The scum attack has the ability to chase after it.

Father Shen woke up and turned around, it was 8 o'clock in the evening.

He stared blankly at the ceiling for a while, probably not expecting that he was still alive.

Shen Li called him three or four times before he seemed to recover, looked at Shen Li, his eyes turned red.

"Little Li, are you back?"

"Well, Dad, I'm back."

"Are you still going?" Shen's father tried his best to support himself, looking at Shen Li expectantly.

How can Shen Li say the word "go".

"Dad, are you hungry?" Shen Li couldn't answer, so he could only change the topic.

His father seemed to understand something, fell back on the bed, and didn't start, with a look of resisting world-weariness: "I'm not hungry, if you want to go, go now, I'm fine, I won't trouble you."

Such a score is obviously out of anger.

For a moment, the air in the ward seemed too quiet.

After a long time, Shen Li sat down.

Some things, he knew, could not be avoided by changing the subject.

He thought it was necessary for him and his father to have a good talk.

"Dad, come with me to City A."

"Why go there? My home is here, and I'm not going anywhere."

"Leng Mobai gave up a lot for me, I can't leave him, and he is in a difficult situation now, I can't do anything for him, the only thing I can do is to stay with him, so Dad, I have to stay in City A , I know you are lonely at home alone, you follow me to City A!"

Father Shen became emotional: "Xiao Li, you are a man, do you know what you are doing?",

This tone and demeanor really showed that he was very resistant to the matter of being together with Leng Mobai.

Shen Li understands that in his traditional thinking, he rejects and accepts homosexuality.

He tried, wanted to convince him: "Dad, I know I'm a man, but the person I like is also a man."

"You're messing around." Father Shen became even more agitated.

Shen Li's tone also raised a bit: "Dad, there is no law that stipulates that a man must be with a woman, and there is no law that states that it is illegal for a man to be with a man."

"But it's immoral, it's embarrassing, it's shameful, Shen Li, do you know that you've made my spine poked." Shen's father scolded angrily.

Shen Li fell silent.

Father Shen thought that he was ashamed.

Strike while the iron is hot and persuade: "Xiao Li, listen to Dad, you can't go astray, your life is still very long, find a woman, get married and have children, this is the life that a normal person should have."

Shen Li was still silent.

Father Shen continued: "I know that Xiao Leng is very rich, but what can money bring? Did your mother find a rich man? In the end? How many women did that man raise outside? Go home, your mother is living a miserable life now, rich men are bothered, and he is just playing with you..."

"Dad!" Shen Li could no longer keep silent.

Or rather, keep calm.

He was angry.

very angry.

"Why do you dictate my life?"

Father Shen was stunned.

Shen Li said coldly: "Where were you in the years when I needed you the most?"

"Uncle passed away and left the house to me. You said you sold the house to raise funds to buy you a big house, and if you bought it, you would pick me up to live in it. Did you do it?"

"I have been in high school for three years and college for five years. Have you paid a tuition fee or a child support fee?"

"During the divorce, when my mother didn't want me, and you insisted on not wanting me just to get angry with her, did you ever treat me as your son?"

"When you took uncle's house money and bought a house under that woman's name, did you think about me?"

"My hand was injured. I was in a car accident and lay in the hospital and almost died. Have you called me yet?"

"You are sick, I run around, I beg my grandpa and grandma to take care of you, I think I have done enough as a son, but what about you? Did you ask me from the beginning to the end, Xiaoli Are you happy and happy with Leng Mobai?"

"What do you mean by using my mother as a negative example to educate me? In your eyes, my mother and I are doomed to be abandoned, hurt by others, and suffer for ourselves, and end in tragedy, right?"

"Why can't you love me like a father for once, why can't you let go of your face and think about your son's happiness, it hurts you to be poked in the back? You know that Leng Mobai was poked by the whole world for me Backbone? Dad, can you do it?"

Father Shen was dumbfounded by Shen Li's yelling, and stayed there in a daze, speechless.

Shen Li's eyes were red: "Leng Mobai will never be like you, hurt me with death, make me feel guilty with suicide, what do you want to do? You wrote this kind of suicide note purely because you want me to never forget you in the next life." Think about it, let me live forever in accommodating and ashamed of you, right?"

