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"Don't hang up! I haven't finished talking yet, can you stop hanging up?"

Fu Jia squeezed the receiver tightly, and stood in the phone booth without daring to move, only keeping her eyes on the person not far away.

"What are you talking about?" Xu Shuyuan was silent for a while before responding.

"I'm sorry Xu Shuyuan, I'm sorry, I was wrong about what happened that day, I shouldn't have said that, I shouldn't have quarreled with you, I was wrong."

Fu Jia had been suppressing his emotions at first, but as he spoke, something still collided in his chest, and water vapor slowly gathered in his eyes.

Xu Shuyuan took a deep breath: "Is there anything else?"

Fu Jia didn't answer.

"No I hang up."

"Wait!" Fu Jia shouted anxiously, "Don't hang up, I only have one coin..."

"What do you mean?"

"I—" Just as I was about to explain, I wondered if the voice was too loud just now, so Xu Shuyuan looked over here.When Fu Jia got nervous, the receiver fell and slammed on the table where things were placed.

Following the faint light, Xu Shuyuan glanced at the phone booth, his eyes tightened imperceptibly, and he turned to leave immediately.

Fu Jia hurriedly put back the receiver, picked up the things and ran out: "Xu Shuyuan!"

"You wait for my book!"

The computer and mouse in the backpack were bumping around, and he ran wildly, trying to stop him before he entered the building.

The lights on the first floor of the inpatient building shone brightly, and Xu Shuyuan looked at him like an iceberg against the light.

Fu Jia was out of breath: "Shu... Shuyuan, can you listen to what I have to say?"

Xu Shuyuan watched quietly without much reaction.

"I've thought about it in the past few days, really! I understand where I went wrong. I made a big mistake. Shuyuan, you, you have a big heart. You can pull a boat in your belly, the prime minister. Don't be as knowledgeable as me, okay?"

His word order was chaotic, Xu Shuyuan watched coldly.

"I know I shouldn't do that. I don't care who you celebrate your birthday with, let alone say you're trying to please others. That's not my truth, I just——I'm just angry for a moment, and I don't choose what to say..."

Gradually, the nasal voice became thicker, and the head was lowered, wishing to show Xu Shuyuan his heart, to prove that he really knew that he was wrong.

But Xu Shuyuan still didn't respond.

He turned and walked out, Fu Jia thought he was going home and was trying to catch up, but in the end he just snuffed out the cigarette and threw it into the trash can.

"Finished?"

The hospital at night was terribly cold, so cold that Fu Jia wanted to shiver.He had to reach out and hold Xu Shuyuan's arm, hoping to get a little comfort.

"Let go, don't get so close to me." Xu Shuyuan frowned and pulled him away unhappily.Being avoided like this, he felt panic and fear in his heart, always feeling like strangers to each other.

I suddenly realized how afraid I was of losing Xu Shuyuan. I couldn't eat or sleep these days, not because I lost a friend, but because...

Xu Shuyuan turned and went upstairs, and Fu Jia followed at a distance.Xu Shuyuan went to the water room and bathroom, and he never left.In the end, Xu Shuyuan was forced to ask him impatiently, "What do you really want?"

The tone of this sentence was very bad, it pierced into Fu Jia's heart like a knife, Fu Jia's eyes turned red immediately, his lips parted, he couldn't say a word, he just stood there stupidly.

Grandma Xu Shuyuan was planning to go home after reading it, but Fu Jia called him again when she went downstairs, and almost fell on the stairs: "Shuyuan."

This time Xu Shuyuan was completely angry, and warned in a low voice: "I apologize, can you stop following me? Why can't I get rid of you."

Fu Jia's nose was sour, and she took a deep breath: "But you won't forgive me."

"Why do I have to forgive?" Xu Shuyuan turned his gaze, let out a breath, "It was before, and it is now, why should I always tolerate you unconditionally? Fu Jia, I am also a living person, you can't blindly ask me I ask for it."

After hearing this sentence, Fu Jia was completely stunned.

Are you blindly asking for it?Perhaps yes, from before to now, he has done so many excessive things, and even made Shuyuan deaf in his right ear, but he forgave them all.

Walk out of the hospital and take a taxi, and the taxi stops immediately after waving.

Xu Shuyuan slammed the door shut, but before Fu Jia got in the car, he patted the door lightly twice.The driver turned his head: "Together?"

Xu Shuyuan looked worried: "Drive."

"This……"

The driver hesitated to start the car, afraid of scratching others, Fu Jia's body was pressed against the car door.

After a long stalemate, Xu Shuyuan finally turned his face away, his face was terribly gloomy.Fu Jiala opened the door and sat next to him, not daring to say a word, for fear of making him even more angry.

But no matter what, does this count as room for change?

There was another glimmer of hope in Fu Jia's heart.

At the door of the house, Xu Shuyuan couldn't find the key, so Fu Jia quickly took out his own, "Use mine."

Xu Shuyuan glanced at him and remained silent.

Opening the door, Fu Jia was about to step forward, Xu Shuyuan turned his head and frowned: "Are you still going in?"

"I..." Fu Jia hesitated to speak.

"If you have anything to say, just finish it here, don't be muddled."

He didn't want to leave but didn't dare to enter, he stood where he was and didn't move.After a stalemate for a while, Xu Shuyuan went straight to Fu Jia's room without even turning on the light.

The house was pitch dark, hearing the sound of opening and closing the door, Fu Jia became more and more at a loss.

