desolate

That night, Zhou Ze had a long dream.

The quality of his sleep was not very good, so he dreamed a lot, but different from the weird and bizarre dreams in the past, this time he dreamed of his eight-year-old self. Although he didn't want to recall those, the dream couldn't help but let him decide, and it took him back to the past.

He seemed to see himself as a child.

Zhou Ze lived in Pingjiang until he was eight years old, and his grandmother who raised him was dumb, and she tried her best to take good care of him.He hadn't seen the photos of that time, so he thought he had forgotten many things long ago, but unexpectedly, he remembered them completely in this dream.

He floated in the air, watching his young self leading a group of little kids running very fast.

Did you ever laugh so happily?

At that time, Zhou Haiyang would occasionally go back to the old house to live for a while, and when he thought of it, he took his little Zhou to choose to carve stones.

It's also interesting.

Such days lasted until the summer when he was eight years old. It was strange. After such a long time, he still remembered that it was extremely hot that day, and he could feel the heat and glaring on the top of his head in his dreams.

Among the noisy cicadas, he heard Ma Wenjing's voice for the first time.

The woman with a cold face hugged him briefly, and then disregarded his wishes and threw away the carving knife and stone in the luggage. Not long after that, he was dragged to another strange city.

The days since then have been difficult day after day.

He is no longer a child who grew up in the mud, he has become polite and gentle, with excellent grades, everything seems to be getting better, except for the occasional anxiety that occurs in the middle of the night, like threads on clothes, not enough to care about or ignore .

The dream is interrupted by an outside touch.

Zhou Ze opened his eyes in confusion, and found that it was already very bright outside the window, and Pei Ye was standing by the bed, with something extra on his wrist.

"Stop throwing around."

Pei also whispered to him.

Zhou Ze raised his arm and let the tassels on the bracelet hang down.

...The bracelet that I deliberately hid was found again.

And the self that he deliberately hid was also discovered.

"what time is it?"

"It's time for lunch." Pei also opened the curtains, and the dust in the sunlight was disturbed and flew around. "You slept for eleven hours."

Zhou Ze covered his head and sat up: "Well, I had a dream."

"What did you dream about?"

"I dreamed of when I was a child." Zhou Ze said dryly, "No one would play with me."

Pei also laughed lowly: "How could that be?"

Zhou Ze got up from the bed, and the two stood facing each other. They couldn't tell who was taller, but if you had to compare, you could see that Pei Ye was bigger than him, with wider shoulders, thicker back and darker skin.

"To be honest, I was really isolated when I was a child. I still remember that when I changed seats, they didn't want to sit at the same table as me."

In the year he transferred to Seoul, he always sat in the last row, the last one.

After Zhou Ze took a simple wash, he unpacked a bag of bread, nestled on the sofa, and gnawed.

"Now there are many people who want to sit at the same table with you." Pei also brought the hot dishes.

"They only paid attention to my homework." Zhou Ze said, picked up two chopsticks of food, and looked at Pei Ye while eating, "Wow, so virtuous."

Pei Yebai said, "I really know how to praise people."

After eating a piece of bread, Zhou Ze was already full and had nothing to do, so he half-lyed on the sofa with a pillow in his arms, watching Pei Ye clean up the leftover food.

"You're gone, what are you going to do here?"

Pei Ye didn't stop moving, but he replied quickly: "The mahjong hall has been sold, and this house should also be sold."

Zhou Ze seemed dissatisfied with the answer, and asked again: "What about Aunt Su?"

Pei also said, "She? I guess she's going to marry that man."

"Does she agree with you to leave?"

"I go out to work and give her money every month, why don't I want to."

Su Ya is now fully focused on that man and her future stepdaughter, and has not thought of him, his legal son, for a long time.

He thinks this is also very good.

Zhou Ze rested his chin on the pillow and looked at him sideways: "Then where are you going?"

Pei also truthfully said: "I don't know yet."

At this time, someone knocked on the door outside, interrupting the chat between the two.

