Forget the year

The slowly rising sun covered the entire ward, and the person lying beside the bed seemed to be asleep or fainted, but she hadn't woken up anyway.With trembling hands, suppressing complicated emotions, he caressed her face once, twice, many times. Everything in the past has already whizzed past in his mind. In the previous life and the present life, it turns out that they have loved each other for two lifetimes.

Before He Feng had time to be grateful for this incredible miracle, after getting to know her again, everything about her made him feel strange, her avoidance, her fear, she was afraid of his distrust, and she was most afraid of him giving up .Also, he himself was powerless to resist his feelings for her from the very beginning. In a trance, he thought of that dream. Not long after he met her, he had a dream that he thought was absurd. The woman woke up from a dream in the middle of the night, her heart ached and she couldn't restrain herself, just because she wanted to disappear in front of him.

Dream is a hint?It implies that he hurt her in the previous life. When he hurt her cruelly, the first thing he had to trample on was his own dignity, a man's self-esteem, and the paranoid and destructive love after illness. Everything he had, she wanted Taste it all, whether it is joy or sorrow.

Kang Yasi is He Feng's woman, so he doesn't think there is anything wrong with it.

But later, why do you still regret it?Divorce, maybe it can relieve her pain, but at that time, the other He Feng just told himself that this cheating woman is not worthy of his love, she humiliated his face, she deceived herself, betrayed herself... .

In fact, at that time, he was just afraid, he was living in his horrible memory, doubting all the tiny contradictions, he was afraid of going through the life and death threatened by others, afraid of being hurt.And there is one person who is the most unbearable for him to hurt, because she will be hurt the most thoroughly.Therefore, he would rather lose than be hurt.Even though, losing is another kind of pain.

Later, he didn't want to recall what happened afterwards, and He Feng sometimes avoided it. He admitted that he didn't dare to recall all the past that hurt her, even though the sound of that slap still made his eardrums hurt... ..

He only remembered that when he was sick, there was a woman named Kang Yasi who was always by He Feng's side, never leaving her, even if she was hurt, she didn't want to leave.

At that time, he didn't know that he met her again in another time and space, knew each other, and even fell in love with her before he had time to know each other.Is it a gift?He thought, probably not, after all, he was really not a good person.It's just that he doesn't care, doesn't care if there is some magical power that allows him to breathe again, all he cares about is that when he opens his eyes, what he sees is the woman lying in his arms at the moment, this feeling almost makes him want to He was crying... He thought, did he really scare her this time?  …

This woman is the one who has experienced the ups and downs of the two lives and can still stir up waves in his heart. He thought, if he hadn't boasted, there would only be this one person in this world from now on.

His heart, after being riddled with holes, was sealed tightly by her again.This time, He Feng really admitted that he is old and has a heart. He is more than 120 years old. He has a lot, but he doesn't care much. The only thing he can care about is the warmth in front of him. , the warmth of deep love.

In the previous life, maybe this little woman didn't know how much, how much, she loved her.

However, he doesn't intend to let her know that those things that are too heavy for her, so heavy things, just let him bear them alone, maybe the price of rebirth is nothing more than this, let him live to repent, live to make up, and live to die Cherish, live to enjoy loving and being loved, spend more time with her.

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"How can I be willing?... How can I be willing to..." The low voice covered all the breath of death, that slap, I don't know how I was willing to hit it.

Even though there was a warm touch on the face, and even though the voice didn't sound like a fake, even if he woke up, he was still a little hazy.

"Is it a dream?...Martin" she smiled at him, rubbed her cheek against his palm, and then buried her face in his chest again

"I don't want to wake up again..." If it was a dream, then she would never wake up again.

"But I don't want this to be a dream!..." The unhurried doting tone, accompanied by the gentle movement of stroking the back, seems to be unrestrained.

There was no rush to get her to stop crying, he knew she was really freaking out and needed an outlet.

When Yasi was still buried in He Feng's arms, thinking it was just a dream, the door of the ward was opened, and for a moment, everyone was dumbfounded, watching the scene of resurrection from the dead before them.

