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In the middle of the meal, Fu Jia was taken away by the manager and released very late.Xiaoou asked him if he wanted to have a drink, he hurriedly shook his head: "I have to see my mother, she is hospitalized again."

This time, my mother-in-law was admitted to the hospital for treatment, and if everything went well, it would only take half a month.Unexpectedly, Fu Weimin didn't have much to do tonight, and he happened to be in the ward, and the father and son started arguing again after a few words.

After all, it was still the contradiction. His parents hoped that he could find a suitable partner to settle down, but he never let go.

"It's been nothing to support you for more than [-] years!" Finally, Fu Weimin scolded furiously.

"You don't need to support me in the future."

Fu Jia was disheartened, took her mobile phone and went downstairs to relax.While waiting for the elevator, I felt uncomfortable, and couldn't help but glanced at my inbox, but there was still no news.

Is Xu Shuyuan really that heartless?

Forget it, ignore it and ignore it, don't ask yourself to be boring in the future.

At this time, the elevator is very busy, but the 24-hour supermarket downstairs is very deserted.A man and a woman beside the freezer were talking in a low voice: "You should work harder these few days, and go to the hospital a few more times."

"I know you can rest assured. Do you need to go to Manager Xu's house to get a change of clothes? I didn't ask just now. I'm not sure if I have to wear the clothes issued by the hospital all the time."

"Go back and ask."

Fu Jia paused and turned to look at them.They carried backpacks issued by D Ji.

The girl seemed to have a lot of emotion: "Why do you think he doesn't even have any relatives?"

"This is the leader's private matter, how could we know."

After recovering, the two of them had already gone to check out.Fu Jia was stunned for a moment, and hurried forward: "That—"

The other party looked puzzled.

"You guys are D's, right? Me too. I belong to the fourth department." He introduced himself.

"Oh, so it's a colleague." The man and woman looked at each other and smiled, "What's the matter with you?"

"I want to ask that Manager Xu you mentioned just now, is it Xu Shuyuan?"

The astonished expression of the other party has already given the answer.

"You know him?"

More than acquaintance.Fu Jia restrained her hasty tone: "We are old classmates, what happened to him?"

"He fainted from stomach bleeding downstairs in the company today. As far as the Hong Kong Exchange is concerned, you know. At that time, not only us, but even the people in the restaurant were so scared that they thought it was food poisoning."

Probably wanted to ease the atmosphere, so the other party made a joke.Eyes moved to his face, but the colleague who took the initiative to strike up a conversation didn't have a smile on his face, and the blood faded under the light.

"what happened to you?"

Fu Jia waved his hand.

It turned out that the person who had an accident in the restaurant was Xu Shuyuan.

The steps outside were dark, and Fu Jia staggered after walking a few steps. Fortunately, the colleague behind helped him: "Hey, watch the road."

"Thank you, I... I'm in a hurry to leave first."

The two were still muttering after walking away: "I guess they must have some kind of illness. They seem to be in a daze."

After running back to the first floor, Fu Jia realized that he forgot to ask about something important just now.Where is Xu Shuyuan?Asking the information desk failed, he simply searched layer by layer, and was extremely anxious when he reached the top floor.

The upper part is divided into the west area and the east area. Fu's mother is in the west area, and the east area is the general ward.The name was displayed on the electronic screen at the door, and he stopped suddenly when he saw a familiar name.

——There seems to be a doctor's voice inside.

"During this period of time, remember not to smoke or drink, and not to be overworked. You are as old as my son, how did you make your body like this? You have to take care of it, take good care of it, and there is nothing to say if it gets worse. The only way is to have surgery. .”

He couldn't hear the answer, maybe Xu Shuyuan didn't speak.

Fu Jia's heart was constricting outside the door. The doctor opened the door and walked out. Seeing him standing there like lost soul, he asked, "Are you here to visit?"

He hurriedly regained his senses and followed the doctor: "Doctor, how is the patient inside?"

The other party glanced at him flatly: "Who are you?"

"Friend." He said with difficulty.

"Huh, acute gastric bleeding, long-term diet and staying up late. The living habits of young people nowadays are worse than the next. They work overtime and are desperate. If the body is ruined, who will spend so much money? It's really a pick-up. Sesame lost watermelon..."

Fu Jia couldn't hear a word of what was said later.He stayed where he was, while the white coat in front of him moved further and further away, and his voice gradually faded away.

During the day at the restaurant, Xu Shuyuan was clearly not feeling well, so why didn't he ask more questions?

For a moment, Fu Jia's mind went blank, and then he felt severe heart palpitations and regret.It's always been like this, I've always been like this only for my own feelings.If he had been willing to talk to him well and not quarrel with him, maybe he wouldn't...

Back outside the ward, there was a slight coughing sound from inside.Fu Jia's white nails were clenched in his palms, and he didn't feel the pain until he heard the sound of the bed frame.

Pushing open the door, I saw Xu Shuyuan standing up, moving very slowly, with the infusion tube still tied in his hand.Fu Jia was stunned for a moment and walked over quickly: "What do you want? I'll get it for you."

The body pushing the infusion stand stiffened suddenly, Xu Shuyuan turned around, frowning.Fu Jia took a breath, seeing his pale face and blood-stained lips, couldn't stop feeling sad.

"Why didn't you tell me when you were sick?"

"A little illness, there is no need to mobilize people."

"Does it have stomach bleeding or is it a minor illness? The doctor said that if it gets worse, it will be operated on. I heard everything."

"Yeah." He hummed nonchalantly, and sat on the edge of the bed.

This silence was like an order to evict a guest, and his meaning was obvious: why don't you leave.

