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Jin Siyan silently looked at the person in front of him with hesitant eyes, obviously weighing the authenticity of his words.

"If you don't believe me, you can check it yourself." Xiao Limao stubbed out the cigarette butt in the washbasin, jumped off the countertop, and patted his pants, "I just think that since you are so interested in him, you should know some ugly truths. That means that Yan Ge is not as good as you think."

When talking about the ugly truth, Xiao Limao made a gesture of quotation marks and deliberately emphasized the tone, as if he was doing a very honest thing, to persuade the lost lamb to return.

however--

"Your suggestion is very pertinent, and I believe there must be truth in it." Jin Siyan frowned slightly, and casually flicked the cigarette butt between his fingers into the washbasin, "But guess what - I'm not interested in these at all. No."

Little Limao froze for a moment, then looked at him in surprise.

Jin Siyan raised his eyebrows slightly, and glanced at him meaningfully, "Thank you for wasting my time."

Back in the banquet hall, he wandered around, but couldn't find Yan Ge's person, Jin Siyan narrowed his eyes slightly, "He left first?"

"Ah, right." Xu Yue was asking someone to light a cigarette for him, and said vaguely and perfunctorily, "I just left."

Jin Siyan glanced at the director who was sitting next to him, lowered his head and felt guilty and dared not look at him, and cleared his throat warningly, "It's getting late, I'm leaving first, I'll play when I have time."

Xu Yue didn't stop him, she just leaned on the sofa and stared at Jin Siyan's back for a while through the mist.

After getting off the elevator, Jin Siyan went around to the west side of the building, walked out from the side door, and walked towards the side of the car while touching the car keys.

Looking around, he didn't see Yan Ge's person.

Take out your cell phone and call him.

I did not answer.

Hit again.

Still didn't answer.

Again……

"No need to dial."

A low and hoarse voice came from behind, with a slight tremor, Jin Siyan turned around and saw Yan Ge slowly coming out from the pillar behind him.

Holding the phone, Yan Ge hesitantly took two steps forward, then slowed down, wondering if he should continue to move forward, testing Jin Siyan's intentions.

"You run very fast," Jin Siyan looked him up and down, "The time to go to the toilet is gone."

Yan Ge didn't speak, and stared at the pebbles on the side of the road expressionlessly, without even the energy to laugh.

He is scared a lot now.

"Then shall we go back now?" Jin Siyan was silent for a moment and asked in a normal tone.

With a slightly dazed gaze, Yan Ge raised his head in a daze, and stared blankly at the person in front of him.

He... isn't he going to ask something?

He had predicted everything, what would Jin Siyan's reaction be when he heard that little Limao's words?Doubt, disgust, or rejection?

...or worse, keep him at arm's length?

Yan Ge was mentally prepared.

He hurried downstairs, but forgot that he didn't know this place at all, and he didn't know anyone here except Jin Siyan.

What's more, it's really impolite to leave people behind like this.

In such an occasion, only Jin Siyan would get rid of him first, and it is absolutely impossible for him to leave first.

However, Yan Ge didn't know how to face him.

I had no choice but to hide in the corner, hoping that Jin Siyan could drive away first, don't question him, don't doubt him, and don't look at him with pity and disgust.

Just go quietly, that's fine, even if you don't communicate with each other again in the future, you don't want to see Jin Siyan's contempt and disdain, don't... embarrass him so much.

Yan Ge had prepared the worst plan in his heart, but he never thought that it would be so calm.

"……what?"

"Ah, you don't want to go back?" Jin Siyan looked at him for a while, then asked, "Then what do you want?"

"..." Yan Ge hadn't recovered yet.

"Then why don't we go eat," Jin Siyan decided, "I just happen to be hungry too."

The car was driving on the road in silence, Yan Ge lowered his head dully, looking at the twisted fingers, watching the fingertips turn white due to his repeated exertion.

He couldn't sit still, and it was getting harder and harder to breathe.

It's too painful, this feeling.

Jin Siyan drove intently, saying that he was going to eat, but in fact Yan Ge didn't know where he was going, so he could only follow silently.

He is very disturbed.

I always feel like I am holding a time bomb in my arms, I don’t know when it will explode, and I am anxious all the way.

Jin Siyan must have known something, did Little Li Mao say anything else later?