Regarding this matter, He Feng didn't want to explain it, and he couldn't explain it clearly, because even he himself didn't know what happened, but he didn't want people to dwell on this issue any longer

"As for declaring the patient's death without confirming his condition, I think, do I have the right to sue the hospital?" He Feng smiled and said

"Of course I was just joking..."

"It's simpossble!" The doctor yelled, then walked quickly to He Feng, looked back at the following nurses, members of the Kang family, and He Zhenan, then nodded in confusion, and told others that He Feng was indeed still alive.

"Mrs. He, please step aside. We need to do a full-body examination for Mr. He." This is a miracle. Even if He Feng really didn't die, it's impossible for him to be able to speak under serious injuries. It's too unbelievable.

Even after hearing the doctor's words, Yasi remained motionless, kept his original posture, raised his head, and looked at He Feng

"I won't let them ruin my dreams"

"Jesscia, this is not a dream, I'm Martin, I'm still alive, can you feel my heartbeat and body temperature?..." He knew that IELTS was in a trance now, and the huge psychological shock made it difficult for her to accept it for a while This fact, he knows her fear better than anyone else, because in his previous life, he died once in her vitality, leaving her alone.

"I'm sorry, Ms. Kang..." The doctor was eager to know He Feng's psychological condition. This was not just a doctor's concern for his patients, so his methods were a bit tough.He signaled the medical staff to forcibly pull Yasi away, which made Yasi, who had just woken up, fall into panic again, hugging He Feng tightly, not letting go

"Don't, lie, you all lied to me, you lied to me too, I don't trust anyone anymore, I don't want to lose... you..." IELTS struggle She gradually lost her strength because the doctor gave her a sedative in the back.

"I'm sorry, Mr. He, Ms. Kang's mood is not very stable now, and I have no choice but to do so." The doctor looked at He Feng who was frowning at her, and explained in a slightly embarrassing way. The man in front of him seemed to be able to see through him at a glance. Seeing through that he was eager to know which parts of his body had changed to cause this phenomenon, the invisible pressure made him shrink back a little.

He Feng only glanced at him lightly, then withdrew his eyes, looked at Yasi who had fallen asleep in his arms, his eyes softened, and then he sighed softly

"Let her rest for a while, Mrs. Kang, please." He motioned Bai Xiaorou to take Yasi to another room to rest.

Bai Xiaorou shook her head before realizing that He Feng was talking to her. She frowned and took the IELTS away with Kang Qingyang. It could be seen that everyone was puzzled, including He Zhenan, who had never spoken, with red eyes. Hong looked at the scene in front of him.

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"It's unbelievable..." The doctor walked up and down the physical examination room, he pinched himself more than once, and the pain was clear, so this was not a dream.

He compared two identical physical examination reports, one was just checked by He Feng, and the other was checked by He Feng three years ago

It came out, the one three years ago, when he first met IELTS.

"Is there any other question?" He Feng asked quietly, he didn't see much surprise, he was used to wind and rain for more than sixty years, and he had already digested the shock when he just woke up.

"The problem is gone, but..." The doctor paused, hesitant to speak

"I think you can stay in the hospital for a while longer in observation so that...."

"Sorry, I will leave the future problems to my personal doctor. I have other things to deal with. If there are no other problems, I want to leave the hospital as soon as possible..." If IELTS is present, I will definitely It is said that he has committed the habit of being a leader, taking the initiative in everything, and has a strong desire to control.Moreover, as long as the doctor said, she would definitely do it, which meant that he had to do it too.

However, He Feng didn't think that the young doctor kept him in the hospital for observation, just to "study him", or to ask something, he was very reluctant to waste time on these things.

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When He Feng came to the door of the lounge where Yasi was located, he saw members of the Kang family standing outside

"What's the matter?" He asked, why is no one with her inside?

"She still doesn't believe the fact that you're fine, and thinks we've ruined her dream...... She said she wanted to be alone, she didn't want to talk to anyone" So Bai Xiaorou was kicked out without any time to explain out.