I always feel that Xu Shuyuan left him here to wait for some kind of trial.

Soon he came back with a shopping bag in his hand: "Here are the trousers and shirt you gave me. They have been dry-cleaned. Take them away."

Fu Jia was startled, and looked at him with wide eyes: "What?"

Xu Shuyuan's eyes were heavy, and his voice was also very low: "I'm not the same kind of person as you. We are destined not to be friends. I was dreaming before."

I have never heard him say such a thing before, he is cold and straightforward, as if he has recognized some reality.Fu Jia looked up at him: "We have always been friends, why do you say we are not the same kind of people?"

Xu Shuyuan didn't explain, took out his phone again, and tapped it a few times.The cold light from the screen shone on his face, his outline was stiff, and there was a distance between his brows and eyes.

With a buzzing sound, Fu Jia's phone vibrated.

"I'll transfer the money to you." Xu Shuyuan said.

"what money?"

"Look for a nurse and change the ward." He put away his phone, "It's not that I can't afford the money, but I'm just used to saving as much as I can. Of course it's not the case for you. You can enjoy it as long as you can, without any worries and concerns." Annoyance. Now do you understand why I said we are not the same kind of people. "

These words were too sharp, Fu Jia's nerves were torn by someone, before he could react at first, he felt the pain slowly after a while.

For a moment he looked at Xu Shuyuan helplessly, Xu Shuyuan didn't want to procrastinate any longer, and said, "You can go, and we will try not to meet again in the future."

Just as he was about to close the door, Fu Jia took a sudden step forward and hugged his waist tightly, with such force that he almost knocked him down.

"Don't miss me, Xu Shuyuan..."

The words almost blurted out, completely subconsciously.

Fu Jia hugged him tightly, like holding a treasure that would be lost if she let go.Xu Shuyuan frowned and wanted to push him away, but his arms on both sides were tightened even more, and he buried his head on his chest and murmured hoarsely: "It's not that I don't have troubles, I have a big trouble now, do you know that?"

There is one person who will make me pay special attention, and I will be led by his nose.Miss you when you can't see, get angry when you are in a cold war, and feel uncomfortable when you break up.

"I'm not interested in your business, let me go."

Xu Shuyuan cruelly broke the hand behind him, but Fu Jia was not afraid of pain at all, and clasped his fingers even harder: "Do you still like me?"

The body in his arms suddenly stopped.

The light in the corridor was dim, Fu Jia raised his head, and there was a glint in his eyes: "If you like me, we will be together."

It was only because of this that he saw his own heart clearly. Between being a stranger and being a lover, he only wanted to choose the latter.

"Together," Xu Shuyuan repeated these three words after a while, "Have you thought it through?"

"Actually, I didn't think about it very clearly." Fu Jia forced himself to calm down, clenched his hands tightly, and looked away lightly, "But I like you too, I know that."

A few days ago he could not have imagined himself saying such a thing, but now he said it willingly.He only has a vague idea of ​​what he will face after being together, but he can't hide the feeling of liking someone.He wants to try it, even if it's temporarily hormones.

The two remained silent for a few seconds, neither of them spoke first.There were sporadic footsteps downstairs, I don't know if they were passing by or going upstairs, Fu Jia still hugged each other and dared not let go: "I've said it so directly, didn't you show any sign?"

Xu Shuyuan's body stiffened for a moment, and he pulled his hand away as if in compromise.

Just like this, they walked into the room one after the other, and the moonlight penetrated thinly into the first floor, creating an ambiguous atmosphere.Xu Shuyuan closed the door tightly and locked it, Fu Jiaqiang pretended to be calm.

It's a pity that the light came on in the next second, and what I imagined didn't happen. I really don't know whether to be grateful or disappointed.

As Xu Shuyuan approached, Fu Jia leaned against the door, with his hands behind his back, and his fingertips lightly rubbed against the rough door paint.

"Did I hear wrong just now?" Xu Shuyuan asked, "You said you liked me."

His eyes were burning, like a microscope, observing every detail of Fu Jia's expression.Fu Jia looked away and looked at his shoulder: "Do you need me to say it again?"

Xu Shuyuan took a deep breath.

Before he could open his mouth, Fu Jia said, "I like you, should we be together?"

After speaking, his cheeks were flushed and his throat was dry, but his heart felt instantly at ease.

Xu Shuyuan didn't speak for a long time, and Fu Jia was a little nervous again, raised his eyelashes and fluttered a few times, pretending to be pitiful: "This is the first time I confess my love to someone, you can't say no, if you refuse me, I'll—" "

He was answered with a long kiss.

The two leaned against the door, Xu Shuyuan pinched his chin and kissed him very intently.Fu Jia leaned back, her waist was numb, and her ears were extremely itchy, because the wet voice was infinitely amplified by the silence.

This time he didn't want to push Xu Shuyuan away anymore.

Xu Shuyuan was still willing to kiss him and hug him, he felt very lucky.

It turns out that liking someone is like this, sometimes happy and sometimes sad, emotions are like riding a roller coaster, and the heart is often overloaded.

Fu Jia opened her mouth slightly, felt the dexterous tongue slipping in, felt the fingers on her chin being hardened, felt her lower back being supported by a hand, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and finally closed her eyes.

Like is like this, impulsive, regardless of the consequences.Even if there will be sorrow and sadness in the future, the joy of this second is worth indulging in.