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Yan Ge stayed where he was, without saying a word.

Jin Siyan cleaned up the mess, looked up at him, and leaned slightly, with an imperceptible force, "Yan Ge, have you forgotten...you drank last night, but I didn't drink a drop."

Suddenly he opened his eyes wide and stared blankly at the man in front of him who was smiling inexplicably. Yan Ge opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything.

Pretending to be annoyed, Jin Siyan smiled, looked at Yan Ge's embarrassed expression, and started talking nonsense, "I thought they were all grown-ups, at least it's what you want..."

Hearing the words "You love me", Yan Ge was taken aback for a moment, then raised his eyes to look at him in astonishment.

Jin Siyan's expression remained the same, calm and breezy, "But I didn't expect you to say that you regretted it."

"I……"

"Do you think it's over after an apology?" Jin Siyan raised his eyebrows lazily, and stared at him leisurely, "I don't want to hear your apology."

"..."

Jin Siyan leaned over and got closer, with a low smile in his voice, but his face was still a little cold, he said slowly, "I want you... yes, I, responsible, responsible" .”

"...?!"

Yan Ge almost fell off the chair.

Jin Siyan continued to pretend, "If you are not responsible, I will sue you."

Yan Ge: ...

Not knowing what he meant, Yan Ge didn't make a sound, looked at him hesitantly, clenched his fist unconsciously, and then slowly released it, and so on.

The man's complexion did not improve as expected, Jin Siyan was slightly startled, hesitated for a moment, and was a little uncertain, "I... I was joking, you should be able to hear it, right?"

He won't really go to the court to sue him. Yan Ge shouldn't take this kind of nonsense, right? !

Yan Ge lowered his eyes, frowned slightly, pressed the tip of his tongue against his mouth, and asked in a low voice, "Which sentence?"

Which sentence is a joke?

Do you like me?Make him responsible?Or sue him?

Staring at the man's dodging eyes, Jin Siyan thought about it, licked his lips, thought for a moment, and said seriously, "I didn't want to sue you, really."

"...Oh." Yan Ge nodded in a daze, and hearing that he didn't say anything else, it seemed that the sentence "I wish you" seemed to be... the truth.

After a slight pause, Yan Ge's pupils trembled slightly, and he bit the tip of his tongue uncomfortably, with his fingertips resting on his palm, which was a little unreal.

Before he could think too much, he heard Jin Siyan add slowly, "What happened last night, whether you feel it or not, anyway, I am willing."

"..."

"Since you regret it, you don't want to be responsible to me." Jin Siyan sat up straighter, looked at him with a tilted head, and smiled gently, "Why don't I take responsibility?"

"..."

Yan Ge was completely stunned, what Jin Siyan said made him a little unexpected, staring blankly at the smiling man in front of him, Yan Ge's breathing stopped for an instant.

Jin Siyan looked at him quietly, with no emotion on his face, and after a while, he still said a little jerky, "...Say something."

"……say what."

Yan Ge still didn't understand what this person meant, his heart hurt a little, but he didn't slow down at all, his mind was like a muddle, and he couldn't think of anything.

An insignificant, incomparably tiny thought flashed through his mind, but was quickly denied.

Yan Ge suppressed his rapid breathing and dared not say a word, there was a dead silence in his ears, for fear of missing any movement.

Jin Siyan was silent for a moment, his voice faded from the joke, and he was about to say something when he changed the subject, "...can you raise your head, I want to watch you speak."

The hands on his knees were slowly released, Yan Ge took a breath, and couldn't help sighing slightly in his heart, but followed his wishes, slowly raised his eyes, and looked at him hesitantly.

Jin Siyan's face remained the same, without any emotion, but he stared straight at him, his eyes remained unchanged, deep and indescribably gentle.

After a moment of stagnation, Yan Ge looked at him, suddenly a little nervous.

"Yan Ge." Jin Siyan called him.

After recovering, Yan Ge quickly nodded, "En."

"Do you know what I just said?" Jin Siyan asked.

"……not very clear."

Jin Siyan paused, with a disappointed tone, "Okay."

Seeing his dim eyes, Yan Ge's heart skipped a beat, feeling uncomfortable as if being pulled, his throat was dry and hoarse, burning with fire.

After a while, the man sighed vaguely, and said very slowly, "Then let me make it clearer."

"I put down my work and traveled across six time zones to see you." Jin Siyan paused, as if he was choosing his words, "Because I think, I miss you very much."

"..."

"I understand this kind of missing as, I like you a little bit." Jin Siyan looked at him, his eyes sparkling, very attractive, he smiled, "If you want, you can also understand it in this way."

As soon as the words fell, Yan Ge's body stiffened slightly, his pupils trembled in disbelief, staring at the smiling man in front of him, his eyes fell directly on Jin Siyan's eyes for the first time, as if he wanted to find some clues, so Prove that he is not lying to himself.