He Feng lowered his eyes and was silent for a while, then said

"You guys take a break first, I'll go in and accompany her..." Then, he turned his head and looked at He Zhenan

"Zhe Nan, help daddy go through the discharge procedures." After finishing speaking, he gently pushed the door open and entered.

The room was silent, she was lying on her side on the bed, facing the inside, and there was no sign of twitching, which proved that she was not crying, she had cried dry, and she was so painless.

He Feng walked over and stood in front of her.block the glare of the sun

"Jesscia, let's go home, shall we?" He bent down, leaning on the edge of the bed, looking down at IELTS, smiling gently as always, as if in a lifetime.

"If you don't go home again, I'm afraid the room really doesn't smell like you anymore, so..." He Feng lowered his head and pressed a kiss on her lips

"I'm afraid I can't breathe..." With a smile and hidden comfort, and also, affectionate confiding.

The temperature on her lips was still there, Yasi was stunned for a moment, then burst into tears, fully awake, she hooked He Feng's neck hard, so that He Feng couldn't stand still, just lay on her body, let her hold her , the initial helpless laugh, gradually turned into a tight hug, even the nasal cavity was glowing

A sour, this lost and found, he thought, no one understands better than him.

"Honey, there are people watching outside..." He Feng wanted to laugh, but he couldn't lift the corner of his mouth. He suppressed and suppressed again, and when he spoke, he was still choked up. After speaking, He Feng buried his head On her neck, kissed her skin vigorously, hugged her, and said nothing more.

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When everything calmed down and He Feng was discharged from the hospital and returned home, Yasi also followed step by step, as if he was afraid that he would disappear in a blink of an eye.

He Feng really wanted to say something to comfort her, but what to say, he was even more afraid of losing than IELTS, so he felt that he was not qualified to comfort her.

These things happened overnight, it seems difficult to digest, but people always have such a mentality, no matter how difficult it is to accept, when it happens and passes by, everything is not surprising.

ending

After everything was tidied up, night fell quietly, and the things that Yasi had in another villa had already been taken back by the people sent by He Feng. Doubt, how long it will take him to piece together such fragmented things.

However, He Feng was playing with Xun Xun in his arms, and he didn't seem to notice her side. He silently put away the photo and put it back to its original place, next to the pillow.

"Isn't it going to let the photo sleep with me tonight? ... Put it in the drawer, as long as you are here." There seemed to be a complaint hidden in the tone, but with a smile.

He Feng didn't look at her when he spoke, but Yasi knew that his attention never left.

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Yasi was lying beside Xunxun's bed, stroking the immature face unique to children, and smiling slightly.Fortunately, Xunxun's mentality was not affected, because when he was kidnapped, he was almost asleep. The kidnappers found a special person to look after him, and only gave him a small amount of food except when he couldn't cry. Even though I couldn't help but feel scared, but after the doctor's examination, IELTS was relieved when he said that Xunxun was fine.

When Xun Xun fell asleep, he opened his small mouth and giggled. He must have had a good time with He Feng tonight!After all, such a young child will miss his parents very much after not seeing them for so long!

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"What are you thinking?" He Feng asked softly, stroking Yasi's back.

Slender hands brushed over He Feng's face, neck, collarbone, chest, and waist and hips under the quilt

"I'm thinking, how can I get you back to your original weight without increasing your cholesterol?" He was so thin that she couldn't imagine it. It can be seen that during those days, he was also sad, perhaps even more painful than her.

"In this way, it's easier for you to regain your weight, because you don't need to worry about cholesterol problems." He Feng said with a gentle smile while holding his soft hands.

"Sleep!" You can see how tired she is.

"not sleepy"

"It's not good to lie..." Chong Ni warned.

"Don't want to sleep"

"How can I fall asleep?..."

"Tell me about when your heart went wrong, and what you did from a year ago to now that I don't know. I want to know, everything, without lies and neglect... ..."

