I was on the clouds

Ye Xi cried all night watching those two little paper figurines.

There was a steady stream of sadness in her heart. Under this unspeakable grief, other emotions were severely suppressed, and her mind became more and more clear.

She sat by the window all night, thinking about her future carefully. She spent almost three years in the mental hospital, and there were not many three years in her life, so she couldn't spend it like this.

She was thinking calmly in the midst of sadness, her eyes that were soaked in tears were getting colder and colder.

Everyone was relieved to see her like this, Ye Xi drove them away, Feng Yuqing and the others didn't dare to argue with her, after thinking about it, they could only ask Chi Xiangnuan's parents to take good care of her.

As soon as they left, the place became deserted all of a sudden. Ye Xi sat on the threshold, quietly flipping through Chi Xiangnuan's Weibo. In the third year after her death, there are still book fans who came to her Weibo to wish her Happy New Year.

Ye Xi clicked on Chi Xiangnuan's WeChat and sent: "Xiang Nuan, happy new year, I really miss you, miss you so much, miss you so much".

She smiled wryly, and suddenly a denim jacket was added to her body. Mother Chi was standing behind her, staring at Ye Xi's phone screen in a daze.

She has gray hair all over her head, and she is much older than she remembers.

Ye Xi touched the denim jacket on her body, and suddenly took it off and hugged it in her arms. She lowered her head, and a layer of mist appeared in her eyes.

She stood up from the threshold, touched the denim jacket and said, "I bought this when we went to Shanghai that time."

Chi's mother smiled: "Yes, when I paid more than 3000 yuan, I was speechless at that time."

Firecrackers sounded outside the house, and Chi Youxin walked into the house with his hat bowed on his waist. He stammered, "Every time... I will... come back here, I can't bear it."

Ye Xi smiled: "Uncle Chi, I can't bear it either."

Ye Xi stayed here for half a month. Before leaving, Chi's mother took out a passbook and two bank cards, and Chi Youxin smoked silently beside her.

Chi's mother said kindly: "Xiang Nuan wrote a book before, and I don't know much about it. Anyway, I sold a lot of copyrights, adding up to 8000 million. The two of us who are half buried in the soil are useless to ask for this money. Sometimes You are so scared, you are young and promising, take the money to live a good life, and when we both die, we will die, and the ashes will be buried next to Xiang Nuan, and the family can be reunited again."

Ye Xi shook his head.

Chi's mother said again: "It's a disaster to put too much money in your hands. Let it go to you. We still live in your house. We are all a family. Don't refuse."

Ye Xi took the bank card and passbook, his throat was so congested that he couldn't speak.

She settled down with Chi Xiangnuan's parents in Shanghai, and returned to her residence in Lujiazui.

She thought there must be no one here, but when she entered, Ye Desheng and Ye Nuan were sitting in the living room.

She was standing at the door, and suddenly wanted to turn around and leave, Ye Nuan stood up from the sofa with a 'babble', and shouted in surprise and joy: "Sister Xi".

Ye Xi's gaze flicked across her face, she stood for a while with her head down, changed into her slippers and walked in.

Ye Desheng sat on the sofa without moving, but looked at her without blinking. Ye Xi glanced at him and said coldly: "You have a home outside, and you brought your family here. Are you trying to disgust me?"

Ye Desheng smiled wryly: "Ye Nuan insists on coming here to wait for you, don't lose your temper with me all the time, can you just sit down and have a good conversation with me?".

Ye Nuan stood aside in embarrassment, looking at Ye Desheng for a while, and Ye Xi for a while.

Facing this face that was very similar to Chi Xiangnuan, Ye Xi couldn't get angry, and couldn't say anything nasty.

Without even looking at Ye Nuan, she went upstairs and opened the bedroom that had been dusty for a long time. There was still a schedule in front of the desk. It said itinerary plan. There were 29 items in total, [-] of which were marked with a red line. , the plan at the end was not completed, and the beautiful thin gold script read: "He Xiangnuan went to Provence to hold a wedding".

Never had a chance to finish.

Seeing all this at this time, there was not much emotion in my heart, maybe it was almost numb from the pain.

She sat on the bed in a daze, Ye Desheng opened the door and walked in, Ye Xi said coldly: "Go out".

Ye Desheng paused, and after a moment of silence he said: "Ye Xi, I have been blaming myself."

Ye Xi raised her eyes to look at him, she was about to refute something, but she swallowed the words again, she closed her eyes and said sleepily: "What can you say, it's just a few words , I can’t get around what happened back then, and I don’t want to hear about those things at all.”

Ye Desheng whispered: "Why are you always so sure, do you really know what I want to say?".

"Then what do you want to say?"

Ye Desheng said dejectedly: "I am the last person to know that you have depression. I am your father. I love you no less than anyone else. What are you thinking?".

Ye Xi said in a calm tone: "That depends on what you think. When you first knew that my mother was a genetically ill patient, you would have already planned to abandon your wife and son. If it wasn't for Ye Zhen's death , I may never be brought to Shanghai by you in this life."

Ye Desheng frowned, and said in a deep voice, "Don't think wildly."