Yan Ge's heart was about to jump out, his brain was running fast, his face was a little hot, and suddenly he remembered something, and suddenly paled, his thin lips were bloodless, trembling slightly.

"You..." Yan Ge opened his mouth, but he was a little flustered, "You, no... If it's because of what happened yesterday, you don't have to do this, really, it has nothing to do with you... You don't have to take any responsibility, really of……"

After finally hearing him open his mouth, it was such an answer, Jin Siyan was a little startled, and there was a bit of surprise in his eyes.

Yan Ge's face was pale, and he spoke incoherently, "It's unnecessary, it's really unnecessary... You didn't lie to me, and you didn't force me, so don't say such things..."

"Yan Ge!" Jin Siyan interrupted him, his voice was a little louder, "You raise your head and talk!"

The man was taken aback by the yelling, only then did he realize that he buried his head down again.

This time, he didn't raise his head according to Jin Siyan's intention, but still stared at the table, pursed his lips tightly, and his breathing was disordered.

Before he could say anything, his eyes blurred quickly, and when he blinked, water drops fell on the table.

Yan Ge sometimes hates it very much, hates himself for not being able to hold back tears, hates himself for being too cowardly, and looks pitiful.

He didn't want to pretend to be pitiful at all, he never expected to win other people's sympathy, but he couldn't say a few words, his tears reacted faster than his brain, and he couldn't stop it.

In acting before, the director never worried about his crying scenes. When he got emotional, he cried as if he was real, and it was very easy to arouse empathy.

How much he liked his "talent" before, but now he feels disdainful.

His vision was blurred, and Yan Ge didn't dare to wipe it, for fear that Jin Siyan would think he was pretending to be pitiful.

After a while, a tissue was stretched out in front of him, and he lifted his face, followed by the man's faint, slightly helpless voice.

"Well, I know I'm not as beautiful as Ji Guang," Jin Siyan shook his head slightly, "but you have to hold your head up when you talk to me."

After receiving the tissue, Yan Ge's eyes were still red, and he looked carefully at Jin Siyan's face, with almost forbearable desire, but he refused to confirm anything.

"I didn't want to tell you this." Jin Siyan said.

Yan Ge's heart tightened, but there was a kind of understanding in his eyes, as if he knew it a long time ago, without any surprise.

Seeing him like this, Jin Siyan licked his lower lip, "Because I think these words need a more formal occasion, not after a sloppy one-night stand."

"..."

"But I can't sit still, I want to tell you now." Jin Siyan looked at him seriously, with a sincere and sincere tone, "You don't have to doubt anything, I'm sure I know better than you what I want to express.

I actually don't need any response from you, accept or not, I just want you to know how I feel, that's all.

You don't need to feel guilty or embarrassed, you don't owe me anything, let alone think about paying me back, when I decided to tell you, I was ready to be rejected.

You don't have to worry at all, rejecting me will hurt me, because you won't hurt me, liking someone doesn't hurt people, it just makes me feel happy.

So I want you to be clear that what I tell you today is not to ask you to make a choice now, but just to let you know that I like you, that's all. "

After Jin Siyan finished speaking, he took a breath invisibly, not as calm as he looked on the surface.

Yan Ge pinched the paper he handed over, his heart was in a mess, the man's voice in his ear was gentle and deep, indescribably comfortable, as patient as teaching a child carefully.

Yan Ge found that he had never really understood Jin Siyan.

He thought that Jin Siyan was spoiled and spoiled, but it turned out not to be. He thought that he was stubborn and unrestrained by nature, and he would not take feelings seriously, but it turned out not to be.

He thought that Jin Siyan didn't know the ways of the world, was reckless like a child and didn't like to think, but in fact, Jin Siyan knew everything, he understood everything, he was even more mature than himself.

Even at this moment, Jin Siyan was able to express his liking very frankly and bravely, and patiently guided his growth when he hesitated and flinched.

Yan Ge really wanted to cry, "I didn't expect..."

Halfway through the words, the rest was choked in his throat, leaving only a shallow whimper, like a trapped animal.

He didn't expect that the person he loved at the age of 17 would meet again after such a long time, and would fall into the endless abyss again.

He even didn't expect that the person who had been hiding in his heart for nearly ten years would really give him such a response.

"You can keep thinking until you think clearly." Jin Siyan smiled, "You don't need to force yourself."

"Because if you also like me very much, no matter how long or how far away, you will come to me, so I am not in a hurry."

Jin Siyan bent his eyes, and showed a triumphant smile, but looked at him with a bit of nostalgia, "So, I just need to wait, it will be fine."

Yan Ge looked at him, unable to feel the truth as if his heart was weightless. After a long time, he nodded slightly and gave an almost inaudible "hmm".