"Let's talk about it tomorrow" After finishing talking tonight, if the little woman in his crying arms is provoked, no one will be able to rest. He doesn't want to burden her heart.

"Jesscia, I'm also very tired, so let's talk about it tomorrow, okay?" With that said, she will definitely not be reluctant.

"..."

"Martin, can you promise me?" She just didn't dare to sleep

"I promise I'll see you when I open my eyes tomorrow morning..."

"Hmm... how do I remember that I said this sentence" before "dying".

"jesscia, I promise, I want this result more than you do"

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Hearing the even breathing of the person in his arms, He Feng smiled with relief and helplessness. This fool, how dare he believe his guarantee? He doesn't know how many promises he has broken...

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In the middle of the night, He Feng woke up and wanted to go to the toilet, but the slender arm was wrapped around his waist, slightly tight, making him unable to move, so he moved tentatively, and took her arm away, the movement was always very light, He got out of bed, looked back at the peaceful sleeping face, frowning slightly, still showing uneasiness, He Feng sighed pitifully.

When he came out of the bathroom, the light at the bedside was already on, and Yasi was just like that, hugging her knees, curled up on the bedside, looking in the direction of the bathroom door.

He Feng froze for a moment, then reacted quickly, closed the door, took a step forward, and caught the person who rushed into his arms

"It's okay, I'm here, don't be afraid..." comforting her gently and patiently.

Yasi just didn't speak, and He Feng carried her back to the bed...

sleepless...

"Tell me about those things now..." Yasi asked He Feng in a low voice.

"..." He Feng stroked her back without making a sound, as if hesitating

"Jesscia, did you forgive me?" he asked.

"..." Actually, no.Otherwise, why would you still be brooding over the past time?

"Even if I'm not happy or forgiven, I will be by your side every day, watching you, and bothering you." She gave a hypothetical answer.

Love doesn't mean not getting angry or losing your temper, even if He Feng can do it.But, IELTS asked herself, she couldn't do it.

"...Okay, then where do you start?" He Feng laughed, and then said dotingly, he knew he couldn't escape this torture.

"Of course it started when you were planning to drive me away..." Yasi was slightly dissatisfied, and stretched out her hand to pinch him, but when she touched his thinned arm, it turned into a caress , strengthened the fattening plan

"I'd still like you to be fatter," she said.

"Why was I fat before?" He Feng asked pretending to be puzzled.

"No, it was just right before, but now, it's too thin, and I feel uncomfortable when I hold it...Hey, don't try to change the subject! Say it..."

He Feng sighed lightly, and started the road of "confession".

"After I defeated Song Shiwan, Wei Ting never forgave me. Do you remember that time when I came home late?"

Yasi nodded in his arms, then raised her head, looked at him and said.

"At that time, I thought it was the last time Wei Ting and I met, and I really felt guilty towards her. All these years, since the anti-Chinese in Indonesia, she has been helping me until I gradually gained my own influence. ...I really don't like the feeling of owing others things, so sometimes, I would rather others owe me than I would owe others. The reason why people are merciful. But I owe Yu Weiting, and I can't afford it in my life. She is right. In fact, I am the only one who can't let go of this matter. I am worried that she will retaliate against me, so, like to prevent Everyone is the same, beware of her..." What He Feng said was not just the entanglement with Yu Weiting in this life, because Yasi did not hear their conversation with her own ears, so she didn't know that what He Feng said happened in the What time.

"But when I was about to put down my guard and face her frankly, in the last conversation, she put medicine in the red wine I drank, a kind of medicine that made the heart fail. This is something I never thought of , I didn't expect that she would hate me, hate me like this..."

When he spoke, he was very calm, and he was always very calm. Even when Yu Weiting hated him, it was still the same. He knew that Yu Weiting had not only friendship for him, but also other feelings for him, and when he was with her, sometimes It is precisely because of this feeling that He Feng thinks that he is mean, and I believe Yu Weiting also knows it, but she is voluntary, and he really doesn't care much.