What was he thinking?

Or, this matter sounds outrageous, so he didn't believe it?

still is……

"are you OK?"

Yan Ge was taken aback by the voice of inquiry, his shoulders trembled visibly.

"What..." Yan Ge swallowed nervously, his voice trembling.

"Is it cold?" Jin Siyan glanced at him and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, "Are you shivering?"

Yan Ge didn't speak, his fingers clutched the hem of his clothes, the cold sweat on his palms almost soaked the fabric, he lowered his eyes, looking at his toes pretending to be calm, praying in his heart that he would not notice his abnormality.

Jin Siyan stopped the car.In a small square on the top of the mountain.Here you can overlook the night view of the entire Qitang City.

But he didn't get out of the car.

Yan Ge gasped for breath, always feeling as if he was about to be out of breath, his eye sockets were extremely dry, and every time he blinked, he was worried that tears would fall.

Jin Siyan unbuckled his seat belt, paused, and then leaned over.

Turning on the lights in the car, Jin Siyan tilted his head, leaned over a little, caught off guard and leaned in front of him, startled by what he saw in front of him,

"Oh...you look like you're about to cry."

Just like when I was wronged as a child, someone else's "what's the matter" can defeat the last line of defense of the pool of tears, Yan Ge gritted his teeth and endured for so long, but was defeated by Jin Siyan's words.

Tears came out of his eyes almost instantly, and he couldn't hold them back. Yan Ge felt ashamed, and quickly wiped them with his sleeves, but he couldn't wipe them clean, so he turned sideways, buried his face deeply in his palms, and tried his best to avoid Jin Siyan's sight However, the unwillingness and fear in my heart intensified, and I felt the warm moisture in the palm of my hand, and it began to flow out along the fingers.

Like a dam with its gates turned on, Yan Ge found it difficult to breathe, his whole body was shaking from crying, he couldn't stop no matter what, and even wanted to retch.

The brain gradually became blurred due to lack of oxygen. Yan Ge started to cry silently and gradually cried out, and then wept uncontrollably. The thin cloth of his arm was soaked into a translucent layer.

Trying his best to cover his face, not wanting anyone to see it, Yan Ge was like a shrunken hedgehog, firmly grasping the last bit of fragile and pitiful self-esteem.

After a while, someone patted his shoulder lightly.

Jin Siyan didn't speak, but put his hand on the man's shoulder comfortingly, frightened by the cool temperature from his palm, he was a little dazed.

Yan Ge huddled in the corner, his mind was a little unconscious, he felt the weight on his shoulders dimly, it wasn't too hard, but it was unexpectedly reliable.

Then the man raised his hand slightly, moved it to the back of his heart, and patted it slowly.

Jin Siyan didn't say a word, only calmed down silently.

Although also very pale.

However, Jin Siyan couldn't bear to watch this person like this now, and he couldn't bear it.

In his impression, Yan Ge seldom lost his composure like this, as if nothing could overwhelm him.

It's okay to be embarrassed by the director, I'm used to it.

It's okay to be robbed by your peers, just take it if you want it.

It doesn't matter if I was classified as an understudy from the lead role by the producer, I have more experience in acting as an understudy.

Even being scolded by him, Yan Ge didn't care, saying that he had heard worse things before.

Jin Siyan even once thought that he didn't care about these at all, and that's why he was so unreasonably free, easy and indifferent.

However, he also has a sore spot, and he will be hurt.

In his ear was the man's trying to suppress the cry, hoarse, broken, with helpless despair, Jin Siyan felt a little uncomfortable for a while.

He gently stroked Yan Ge's too thin back, hoping to give him a little comfort.

Jin Siyan saw that the moment his palm touched Yan Ge's heart, the man in front of him was visibly stiff, and even his breathing stopped, as if he was stunned.

Looking at Yan Ge's slightly bent back, Jin Siyan's heart twitched suddenly, his eyes were slightly stern, and his hands on the cushion were slowly clenched.

If, among the men he had met before, they were as distressed as this man when they cried, then he would really not be stingy with his tolerance and love, and he would definitely go up and hug him.

If Yan Ge was like them, then he would really want to reach out and hold her in his arms.

At least at this moment, he thought so.

Unfortunately,

Yan Ge was never the same as those people.

It won't be the same in the future.