"You also want everyone to know that my son killed me. You want everyone to think that I am an unfilial son who would not even have his own father in order to be with a man, right?"

"What do you really want? What do you want me to do? I have spent a lot of effort to convince myself to forget the ten years of living like an orphan, to give up the past, to be by your side, to be filial, to accompany you You walked the last part of your life, but Dad, why did you do this?"

"How am I sorry for you? Are you going to do this to me?"

Shen Li cried, cried bitterly.

What I cried was not the grievance and grief at this moment.

Instead, he vented all the grievances and grief and anger of the past ten years.

Those pains deposited in the bottom of my heart have never been healed.

He is not a saint, how could he really live such a magnanimous and careless life.

That huge scar, naked and bloody, filled with all the hardships and loneliness he experienced during the ten years when Shen Li was abandoned by his parents.

Abandoned, forgotten, to put it bluntly, if he hadn't met Leng Mobai, he would have died somewhere, and there would be no one to collect his body.

Now I want to control him, pointing fingers at his life, commenting on his life, what is he doing for more than ten years, when I need him for more than ten years?

Shen Li really didn't know, could it be that he looked too easy to bully?

He really broke down.

He didn't want to bear it anymore, and he couldn't bear it anymore.

And Shen's father on the bed, also in this furious accusation, was ashamed and burst into tears.

After a long time, both of them calmed down.

Shen Li looked at the drip that was about to be finished, and said hoarsely: "It's almost finished, I'm calling a nurse, Dad, what are you eating?"

"Xiaoli!" Father Shen's voice also became hoarse, shaking his head, he had no appetite at all.

"Forget it if you don't want to eat. If you are willing to be hungry, I will be hungry with you."

In the ward, the father and son sat quietly.

When the drip was almost over, Shen Li rang the bell to call the nurse.

The nurse came in to change the salt water, exchanged a few words with Shen Li briefly and left, the ward fell into silence again.

Father Shen fell asleep later, his body was too weak.

And Shen Li leaned on the chair, looking out the window in a daze.

If he had to choose between his father and Leng Mobai, he thought, he already had the answer in his heart.

however.

Why do you have to choose?

Looking at the person on the bed, he suddenly thought of what his mother accused him when they divorced: "Weak, selfish, not like a man."

How apt.

However, who would have imagined that such a man who was "cowardly, selfish and not like a man" in front of his ex-wife and son would give his all for another woman and be a hero for half his life.

How ironic.

Shen Li's heart was full of sadness.

Standing up, he wanted to get some air outside, and when he opened the door, he saw Leng Mobai who had been sitting in the chair beside him for an unknown amount of time.

After the hesitation, the tears fell almost immediately.

The man stood up and opened his arms to him.

He jumped in, at this moment, he was his harbor, dock, home, and the whole world.

"How did you come?"

"Don't worry, come and have a look."

"How long have you been here?"

"It's been a while."

"Why don't you come in?"

"I'm afraid your father doesn't want to see me."

Shen Li realized how long this was.

"You all, did you hear that?"

"I didn't hear all of them, but I heard all the words you yelled, Xiao Yang, you have such a big temper, I really underestimated you." He stroked Shen Li's hair half jokingly, half affectionately.

Passers-by looked sideways, with gossiping eyes.

However, Shen Li didn't care at all.

He hugged Leng Mobai even tighter: "I'm left with you, and from now on, you will be the only one."

Leng Mobai was emotional, and kissed his heart: "Don't worry, I will never let go of your hand again."

"Husband!" This is the first time Shen Li called him so willingly and let nature take its course.

If it wasn't for the conditions, Leng Mobai really wanted to put this person under his body and melt into his own flesh and blood.

"Oh, little daughter-in-law."

In the end, Shen Li still couldn't really leave Father Shen behind.

After taking care of him in the hospital until he was discharged, Shen Li took him home.

The relationship between the two was not completely harmonious in the first place, but now it seems even more awkward and divided.

The simplest thing is, before returning home, Shen Li would naturally put all the shoes that he and his father changed into the shoe cabinet after changing their shoes.

But now, his father will put his own in first, and I'm sorry to let Shen Li do it for him.

The first dinner back home was cooked by Shen Li.

After cooking, eat in silence.

Perhaps the atmosphere was too deserted, so his dad turned on the TV midway.