"A year ago, my body began to show symptoms, frequent heartache, and easy to get tired. I was worried that something was wrong with my body, so I went to the hospital for a physical examination secretly. As a result, the doctor told me , that kind of drug is very advanced, it is a drug that is banned from distribution abroad, and it has penetrated into my heart after a year. The reason why it is said to be advanced is that when I did a body check before, I never checked it The existence of this drug... The doctor told me that I still have a year and a few months, I don't know how many, because during that time, I may at any time... "

"So this is why you searched for all kinds of reasons not to let me accompany you to the body check a year ago?...Martin, I really want to hate you." IELTS was a little choked up, so a year ago, he always He was clinging to himself, often looking at himself with eyes that she didn't fully understand, and was often moved by her words and actions. During that time, he almost responded to her requests.

"Even though I knew my physical condition, I was still hesitating. I couldn't bear you until later, we fainted after returning from Wang Dong's funeral. I knew that I couldn't hide it anymore. This fainting situation It will continue to appear, as long as my mood fluctuates greatly, just like when you comforted Lin Weier that day, I thought, one day, you will leave..."

"You forced me, I was left." Yasi wiped away tears indiscriminately, correcting dissatisfiedly.

"Yes, it's my fault." He Feng stretched out his hand and wiped away the tears from her eyes with a smile.

"Is there? The wise and wise Mr. He also makes mistakes?!" Ya Si took his hand off and got down on the ground.

"No matter what happens, I shouldn't let you go, this is my biggest mistake" more than once.

"Also, you shouldn't have let me live in that villa alone, do you know how scared, how sad, how... miss you..."

He Feng didn't speak, he couldn't be as straightforward as IELTS expressed, but his thoughts, his distress, and his sadness were more than anything else, no one knew this better than himself, even He couldn't hide it at all, even Zhenan and Yatong could see it.Therefore, when he was recuperating in bed at home, they said more than once that they wanted to find IELTS, and more than once they wanted to find her to come back with them, because he would be much better if that was the case.

He has also stopped, more than once, God knows how much effort it will take him, to prevent himself from seeing her.

Yes, it can't be done, so as long as she comes to see Xunxun, he will go to the gallery, just for one look, just one look.

Others always think that He Feng is aloof and needs to be looked up to, and even she sometimes puts herself in a position higher than her.But the fact is, in front of her, he can really be as low as the dust, and even the little remaining bottom line has disappeared at the moment of rebirth. After two lives, she has done this for him, and he still What can't let go of it.

"The thing that makes me feel helpless and self-blaming is that you are sick but you don't say anything, you are alone in the villa, and you don't call... At least, you have to call Mr. Kang or Mrs. Kang , What if something really happened?..." Recalling that time, He Feng's tone was slightly reproachful, and even his mood was not as calm as before.

"Do you know that later Yatong told me how high your fever was?..."

"Well...so nagging..." IELTS complained

"I didn't ask you to settle the score, but you blamed me, yes, what if I did it on purpose. Because I know you came back and I deliberately didn't go to the hospital. I just want to make you feel bad, and I just want you to know that you did it yourself. What a big mistake I made, I just want you to regret your decision, I..."

Before he finished speaking, his lips were already sealed, and a deep kiss was very short.

"Jesscia, I didn't mean to hurt your hand that day." He Feng held her hand and gently rubbed the spot where his belt had hurt

"I just... I just found out that day that I couldn't hold you, I didn't even have the strength to hold you. I was afraid that if I didn't leave at that time, I would be inseparable. I was afraid that you would Discover everything...."

"It's okay, we don't owe each other, I'll bite you too, even!" Yasi interrupted He Feng's self-blame.

"Martin, this is the first time you've spoken to me without any concealment." She could feel that He Feng was cutting himself apart inch by inch in front of her, and his world bit by bit, to show her, whether or not Give her a stressful situation, in such a natural way.

"Your concealment is very effective. How did I find out? Even if I searched all the doctors who had contact with you and asked everyone around you, they all either didn't see me or kept silent, even my second sister It's all... I don't know if it's your power or your popularity, or everyone thinks the same as you, thinking that it's good for me to let me leave you..."