Pei also went to answer the door.

Because the sofa was too far back, Zhou Zegao raised his head and didn't see the person at the door clearly. He could only tell it was a woman from the red coat and exaggerated long curly hair.

As soon as Pei Ye saw the man, he planned to close the door without hesitation, and he didn't stop until the woman hurriedly said something.

"You really want to help me?" Pei Ye said.

The other party thought there was hope, and immediately gave an affirmative answer.

But Pei Ye's next sentence made her unable to step down again.

"If the match is successful, I want [-]."

"..."

"Can't get it out? Then there's nothing else to say."

Pei Ye ruthlessly drove the woman away, then closed the door with a "bang", and turned around with a gloomy expression on his face.

When he approached, Zhou Ze asked, "Who is it?"

Pei also cleaned up the dishes on the table: "My mother's younger sister."

Zhou Ze felt strange: "Didn't you grow up in an orphanage?"

The faucet was turned on to the maximum, and it kept flushing down until the water splashed out of the sink, and Pei Ye raised his hand to turn it down a little.

"Yeah, she came out of nowhere and said that I could save his son's life and let me donate a kidney." Pei also rolled up his sleeves, and the blue veins on his arm were clearly visible, winding upwards, " He also showed me a picture of my dad, who looks quite similar to me, but unfortunately he has sons and daughters, a happy family, my mother had a one-night stand with him, gave birth to me secretly, and died not long after."

After he spoke, there was no expression on his face.

"...It's still alive."

Zhou Ze made such an angry remark.

Pei was also amused, and echoed, "Yes, I thought he was dead a long time ago."

"Then does he know you?"

"……Know."

After that, the two of them didn't talk about Pei Ye's family anymore, as if as long as they didn't mention it, these people never appeared.

Life goes on as usual.

On Monday morning, the two set off from home to school together.

For the past two days, Zhou Ze lived in Pei Ye's house - he was like a temporary tenant, and he didn't spend any money - and although the two lived in the same room, they didn't even speak a few words. Pei also went to work in a car dealership, and Zhou chose to work part-time at an Internet cafe at night.

But this didn't affect Zhou Ze's happy life there.

"Why did you come to class today?"

"The car dealership is being renovated, and it's a holiday."

The two walked into the classroom one after the other. Originally, they were only a punch away, but they were rushed away by the slapstick students.

Zhou Ze originally wanted to ask him whether he would participate in the sports meeting on Thursday, but in a blink of an eye, Pei was pulled away by Xu Duozhi, and the words on his lips were swallowed.

As soon as he sat down, Wen Jialang turned his head and glanced at him.

"Haven't you slept well recently? The dark circles under your eyes are heavy."

Zhou Ze took two drops of eye drops and said, "Maybe it's because he went to bed late these two days." He would work part-time at an Internet cafe all night on weekends, and once or twice, dark circles appeared under his eyes.

Wen Jialang didn't ask any further questions, but turned to talk about another matter.

"By the way, you haven't met Ju Haonan in the past two days, have you?"

"No ah."

To be honest, Zhou Ze almost forgot about this person if he didn't mention it.

"Some time ago, something happened to the place he watched, so he didn't walk around the street." Wen Jialang said mysteriously, "But the rumors have passed these days, and he may come back to find trouble."

He didn't know that this matter had been settled by Pei Ye.

So Zhou Ze didn't feel too relieved after listening to it, and passed it after a few sentences.

At the back of the classroom, Pei Ye was pestered by Xu Dazhi, who didn't know what he was talking about. The papers issued last week were piled up on the table, and he listened to Xu Dazhi's beeping while tidying up.

Occasionally show an impatient expression.

Unlike when he was working part-time, Zhou Ze could only associate him with his age by sitting in the classroom.He should sit here clean and tidy instead of being disheartened every day for money.

Not long after, Pei Ye finally got annoyed, and he didn't want to listen to Xu Dazhi's nonsense anymore, so he got up and walked out from the back door of the classroom.