Ye Xi sighed: "Dad, I understand, I also understand, every time she goes crazy, I will lock myself in the room. Once she went crazy, there was a wall between us, and she was holding a kitchen knife. I chopped the wall at once, and I did my homework on the desk next to the wall, and she chopped until three o'clock in the morning, and I finished a whole book of Olympiad problems."

"The phone line at home is often disconnected. I can't ask anyone for help. I also know that no one will come to help me. They all hate me. Now that I think about it, I was too extreme. If I were willing to speak, Second Uncle will definitely help me."

Ye Desheng frowned, looking very sullen.

Ye Xi glanced at him, and continued: "You discovered that she was mentally ill very early on, and most of the children she gave birth to would not be normal. After Ye Zhen died, you had no choice but to take me to Shanghai, and let a very dangerous mental patient I am alone in the room with a child who is less than ten years old. Dad, I have long been the one you gave up. Your calculation is really good. If I am killed, you can send her to the mental hospital, completely Get rid of our burdens."

"In my heart, you are both a relative and an enemy."

Ye Desheng stared at Ye Xi with a sullen face. His expression was ferocious for a moment, and it was only for a moment. The next second he regained his composure, even with a smile on his face. He said slowly: "My My daughter is truly the smartest person I have ever met and you have always been my pride."

Ye Xi's expression remained unchanged, and he said coldly, "Go out."

Ye Desheng smiled slightly, and walked out calmly. When he reached the door, Ye Desheng turned his back to her and said, "Ye Xi, I have always preferred you."

The relationship between their father and daughter is always deformed and strange. One second they are tense, but the next they start whitewashing the peace.

At dinner at night, Ye Desheng even smiled and picked up a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs for her. Ye Xi put the ribs in Ye Nuan's bowl, and Ye Nuan's face turned red with excitement.

Ye Desheng shook his head with a very helpless face.

After dinner, Ye Nuan boldly ran upstairs to find Ye Xi, who was packing his suitcase.

Ye Nuan asked in shock, "Sister Xi, are you leaving again?".

Ye Xi put the suitcase aside and said 'hmm', Ye Nuan stood outside the door, and suddenly said very firmly: "Sister Xi, I want to sleep with you tonight".

Ye Xi turned around and looked at her in surprise. Ye Nuan walked in regardless and sat on the bed, looking at Ye Xi stubbornly.

Ye Xi also sat on the bed, rubbed his forehead tiredly, and said in a gentle tone: "If you have anything to say, hurry up, I'm very tired."

Ye Nuan's eyes lit up, and he asked eagerly, "Sister Xi, do you still remember what happened in the hospital?".

Ye Xi nodded.

Ye Nuan said: "For the first half year, you didn't speak a word, and you didn't react at all to the outside world. Later, I couldn't help but go to see you, and you suddenly reacted, but sometimes you would go crazy when you saw me, like a Like a ferocious beast, you are finally healed now, Sister Xi, I have a lot to say to you."

Ye Xi asked: "Then you log into Xiang Nuan's WeChat and continue to stimulate me?".

"At that time, you seemed to remember something about your encounter with Sister Xiang Nuan. On that day, you suddenly picked up your mobile phone and sent Sister Xiang Nuan a WeChat message, and I watched from the sidelines."

"How do you know Xiang Nuan's WeChat password?".

Ye Nuan rubbed his nose and said, "I found Sister Xiang Nuan's parents, they gave me that old cell phone, and the notepad in the cell phone recorded account information and the like, and I won't have any more after you're fully awake." Logged in, really."

"I see, you go to another room, I'm not used to sharing a bed with others."

Ye Nuan sat on the bed, lowered her head and said in a low voice, "Sister Xi, can you chat with me? I'll leave when you're sleepy."

Ye Xi frowned, she glanced at that face, but couldn't say no to it, so she had to answer.

Ye Nuan leaned on the bed and said shyly: "Sister Xi only knew about me in her sophomore year, but I knew that I had a sister when I was sensible, and my father never kept it from me. That kind of person, my mother chased after him, knowing that he had a family and didn’t care, and didn’t care about anything. Later, my father agreed. Our family is in Hangzhou. When I settled down, I went to Shanghai with my father and went to school in Shanghai.”

Speaking of this, she smiled: "We are in the same elementary school, the same junior high school and high school. I am two years behind you, and I have been following you and watching you silently. Sometimes the teachers and classmates in the class will talk about you. I was very happy when I was there, I really wanted to tell others that the legend in their mouth was my sister, but I didn’t dare.”

Ye Xi listened carefully, and suddenly reached out to touch her head.

Ye Nuan looked at her stupidly, she held that hand, and said excitedly: "Sister Xi, I have many answer sheets for you, all of which were brought back by my father."

No wonder she always lost the answer sheet for a while, and couldn't find it no matter how hard she looked.

"What's the use of that thing".

"It's useful, it's useful. When I'm tired of studying, I take it out and have a look. It's very motivating."

Ye Xi shook his head with a smile, and said: "I'm sleepy, I won't continue chatting with you, you go to sleep, good night."

Ye Nuan felt extremely lost all of a sudden, and she left reluctantly. After she left, Ye Xi looked at the suitcase and stayed up all night.