"Jesscia, I regretted it, but at that time, it was too late. I didn't expect you to go to Wei Ting to verify what I said. I thought you would hate me, and I thought you would ignore me from now on, so, I I didn't expect you to go to the Philippines with me, let alone..." When he heard the explosion of the car where she and Ringo were in, he even felt that even breathing was unnecessary... ..

Later, it was still the ring, which made him guess that Yasi might still be alive, because the ring was not taken off her finger, and Yasi would never take the ring off on her own initiative, so there was only one result. Song Ziling forced her to take off the ring, making The illusion made him think that after she died, he, He Feng, would be depressed.It's a pity that they overdid it too much. How could it be so easy to find a small ring... So, he used his tricks and showed an indifferent attitude towards the outside world, while secretly To find news related to IELTS.As for Zhe Nan, he is doing things outside, so it is easy for Song Shiwan and Song Ziling to take it lightly.

His emphasis on IELTS, on the one hand, hindered him, and on the other hand, also helped him.

"I didn't know about the explosion beforehand. When I called you at the end that day, Song Ziling was no longer in the car, and she called me to tell me that if you continue to follow me, my car will explode, and you It's bound to hurt..."

"So, tell me to stop?..." He Feng immediately interjected.That way you don't hurt yourself.

"That's right, I was thinking at the time, I want you to live a good life and make you regret it for the rest of your life." IELTS muttered inappropriately.

"...You always make me feel that everything for you is worthwhile, Jesscia" He Feng sighed and smiled.

I remember that in the previous life, they had dinner with Yu Weiting not long after they quarreled because of Yu Weiting in the previous life. At that time, he told Weiting that he always felt that he was not good enough for IELTS, and he really thought so.

"However, I didn't expect that there was no bomb in my car. Song Ziling had already prepared a car and parked it where we passed, and asked me to throw the ring next to that car. The car was already dead. The people who wear the same clothes as Ringo and I, they set their sights on us on the first day we came, of course, if it wasn't for Ringo, Song Ziling wouldn't have known so clearly...and, if it wasn't for ringo, I didn't know about your illness, and I didn't know that you actually delivered me to Leon, it's funny, I didn't think you were the one who could do that, martin...do you know that At that time, Leon was already engaged to Shen Zhicheng?..."

"I just asked him to take care of you that night, not...uh... I'm afraid that you don't know how to take care of yourself alone." It seemed that under her questioning, he was often speechless.

Yasi pursed her lips in disdain for his bad excuse.

"When did you start to suspect ringo?" she asked.

"From the time you appeared in front of me that morning, the only people who knew about my itinerary were Zhenan and Ringo. Zhenan would never say anything. First, he felt guilty for losing Xunxun because he was ashamed to see you. Second, I said to him , if you go with me, it will only make me more dangerous, so... the person who tells you can only be ringo, he told you that this matter is harmful to our travel, as my subordinate Why did he do this?... That is, their target is you from the beginning, but I can't stop you, because Xunxun is still in their hands, I am afraid that if Xunxun gets out What, you really hate me, what I planned to let happen, but at that moment, I didn't have the courage to bear the consequences, I'm selfish, aren't I? Jesscia"

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"It's good to know!" IELTS said superficially, and then took a deep breath

"Husband, what time is it?"

He Feng turned around and glanced at his watch.

"After five o'clock" curled the corners of his mouth, time always flies by with her.Compared with those difficult nights he had spent by himself, it was a world of difference, but during those days, in order to maintain his physical condition and persevere, he could not take sleeping pills.

"Let's get up and have breakfast, don't disturb them, let's continue to sleep after eating, and let them not call us when the time comes, okay?" She didn't plan to eat, but let He Feng sleep with her until she woke up naturally, but thought about it Thinking that would go against the plan of the two of them to gain weight, they dismissed the idea.

"...Okay, I'll do it" He Feng scratched her nose.

"I'll go as well......"

So, the two made breakfast together in this undisturbed early morning, and their happiness was unknowingly ever since.