"Zhou Ze, Director Yan asked you to go to the office."

Here, Qin Yan was like a trumpet early in the morning.

"What's the matter?" Zhou Ze asked.

But Qin Yan just shook her head, saying that she didn't know.

He had no choice but to give up and honestly went to the dean's office.

As soon as he walked to the door, the middle-aged director stared straight at him, and after two seconds, he waved to him.

"Come here, I have something to ask you."

Zhou Ze took two steps closer: "What do you want?"

Director Yan raised his eyebrows horizontally: "I heard that you share a dormitory with Li Pingan?"

"……Um."

"Then you should have heard about that incident?" Director Yan's tone was a bit awkward, as if he didn't know which wording to use was more appropriate, "However, it is still uncertain about this matter. I also want to ask you, has he...affected you? For example, in life...study..."

Zhou Ze shook his head: "No."

"Then you live in the same dormitory with him, do you feel..."

He didn't say another word, but Zhou Ze knew what he meant.

"...I don't mind." Zhou Ze still didn't think too much, and said his thoughts.

Seeing his resolute attitude, Director Yan couldn't ask him to change the dormitory anymore, so he had to tell him to leave after a few words.

However, as soon as he left the office, Zhou Ze saw Li Pingan in the crowd.He didn't think much, followed up, intending to say hello to him.But when he called his name twice in a row, Li Pingan seemed to be unresponsive.

Zhou Ze felt that something was wrong, so he followed along.

"What are you doing here?"

As soon as he reached the sixth floor, Zhou Ze bumped into a person at the corner of the stairs.

Before he could see the other person's face clearly, he smelled a fresh smell of tobacco.

"I..." Zhou Ze looked at Pei Ye firmly, "I have something to do."

"What's the matter?" Pei also looked at him.

Zhou Ze hesitated for two seconds, a little at a loss, and finally decided not to say anything.

Because he was not sure what Pei Ye thought of Li Pingan.

Could it be disgust?

"Someone is going to jump off the building!"

While the two were silent, someone yelled downstairs.

The news spread like wildfire, blowing through the entire school like a gust of wind, and people in the classroom ran out to watch, in a mess.

Zhou Ze's first reaction when he heard the news was to look at the stairs leading to the rooftop.

He ran to the door, but couldn't move forward: "It's locked..."

After Pei Ye finished speaking, he looked around and suddenly turned and left.

"Where are you going?" Zhou Ze asked.

The other party did not answer him.

But not long after, at most a minute or two, Pei came back with a fire axe.

"Get out of the way."

He gently pushed Zhou Ze aside.

The fire-fighting ax swung high and slashed down.

The sawdust flew to Zhou Ze's hands, and the dilapidated wooden door was quickly broken open, with the old-fashioned bolt hanging pitifully on the door frame.

The sun at seven or eight o'clock in the morning is the mildest time of the day. It is different from the dying beauty at dusk. It is bright but not aggressive. Li Pingan stands under such a sun, looking at the crowd at his feet.

When Zhou Ze stepped onto the roof, he sensed it sensitively, turned his head, and moved his feet a little further outside the roof.

"Don't be impulsive."

This was the first sentence that Zhou Ze said to him, but in exchange for it was Li Ping'an's silence.

Zhou Ze took another step closer to him, hesitated for a moment, and said to him again: "It's okay, it's okay, I'm the same as you, I can understand, I just like men, what's the big deal..."

He stared at Li Pingan intently.

——You can’t die, if you die, will it be the same for me?

It seems that by changing this person, he will be able to get rid of the fear deep in his heart.

Li Pingan glanced at him as if touched, but quickly shook his head.

At this time, several teachers were late.

But they didn't have time to say anything.

In the next second, the surrounding students all let out an exclamation in unison.

The author says:

Yeah, it's updated, the second update this week, if nothing else, it may be the update frequency of Zhou Wan (Chapter [-] to [-]) in the future~