Healing black lotus

Bian Chengyi stopped wiping the blackboard for a moment.

This kind of obvious eccentricity is very useful.She smiled brightly, turned around and nodded to her: "Okay."

Huayou who got a positive answer was also very happy.She lay on the podium, waiting for Bian Chengyi, poking her face swollen from chewing fruit candy in boredom.

Waiting for the day's work to be completed, and there were still more than two hours before the lights-off time at twelve o'clock, Huayou and Bian Chengyi didn't return to the dormitory, and walked towards the library tacitly.

The library is open until [-]:[-], and many students who have finished their evening self-study will choose to come here for self-study.Of course, more students will still choose to go back to the dormitory for self-study, which is more free.There is also a self-study discussion room on the second floor of the library. You need to swipe your student card to enter. You don't need to make an appointment. It just depends on whether you are lucky enough to find a vacancy.

On the way, they walked side by side.

Huayou thought about it for a long time, but it's not true whether it's holding hands or not.Bian Chengyi was always beside her with a gap between her fists, breathing steadily, and drilled into Huayou's bones with the breath of the sea breeze.This flirtatious and seductive moment made Hua You not know where to put her hands, but Bian Chengyi suddenly stopped in her tracks.

Bian Chengyi wore a very low ponytail today. The hair tie was decorated with a gray kitten, and her oblique bangs were so long that they almost pierced her eyes.In the clear light and shadow, she glanced sideways at Huayou, raised her hand slightly, and stared at her silently.

Hua You, who was stunned for a second, finally came to her senses and took her hand.

So, the two continued to hold hands, like a pair of close friends who had been arranged and assigned, and each carried their schoolbags and walked to the library.

After greeting the teacher at the front desk of the library, Bian Chengyi took Huayou to the second floor.Bian Chengyi took out the card from his pocket very smoothly to open the study room, and it was naturally her money that was deducted.She didn't mean to ask Hua Youfen about half of it, but asked her: "Will it affect your rest?"

"No, no." Huayou shook her head like a rattle.

Bian Chengyi smiled: "That's good."

Let's analyze this weekly math paper.Huayou talked about new ideas and techniques this time: "When we saw this kind of instructions and question types, the first thing we thought of was this method..."

When Bian Chengyi was studying, she had a unique temperament, as if all the grievances and grievances around her had nothing to do with her, and only she and what she needed to learn were left.The concentration that flows out of her temperament, coupled with her skin, often makes many people fascinated.

She wears a pair of gold-rimmed glasses, occasionally turns her pen a few times, and doesn't talk much, and occasionally nods in agreement with Huayou, indicating that she understands.

Seeing that the finale was about to be discussed, Huayou was just drawing the picture with a marker on the whiteboard when she heard a sound behind her.

Bian Chengyi suddenly stopped taking notes, as if looking for something from his schoolbag.She searched slowly at first, trying not to interfere with Huayou's lecture, but then she searched faster and faster. In the end, she dumped everything in her schoolbag on the table, and even threw some supplies on the ground, her eyes overflowing A little ruthless, it can be said that it is quite different from her usual image.

Huayou walked up to her and knelt down: "What's wrong? Did you find anything?"

"Get out." Bian Chengyi trembled slightly, "If you still have a little knowledge of biology, you should know that it's best to stay as far away from me as possible."

As the smell of the astringent sea breeze became stronger and stronger, Huayou vaguely had a bad guess.

It can't be... Bian Chengyi's ALPHA's susceptibility period has come.

Naturally, Huayou would not abandon Bian Chengyi and leave for her own safety at such a time, otherwise her mission of attacking would not be in vain.But looking at Bian Chengyi's flushed eyes, she was also a little at a loss.She boldly asked, "Sister Bian, is there anything I can do for you?"

Bian Chengyi still vaguely maintained a trace of clarity and reason.She finally found a bottle of medicine from the mess, panting lightly: "You can help me ask the front desk teacher for a cup of hot water, and then... just leave me."

It will be fine tomorrow.

It will be back to normal.

Bian Chengyi's susceptibility period is somewhat special.

The susceptibility period of other ALPHA is normal, the big deal is making some small innocuous jokes.

Only her vulnerable period was accompanied by overwhelming pain and desire to destroy.

This is also the reason why she used to stay away from the words of partner or marriage all her life.

The source of power for others is love and protection.

Her source of power is hatred and destruction.

The more she likes it, the more paranoid she is, the more she wants to destroy it, the more she wants to destroy it and only have her alone.

She has always pretended to be very good, and she has rejected love letters since junior high school, and the reason has always been to concentrate on her studies.Even her mother only thought that she was just a little grumpy during the susceptible period, and not as obedient as usual, but this was also a normal manifestation of the susceptible period, so there was no need to make a fuss.

Every time Bian Chengyi is sensitive, he counts the time very well, and usually takes a short leave to find a place where no one is around to take medicine, and then resists the pain.