At that moment, Shen Li frowned because he got a fishbone, and his father immediately turned down the sound of the TV carefully.

Shen Li felt helpless and sad in his heart.

Father and son are not like father and son, enemies are not like enemies, not even strangers.

He was unfamiliar and indifferent to his father.

His father was cautious and cramped towards him.

Shen Li felt that this kind of family atmosphere carried a suffocating sense of coldness and violence, very similar to the atmosphere at home that made people feel extremely stressed on the eve of his parents' divorce.

So three days later, after dinner, he had a frank and honest conversation with his father.

The content of the conversation is very simple.

He was going back to City A, and asked his dad if he wanted to follow him.

This time, his father no longer dared to point out the "immoral" relationship between Shen Li and Leng Mobai in the attitude of a parent.

Instead, he thought about it seriously and said, "Xiao Li, I don't think I'm going."

"Okay." Shen Li went back to the room without saying anything.

Early the next morning, he packed the salute, a big box.

He came in such a hurry that he didn't bring anything at all.

However, when he left, he took such a big box with him.

The moment Father Shen looked at the box, panic was written in his eyes.

"Xiao Li, you, are you back?"

"Do you want me to come back?" Shen Li asked back.

Father Shen hardly thought about it: "Can you come back often?"

Shen Li felt that the extravagance and flattery in these words, he was still soft-hearted after all, let go of the box, stepped forward and stood opposite his father: "Dad, I understand, I will go home every Saturday and Sunday .”

Father Shen's expression relaxed, and he subconsciously glanced at Shen Li's box.

Shen Li understood the worry in his eyes: "I found a nanny for you. There are only two rooms in the house. I have to free up my room for her to live in. These are some of my things, which are not very useful. I plan to send them to you. Go to the impoverished mountains."

Only then did Shen's father breathe a sigh of relief.

But soon he frowned again: "Then where do you come back to live on weekends?"

"Sleep with you."

Father Shen couldn't hide his joy.

The fact that the son is still willing to sleep with him shows that he still wants to kiss him in his heart.

He hurriedly said: "Okay, it's Thursday today, you go now, then will you come back this Saturday and Sunday?"

"I will try my best."

"If you're busy and can't come back, just make a call."

"Dad, if you can't sleep because of the pain, you can also call me."

"Okay, okay."

"I'm leaving."

Shen Li carried the box and went out.

Father Shen sent it downstairs.

Followed along the way, went to the post office to send things first, and then sent Shen Li to the bus station.

Looking at the figure that was no longer tall and straight through the glass, Shen Li had mixed feelings.

They all say, don't let your parents live cautiously in front of you.

How could he want to do this.

But there are too many hurdles between him and his father, and I'm afraid they won't be able to get through it in this life.

One of them is cold ink white.

Shen Li knew that even though his father was afraid of losing his son, he would not let go of his plan to be with Leng Mobai.

Shen Li returned to City A, exhausted physically and mentally.

Leng Mobai came to pick up the machine, and went all the way back, facing Shen Li's silence, he didn't bother him, just hugged him and gently rubbed his back.

After returning home, Shen Li went to bed and fell asleep, the sky was dark and the sky was dark.

He hasn't slept well these days.

He was afraid that his father would be in pain at night and dare not disturb him to carry it all by himself.

So he kept himself awake every night, always listening to the movement outside the door.

He wrote indifference and alienation on his face, but engraved his care and worry in his heart.

Perhaps this approach itself is wrong.

But Shen Li really didn't know how to get along with his father.

He really hopes that someone can tell him how to deal with such a father-son relationship.

However, Leng Mobai is obviously not good at handling the relationship between father and son.

Shen Li came back this time because Mo Mian told him that Leng's family was in chaos, and Leng's father called Leng Mobai back, quarreling so much that he wanted to sever the relationship between father and son.

Although these, Leng Mobai didn't mention a word.

But Shen Li knew very well that he must be very upset.

At this moment, he wanted to be with him, so he came back.

The author has something to say

Does anyone want to say: Xiao Li, you did a great job.

Life you think is poetry and distance, but it is actually a feather.

Fortunately, this is not a short farming essay by parents, so I won't let chicken feathers fly all over the sky.

Tomorrow, it's going to be bloody, it's obviously unrealistic for Lin Xinyin to be so quiet, right?