to do with him, he still thought of Yang Zhongliang's treatment of Concubine Hui before his death. His instructions were to take good care of Concubine Hui and spare her life.

If it wasn't for saving Concubine Hui's life, Yang Zhongliang wouldn't have been caught so easily.

Most importantly, Xu Jia remembered how Fu Er questioned him in front of him that night, so she felt compassion and drove to the Leng Palace.The temperature in the cold palace seems to be a few degrees lower than outside. Even though it is still gradually returning to spring, the inside is still bleak, with cobwebs and dead mice everywhere, and a house hidden under a big tree.

Concubine Hui squatted on the ground, hugged her legs, stared blankly at the silk ribbon in front of her, heard the creak of the door, slowly raised her head to look at Xu Jia, then smiled slowly, "Your majesty, you coming."

Xu Jia opened the door wide, and the old-fashioned atmosphere rushed over in an instant. He walked towards Concubine Hui, and heard her ask solemnly, "Your Majesty, which one of these ribbons do you think looks the best?"

Xu Jia's eyes fell on the silk ribbon on that spot, "Want to die?"

Concubine Hui reached out to pick up an emerald green one, "Do you think this one looks good? I was wearing this color when I first entered the palace, and you immediately picked me up." A girlish look appeared on her face Shy, she raised her head and asked, "Your Majesty, do you still remember? Do you still like clothes of this color?"

Xu Jia said, "You have identified the wrong person."

"Ah, you're not." Concubine Hui lowered her head again, tied the emerald green ribbon around her body, and said with a smile, "Your Majesty, do you look good?"

"..." She couldn't listen to what Xu Jia said at all. Xu Jia stared at her for two seconds and continued, "I came today to tell you that your life was bought by your father with the entire Yang family. If you want to die, think about it first, is this worthy of your father?"

After he finished speaking, he turned around and prepared to leave as if he had completed his task, without looking at Concubine Hui again.But Concubine Hui hugged him from behind, and Concubine Hui leaned her head on his back, "Your Majesty, don't you remember? We two met for the first time, I danced, you said it was beautiful , let me dance for you again, okay?"

Xu Jia took her hands that were folded on his stomach, turned around and stared at her word by word, "I'm not Chu Minghuang."

Concubine Hui smiled at him, pulled out her hand and danced around him, her figure was graceful, and the emerald green silk ribbon on her body was like a flexible little snake, making it even more mysterious, the silk ribbon was from Xu Jia Sweeping lightly on the tip of her nose, a strange fragrance came over her face, but Xu Jia just looked at her without saying a word, watched her finish the last dance, then turned around and prepared to leave, Concubine Hui Ask him behind him, "Your Majesty, will you come again in the future?"

Xu Jia paused when he opened the door, but did not answer her words. Just as he was about to take a step, he felt a rush of heat from his dantian, and the bloody smell irritated his throat. He spit out a big mouthful of blood unexpectedly, and held on to the door frame. The knuckles of his hands turned pale in an instant, he turned around, stared at her in disbelief and said, "You..."

Concubine Hui in front of her also seemed to be holding back to the extreme, and spit out a big mouthful of blood, but she still smiled, and looked at Xu Jia with a smile, and said, "Your Majesty, it doesn't matter if you don't come in the future, because We're going to be together soon..."

"We're going to hell together soon."

Speaking of this, she suddenly laughed maniacally, and as her chest rose and fell, she spat out several mouthfuls of blood again, and the emerald green ribbon on her body was finally dyed an indistinct red, she Unable to hold on, she fell to the ground, and before she died, she glanced at Xu Jia and smiled, and she said, "You can't run away, I will drag you down with me to apologize to my father."

Xu Jia didn't expect that Concubine Hui would be raped on her body after beating her to death, but who gave her the poison when she was in the cold palace?

The sudden severe pain in his head made Xu Jia unable to think any more. He held on to the door frame and panted heavily. Through the shadows on the ground, he suddenly saw a large area of ​​flames. When he turned around, he saw a large area of ​​fire outside. The forest has been set on fire, and the fire has spread, and it has burned to this house.There are still ribbons and silk fabrics everywhere in the hall, as long as the fire is lit, it will spread like a prairie fire.

Xu Jia's consciousness became more and more blurred, and he wanted to force the poison out with demonic power, but it would take a certain amount of time, plus Concubine Hui really wanted him to die, and the poison he used was also an absolute poison, it would take a while. It's really hard to force it out.

A petite figure slowly walked in front of him, Xu Jia recognized that it was Concubine Hui's maid - Yulong.

Concubine Hui entrusted Yulong to find the poison, and Concubine Hui and Yulong had discussed and released the fire a long time ago. Now, taking advantage of Xu Jia's exhaustion, Yulong dragged Xu Jia into the room with all her strength, and then slapped Xu Jia heavily. After closing the door tightly, she looked at Xu Jia with disgust on her face, "Go to hell!"