This kind of pain is devastating, like crushing every inch of her bones and binding every inch of her skin. Every time she comes out of the susceptible period, the flesh and blood seem to change again.She also went to see a doctor secretly, both physically and psychologically.The physiologist couldn't find any problems, but the psychologist told her that it was impossible. Although it was inhumane, it might be possible to divert the pain.

In short, she can feel better if she makes others suffer as much.

……never mind.

Byun Seung-yi is a person who lives with pain.She felt pain from her mother's scolding from childhood, the torment of the susceptible period, the invasion of gossip, and the pity some teachers lamented towards her intentionally or unintentionally.

In the end, I got used to it; sometimes, I even feel addicted.

Her only hope is that no one ever finds out.

What's more...it's you.

She took the medicine into her mouth, and the bitter taste spread.Drenched in sweat, she fell down on the table, barely raised her head, looked at Huayou's back as she went out, and even lost the strength and courage to lock the door.

Please...don't come back.

……

will you come back

"Sister Bian! Here comes the water, take a quick drink."

Huayou closed the door and ran in hastily.The peach blossom fragrance that accompanied her suddenly broke through a small corner of the bitterness, and gradually merged with the sea breeze to form a wonderful taste.

Bian Chengyi took a light breath, feeling that she was about to suffocate even more.

I didn't count the time well this time, and it must have been affected by the temporary mark last time.Bian Chengyi sighed in her heart, feeling that to some extent, Huayou was like her fate.

Worry and hatred are difficult to understand, and they are doomed.

"Did you forget that I let you out."

Bian Chengyi, who was helped up by Huayou, reluctantly took a sip of hot water, and said so.She was sweating all over her body as if she had just been fished out of a pond, her hands were cold, but her forehead was hot.

Huayou was full of worry: "Sister Bian, how could I leave you here alone. Besides, how can you go back when you are like this."

"It will be fine in a while." Bian Chengyi seemed extremely exhausted, "Everything will be admitted tomorrow."

"ALPHA's susceptibility period, is it so scary?" Huayou frowned, looking at Bian Chengyi's scene, Huayou, who had never experienced her real special period, was even a little scared, "Sister Bian, I have been of."

"Are you sure?" Bian Chengyi said in a low voice.Her eyes were hidden behind bangs, unable to see emotions clearly.

Can you keep doing this even after you know all my real faces?

"Ah? Of course." Hua You said confidently, "As the saying goes, it's good to go out for a friend, and I'm not a goin' for a friend, of course I'll ask you for a cup of hot water or tell a joke with you It can still be done. Well, let me tell you a joke about penguins..."

"No need, just keep quiet."

After Bian Chengyi finished speaking, she raised her head.Most of the whites of her eyes were filled with bloodshot eyes, and her peach blossom eyes were moist, as if she could shed tears in the next second.

But she's obviously not that weak.

She just beckoned to Huayou: "Come here."

Huayou didn't think at all, she just stood upright in front of Bian Chengyi, looking at her nervously and anxiously.

"I'll ask you one last time." Bian Chengyi let out a breath slowly, "Are you sure you don't want me to support myself and choose to help me?"

Huayou nodded, and there was even a bit of blame in her eyes: "How can a good friend let you resist alone, I will definitely be by your side..."

Before Huayou finished speaking, Bian Chengyi hugged her waist and leaned his head against her.

What Huayou didn't know was that behind her back, Bian Chengyi had pinched her hand with her nails until it was bleeding.Her face is still calm: "When I was young, I had a fever and felt uncomfortable. My mother would only tell me to carry it by myself, and then get up and continue to do my homework."

"Actually, I will always work hard to complete my homework..."

Bian Chengyi's words became softer and softer, she put her head close to Huayou's waist, and relied on her wholeheartedly.

In fact, all I wanted was a hug.

Compared to transferring the pain... I would rather let myself die of pain, and only need that 1 minute of warmth.

Huayou slowly rubbed the top of Bian Chengyi's hair, while Bian Chengyi sighed tremblingly, and silently shed a tear.A little blood spilled from the wound on her hand. She rubbed it repeatedly, and the area covered by the blood stain became larger and larger.

"Actually, I was also sick when I was a child." Huayou said suddenly.

She combined the characters in the book with her own experience, so she told Bian Chengyi half-truthfully:

"When I was young, my family was poor. I didn't dare to talk about it when I was sick, and I took it on myself when I was sick. I didn't talk about it."

"The high fever of differentiation was extraordinarily severe, and it happened that the family had the least money... At that time, I thought, if I could die the next day, it wouldn't be so uncomfortable."

"What happened next?" Bian Chengyi asked softly.

"Later." Hua You stroked the hair on the back of Bian Chengyi's head, "Later I realized that when I woke up the next day, I still wanted to live."

"I want to live when I'm uncomfortable, I want to live when I'm scolded, I want to live when I'm in pain."

"Life is my instinctive desire."

"I am willing to surrender to it and cast aside anyone who is not worthy."