Fu Jia didn't move: "You don't have anything to say to me?"

"What?"

Xu Shuyuan lowered his head and picked up the mobile phone next to the pillow, and replied to the email.

Fu Jia was taken aback for a moment, and stepped forward to stop him: "You're still working."

Xu Shuyuan raised his head and looked at him, his eyes seemed to ask him why he was nosy again.Fu Jia turned her head and saw the laptop next to her. For a while, she didn't know whether to be angry or what to do.

"Are you determined to destroy your body? If you continue like this, something will happen."

"I have a sense of proportion." He said lightly.

"A person with sense of proportion will not let his stomach bleed." Fu Jia moved closer, "Take a good rest for a few days, and leave the affairs of the institute alone. If not, I will ask for leave for you."

Xu Shuyuan held the edge of the bed tightly with his hands, and frowned even tighter.Fu Jia was afraid that he would be uncomfortable, and wanted to help him but was blocked.

Even though they were standing so close, there seemed to be an additional barrier between them, and they could no longer be innocent.

Xu Shuyuan leaned on the bed as straight as possible, looked at Fu Jia with no warmth, and hid his emotions deeply: "Did you forget that we have broken up, I don't need to listen to you in everything. Like this over and over again Looking for me in three places will make me misunderstand, make me think that you still have feelings for me, and you will never forget me."

There was a slight humiliation in his tone.

Fu Jia's eyes trembled slightly, and he looked away: "I just want to care about you."

"Thank you for your concern, but I don't need it for now."

Fu Jia clenched her lips tightly and didn't say anything for a while, until she felt pain in her lower lip before she let go: "Do you have to speak to me in this tone?"

Xu Shuyuan raised his eyes: "Then tell me, which tone should I use to speak to you."

"I--"

Heart tingling, Fu Jia could only change the subject: "Who will take care of you these few days."

Xu Shuyuan didn't answer, Fu Jia raised his eyes to look at him, and suddenly had a bad guess.

"Are you planning to leave the hospital?"

Xu Shuyuan remained silent.

"Are you crazy? It's a joke to be discharged from the hospital? Hurry up and leave in case something happens—"

Xu Shuyuan raised his eyes and looked at him quietly.

"In case something happens..." Fu Jia choked for a moment, fearing that he would be displeased, so he said it differently, "It will be very troublesome."

"What's the trouble, I'm responsible for anything that happens."

Fu Jia didn't dare to contemplate how many layers of meaning this sentence contained, but just felt distressed.He was hospitalized with stomach bleeding, but at night there was no one to take care of him, and no family members even came to ask about the situation.

His eyes fell on the back of his hand, the needle sticking in the blue blood vessel was particularly conspicuous.The same is true on the face, so thin that the cheekbones protrude.

Xu Shu was not like this in the past, he was skinny, but he was in good shape.When lying together at night, he often hugs himself. His arms are the safest place in the world.His eyes are always very bright, his lips are very thin, and occasionally he speaks a sentence or two so sharply that even his eloquent self would be willing to bow down.

"Will Miss Jing come over?"

"I didn't tell her," Xu Shuyuan said in a bad tone, "you don't have to tell her either."

"But--"

"There's nothing wrong with it. I can handle my own affairs, so go away and don't come to me again. I've made it very clear."

Such an attitude of rejecting people thousands of miles away.Fu Jia pursed her lower lip, she didn't have the courage to speak out the confession in her heart.

—I still have feelings for you.

No, I can't say that. It should be said that my feelings for you have never diminished, but instead become more and more day by day.Shuyuan, I still like you very much, but I also know that I don't deserve to be with you anymore.

After being quiet, Fu Jia said: "I'll take care of you these few days, and I'll pay you back what I owe you."

Xu Shuyuan frowned, with puzzled eyes: "What do you care about me? We're done."

His tone was very strange, not angry, but rather decadent.I don't know if it's because his body still hurts, so his back is always slightly arched, and his voice is also very hoarse.

This moment seemed to return to that night when the two of them called.He said: Fu Jia, take back your vague good intentions, either stay with me, or make me forget you completely.

In Xu Shuyuan's emotional world, there is no vague word, if you can't be a lover, you can only be a stranger, there is no middle option.

Fu Jia was tongue-tied, and said after a long time: "It's over, I'm just a little bit reluctant."

This is the second time he wishes to turn back time, the last time was his birthday.His eyes were wet when he raised his head, and his voice became choked with sobs: "Xu Shuyuan, you are right, I have always been selfish and self-willed. When I like you, I insist on being with you, and when I am forced by my parents, I immediately separate from you. Never caring about your feelings. You hate me, don't you? I hate myself, too."

Xu Shuyuan turned his gaze away: "You go, it's meaningless to say these things."

It really doesn't make sense.Fu Jia wiped her face and said softly that you should have a good rest.

When he walked to the door, he turned his head: "If one day I become better, will you accept me?"

"What do you think?" Xu Shuyuan asked back, "I have many choices, why not choose a fresher one."

Fu Jia nodded and murmured: "I understand."

After the door was closed, the ward was silent again, and Xu Shuyuan lay flat on the bed.Hurting Fu Jia did not give him the slightest pleasure, but instead he felt confused.Eyes open, eyes focused on a certain point on the ceiling, everything was like the night in the hospital four years ago.

Their cat lay quietly in the cardboard box and never came to hug him again.That night he needed to hear Fu Jia say something, even if it was just a goodbye, but unfortunately Fu Jia's phone number had already been blocked.

Pinning all your happiness on another person is, in the final analysis, very sad, and when he is gone, you have nothing.

Why make yourself so miserable?People should learn to stop losses in time.